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You don’t know distance until you’ve shared your bed with somebody who’s falling out of love with you.

Beau Taplin  (via ohteenscanrelate)

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If you have been brutally broken, but still have the courage to be gentle to others then you deserve a love deeper than the ocean itself.

Nikita Gill (via themotivationjournals)

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I don’t want to forget; I want to be okay with remembering.

read that somewhere and it hit me so hard. (via written-on-polaroids)

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I never really knew pain until I felt you lose interest in me.

I’m sorry I wasn’t enough. (via written-on-polaroids)

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It still hurts

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Why is it that we can’t stop thinking about the people who ruined us?

because they’ve changed us. (via written-on-polaroids)

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This is what I like about photographs. They’re proof that once, even if just for a heartbeat, everything was perfect.

Jodi Picoult, Lone Wolf (via wordsnquotes)

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I learned that people leave. Even if they have promised a thousand times that they won’t.

It hurts. (via written-on-polaroids)

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Have you ever been in love? Horrible isn’t it? It makes you so vulnerable. It opens your chest and it opens up your heart and it means that someone can get inside you and mess you up.

Neil Gaiman, The Sandman, Vol. 9: The Kindly Ones (via wordsnquotes)

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You wanna know what happens when you're starving?

Your hair gets thin and limp. Noticeably. You don’t have enough nutrients to help it stay healthy.

You get so. Fucking. Cold. All the time. People don’t want to touch you, because you’re so cold. You’ll be shivering under a blanket, in a hot tub, by a fire, wherever you are.

You’ve heard that seeing food will be upsetting? You have no idea. Even if it’s nowhere near you, or on a screen, or in the hands of a stranger, you’ll resent it because you want it. Some nights you’ll start crying because you miss it so much.

Everything will become numbers. You aren’t just walking your dog anymore, you’re counting the minutes and calories you’re burning. You aren’t enjoying a warm day, you’re trying to figure out if the higher temperatures are making your heart rate go up so you burn faster.

Your social life will die. You’ll be skittish and avoid people when they have food in case they offer some. You’ll say no to parties and dates and meet-ups because you think there might be food. You’ll grow paranoid, terrified of people finding out. You’ll start to despise people who love you solely because they want to help.

You’ll hurt. That pang in your chest? It’s probably because you’re not eating. Your stomach? Say goodbye to its silence. Your butt? It’ll hurt whenever you sit down. You’ll get headaches, heart pains, even breathing will eventually become exhausting.

And eventually, you’ll die. Maybe you ate more than usual and couldn’t handle the thought of gaining, and exercised so much that your heart overexerted itself. Maybe you actually did gain, and that enough was enough to make you swallow a handful of pills. Maybe your blood pressure lowered to fatal levels, or maybe you passed out and hit your head on a table.

It all ends the same.

Don’t let the “pro ana’s” fool you, this isn’t a glamorous lifestyle. This is a deadly and painful illness.

I feel like a lot of people need to remember that before they skip a their meals.

Don’t do this to yourselves, you gorgeous humans. You deserve to live. You deserve friends. You deserve love.

You deserve to eat.

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I care about feeding my pet more than I care about feeding myself

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Please just don’t eat. It’s really not worth it. You’ve made so much progress, and if you give in now, all that will be for nothing. Just don’t eat. You’ll reach your goal weight eventually, but only if you fight for it, and you’re not fighting if you constantly eat like shit. So just don’t eat, please. Don’t eat.

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filling yourself up with food doesn't stop you from being empty as a person. starving gives you purpose. it's up to you