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⡊ ☾ ˚⊹ Mission: Diana’s family reaction to her being an idol

+4 dance, +1 vocal, +5 karma

Diana couldn't have expected it to end that way. had she known, maybe she'd never have attended those castings, probably she’d have continued doing as her parents wanted, for sure she’d still have contact with them. if only she had imagined what was going to happen… everything would have been completely different.

reminiscing that day was unavoidable. the moment kept coming and coming around to her mind whenever her mood was a bit low, whenever her spirit felt a bit tired, whenever the idea of not improving enough formed on her thought. it didn’t matter that Diana had told herself she was over it and she was doing well, it didn’t matter that many years had passed already and numbed and brushed away her memories of that day. it didn’t matter because the memory, even blurry and tattered, came again and pained the same.

maybe the memory wasn’t even of one specific day -did that happen when she arrived home after the last audition or when she was leaving to the new dormitory?- but there were very vivid flashes of conversations, words and feelings that occurred.

the bright smile that danced on Diana’s lips when she arrived at her home that afternoon. she had been smiling since the very moment she had been told of her passing the auditions.

the moment that smile had died after confronting with both her parent’s frowns. 

“you didn’t tell us this was the kind of agency you were auditioning for”.

her mother putting the papers of dingbat’s contract on the table in such a harsh way it made Diana felt as if she had been slapped. 

“an idol? that’s not a true profession, and that’s not true artistry”.

her father’s disbelieve, her father’s discontent, her father’s disappointment.

“you are going to let waste your talent and hard work!” 

was all that true? had she made a mistake?

“with all the money we’ve spent on your dance classes, this is how you are paying us?”

that might had been the very first time Diana had raised her voice to her parents, had gone against their wishes, had stomped from home.

they never kept her from joining the company, but their disagreement and dissatisfaction was evident. and it only grew bigger with time. like a badly healed wound, it didn’t bleed but a wrong movement caused pain and the scar was there, visible. a reminder.

for a long time that day would remain as the happiest in her life, and also the saddest. but perhaps that was for the best.

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on live!

∘⡊ ☾ ˚⊹ @siyeonft

it was the third thursday of the month. mostly a completely ordinary day for everyone, almost one for Diana too. at least if it hadn’t been for a very simple and small thing: it was the date she had set for the new DDR’s live. for eight months the idol hadn’t missed the date of the show she had spontaneously created, not even during strenuous schedules or on tour. thus, that time wouldn’t be different.

well, there was a small difference, that time she wouldn’t be alone. after a long day of practice for their comeback, most of the members have been leaving the practice room one by one until only Siyeon and Diana had stayed there. that wasn’t something unordinary, of course, being both hardworkers and overworkers, staying until late at night for more dance practice was expected. but at that specific moment, practice has already ended. instead, Diana had asked the younger to join the live that time -it had been already too long since the last cameo and she knew fans were eager for another one- and now the two idols were preparing everything up, which basically meant finding the perfect spot to place the camera and set the app.

after some initial struggles and changes, she pressed the button to start the streaming.

“hello!!” Diana popped in frame with big cardboard poster, with DDR handmade written, and an even bigger smile. “it’s DDR time again! did you all guess that i was going to show up today?” she laughed, the day before she had posted a cryptic message on twitter but, of course, oracles always deciphered everything quickly. “ah, i’ve missed you so much i couldn’t wait any longer. but i’ve not been the only one missing oracle these days, oh no, this is why today i’ve brought you a very special guest” opening one, she invited Siyeon to pop also in frame as they had quickly prepared while setting everything. “tada!”

while she greeted the fans, Diana moved almost out of frame to take a close look at the chat, already filled with messages. “ wow, so many people have already joined! good good, because we have many things prepared for today so, the sooner we begin, the more we’ll be able to do” she returned to her position next to Siyeon.

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I can’t talk about it because if I talk about it that means it matters. If it matters that means it’s real, and if it’s real that means it’s going to hurt.

I can’t talk about it. (via insanely–crazy)

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lovecraft’s lead vocal & lead dance diana

dingbat group; dance, variety 18 vocal / 02 rap / 20 dance

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Hello everyone, this is Nami! I’m very happy to have joined this rp and to present you my child, Diana, lovecraft’s lead dancer and lead vocal, signed with dingbat group. You can look at her profile for a global overlook and also check this plot page if you want to look for possible connections. and, as always, don’t hesitate to like this post or shoot me a dm if you want to plot something :) i also have discord !

under the cut some more general facts and headcanons about Diana.

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really bad boy teasers 

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She dances to the songs in her head, speaks with the rhythm of her heart, and loves from the depths of her soul

dean jackson

VENUS IN LEO

(via astrolocherry)

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ftxsanha‌:

[...]

belatedly, he realizes this isn’t just weird because they’re polite colleagues at best. he’s also the weird guy that followed her up to the roof out of nowhere. sanha abruptly turns to face forward, keeping his gaze locked away from diana in a last-ditch attempt to not seem like an absolute fucking creep. “not that you’re lonely or that i’m trying to make you un-lonely,” sanha says, shaking his head at himself. he blames the long day for the loss of his usually smooth tongue, infinitely embarrassed. 

Diana was almost surprised by his answer. not because she couldn’t deal with people being forward -she actually yearned for more people being like that-, but because of how usual it was. she almost felt compelled to smile back at his antics. “ i’m afraid i’m already quite served ”, she replied, raising her drink as to show it to him, and nodded then at his direction; “ and I can see you are too, maybe even far better than me ”. his beer, albeit if not as strong, probably would last longer than her glass of whiskey.

his next words, or more correctly question, were not so surprising. it was almost as if Diana had been waiting for it, trying to discern if she wanted to brush it off, lie as everybody did, or not; if she wanted to deal with her thoughts or continue eluding them. and she hadn’t made her mind up yet. but the question didn’t end with a pause, there was not silence for her to fill in, he continued talking.

at the end of it, Diana couldn’t do anything but let out a short laugh. turning again her gaze, and this time accompanying the gesture with a slight movement of her body, she watched him avoid her face for a moment. “ don’t worry ”, the reassuring felt necessary, especially since he looked strangely uncomfortable for someone that usually acted so sure of himself -although she barely knew him, hence she couldn’t judge-. “ well there’s... some stuff i’m trying to deal with, so to speak ”, she finally confessed, a soft sigh leaving her lips after the words were spoken, “ i guess one could say that you are right, i might be a bit lonely ”. maybe it wasn’t the most detailed explanation but she was sure Sanha wasn’t expecting a full report about her issues anyway, he was just being curious.

resting again the chin on her knees, she looked at him and tried for a second time to read his intend. he seemed unbothered, not the kind of person that would prefer a lonely cold rooftop instead of the lively ambient that filled the bar downstairs. “ so, since you are here, are you lonely too? ” she wielded the question back at him, turning her face without moving from her position.

safe spot

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💫

↪ send 💫 for one place they sometimes end up falling asleep

the feel of tiredness was almost a constant on Diana’s life, and probably on any other idol’s life in general. still, it was not usual for her to actually have much trouble sleeping -even if she did some night escapes that weren’t quite good for her strict practice training- or to find herself falling asleep during the day due to overwork. she had mastered a secret trick to avoid that: the art of micro-napping, which consisted, as the name could suggest, of taking very short naps of no more than thirty minutes scarcely during the day to catch up on sleep. 

thus, Diana had developed the habit of quietly zoning off from time to time, while on a break or a schedule free moment, no matter where she was at. and, without a proper place to sleep, she had retorted -unconsciously- to the only sure elements that were always around her: libra. her fellow group member’s shoulders or their lap or sometimes even their back suddenly became the places Diana rested her head for a minute and ended up having one of her micro-naps. she, of course, apologized the firsts times that happened but, at the end, it just became a thing that occurred and everyone accepted.

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↪ send 🌈 for my muse’s favorite kind of weather

a thunder was the first signal of the storm incoming. the sound prompted Diana’s head right to the window in her room and seconds later she was running towards it. clouds had been forming during the day and the news had advised of a heavy storm for that evening, but hours had passed and no drop of rain had fallen from the sky during day. until now. a lightning flashed through the sky almost breaking it in two halves and suddenly water was everywhere. the hum of the drops pouring over the grown created a soft symphony, it wasn’t a heavy rain, the kind that makes you believe the world may end at any moment, it was thin, constant and intense, but delicate. 

Diana’s smile grew bigger in her face as she contemplated it. but just watching didn’t feel enough. and even if she knew it was childish and uncalled for, she could contain the need of running for the second time and leaving her shared room. she went outside with her tank top and practice sweatpants, barely stopping before leaving to change her shoes, and just led the rain fall into her. arms all open and face towards the sky, it had been a hot summer day and the water was welcoming.

a new lightning broke through the sky and Diana shivered. yet it wasn’t fear nor cold what cause it but excitement.

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ftdemi‌:

[...]

“i’m a bit of workaholic, so i don’t do that often.” that summed it well enough. demi took another glance at the clothing around her. she didn’t see anything she wanted, nothing jumped out at her. not for this comeback at least and while she did see a few personal items she liked there was nothing she wanted to spend money on. “ah yes, i have the time. this shopping trip is over. i don’t see anything like. i’ll follow you then.”

demi bowed her head a little followed diana. content with letting her lead the way. “tell me, what did you think of libra’s concept when it was first introduced to you?”

finding the cafe she had discovered before proved, at first, to be a more difficult task that what Diana had expected. but, luckily, she didn’t have to drag Demi quite a long way through the mall until she manage to find the place. then, they occupied a small table at the back of the local -the ideal position to avoid unwanted attention- and ordered their drinks.

conversation continued as they waiter for the serving. for some time, Diana could still feel almost like in an interrogatory -albeit much more subtle and cautious- but, more or less at the time the waiter reappeared with their order, things started to smoothen up a bit and get more natural. 

“ thank you ” she greeted the waiter with a cordial smile and reached to her cup of sweet-smelling tea. cautiously as to not to burn herself, she took a short sip to taste it and a new smile brightened her face. it tasted delicious, just as she had expected. Diana had always thought that british tea was the best in the world, she had arrive in Korea -almost ten years ago- with that idea in her head and had been proved wrong.

“ so yeah, even if i would like to focus more on acting, i really enjoy going to variety shows ” she continued the conversation that had been momentarily interrupted, “ not only because they are usually a fun break of routine during promotions, but also they are sometimes a good place to promote your individuality ”. the games and tests were normally designed as a way to showcase each idols strengths, if they were brave enough to take the chance. “ that, of course, when they aren’t trying to catch you with a tricky question ” because not everything was sunshine and rainbows, and those same shows also loved putting idols on compromising situations, “ but i guess you have already too much experience to be tricked or taken by surprise ”.

shopping mall / demi . diana

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ftinyoung‌:

[...]

“i would love it you taught me sunbae!” her tone was bright and she looked as eager as one could. “this is really an honor, i couldn’t have ever thought this would happen.”

what had started with just the idea of showing Inyoung how to improve a dance step, at some point ended becoming a full partnered dance training. Diana didn’t even realize about until they were into the tenth song and her heart was beating fast due to the exercise. with a discrete gaze, she checked on Inyoung and found that the trainee was starting to showcase the silent signs of tiredness, something that made a lot of sense since the younger girl had been already practicing by herself before Diana’s arrival. and who knew for how long.

“ ok, next advice ” she started saying the moment the song reached its end, and went to stop the music before a new song begun, “ know when is a good moment to do a pause ” she announced with a bright smile. and advice, though, that she still needed learn how to apply for herself. of course, it wasn’t the same practicing with another person that doing it alone.

with that being said, Diana went to catch her towel and wipe out the small amount of sweat accumulated at the back of her neck. she then dropped over the floor and tapped slightly at her side to prompt Inyoung to join her, hoping that by now the trainee had grown a bit more comfortable around her.

“ so, can I ask you a sort of personal question? ” she finally said, after a small silence, flexing a bit her legs, “ what made you decide to try become an idol? was it something you had always knew or was there an idol you admired that inspired you? ”. that was one of her usual ice-breaking questions whenever she met an idol, or an idol in the making as that was the case.

lucid dream

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↪ send 😍 for my muse to tell yours three things they love about them

“ listen to me! ” Diana caught Avery’s face between her hands and, softly, forced her to look into her eyes. “ i’m serious, ok? ”. she whined. “ it’s just, in days like this, i’m really grateful to have a friend like you by my side and i think it’s important to say it ”.

Diana wasn’t sure how did they reach that point of the conversation. it might have been the alcohol, although she had only taken two sips of her drink; it might have been the ambient, quiet and intimate; or maybe the fact that it was the first time they met in the past three months -not counting the short encounter at Lotte-. probably it was a mix of all three things.

“ i mean, there are so many things i learned from you, and so many ways you’ve helped me ” she took a small breath and released her friend. “ for example, you always know how to stop me from overthinking too much or overworking myself. you are always there, and are always attentive ”. words started spilling from her mouth and now there was nothing that could stop her until she had made her point. “ also, the way you just enjoy yourself and enjoy life as it is. how you don’t get mad but you don’t take shit. that’s quite admirable ”. Diana remembered when they had meet. back then, she was such a quiet girl, obedient and composed; but with her cheerfulness and recklessness, Avery had taught her how to led lose. “ and, of course, there’s your amazing skills at spotting good-looking guys… that’s quite an asset ” she nodded at her own words and toke a sip of her drink. “ ok, now i’m done. this was three things i love about avery anh, thank you for coming to my ted talk ”.

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MEME 1.2, 15.11.18 - 30.11.18

in addition to the 15-day writing challenge, we bring you an ask meme! the following can be counted towards the challenge as long as the answer to the meme reaches a world count of 200.  please reblog to signal that you’d like to play along and feel free to cross things out that you’d rather not do (tag: ft. meme 1.2)

send 🎤 and i’ll make a short playlist for our muses send 🎼 for a song that reminds me of our muses send 🌹 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard for our muses send 💛 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard about my muse send 👗 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard about my muse’s fashion style send 👶 and i’ll make an aesthetic/moodboard about my muse’s childhood send ✉ for a written letter from my muse send 💬 and my muse will say what they really think about yours send 👤+ a muse name for my muse’s opinion on that muse   send ⭐️ (or multiple) for a headcanon about our muses send 👀 for my muse to compliment yours send 😍 for my muse to tell yours three things they love about them send 🍎 and my muse will tell yours why they’re thankful for send 😵 for my muse to tell you something they hate send 🍵 and my muse will reveal one of their biggest regrets send 🎁 for my muse to describe one thing on their personal wishlist send ☎ for your muse’s info in my muses phone (name, ringtone, picture, last text) send ☄��� for 2-4 songs that are always in their playlists send 💫 for one place they sometimes end up falling asleep send 💥 for the game they’d destroy everyone else at send 🌙 for the emoticon they’d use most often send ✨ for what my muse would act like when they haven’t gotten enough sleep send 💐 for how they take care of themselves while in a slump send 🍂 for what they wanted to be when they grew up send 🌈 for my muse’s favorite kind of weather send ✔️ for a daydream my muse has had about/involving yours send 💋 for how my muse would seduce/flirt with yours send  👏 and try to fluster my muse (anything goes!)

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