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i was contemplating something and i literally just thought "i know i have but have I" ...... hmm. Will process this later

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Something I do remember is during the trauma I (we?) experienced, I quite distinctly remember being... Different. Not myself. And the one who experienced that trauma is definitely not myself. So either this is an odd one-off experience, or I am in fact a system.

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....well. I have very little memory of writing this. For the record, however, I now feel far more present, though I still feel like there's something clawing at my consciousness from inside? Like I have to fight to remain me.

i can barely control my body, i feel like im being pulled into myself, i dont feel real, im not a person ehat the fuck am i why does my name feel wrong why is everything disappearing what the fuck

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i can barely control my body, i feel like im being pulled into myself, i dont feel real, im not a person ehat the fuck am i why does my name feel wrong why is everything disappearing what the fuck

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god as soon as i say something like my previous post i just fall back into thinking about all the things going on in my head... wish i was normal, but god. my ocs talking to me? telling me who they are? just... appearing in my head then leaving once ive recorded their story... that can't be normal. it's something wrong with me, whether that be a delusion/hallucination disorder or a dissociative disorder, who knows.

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yeah no i don't... i don't think i have headmates. it's lonely as hell in here, and i've not had company in years. while i do wish i were comfortable reexploring this possible side of myself, im really not at the moment. every time i think about it it just... it feels like im lying. everything happening in my head is just me, i think. im just not healthy is all

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....... nope not thinking about this right now

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saw this on pinterest and thought it might be something traumagenic systems who struggle with thinking their trauma isn't enough need to see

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a comic about my experience with other people's perception of my DID/OSDD. might do more pages in the future? we'll see.

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“Stop thinking of alters as separate people” this and “alters are each there own different entities that shouldn’t be blended” that

How about we let each system decide what feels best to them and stop policing systems that are already dealing with a very complex and varying disorder

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@maryland-officially so. hi. gonna be exploring some stuff over here ,,, rebloggimg posts i relate to etc etc etc whatever