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[아구찜] - reposted w/ permission

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I don’t really post a lot because I use my socials for business now and It feels monetary/networking vibes and that can be stressful. I like that tumblr isn’t a face for a business. Here’s some dnd art/personal work.

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I fear I'm completely separated from my best qualities at the moment. Running a marathon has left me spent and invariably emotional. The only thing I can really do is keep moving forward and taking it day by day. I don't know yet if i've made a mistake or not, all I know is that I'm constantly re-centering myself. Truth is, I'm pretty embarrassing. I wear my feelings on my sleeve and I spend time on things that reek of insecurity.

I briefly talked to this guy in September who advertised a fantasy. I'm gonna tell on myself; gym bro, clean aesthetic, some money. If i gave him sex and quieted my personality, I could have felt like a princess. Obviously not desired for who I am, that's an accepted given.

I stopped talking to him because it felt like I was driving the frequency of conversation, and the date he invited me to was in his apartment complex, which felt like an unspoken invitation for sex. He had fluffed our conversations with that kind of context, wanting to go to the gym together and to buy me expensive things.

I should have unfollowed him. Now he has a girlfriend, or at least a beautiful girl he posts face-covered with them hugging. She seems like the perfect and easily-adored girlfriend. She's even in a similar work-field to me. She went to a better art school hahaha.

It's all so stupid. I know I'm only focusing on things that don't matter. That living in a state of self-pity won't help me in any capacity. That wondering about their relationship and what-ifs is the dumbest shit. But I'm still running my contractual marathon. One where I can't take care of myself and I'm constantly relying on others. One where I barely get any fulfillment from the work I do. One where time-off is riddled with guilt and I produce mediocre results in most areas of my life. One where a tremendous amount of work is done, and yet there. Is. Still. More. So some stupid guy and his cute new girlfriend, and my new haircut, and my poor work evaluation, and the state of my life may make me feel like someone else's footnote.

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onigiri

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Mark Tennant, Bag of Spaghetti, 2023

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Shell phone 🐚⭐️🐟 got my wisdom teeth out yesterday and alr missing solid food 😢

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you heard from me they aren't lying about shared values. A guy who you think is out of your league and super cute from a new group of people you met at an activity you just started can ask you out (what a flattering thing during these trying times) and then promptly reveal that he straight up overtly objectifies women and now your fun activity group is a source of anxiety instead of the stress relief you desperately need

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she wanna be

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A sunset after a storm

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