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KILL HIM WITH ROCKS

i need to study kabru

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surprise claudine

LCB Sinner Saijo Claudine

[WAW] Magic Bullet - Saijo Claudine (Abno: Der Freischütz)

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so many of the transfems i know spent their time pre-transition performing a kind of lifelong exercise in self-deprivation. the goal, for them, was to find out exactly how little a person needed to live. they starved themselves, dressed carelessly, shunned friends, and hollowed themselves out so as not to be burdens on anyone but themselves.

i see it now, too, in the girls around me. i'll ask if they want care – a home-cooked meal, relaxed company, sex without the expectation of reciprocation – and they say no, no, thank you, i don't need it; what would you like, what do you want, because in their head they're still doing that awful calculus, still training themselves to disappear in the eyes of the people around them.

i don't think i'd have died without transition – not in the conventional sense, at least – but to take that leap, i had to stop thinking of myself as a human experiment in fuel-efficient living and start nurturing the anemic, atrophied flame of desire in my heart. i had to learn to eat well, to exercise, to style myself beautiful, but harder than that, i had to learn to ask the people around me to work on my behalf in order to enrich my life and give me the things i wanted.

and i did it; i learned. and it was agony, but courage is a muscle you can train, and every day i get better at accepting gifts with the hungry gratitude i never learned in my years and years as a sad, scared, lonely boy.

so be patient with the trans girls in your life. better than that: be proactive, attentive, generous; be forceful, if you have to, and learn to distinguish real discomfort from the terrified reflex of self-deprivation that so many of us learned to rely on.

and if you are so lucky as to love a trans girl, you must insist upon her. you must insist upon her happiness, her comfort, her pleasure, and her rest, because she may still not yet know how to make those demands for herself. if you can devote any amount of energy to becoming an engine that nurtures the flame of even a single tgirl then there is a place for you in trans heaven, which as far as i'm concerned is the only one worth going to

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War Thunder

When the communist utopia is established there won't be any war of course, but we should keep some tanks and fighter jets around so that people can do play battles and do air shows with them for sport, maybe one big space habitat just for tournaments, like those animes where the girls all drive tanks or war jets except it doesn't suck

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@yurimage

Horse girl book but it's about a middle-aged man and his forklift.

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I think modern day Duke Nukem would be a total chaser because he’d come out of whatever coma Randy ‘Greaseball’ Pitchford has him in and he’d hear about trans women and be like “Damn… they’re making new chicks… I gotta get a piece of that action.” And he’d pull his notepad (labeled ‘SHIT I GOTTA TRY’) and crayon out and write ‘TGIRL PUSSY’ directly under ‘NEW MCRIB’ and ‘CONCUSSION’

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wtf peanut butter brownies he should actually die!

also yeah I'm just the guy on the computer smh sent by the government

all my problems would be solved if i could beat my brother with a baseball bat

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of course though it;s blunt so its more of a bludgeon

also yeah you should kill him for eating brussel sprouts

all my problems would be solved if i could beat my brother with a baseball bat

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I have one!

all my problems would be solved if i could beat my brother with a baseball bat

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heart - shaped scallion found In pho . reblog for good luck & yummy soup 500000 forwver

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why didn't they just leave pompeii when the volcano erupted? were they stupid?

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@godza

i found out the giraffe had a birthday while drawing this. happy pride

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remember to pay attention to me btw. remember to pay attention and to be in love with me. btw. right now

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why are they so gay