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The Hawaiian Baby Woodrose seeds were more effective than I was expecting, I think having grapefruit juice and CBD most likely helped to make it more effective. Of course I did also eat around 36 of them which is supposedly 7-8 times a normal dose.

They are foul tasting and ultimately I vomitted up, which I had expected so I did so on an empty stomach. The trip became much more intense after I did and I got mild open eye visuals and vivid closed eye visuals, possibly a result of the CBD oil interacting with the LSA in the seeds in the way weed can also potentiate a trip.

Almost like a religious experience, albeit a light one. I was thinking about interconnected opposites and self reflecting.

I got a lot of these things so I will try again in a few weeks maybe, I will prepare better next time.

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I feel kind of trapped, I expect removing people I no longer consider friends will cause other problems but it bugs me to not do it

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I only intended to lie down for a bit and ended up sleeping for like 4 and a half hours, I was going to stream Zone of the Enders today too...

Might attempt to stream on 8chan.tv tomorrow, if I can work out how

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I wonder if I can degrade my mental health enough to get good at BFE, maybe I need to try self-harm? seems like a good way to get into that kind of mindset, definitely need to find a way to damage my vocal chords in a way that makes my voice deeper.

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kind of want to go scorched earth with a lot of contacts, feels like it would cause problems. maybe I should ghost people instead and then nuke my contacts after a month so its less noticeable.

maybe its menhera, networking and messaging other people is tiring and doesn't seem worthwhile as much anymore. kind of feels like a waste of my time for the most part.

I think being isolated would be better, most people feel fake.

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Feel like I'm gonna get repetitive strain injury in my thumb playing Devil May Cry on a PS2 controller

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in the end the design just ended up looking like the original

with a few additions

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I was told this has better colour balance now

Working on new design

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Working on new design

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Feels like I catch some illness every time I plan to do anything

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reblogging is now ILLEGAL

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Do I need to induce worse mental health to increase creativity?

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Trying to work out the logistics of collabing with myself, I have multiple computers to stream from but I would need to work out how to have the mics mute when talking on each channel, somehow mute them maybe?

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Need to go back to doing zatsudan every weekday, feels like I got out of being able to talk on stream. I think I used to have 4 shots before when I was doing that in summer, maybe I should try snorting the caffeine powder.

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kind of want to nuke my followers/friends list again tbh, I don't like seeing alker on my obs as the last follower either it rubs me the wrong way

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I've been buying a lot of cardboard crack lately, maybe I'll open them on stream or something. Can't really play Stalker 2 again until they fix the quest I was doing or it will auto fail if I try to move on with the main story, so maybe I'll continue Rimworld or start playing Shadowverse on stream. I also got a stand for my tablet so maybe I'll start doing art streams again. Really need to be better organised with worldbuilding or at least write things down

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Kind of feel the urge to purge all my social connections again