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My first thought..

hmmm, beberapa hari lalu bingung mau tulis apa di tumblr, and this afternoon something pop’s up.

Menghargai,

2013.

dulu, gw pernah dijauhin sama sahabat Rachel, but she teach me a lot. gue kaget ketika suatu pagi dia jutek banget sampe sekitar 3 hari berlalu. sampe pada akhirnya gw mikir, ni anak emg ada sesuatu, and i try to ask her after class “chel, did i something wrong kah?” and she told “yap, kamu tuh ci, kurang bersyukur” dulu gue bingung maksud kata dia, cause i dont feel in my life gitu.

semester 4, karna gw jurusan psikologi, my lecture said we need to fill the pyschology questioner before we give it for other. and you guys know, the result is my gratitude level 3 terbawah dari alat ukur (authetic happiness)🤣.

tapi makin dewasa.. “gratitude” this word hit me so hard.

- Harusnya gw bisa ekspresin sayang gw ke bokap, when we still in one house. anterin dan beliin papa beli es goyobod while me so hectic with assignment and friend. and i lost that moment.

- Harusnya gw bisa sayangin kucing gw "pecek" while im too busy with obin and raja, kucing yg lebih gemoy daripada pecek. dan setelah dia ga sama gw lagi baru gue kangen kelakuann kucing baik hati satu itu.

- and for my best exboyfriend maybe. dulu gw sering banget ga ngehargain lo, cause i always compare you with someone better (a doctor, a pilot) until one day i realize that you're someone treat me so well dibandingin sm org lain. but its too late

tapi dari sini gue belajar banget tentang menghargai. mungkin bener kata orang. kita baru menghargai sesuatu saat sesuatu itu udah hilang.

notes :

- mungkin ada yang bikin lo kesel karna di tengah hari bolong lg panas ada yang kirim gofood ricis level 3 🤣 but imagine that will be become a memory “oh ya dulu ada org yang ngirimin gue ricis level 3 di tengah panas nya hari, but i miss her rn”

- mungkin ada hal yang menurut lo anoying banget, gabolehin lo dugem, ngikut kemanapun lo pergi, peluk lo disaat lo ga pengen di peluk. but one more time, when that will be a become a memory “gue kangen sm dia yang banyak ngatur” bahkan ngambeknya aja lo kangen.

- or something like, lemotnya orang yang kadang lo sampe kesel. dan saat itu jd memory lo cuma bisa senyum and you will say “gue kangen tol*l nya dia”

and guys i just want to remain you utk bersyukur ttg apapun yg lo punya skr, orang, waktu, barang, sampe hewan pliharaaan. kita gatau kapan kita kehilangan semuanya sampe kita gabisa ngerasain semua hal baik itu.