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i agree patty is racist as fuck and so is the way she was talking about ari asters short but i think its kind of shitty to say her interest in incestuous kink is ignorant of actual trauma because shes been very very open about the reason behind her interest in it being a result of her own trauma and experiences with csa. i think you can do basically whatever you want when it comes to fiction or kink with other adults, the problem is that she doesnt realize theres a time and place, doesnt know how to properly separate things like this, and projects her own feelings onto everything and everyone.

i am aware that Patricia is a victim, and that she has experienced traumatic csa. what i mean when i say that she is ignorant of trauma is that she has no personal experience with the very specific intersectionality of trauma within the Black experience that complicates the very things she fetishizes. i apologize for not being more clear, and i appreciate you for making me fully aware of how dismissive of her experiences that my previous statements have come across. as a survivor of csa myself, i had no intention of making it seem like patricia's trauma was inconsequential or invalidate it in any way.

what i take some grievance with, however, is the idea of being completely hands off when it comes to kink, because things like incest and pedophilia are not kinks. they are paraphilias that inherently hinge on the perceived or actual lack of meaningful consent between one or more parties. even in situations where both parties are consenting adults, acting out the scenes that patricia especially finds appealing involves pretending that one party either has no concept of what consent means or actively does not consent and is aware that their autonomy is being violated. it's not that Patricia isn't aware that there is a time and place to discuss her kinks, it's that part of her indulgence in these kinks involves nonconsensual sexual acts and thus by exhibiting it to others, further ropes more unwilling and unconsenting parties into her display by proxy.

it's no longer 'behind closed doors" and between consenting adults, and she is very aware of that. she's stated multiple times that she views her openness about her paraphilias as her way of weeding out the people who find this kind of behavior unacceptable.

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Before I go away for the weekend I do want to say something, in regards to a lot of the stuff that's happened.

I do, really and truly, believe in second chances. I sometimes am too forgiving and some of my statements have come across as hurting the causes I care about.

However, a second chance implies someone is trying to change for the better. That they acknowledge the hurt they caused and are no actively making strides to not do this again.

It's not about pointing fingers or he said she said or justice or grudges.

If someone is upset with you, if someone says you hurt them, do you acknowledge that? Do you acknowledge that their pain is your doing? That you caused it? Not just punish yourself for being stupid and being "Not Good" and hating the label of "Bad Person?"

Are you going to change yourself so that it never happens again?

Do you even acknowledge your capacity to hurt others? That you have, that you can, and likely, someday, probably will, cause pain in another person due to circumstances you can prevent and have full autonomy over?

If you can't then, I think, any excuse, any statement, any whispers of growth are meaningless.

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A Statement on @patricia-taxxon

After recent events over the past couple of months, my co-director and I have decided that we are no longer working with Patricia Taxxon, and her score/sound design will not be used in the final release of our animated student thesis In Your Orbit. She has rights over all of the audio files that she created, and she is free to use or alter them for whatever other projects may come up for her. We only retain the rights to our visuals. On the off chance that the last festival that is showing the current version of the short gives us any prize money, she will still get a cut of it. She is free to continue to state publicly that she worked on the film originally, and use the soundtrack in her portfolio, but we will not be posting it or promoting it. 

Patricia Taxxon has proven to be a person who is irresponsible at best. She has allegedly had inappropriate sexual conduct with minors as young as 13. She also regularly posts her extreme sexual fantasies on her main Tumblr, and has made claims regarding the nature of pedophilic art that she is not qualified to be making. She has also posted from behind closed doors that she has intentionally been manipulative regarding her apologies for her alleged sexual misconduct.

The original victim who accused her was harassed off the internet both times she came out about this, and no longer wishes to be contacted on this matter. However, the idea that any of the allegations were ever rescinded due to misinformation, or proven untrue, is false. In my opinion, I believe the victim’s testimony. It lines up with what I remember the environment of Taxxon’s discord server being like when I was there.

During the production of the short film, I was already aware of some of the accusations made towards Taxxon, but as I was a close friend, I wanted to believe they weren’t true. I was told that she was groomed into doing these things, that she didn’t remember doing them, and that she was likely to commit suicide. She told me she was suicidal on a regular basis during production, especially when the alleged victim was making and then posted a video recounting the allegations. Before that video even came out, she was telling me it was likely to ruin her life irreparably. She had a mutual friend with the victim who was supposedly playing double agent for her, so I heard all about it before and after it came out. I was under the impression that she was in imminent danger of harming herself several times. You can imagine what this might do to a person who cares about her. So, I willfully ignored the allegations for a long time, up until the point that Taxxon showed outward bigotry towards my demographic in a Tumblr meltdown. I deserve criticism for this, and I won’t begrudge anyone who feels like I waited too long or came out with the leaks that I did for selfish reasons. That is your right, and I’m sorry. I decided that all I could do was come out with what I do know and stop supporting this person, even if it costs me opportunities down the line.

Taxxon has also repeatedly shown herself to be extremely unprofessional, even for the standards of an internet drama cycle. She started by vaguely posting about myself on her Tumblr, stating that I am a threat to her, implying that I used her only to “dump her without warning,” and has repeatedly twisted my actions in order to gain sympathy from her Tumblr audience. She even begged her followers for someone else to take her to the Omaha Film Festival, before deleting that addition because she realized it made her look bad.

Her newest gripe with me is that I did not pay her for her work on the film, supposedly finding out partway through the project that she was not being paid. This is untrue. Luka and I were forthright with the fact that we were a team of two college students in Missouri with very little spending money. Thus, we offered her a cut of whatever we ended up making from the film in the festival circuit, planning to split any possible winnings among the three of us based on creative input. We also stated that we would not be taking a cut of any earnings she made off of the sale of the soundtrack, and that it would belong completely to her, just as my characters would to me. If any film companies approached us about the film to license it and the soundtrack, or if they wanted to use her music for another project involving these characters, that money would have gone to her. If she was confused about or had an issue with this arrangement, the time to bring that up would have been when we were discussing the agreement with her, or after any of the many critique sessions we went through with our professors and we were all discussing next steps, or really, any time at all during the year and a half that we were discussing and working on this project. But at no point before, during, or after production did she bring it up. She never suggested a rate, asked about other forms of payment, or anything. I was not holding a gun to her head. She could have brought it up with us at any time, and I am not a mind reader. Her only bringing up the subject now, after all of this time, points clearly to her attempting to extort me or use this issue as a way to gain sympathy from her Tumblr audience. It comes off like she wants to hold this over my head.

All of this not even mentioning that Taxxon was the one to say she wanted to work on the film, years before production started. This started as a collaboration between friends. Luka and I structured our agreement to be a partnership, where none of us were making guaranteed profit off of this project, especially since it is a student work, and we are not established artists with an audience. If anything, the person most likely to make any money off of this arrangement was Taxxon. We considered her an equal participant in this short film, and we wanted it to lift us all up. We gave her full artistic control over what vision she had for the soundtrack, and we often tried to cater our animation to best match it. This is why I found it strange when I asked if she was willing to contribute to festival fees, that she was very flippant with me about it. She stood to gain just as much as us from the film festival circuit, and I had already taken on the workload of doing research on and writing cover letters to each festival. Especially given that I pitched the festival circuit to her as a method to help her get her career offline and away from Kiwifarms, she had a lot to gain from all of this. As someone who had considered her a creative partner, her dismissal felt weird.

This screenshot from the time shows what she said to me regarding the fees, and also shows that she was aware of the arrangement. Thankfully, a lot of this took place on her new Discord account, so I do have the evidence for this portion.

Then, a couple of days later, she asked me if she could stay in my co-directors house or mine for the duration of the Kansas City FilmFest International (or KCFFI). Given she had not contributed to us submitting to that very festival, and had been flippant with me in that same week about the subject, I found it disrespectful. A good friend of mine compared it to “staying at a friend’s house and refusing to help with the grocery tab.”

And the fact that she decided to contribute to the DCP of all things because she “had a vested interest in [the film] sounding good,” as if festival fees were beneath her, but this, now this was something she could be bothered to care about… It was very telling with regards to how she viewed this film.

If she wants to get her 30 bucks back, I can PayPal it back to her.

I stand by everything I said in my testimony on the stream with CrimsonEnder. Honestly, I feel I was much too forgiving on the subject of sexual misconduct, especially since at the time, all of us were trying to gloss over the specific allegations for the victim’s sake, as like I said, they did not want to be involved. As much as Taxxon blustered about “ad-hominems,” I never called her names during the stream. I didn’t even directly call her a transphobe or any kind of bigot. I did not diagnose her with a paraphilia. I specifically stated that her being a trans woman should have nothing to do with why she does the bad things she does. I discussed the things she said and the actions she took. I stated what I remember of our relationship and the events that took place during production, because she had already taken to misrepresenting me in her Tumblr posts. I wanted to lay everything out for full transparency, as she was telling a very specific story about me and who I was. I wanted to present my counter-narrative. I got vulnerable, upset, and fiery at times, but for a public crashout taking place very soon after my falling out of a six year long friendship, I think it gets my points across fine. Especially considering I was still freshly feeling the shock of her outwardly going on a tirade about trans men. The stream is still available on Crim's channel for those who want to hear what I said. Taxxon only presented a couple of my basic notes on the subject that were made to keep me on track.

Taxxon also, notably, sent her followers after CrimsonEnder in a purposeful attempt to incite a harassment campaign against him. She reblogged a reply from him, implying as much, and then he immediately received an anon referring to him with a slur, and saying he was now in “a Panopticon.” Taxxon would later be seen replying in a different but related conversation, misusing the word “Panopticon” in the exact same way (Hint: the term for many people watching one would be a “Synopticon.” A Panopticon refers to one person watching many). You can find Crim's full statement about this incident on his blog.

She also referred to him as a “violent misogynist” who "threatened her in public" in a DM with me where she waved around the fact that she would be justified in “dragging me publicly” for my “betrayal” but wouldn’t, as if it was some big act of charity from her.

Only to, for some reason, make a request to CrimsonEnder (from behind a block) to take my testimony out of his stream and out of his document in a recent post. She is very vested in sowing division between myself and Crim, for what reason I’m not sure. All I know is that she is not above harassing the people who criticize her, and given that, it’s very rich for Taxxon to posture like her not sending her followers after me thus far is an act of goodwill. If I were to guess, now that I have made this statement and cut her off from the project, she will feel much more comfortable going scorched earth. She no longer has a project to protect her connection to.

In Your Orbit will be released at some point in the indefinite future, with a new score and new foley work. I will not be attaching Taxxon’s name to it at all, positively or negatively. I will not be using any of the work that she produced, and I will never work with her in any capacity ever again. I cannot promote the work of a person who acts like this, who hurts others without remorse and uses her power as an influencer to get away with sweeping serious allegations under the rug. Especially given that none of our agreements were set in stone with a signed contract, I have no obligation to continue to associate with her after all she's done. I would be a hypocrite if I used her clout to profit or to expand my career opportunities. Even if it means I have to lose out on networking possibilities, lose the guaranteed audience, and pay out of my pocket to have the film re-scored and have a new foley track added. I am sticking to my principles on this. I refuse to coast on her coattails, and if this means that the film won’t be as successful, then so be it. Any recognition gained through affiliation with Patricia Taxxon is recognition that I don’t want. I don’t want her endorsement, and I don’t want her audience.

I cannot control what Patricia Taxxon says or does. She can do whatever she wants with her life and career, but leave me and my art out of it.

-Jules Hydes

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Re blogging with clarifications not because I disagree but because this is the piss on the poor website and I know people will take this one in bad faith. Minorities have a higher chance of being victimized by predators. Predators that are minorities have a higher chance of their victims being only minorities. They are nearly their exclusive target because its their only target. Especially if the outside forces are stereotyping those minorities as All being predators. There is both an assumption on the outside of that community that anyone there is a harmful individual, and extreme push back from people inside the community to overcompensate and consider everyone inside their own community to be incapable of harm. Or expect them to never be harmful. Its incredibly important to call out predators in minority communities that are predisposed to "Minority can do no wrong" discussions. Ive seen it a million times. "This character is bad representation of my minority because were not evil." regardless of how the actual minority part of the character is handled.

Assuming all people are incapable of doing harm is going to lead to victimization. Assuming all people are actively doing harm is also going to lead to victimization. All people are capable of harm, but it doesn't mean they're all acting on it.

Another way to look at why it's important to call put predators (regardless of how they are marginalized) is that the ppl they prey on (kids, neurodivergent ppl, trauma victims, other marginalized ppl, etc) are uniquely vulnerable or lack power. Preds who are minorities may have unique access to those minorities compared to other ppl!

Yes, but if I say it like that people get really mad.

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No, a person that is heavily against incest and pedophilia is not a transphobe. You are theorizing that this person was actively trying to find any way to get rid of you because you are trans, when this person you have accused of being transphobic has a long standing history of encouraging victims to callout their abusers. and Likely didnt want you in their space for fetishizing incest and pedophilia. Forms of abuse.

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Tumblr is not letting me post images. So here is the link. The other transfem listed here is iznaut. the teams "additional programmer and Godot expert", listed just before taxxon.

https://bsky.app/profile/draknek.bsky.social/post/3lihx774lnr2w post for you to see more visibly that this is about the same game Taxxon was working on.

Yeah, it's almost like being an out and proud manipulative zoophile and pedophile has some consequences. It's almost like admittedly grooming a child and sending porn to multiple children has consequences.

The actual gall to say "It's his fault" would be baffling from anyone else.

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Im seeing a pattern arise of Taxxon complaining about payment whenever she talks about people. Its never a complaint that the payment was less than what was talked about. Its being underpaid in retrospect.

The people that you work for do not owe you extra money because you misrepresented the actual cost. Alan has been extremely vocal in his community discord server of believing victims first, the rules of his puzzle game developer log and community server include: "If someone's comments or presence makes you uncomfortable or unsafe, talk to one of the moderation team. This explicitly includes behaviour or interactions from other communities or real life, abuse of yourself or others, or tacit support of abusers. Reports will be treated confidentially, and no action will be taken without your consultation." and from what i can tell its been there for years. And you're surprised?! you're surprised that you got removed?! Patricia Taxxon wasn't even the only transfem on the team. Come on now.

Yeah, it's almost like being an out and proud manipulative zoophile and pedophile has some consequences. It's almost like admittedly grooming a child and sending porn to multiple children has consequences.

The actual gall to say "It's his fault" would be baffling from anyone else.

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Her hiding from this is why I looked into it, Wis seems like the person to directly lie about something that has happened, something she has a history of doing both for herself and for Salem, and her avoiding this accusation was incredibly odd to me.

This is a common tactic to avoid showcasing faulty evidence in the case that her followers believe it. This specific case has actual genuine faulty evidence. I do not believe that account is hers, the evidence showcased is not enough to prove that it is, but you could look through that steam group members to check if her actual steam account is there instead.

me when im in a Fetishizing and Talking Over Asian People competiton and my name is wis wisława "whiteguilt" @wis-art （。＾▽＾）

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Hey, those aren't the same accounts. If she was playing through steam, the way the capital letters are formatted WILL carry over in these kinds of games. You can tell by the other accounts that have lower case letters that this is the case. The steam account you showcased does not match the capitalization, or feature any battlefield games on the account. it only has counterstrike, "Driver Booster 5", and previously "Pubg: battlegrounds". This is Battlefield 2042, a game that is not exclusive to steam on pc. Its also on EA, and Xbox cloud gaming (tumblr will not let me link that one, oddly. youll have to go look for it). Battlefield 2042 also has Trading cards, something that will show up on the account if she played it for more than like 30 minutes on steam. That user (xdDxdxdDxd), does not have any. Something she likely wouldve gotten to by this point if she owned that account and played battlefield 2042 on it.

Something else: Her username does not change between the videos of July 10th 2024 and Jan 3rd 2025, however she has also screenshotted herself playing Webfishing inbetween those dates, November 4th 2024. While not steam exclusive she clearly is playing the steam version as The UI in the top righthand corner has been changed since the itchio release. Steam Webfishing exclusively uses Steam usernames, hers is "evil ass gay", an account that is still up and uses that exact capitalization. It is a private account. It has been changed once (likely twice or more considering the ID) but it has never been XDDXDXDDXD. That account username is likely her xbox or ea username. It would be VERY strange of her to change to "evil ass gay" durring november, remove that change from her alias history, remove battlefield 2042 from her trading cards AND public games list, remove webfishing from her public games list, then change the caplitalizations of her username in only one game. It does not make sense.

me when im in a Fetishizing and Talking Over Asian People competiton and my name is wis wisława "whiteguilt" @wis-art （。＾▽＾）

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I retract my 3rd paragraph, then! As I had assumed by the wording that it had happened just now. I believe my point there is moot since it is heavily intertwined in this specific scenario rather than exposing people to sexual content without warnings. I'm glad she hasn't done this super recently. Its not good that it happened, and I agree that its evidence that she has a repeated history of posting sexual content without warning. Her youtube side account adds to that as well.

Why am I, an ex-sex worker and current erotic artist, held to a higher standard of creator responsibility than someone who's not even in the industry who just posted nudes on their main creator account?

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Im sorry, the tumblr gets age gated directly but nudes will not? I'm so confused at where she draws the line here. What is considered too adult for her audience. What warrants the direct notes?? I genuinely do not understand why she wouldn't make an alt account here. There's no warnings on her main???? there's no age rating on her bio?? did she at least spoiler the image using twitters adult content feature??? I would've assumed that her interacting and following a person that had done something similar and was viciously called out for it she would err on the side of caution with this stuff but. huh?? what???

Why am I, an ex-sex worker and current erotic artist, held to a higher standard of creator responsibility than someone who's not even in the industry who just posted nudes on their main creator account?

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Oh. That's a lot of people that consider every person is acting in good faith, seeing the red flags. And even the slightest of concerned comments on someone "potentially" sexualizing children being bombarded with several people directly sexualizing children.

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Imagine defending the person that openly said she wanted to fuck the dog version of a 1000 year old loli unironically. I can't with you people.

She has repeatedly stated her sexual fantasies involve dogs or children or both and it's inherently trans and inherently queer to not just have those fantasies, but also fantasize about abusing adults and animals as a child.

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Every time I look at your blog I discover new horrors. Thank you for leading us through this. It's better to know what's out there <3

I am driven by malicious forces to subject myself to the cruelest parts of man's nature for the benefit of others and through these places where angels fear to tread I have come to the realization that

Someone has to point this shit out because goddamn. Bitch all you want about "Lolcow culture bad" but sometimes you just gotta keep and eye on a motherfucker. They are up to some shit. They stomp about total acceptance and forgiveness and "getting help for pedophiles and zoos" because that is what they are. They don't genuinely want progressive healthcare for people suffering from things they can not control, they just don't want consequences. I actually do believe that nonoffending people with harmful philias should have support and access to the mental health resources they need to live fulfilling, safe, happy lives.

These people are taking advantage of that. They don't want help, they don't want people to have help, they want hedonism in it's worst, darkest, De Sadeian form.

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I don't think that the Harkness test isn't a good metric to use to discuss the idea because it ignores the very common occurrence that comes with creatures in media that are both intelligent and an adult is that they do not have the ability to be a person on their own. Many of them are still treated like creatures rather than someone with opinions from both a characterization perspective and a world building perspective. Not to mention the large amounts of people that genuinely use the Harkness test to say characters like Scooby Doo pass it to excuse their behavior. But that is besides the point. Her wording does confuse me a bit, I originally thought she dismissed it to say that it didn't go far enough... but I nearly forgot her more recent opinions on "fabulous beasts" and treating these arguments as though they were contained to that singular video rather than the rest of her tumblr presence.

Different anon from before, The "Ethics of Boinking Animal People" video was actually what caused me to look into Patricia's history a bit more, since it had a lot of red flags to me. especially in regards to zoophilia.

She has a lot of interesting points, or at least the starts of the discussions are interesting. The conclusions she comes to are the big issue, I'd argue that some of the methods used in the video are indicative of manipulative journalism (there may be a better word for this, sorry!).

putting myself through it now, will report back in like. An hour or more

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Don't have a preferred name. Just don't be stupid about it. It/Its strictly. Usually here to give insight into specifics.

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Made an alt so I can actually talk about my opinions more. Hi, I'm that anon. I had watched a few of Patricia's videos before, but I wasn't a regular viewer. Nor have i listened to her music directly. I had originally watched the video assuming it was going to be a deep dive into the weirder side of furry NSFW. Like, discussing what starts muddying the waters between furry and zoophile, since there is a bunch of gray areas in those two groups (Which is Incredibly concerning for both onlookers and people inside the community.) This video was about that, and it gave me an idea of the a talking point of someone "attracted to the idea of animals" (imo, a form of zoophilia). It is also the leaps in logic and the conclusions after the fact that I have huge issues with. And making blanket statements about a fandom and community to argue for us. Which was the thing that gave me a hint to think more about what shes saying. I grew up in the non-sexualized furry space so I have bias against whats going on in those arguments from the get-go. There are a Lot of times in that video where shes; understanding of the arguments, agreeing with them, understanding why people would be opposed, and then shifting that argument to be the other way around. Such as why I mentioned "manipulation" (although i believe that word might be incorrect in this context. I am genuinely unsure what else to word this as.) If you're not actively engaging and thinking about her arguments, it is incredibly easy to just accept what shes saying and agree with her without applying those arguments to actual situations or just regular shit that exists in furry spaces. I also believe that a lot of her arguments heavily rely on her specific definitions of words that has a less rigid definition. I think this touches briefly on everything I want to mention but i have a lot of thoughts on this that are more in depth that i cant entirely articulate right now since i would probably have to write in a .txt file.

Different anon from before, The "Ethics of Boinking Animal People" video was actually what caused me to look into Patricia's history a bit more, since it had a lot of red flags to me. especially in regards to zoophilia.

She has a lot of interesting points, or at least the starts of the discussions are interesting. The conclusions she comes to are the big issue, I'd argue that some of the methods used in the video are indicative of manipulative journalism (there may be a better word for this, sorry!).

putting myself through it now, will report back in like. An hour or more