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god how i hate summer… i wish i could drink a hot pumpkin spice latte in front of a fall movie all year around

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my hobbies include listening to music and pretending i’m not real

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i like the way you wear your sweater off your shoulder 🍒💒

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god forbid a girl be tired 24/7

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blood is my biggest hear me out

what a beautiful man but☝️he could be beautifuller... guards! cover that man in blood

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the fact that i’m not a cool brunette in a 2000s teen drama feels me with immense despair

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just a girl and her cinnamon chai tea latte

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i’m climbing back into that world to write this one my phone, but a few seconds ago i stepped out of my bed to grab my water bottle, after a whole evening of planning and dreaming of a future in my head, talking about it with many people, looking at inspirations and examples,

and the sole of my foot touched the cold floor and suddenly i was a body again. a human under a blanket in a room under stars, and i touched my lips to the warmth of the flesh of my knee and i thought about how long it had been since i felt physically presently human. (since the days i studied outside in the sun i think) i’ve been in my head ever since.

and i wondered about if what it i put my phone down for days, and only lived with books, no studies because they make the time pass in a haze of nerves too. would time slow down and would i be a philosopher? would the narrating voice in my head quiet after a while? would i be a body again, or would i be a dreamer still?

i long to be only a body…

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❤︎ Blue eyeshadow ⊹ ࣪

In the 60s, blue eyeshadow was a symbol of the women's liberation movement and is a makeup staple of the time

I feel like we as a society should bring it back, period.

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i hate people. everyone's being so annoying lately.

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meeee

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"Would you peel an orange for me?"

I would peel a pomegranate for you.

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done healing my inner child. next up is my inner teen. her highness demands a sword.

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the fact that i'm no longer the same age as the protagonists of novels and films i once connected to is so heartbreaking. there was a time when I looked forward to turning their age. i did. and i also outgrew them. i continue to age, but they don't; never will. the immortality of fiction is beautiful, but cruel.