ππππππππ ( ππππ ) dir. emerald fennellΒ /Β feelΒ freeΒ toΒ changeΒ pronounsΒ andΒ subjectsΒ asΒ youΒ seeΒ fitΒ !
β i wasnβt in love with him. β
β i loved him. of course! it was impossible not to. β
β everyone loved you. everyone wanted to be around you. β
β i protected him. i was honest with him. β
β it's just you and me, mate. and the girl with agoraphobia, but she's in her room. β
β are you telling me you spent your summer reading the bible? β
β oh no no. not, uh, friend. more an admirer. from afar. β
β so you're picking apart the style my essay instead of the substance? β
β it's not what you argue but how. β
β fuck, that's kind. are you serious? β
β i don't smoke. β
β heβs been expelled from almost every school in england for sucking off the teachers. β
β there arenβt any pictures of me as a kid. β
β you look different. β
β harsh! that is so harsh! youβre such a snob! β
β only rich people can afford to be this filthy. β
β do you think he'll be jealous? β
β no, i'm not like you. this is all i have. β
β this feels a bit fucking stupid now to be honest. β
β honestly? i don't think i'll ever go home again. β
β just be yourself! they'll love you! β
β everybody just goes to ruin, i suppose. β
β but darling you're kind about everyone, you can't be trusted. β
β i have a complete and utter horror of ugliness. β
β because you're a terrible person? β
β daddy always said that i'd end up at the bottom of the thames. β
β fucking hell you gave me a fright. β
β i wanted to have a look at the moon. it's nearly full. do you know what that means? β
β i'm cold blooded. we're all cold blooded, haven't you noticed? β
β because youβre so fucking beautiful. β
β you're in your see-through nightdress underneath my window. β
β i could just eat you. β
β lucky for you i'm a vampire. β
β bring on the slutty fairies. β
β it's just fucking cringe, mate. β
β what a little shit-stirrer. β
β itβs just so disappointing. you're just another one of his toys. β
β alright, fuck this. i'm getting a drink. β
β are you going to behave from now on? β
β i mean, youβre a fucking liarβ¦ why would you lie? β
β ...i just wanted to be your friend. β
β you canβt ignore me forever. β
β can you fuck off and bother somebody else? β
β you really do notice everything don't you? β
β you canβt just throw me away. β
β i just gave you what you wanted. like everyone else does! β
β everyone puts on a show for you. so iβm sorry if my performance wasnβt good enough. β
β i just need you to understand how much i fucking love you. β
β i'm still the same person. β
β i don't know what you are. but i do know you make my fucking blood run cold. β
β it was the end of everything. β
β none of us wants your bloody american feelings! β
β your politeness is so grating. do you know that? β
β you're always skulking around. weaving your spider web. β
β i think you're a moth. quiet. harmless. drawn to shiny things. batting up against the windowβ¦ just desperate to get in. β
β you've made your holes in everything. you'll eat us from the inside out. β
β you ate him right up. and you licked the fucking plate.β
β have you been happy? β
β i loved you. by god, i loved you. but sometimes i... hated you.β
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