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Amo quando as pessoas acham que sou extrovertida só pq sei conversar, tipo uou tá dando certo?! Eu to parecendo gente?! Eu pareço legal?! Yippieeee!!!! :D

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Cruzes como é difícil conversar com gente

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Que maldição é me sentir carente, muito bobo pra me aproximar e muito invasivo para não tentar, nem é sobre amor ou paixão é só sobre como é divertido ter alguém que você é próximo em tantos sentidos. Se eu soubesse que ficadas poderiam suprimir parte da minha necessidade de afeto físico teria feito isso mais cedo e com mais frequência.

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Como pode alguém ser tão apaixonado em comer comida??? Mas por incrível que pareça esse mangá não é tão bizarro quanto eu pensei

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Me sinto o puro suco da nerdice virjola edgy manipulation issues cringe ao alegar que Radiohead é definitivamente minha banda favorita 😔

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Antes que vire moda já aviso que sou fã!!

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Meu Pinterest me conhece tão bem ❤️‍🩹

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And there’s nothing else to think about in that episode

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good episode

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Acabei de me inscrever na fuvest mas não quero prova de treineiro coisa alguma, eu vou prestar a normal pois quero ver como funciona prova específica na prática! Mas primeiro, eu preciso passar pra 2 fase, que tudo dê certo!!!

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Quero ver o dia em que eu passar mal quem vai atender essa porcaria de telefone pra me socorrer pqp

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This might just be my favorite scene...out of ANYTHING. Not just the Digital Circus, I mean in all of media.

You can dissect so much out of every line, every twitch, and every little change in his expression, right down to the eyes. You can see how much ALL OF THAT is nothing but him trying to believe his own bullshit, because if he doesn't...

Well...You get the idea.

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The names of the episodes getting less enthusiastic is so funny to me cause you can feel Caine giving up

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Obsessed with how they hit us with a turn around. When the last episode released everyone was freaking out about Ragatha abstracting, but now she’s kind of sorted through some of her feelings with Kinger and knows how she can proceed with her relationships. Whereas with the last episode, we all thought Jax was getting better or at least more open, developing a friendship with Pomni, talking about the others, etc, but instead we see how his mentality is that he needs to dehumanise himself and the others in order to cope with everything, and with his whole breakdown he’s likely moved up to the top of the list in terms of abstraction candidates. Love how this episode was about everybody (well mostly everyone) learning some form of self acceptance, and ALSO about absolutely destroying Jax.

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In episode six of The Amazing Digital Circus — Jax gets too real!

In all seriousness, this was completely fantastic to watch. It was such a good depiction of self destructive behaviors and Michael Kovach was PHENOMENAL.

His instant reaction to pomni hugging him was super telling. He wants to get closer to her, his behaviors show that clearly, but he fears it as well.

His regret after the outburst is also extremely telling.

This did not go as planned. He did not expect to get so close to her and have to push her so suddenly away. He didn’t want to push her away, but felt in this moment that he needed to, at all costs.

As much as he wants everyone to believe his actions were planned, they were IMPULSIVE.

As insistent as he was on telling Pomni that he didn’t care, that it was stupid to think that he might, Pomni was right when she pointed out that Jax wasn’t fighting back. He DID care.

He never hurt Pomni for his own fun at any point in this episode. His actions directly contradict what he’s trying to make Pomni believe. He hurts the others, so she might believe him. But he didn’t want to hurt her. Not anymore. The only time he hurt her on purpose was when he felt like he needed to push her away. But otherwise? He has shown that he doesn’t see her as something to torment. Jax sees Pomni as an equal, a friend.

His words are hollow.

Even his reaction to Ragathas “accusing” him of making friends with Pomni was extreme. Initially his uncaring expression threw Ragatha off, but once she was eliminated you can see that this is the moment Jax realized he was going too far — far past even his own personal boundaries — in forming a bond with Pomni.

Jax was lying the whole time he tried to make Pomni believe he didn’t care. He used all his tricks. Deflected with jokes, brushed off the intensity of the situation, made fun of Pomnis attempts to befriend him, he even tried to make her push him away first with the traitor bit.

Actually, he seems to be obsessed with the whole bit thing, don’t you think? The archetypes.

He thinks that fitting into the role of the circus will help him survive.

As if trying to maintain humanity whilst being deprived of it causes abstraction.

So he picks the perfect role to extract himself of any sort of sincerity or responsibility.

The comedian.

He uses it as a shield even if it damages his relationship with Pomni. And he tries to use Pomni’s humorously chosen role to his advantage, to get her to leave.

Pomni’s prying would humanize him. He would be too open, too vulnerable, too human. He won’t be able to play his role anymore. Or use it to protect his sanity.

If he had nothing beneath his cruel exterior, he wouldn’t have to beg Pomni to stop looking.

Jax knows that if she keeps looking, if she helps him open up, if she pursues his friendship despite his protests, he WILL break, and he WILL show her who he really is. He can’t resist getting close with someone because he — like everybody else — needs a friend.

So he had to make her stop.

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Checking on the trans folks after this conversation. Ngl I was mentally not prepared for this

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Heh.. Is that your circus archetype.. That's cringe....

YOU'RE CRINGE!!!