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If I got a nickel for every time Choi Hyunwook plays the sunshine tol love interest to a murderous smol, I would have three nickels. Which isn't that many, but it's weird that it happened three times.

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you ever think about how suho never told sieun that beomseok tampered with his motorcycle. about when sieun asked what was wrong with his leg, suho smiled and said, "It's nothing. don't worry about it," and never told him that beomseok almost got him killed. about how as sieun kept trying to reach out to beomseok and reconnect, suho watched on knowing that beomseok hated him enough to want him dead, but stayed silent and let sieun try because he knew beomseok still meant something to sieun.

cause im thinking about it. a lot.

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I always wondered what suho would have done if sieun were the one who fell into a coma :(

in my opinion, anon, if sieun ended up in a coma, suho wouldn’t fall apart the same way sieun did. he wouldn’t send desperate texts begging for him to wake, nor would he break down visiting with grief in his eyes. he wouldn't stop eating, he wouldn't lose sleep. no, suho’s way is different.

he’d show up every day like clockwork, sliding into sieun's hospital room with a kind of casualness that almost feels like denial. he’d drop his bag, pull up a chair, and start talking—about the cafeteria food, the ridiculous homework, some customer at his delivery job? things he used to talk to sieun about. things that kept the world tethered.

“you're still not talking to me? rude,” he’d say with a mock-annoyed voice, though no one’s there to hear it.

he’d fill the silence with his voice, like they were just hanging out; suho yapping, sieun quiet — their usual dynamic. like nothing’s broken. maybe he’d bring snacks, or games, or books sieun liked, but mostly, he’d just be present. no tears. no desperate pleas. just steady, stubborn presence.

because for suho, absence probably wouldn't be about waiting for a miracle. it’d be about holding the space where sieun used to be, refusing to let it vanish.

HOWEVER, the other side of suho? the side that wants revenge? what would he do? he wouldn’t lose control like sieun did. there’d be no blood trails, no shattered windows, no violent echoes through the halls. no screams, no raging outbursts, no expulsion letters from school. because suho doesn’t erupt like sieun.

think about the last time sieun got hurt? suho didn’t rage. he didn’t scream or flip desks or smash a dumbbell on a foot or stab pens into arms. he gathered names like pieces on a chessboard, lining them up on a rooftop like a teacher calling roll. then he broke them — one by one — methodically, like ticking off errands. when it was done, he took a photo. less of a threat, more of a proof. and sent it to beomseok with one cold line: answer the phone or i’ll kill your friends.

he learned that youngbin hurt sieun’s hand, so suho found him, pinned him down, and crushed his fingers underfoot—not with anger, not with haste, but with a casual quietness, like putting out a cigarette. like procedure.

so if sieun were taken from him — if sieun were lying in a hospital bed, unconscious and unreachable — suho wouldn’t collapse. he’d organize.

a car sliding off a road in the rain. a bottle of pills emptied too suddenly. a missing poster curled at the corners, fluttering on a telephone pole. there would be no pattern. no evidence. just absence. and suho would still be at school—on time, composed, making eye contact in the hallway. like everything's normal.

because this wouldn’t be revenge. it would be removal.

sieun fights like something cornered: raw, furious, desperate to be seen. suho cuts like frostbite. he's silent and precise. by the time you notice, it’s already done.

suho would always say "let's not cross the line," but he would, for sieun. and the most insane part is that suho wouldn’t even think he crossed a line. he’d believe there was no line left to cross.

because sieun was the line.

without him, there’s only silence. and a ledger of names waiting to be crossed out.

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Once again, I'm here talking about Weak Hero Class...

I've been re-watching Season 1, and it's becoming easier to see from the beginning why Sieun and Suho would inevitably become close, while Beomseok was never going to share the same relationship with either of them.

If you really watch how Suho and Sieun interact in the beginning, they become close because of how brutally honest they are. This is especially one of Sieun's most endearing qualities, and is something that draws most of the characters all the way to Season 2 to him (even Seong Je and Baek Jin are fascinated by Sieun because of how bold he is).

In fact, he is so honest that he is actually unimpressed with Suho and his charisma at first (e.g. his reaction after the baseball team fight).

However, Sieun also quickly recognizes that Suho has a hard life. After watching him work his delivery job, he studies in the dark to give him time to rest. When they eat together, Sieun asks Suho why he sleeps at school, and learns that he is committed to finishing high school because of his grandmother.

Later, while helping Suho at his restaurant, Sieun asks him if he has multiple jobs, and asks him, "Isn't it hard?" This is one of the few times we really see Suho in a vulnerable moment, as it seems to catch him off guard. Was there anyone else who had ever asked him that before? He turns away and says, "It is what it is," then opens up that he actually has yet another job as a mover on weekends.

At that moment, it clicked for Suho that Sieun wanted to know him. That he was curious about his life and his thoughts, and understood that he was struggling to make ends meet. Suho is also comfortable enough to jokingly ask if he respects him more now; he knows that Sieun is not looking down on him or feeling sorry for him - he is simply being sincere in his desire to get to know him.

Meanwhile, Beomseok becomes interested in Suho after hearing how popular he is, and after hearing rumors of him being an MMA fighter. Even though we see him desperately wanting to be Suho's friend, we don't actually see Beomseok asking him questions about his life, and truly wanting to know him in the way that Sieun does. Later on, we actually see Beomseok use his economic struggles against him after confronting his old school bullies ("Do you want me to pay your wages?"). Due to his own insecurities, he is unable to comprehend that someone as confident and charismatic as Suho could be struggling through hardship too. This clearly hits a nerve with Suho and is a major turning point in Suho and Beomseok's friendship.

May add more to this later, but these are my thoughts on one of many reasons why this trio faced the fate that they did.

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You must be Sieun.

WEAK HERO CLASS 1 (2022)

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I'm legit crying right now 😭😭😭

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Suho. When will you wake up?

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was messaging a friend still in the middle of watching s2 for the first time and in the middle of her commentary she said, "i think suho and baku would be great friends" and i had a moment where i was like? really? would they?

hear me out.

when i think about suho in s1, i think of a boy who enjoyed being on top. he could say what he wanted and do what he liked because he could fight, and so no one at that school dared to mess with him (at least, at first). though suho wasn't necessarily cruel or malicious, he was strong and he knew it. he flaunted it, he relished in it. among other reasons, it's partly what had him descending the steps to face beomseok alone. he was fighting for what they did to sieun, yes, but in my opinion, he genuinely believed he had the strength to win, and the reputation that win would grant him would be enough to keep sieun safe. we all know how that went.

now we have suho who's woken up from an almost 2 year long coma. even though the show makes it unclear how severe his condition is, i think it's fair to assumed it's uh, pretty fucking severe. putting aside any potential long term brain damage, someone being entirely immobile and bedridden for that long is going to be insanely detrimential to their physicality, fine motor skills, ecetera ecetera.

point is. suho used to pride himself on his strength, his ability to fight and win. post-coma suho ever returning to that level is down a long and hard road of intense rehabilitation, if it's even a possibility at all. the carefree, arrogant suho from s1 was born from strength and a complete assuredness in his own abilities. who will he be tied to a wheel chair? who will he be unable to eat unassisted, toilet unassisted, live unassisted? who is ahn suho with a body that betrays him?

so, suho wakes up. sieun waited, sieun's happy to see him, he's changed so much. is he the same? he's not, he's someone different. but sieun waited, and he's happy to see him.

then baku.

though baku and suho are very different characters, they share similarities, mainly a carefree attitude that stems from their position at the top of the school hierarchy based on strength. i think baku presents less arrogant than s1 suho, less likely to flaunt his strength and make a game of fighting to stroke his own ego. baku views strength as a tool for peace, not for reputation.

but even still, baku shows off. he ruffles sieun's hair in the hall right after sieun tells him not to because he knows he can get away with it. he even says "what will you do?" playful yes, but his strength grants him that confidence to be playful and bypass sieun's boundaries. he pesters sieun much the same way suho did without fear of realitation because baku knows that if sieun did snap, he could handle it. strength grants him security.

while i think baku is emotionally intelligent enough to tread lightly when it comes to acquainting himself with suho, he's not going to change himself entirely. eventually he will be loud, he will be overbearing. he will insert himself in suho's life the same way he did with sieun, because suho is sieun's friend, and so he will be baku's no matter what anybody has to say about it.

suho is weak, very early on into his rehabilition still reconcilling his past self with the present hollowed out shell of a body he can't believe is his, and here comes park humin, everything he used to be, everything he isn't anymore. if he had met him 2 years ago, he would talk to baku like an equal, find it easy to match his energy and bravado. but now? suho has found himself at the bottom of the food chain overnight, and i think presented with someone like baku, who remains at the top, dominates the top, he wouldn't know what to do with himself. could he laugh with baku? consider him a friend? or would he be constantly aware that if something ever happened, if he got betrayed again, it wouldn't take multiple kicks this time. probably just one.

early on i think all of their interactions would revolve entirely around sieun, whether that's sieun in the room as a buffer or sieun as the thing they feel safe to talk about as an easy topic of conversation. but... then what? would suho act like his old self, playful and arrogant, even with how much he's changed? would baku feel comfortable breaking boundaries with sieun's friend who was in a coma for 2 years? to be honest, i don't have a clue. i just think it would be really complicated and would love to see it explored.

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100 pages into The Emperor of Gladness by Ocean Vuong and I'm so enthralled.

Some quotes that stand out.

"Because to remember is to fill the present with the past, which meant that the cost of remembering anything, anything at all, is life itself. We murder ourselves, he thought, by remembering."

"You wanna be a writer and you want to jump off a bridge? That's pretty much the same thing, no? A writer just takes longer to hit the water."

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thinking about si-eun saying 'yeah, i'm home now' on the phone when he's at the hospital visiting su-ho

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I had watched Weak Hero Class 1 right before Weak Hero Class Two released and I have a lot more thoughts on both of them but as I was rewatching WHC1 today, it got me thinking.

Oh Beom-seok felt dismissed by Ahn Su-ho. He felt Ahn Su-ho kept choosing the others over him, which for all intents and purposes was not intentional on Su-ho's part. In fact he was what brought the other two together. But if you actually think about it, Oh Beom-seok was also dismissing Si-eun all the time. Every time that Si-eun tried to make up with him, to talk him into reconsidering his anger to think again about things, Beom-seok essentially saw through him. Sure, he said his anger wasn't with him but we also see Beom-seok even dismiss Si-eun's attempts at planning things even before they fell apart. Beom-seok essentially saw Su-ho, got imprinted on him and refused to accept that anybody else could be in Su-ho's life. While he felt resentment and saw Young-yi as a threat he didn't consider Si-eun as one, but just as someone that was essentially interrupting and getting in the way of being friends with Su-ho. For Beom-seok, Su-ho was the main person he was thinking of, but he didn't realise that he lost out on two other friends, that would have always had his back, just because he felt entitled and obsessively possessive over Su-ho. The way I read it, Yeon Si-eun and Oh Beom-seok are essentially foils of each other and it is visible in the way they approach their relationships with Su-ho and Young-yi and most importantly their relationships to each other.

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I have to assume that in the fullness of time, at least once, a mouse has used a mushroom as an umbrella.

That’s enough to keep me going.

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it will always haunt me that suho, the bright boy who is the epitome of youth for me, could never fully live his own youth, that just when he started feeling like an ordinary high school student and having fun with his friends, that was taken away from him. maybe for the first time, he was just suho. not the breadwinner of his family, not a boy who had to take care of his grandmother, not a courier, mover or a waiter. he was just suho. someone's best friend, someone's first love.

this ask genuinely moved me, anon, because what makes suho’s tragedy even more devastating is that he wasn’t just sieun’s first friend. sieun was his first friend too, atleast in a long time. maybe suho had friends when he was younger, back when life hadn’t yet asked so much of him. but growing up fast means growing apart. while other kids were playing after school, suho was working. moving, delivering, waiting tables. taking care of his grandmother. holding the world together with bare hands and no safety net. when you’re always rushing between responsibilities, it’s hard to linger in hallways, to sit and eat lunch with someone, to build friendships that aren’t transactional.

so you're right. when sieun offered to buy him a meal as an apology, something cracked open. that small, quiet gesture led him into something bigger: friendship, belonging, love.

and then it was taken from him.

when suho wakes up, he’ll know things can’t go back to the way they were. his body might not be able to handle the jobs he once took pride in. he might not be able to run, to lift, to provide in the ways that once defined him. and for someone who’s spent so long defining his worth through what he can do for others, that will hurt. there’ll be guilt, deep and cruel. self-loathing, too, because he never learned to forgive himself for needing help.

but a small part of me wonders (hopes, even) that amid the pain, there’s a strange kind of stillness. that when people fuss over him, when someone brushes his hair back or tucks a blanket over him or sits at his side and tells him it’s okay to rest, he might feel something he never knew how to name: relief. because for once, he gets to be the one who’s taken care of. not forever. not in a way that erases his strength. but just long enough for him to feel safe. to be safe.

and maybe that’s wishful thinking. because what happened to suho was cruel, unjust, and it should never have happened. but if there is any mercy left in the world of this story, then i want him to find peace in this new, quieter life. not because he gave up who he was. but because he finally realized he doesn’t have to earn love by bleeding for it.

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