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Lil Marco. [x]

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I’ve been noticing this shit more and more lately with celebrities, etc. Saddening to find out people have been trying to call it out for quite some time, yet it continues to happen

need this trend of white girls going from looking like jennifer aniston to looking like zoe kravitz to die right now

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what they don’t tell you about making art is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! AAAAAAAAAAHH!!!

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what they don’t tell you about making art is AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!!! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHH!!!! AAAAAAAAAAHH!!!

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man i was talking to a woman in one of my classes about adhd, and how I had only been diagnosed in my late teens after recognizing my symptoms from a psychology class.

and she told me she learned that she had adhd from tiktok. that the all-knowing algorithm had shown her videos from people who talk about adhd and she related, went to her doctor, and in two hours got a diagnosis. it took me three months to get a diagnosis because of all the tests and tests i had to send to people who knew me as a child and report cards from before the age of 12 etc.

at this point i’m kinda sceptical. adhd symptoms are similar to the focus- and attention- disrupting effects of heavy tiktok usage. so we start discussing symptoms, the practical ones that i incur in everyday life.

and she kind of doesn’t have them? granted, she said she was diagnosed with inattentive adhd (ADHD-IN) and I have combined (ADHD-C). but she isn’t late for things, and she doesn’t have time blindness. she couldn’t relate to the roadblocks of basic tasks (sorry if you can easily send emails or pay bills and you say you have adhd i don’t trust you). she doesn’t struggle with the constant forgetfulness and abysmal short-term memory loss.

we talked more and she absolutely has a history of trauma. i don’t want to go into details but basically she doesn’t talk to her family and there were incidents of harassment and terror campaigns and abuse. but trauma and adhd have some overlapping symptoms.

for example: symptoms for both include disorganization, poor self-esteem, problems concentrating and being inattentive, irritability/ hot temper. there’s emerging scientific research about how one of the epigenetic factors that contribute to developing adhd is early childhood trauma.

so my theory is that she was recklessly diagnosed, and has now made it like a personality trait. when i talk about adhd, it is and always feels like a disorder. it’s negatively impacting my brain, primarily the PFC and the symptoms constantly interfere with my well-being and functioning as a person. but for her it was like a quirky personality trait that she was happy to talk about.

anyway this is a long-winded way of saying i’m worried about how publicized mental health conditions are, and how quickly people will assign a disorder to themselves because of the influencers on tiktok. it frustrates me so much when people cheerily say “adhd isn’t a disorder! it’s just a different way of thinking / a superpower/ only a disability under capitalism!” and it’s always people like this, who either have mild adhd that isn’t that hard to deal with or accommodate, or were misdiagnosed with something else. and it contributes to this “woob-ification” of mental illness where it’s cute and quirky, and severe symptoms are disapproved of because everyone has this sanitized version of how people with mental disorders behave.

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Favorite multiple of seven?

I usually think about other stuff.

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In the bathroom and cascada every time we touch just came on and the girl in the stall next to me was like oh my god this is my song and started peeing harder

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Don’t know anyone with HIV personally, but still important to share nonetheless 

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i had horrible diarrhea today :(

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My dad fell asleep watching some youtube video in the living room but his youtube is set to auto play and i just heard ‘Big foot mating call’ before the loudest guttural noise imaginable reverberated this whole house. And hes still asleep

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Most oddly named town in each US state.