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Messmer's cut dialogue

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Just getting to the points where I can start peppering in all the whacky sci-fi speculative biology I’ve thought up for the mers in WtTK

*rubbing my grubby little paws together*

I have a marine science education and I am going to Abuse it

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really enamored with an offhand remark i heard where folk horror was described as "pragmatic". i love that. horror that doesnt have time to waste on "but ghosts arent real! but monsters cant exist! what is happening! how can this be!". horror where you hear a howl in the distance and go to gather the wolfsbane and silver because six inch fangs ripping into your neck dont care if youre a believer or not. horror where the impossible nightmare is real because its here and, as is often the case in folk horror, it has been here much longer than you.

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Egg?

There is Something in my Rib Cage.

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You're about to close on your very own, suspiciously affordable and comfortable house. Just before you sign the contract, the realtor shows you the required legal disclosure: your new house is haunted by the type of presence you'll get from this spinner wheel.

Of course it is.

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On the issue of the ‘q slur’...

So, yesterday, I got into a rather stupid internet argument with someone who was peddling what seemed to me to be a rather insidious narrative about slur-reclamation. Someone in the ensuing notes raised a point which I thought was interesting, and worrying, and probably needed to be addressed in it’s own post. So here we go:

The word ‘queer’ itself seems to be especially touchy for many, so let me begin to address this by way of analogy.

Instead of talking about “queer”, let’s start by talking about “Jew” - a word which I believe is very similar in its usage in some significant ways.

Now, the word “Jew” has been used as a derogatory term for literally hundreds of years. It is used both as a noun (eg. “That guy ripped me off - what a dirty Jew”) and as a verb (eg. “That guy really Jew-ed me”). These usages are deeply, fundamentally, horrifically offensive, and should be used under no circumstances, ever. And yet, I myself have heard both, even as recently as this past year, even in an urban location with plenty of Jews, in a social situation where people should have known better. In short – the word “Jew”, as it is used by certain antisemites, is – quite unambiguously – a slur. Not a dead slur, not a former slur – and active, living slur that most Jews will at some point in their life encounter in a context where the term is being used to denigrate them and their religion. 

Now here’s the thing, though: I’m a Jew. I call myself a Jew. I prefer that all non-Jews call me a Jew – so do most Jews I know. “Jew” is the correct term for someone who is part of the religion of Judaism, the same way that “Muslim” is the correct term for someone who is part of the religion of Islam, and “Christian” is the correct term for someone who is part of the religion of Christianity. 

In fact, almost all of the terms that non-Jews use to avoid saying “Jew” (eg. “a member of the Jewish persuasion”, “a follower of the Jewish faith”, “coming from a Jewish family”, “identifying as part of the Jewish religion”, etc) are deeply offensive, because these terms imply to us that the speaker sees the term “Jew” (and by extension, what that term stands for) as a dirty word.

“BUT WAIT” – I hear you say – “didn’t you just say that Jew is used as a slur?!?”

Yes. Yes, I did. And also, it is fundamentally offensive not to call us that, because it is our name and our identity.

Let me back up a little bit, and bring you into the world of one of those 2000s PSAs about not using “that’s so gay”. Think of some word that is your identity – something which you consider to be a fundamental and intrinsic part of yourself. It could be “female” or “male”, or “Black” or “white”, “tall” or “short”, “Atheist” or “Mormon” or “Evangelical” – you name it.

Now imagine that people started using that term as a slur.

“What a female thing to do!” they might say. “That teacher doesn’t know anything, he’s so female!”

Or maybe, “Yikes, look at that idiot who’s driving like an atheist. It’s so embarrassing!”

Or perhaps, “Oh gross, that music is so Black, turn it off!”

Now, what would you say if the same groups of people who had been saying those things for years turned around and avoided using those words to describe anything other than an insult?

“Oh, so I see you’re a member of the female persuasion!”

“Is he… a follower of the atheist beliefs? Like does he identify as part of the community of atheist-aligned individuals?”

“So, as a Black-ish identified person yourself – excuse me, as a person who comes from a Black-ish family…”

Here’s the fundamental problem with treating all words that are used as slurs the same, without any regard for how they are used and how they developed – not all slurs are the same.

No one, and I mean no one (except maybe for a small handful of angsty teens who are deliberately making a point of being edgy) self-identifies as a kike. In contrast, essentially all Jews self-identify as Jews. And when non-Jews get weird about that identity on the grounds that “Jew is used as a slur”, despite the fact that it is the name that the Jewish community as a whole resoundingly identifies with, what they are basically saying is that they think that the slur usage is more important than the Jewish community self-identification usage. They are saying, in essence, “we think that your name should be a slur.” 

Now, at the top I said that the word “Jew” and the word “queer” had some significant similarities in terms of their usage, and I think that’s pretty apparent if you look at what people in those communities are saying about those terms. When American Jews were being actively threatened by neo-Nazis in the 70s, the slogan of choice was “For every Jew a .22!″. When the American Queer community was marching in the 90s in protest of systemic anti-queer violence, the slogan of choice was “We’re here, we’re queer, get used to it!” Clearly, these are terms that are used by the communities themselves, in reference to themselves. Clearly, these terms are more than simply slurs.

But while there are useful similarities between how the terms “Jew” and “Queer” are used by bigots and by their own communities, I’d also like to point out that there is pretty substantial and important difference:

Unlike for “queer”, there is no organized group of Jewish antisemites who are using the catchphrase “Jew is a slur!” in order to selectively silence and disenfranchise Jews who are part of minority groups within Judaism. 

This is the real rub with the term queer – no one was campaigning about it being a slur until less than a decade ago. No one was saying that you needed to warn for the word queer when queer people were establishing the academic discipline of queer studies. No one was ‘think of the children”-ing the umbrella term when queer activists were literally marching for their lives. Go back to even 2010 and the term “q slur” would have been basically unparseable – if I saw someone tag something “q slur”, like most queer people I would have wracked my brains trying to figure out what slur even started with q, and if I learned that it was supposed to be “queer”, my default assumption would be that the post was made by a well-meaning but extremely clueless straight person.

I literally remember this shift – and I remember who started it. Exclusionists didn’t like the fact that queer was an umbrella term. Terfs (or radfems as they like to be called now) didn’t like that queer history included trans history; biphobes and aphobes didn’t like that the queer community was also a community to bisexuals and asexuals. And so what could they possibly say, to drive people away from the term that was protecting the sorts of queer people that they wanted to exclude?

Well, naturally, they turned to “queer is a slur.”

And here’s the thing – queer is a slur, just like Jew is a slur, and no one is denying that. And that fact makes “queer is a slur so don’t use it” a very convincing argument on the surface: 1) queer is still often used as a slur, and 2) you shouldn’t ever use slurs without carefully tagging and warning people about them (and better yet, you should never use them at all), and so therefore 3) you need to tag for “the q slur” and you need to warn people not to call the community “the queer community” or it’s members “queer people” or its study “queer studies” – because it’s a slur!

But the crucial step that’s missing here is exactly the same one above, for the word “Jew” – and that step is that not all slurs are the same. When a term is both used as a slur and used as a self-identity term, then favoring the slur meaning instead of the identity meaning is picking the side of the slur-users over the disadvantaged group! 

If you say or tag “q slur” you are sending the message, whether you realize it or not, that people who use “queer” as a slur are more right about its meaning than those who use it as their identity. Tagging for “queer” is one thing. People can filter for “queer” if it triggers them, just like people can filter for anything else. Not everyone has to personally use the term queer, or like the term queer. But there is no circumstance where the term “q slur” does not indicate that you think queer is more of a slur than of an accurate description of a community.

If I, as a Jew, ever came across a post where someone had warned for innocent, positive, non-antisemitic content relating to Judaism with the tag “J slur”, I would be incensed. So would any Jew. The act of tagging a post “J slur” is in and of itself antisemitic and offensive.

Queer people are allowed to feel the same about “q slur”. It is not a neutral warning term – it is an attack on our identity.

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i just kinda did this in one night!!! hope yall like it! i tried and tried to look for cute cursors for them but i just have no luck....so i took matters into my own hands because who is going to stop me.

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also rb with a picture of u using it will bring much joy to me :3c

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Dawko released more news about the Daycare Attendant Hex Plushies!!

He did also make their arms longer though in their I'm guessing final design!

Their eyes also light up!!

Anyway I'm excited to see how these turned out!!

If you want to check out the video it's from here it is!

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wikipedia no longer being anywhere near the top of search results when looking up anything feels eviscerating

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reblog this if your icon could kill a man

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But first they must catch you 🏳️‍⚧️

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tell me my prof didn’t upload the reading by photocopying his kindle reader page by page

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It makes me so irrationally upset that there are people in this country that assume that I have uprooted my entire legal, social, and medical standing in some insane long con to rape women. To think that strangers think I did this to myself just to exist in a constant state of sexual excitement at the thought of using a public toilet, to prey upon children, or trick lesbians, makes me so fucking sad. I just wanted to be happy, and ran out of options.

Since I began my transition, I have lost several jobs, my home, my friends, and my girlfriend. I have been raped. I have been forced into sex work. I have slept on the street. I have been threatened with violence. I have been physically assaulted. I have been spat at, harassed, and robbed. I have been made to undress in front of male police officers. And yet, after all of that, after all the world has done to me with impunity and without consequence, still they think I am a threat to them?

After all of i have suffered, all I have endured and put up with and accepted, still I am perceived as a threat to these people. Nobody stood up for me. Nobody fought my corner. Nobody fought for my place in this world except me.

Oh, and who sexually abused me as a child? A cisgender woman. And yet still, I am the threat here somehow.

Because they see us as subhuman. I have seen the way they talk about us. They call us paedophiles and rapists, genetically programmed for explicitly sexual evil. My very existence is seen as a fetish, something I do to get off in public. They think I would endure all of this just for the sexual excitement of a cubicle in a public toilet. I keep my headphones in, my eyes down, I do my business as quickly as possible, I wash my hands, and I leave. I speak to no-one. I look at no-one. And I leave. Sounds real fucking hot.

But even that's not good enough. Nothing I do is good enough. Despite being a victim, despite my track record of being constantly abused by this world, despite never hurting anyone in my fucking life, still I am a threat somehow. My very existence is perceived as fundamentally wrong. Just simply being makes me a rapist, apparently.

So what do I do? Go back to the mens room? The last time I used a mens toilet was at the very start of my transition. A man spat in my face as i washed my hands, and I vowed to never be exposed to such cruelty again. But they see that as the just price for my existence. They think I'm a paedophile, and should be a public pariah.

My entire life, I have known I am a woman on some level. It never went away. I have known this since I could conceive of men and women as being different. Not accepting that has made me miserable. Growing up in a religious theocracy stole from me an awareness about my person that i will never get back. It has led to self harm and a constant depression and several suicide attempts, and if I didn't embrace what I am, it would have continued until I finally got good at it and ended things. And they think that is the just price for existence, and a risk that must be taken because, you know, what if I strip off my three pairs of underwear and a tuck so tight its vacuum sealed in order to flash the slowest woman in the world?

They are obsessed with our genitals. They think penises are seemingly magnetically attracted to vaginas. When I was made homeless, I was told i couldn't be housed with other women because "well, you haven't had surgery yet, have you?" I asked her where I had to go for my genital inspection, and she called me disgusting and hung up. After asking about my genitals. And despite the fact that my HRT crushed my sex drive and my ability to be spontaneous, despite the fact that I am rigorously pursuing my option to remove my ability to have children and to turn my penis into a vagina, still I am perceived as a paedophile. Because what if?

I just lost my human rights on the basis of "what if?"

I don't know what I'm supposed to do now. I really don't. My life and who I am is legally at an end. If a GRC isn't good enough, if i have no legal pathway to obtain my rights as a woman, then trans rights in this country are done. We are now a lower class of human. As a brave woman said at a protest i attended yesterday, this is now an apartheid state.

I am told that this was done because I am a threat to women. I am told that this was done for womens rights. These people tell me I couldn't possibly ever imagine the suffering that womanhood brings, and I am a misogynistic rapist if I think I can ever even approximate it. In the last few years, I have endured more than most women will in a lifetime, and yet still it is not enough. I have found joy in my womanhood, and refuse to see it as some badge of suffering, and yet still it is not enough. It will never be enough.

No amount of reasoning with these people will change them. They are fascists. There's no two ways about it. They think they can put a nice neat little box around womanhood and say everyone outside the box doesn't count. Personally, I think that anyone who puts a box around womanhood – where inside the box is fertility and white standards of beauty, and outside is everyone that doesn't live up to that standard – is a fucking fascist, but that's just me I guess. They stand shoulder to shoulder with nazis, and scream slurs and threats of systemic eradication alongside them. They gladly let nazis attend their rallies, gladly offer them a platform. What's the old adage? If you have a bar with one nazi in it and nobody kicks him out, you have a nazi bar? These people are fascists.

And now every woman who isn't traditionally feminine, every woman who doesn't live up to white standards of beauty, every woman with a vulva that bulges slightly, has a strong jawline, or a deep voice, or PCOS that causes facial hair, or a thin hairline, or long legs or broad shoulders, every single one will now have to prove she was born "biologically female" just to use a toilet in peace. Even if they were right, and that I am a threat to women, isn't a world where every single woman is constantly transvestigated and scrutinised and expected to live up to a certain beauty standard in order to use the toilet in peace a worse world to live in than the one we currently inhabit? Is this what they want?

I just wanted to be happy.

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he's done!!

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fnaf sb art dump. i still love it despite the game bein buggy n shitty