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Hi i dont know why i’m here lmao think i just write here cuz no one followed me here therefore noone gives a shit about what i’m about to write. So my name is fatur i’m 20 i’m a medical student which is a miracle cause you know i’m not really that smart but i’m not that stupid either (i think?) i have a big loving family (dad mom, 2 sis and 1 lil bro). I am a muslim, a bad one actually i’m full of sins. I have a girlfriend her name is sarah (i love her name so much i think it’s cute and i never told that to anyone even her lol) who loves me (i hope? cuz i love her so much more than anything rn honestly). We argue a lot like a couple shud be lol we have our differences but i dont really care actually she’s such a sweet and an amazing person somehow she keeps me sane she’s literally the best thing that’s happening in my life right now. I dont know why i introduced myself like that since no one wont even see this lmao. I just want to share my feelings i guess cuz i’m not really good at telling it to people, i think people are dumb, selfish, and fucking crazy sometimes so it just doesnt worth it sometimes to share your feelings to them. Especially nowadays people seem to be angry all the time and i’m fucking tired of it lol. Did i mention earlier that i live in indonesia? No? Yeah, i live in indonesia which is a dumb fucking country runs by a shitty government, stupid, angry and boring fucking people spread over the country. If i could get the fuck out this country right now i would right away but i cant for some obvious reasons. I’m on the 6th semesters rn now in college (the med school i told you earlier). It’s getting harder everyday to even cope with everything cuz you know its med school its supposed to be hard. I actually have a lot of friends but i cant really share anything to them tbh they wont understand either. I talk a lot of things with my gf but sometimes i’m too embarassed to tell my feelings and whats going on in my life especially the “i’m struggling in med school” part cuz she got a lot of friends that also attend medschool and are doing fine, great, even. Guess i really just have to work hard eh? I dont really know how to tho felt like i was lazy and stupid all the time. I also felt my brain wouldnt work and function properly lmao. But like everyone always said, i’ll be fine i’m young and i have so much to learn. Guess i just have to grind and live my life day by day. Funny thing is i’m not giving up on anything either and wont be i think. I really want to be a successfull man, be a great doctor and a good husband (dad) and stuff like people do. So... goodluck for me hope i can fulfill my hopes and wishes. Thats it for now fam.

Sorry if i’m a bit emo atm lol