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I sought to see you here again, in the off chance… you sought to see me...?

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When (not if, when) we see mel and zag interact I NEED homer to say something about it and they both comment on it at the same time. The two of them just look at each other like “??? You hear the old man too???”

Please I really need to know if npc zag can also hear homer 😭

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It's a cliché to say that Tolkien's experiences in WWI affected all aspects of his writing, how he wrote about friendship and grief, how he wrote about desolate blasted landscapes. But I wish someone who knows more about Tolkien's military career could help me understand how Tolkien related to retreats. His description of Faramir keeping his people together on the retreat from Osgiliath is one of the best-written sequences in the trilogy, and hardly anyone remembers it. It's about a desperate retreat, and a leader whose presence, whose strength manages to keep it from turning into a rout. There's something very vivid in the descriptions: don't break formation, don't start running or they'll pick you off one by one, keep together, keep moving, hold all of that fear at bay. Tolkien describes that retreat as genuinely heroic, a superhuman act of will, one that exhausts Faramir almost to death, and Denethor still does not accept it as heroic because it's a retreat. It saved men but it lost territory, therefore in his eyes it's a failure.

Tolkien has strong opinions about heroic retreats, in the Silmarillion he sometimes gives the retreat-through-the-dangerous-wilderness plotline to female characters (Emeldir, Idril), he always writes them with respect. Sometimes, getting out of there and keeping most of your people alive is a great act of valour. I feel like he must have had a personal experience about what it means to retreat, and what it means to hold a retreat together, and what it means to get no thanks for it.

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today's bird is this green heron inspecting a bug

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The human body is such bullshit, I hate having to google shit like "why am I having stress symptoms when there are no sources of stress in my life".

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Can we find a sun god or diety from every timezone and make a map of them all?

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when you cook for everyone and they tell you how much they like the food

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friendship bracelets with the silver sisters

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computer open. Computer show me fictional guy

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Sam being constantly guilted throughout the show is so gut wrenching because he is doing everything he can to be seen as good to do good but no its always misread.

The whole thing w Gordon hating Sam for being devil spawn was so agonising because he genuinely starts to doubt himself he starts to doubt his own morals because everyone hes close to keeps whispering about how evil he can be in his ear. AND DEAN BEING AFRAID OF HIM MAKES THIS EVEN WORSE.

Sam definitely cried or cries himself to sleep at nighy wishing he was normal. The fact that he PRAYS AND THAT THE GOD HE PRAYS TO HATES HIM IS SO UPSETTING. Sam your catholic guilt is too big theyre going to kill you Sam Winchester.

His guilt is so immense i know he feels guilty for being alive. I know he stays up at night womdering what his life couldve been if he stayed with jessica. I cant imagine how lonely sam feels when he sees cas, dean and bobby interact. Cas and Dean have a special connection, Bobby sees Dean as his son theyre normal they dont have to deal with demon blood they dont have to be reminded everyday that theyre part monster.

I fear he envies Dean for that. That the angels trust him even though hes never prayed to them. That people worry and care for his wellbeing. Sam not really hes strong and can handle himself unless jes without dean. (Theyre each other saneness). Its so heartbreaking.

Fun fact by the way for all my non polish followers Sam in polish means hes alone and Samy means theyre alone. Polish Sam angst potential 😋🥰😍. His mother inadvertently calling Sam lonely, she knew his life would be a difficult one even if she hoped it wouldnt.

Anyways this is a messy post but im thinking a lot ab Sams catholic and not catholic guilt

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having ocs is so fucked .... i miss them so bad but im the guy who has to create new content. but im sleepy

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Leverage (2008) // the boys' lil handhake

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german words i wish existed in english

a messy and incomplete list

nachvollziehen (v.) -- to understand, but less empathetic. i.e. i see the steps that brought you to that conclusion, but i don't understand you.

doch (interj.) -- you're wrong and really it's the opposite of what you said. often said with a healthy dose of sass. i.e. "this isn't a good movie." "doch. (it is)"

frech (adj.) -- somewhere between naughty and sassy and silly. when you're being a bit of a brat, you're being frech.

dreist (adj.) -- audacious, but far more colloquial. when you have the goddamn audacity, you are dreist. i.e. to park that far over the line is dreist as hell

heimat (n.) -- home, but stronger. a home is wherever you have built a life, but heimat is where your roots are. heimat is where you feel pangs of nostalgia when you go to visit your family for christmas and see the shop at the corner.

weltschmerz (n.) -- literally 'world-pain'. the world sucks and sometimes you just sit and feel the pain of it all. that's weltschmerz.

existenzberechtigung (n.) -- the right to exist, often in a comedic context. i.e. pineapple on pizza has absolutely no existenzberechtigung.

fernweh (n.) -- literally 'far-ache'. the opposite of homesickness, the desire to go far away. i guess wanderlust is similar, but that is also a german word, and this is more painful and visceral

schweigen (v./n.) -- the act of not speaking. silence, but more deliberate. the palpable feeling that people are withholding their voice.

verschlimmbesserung (n.) -- when an update with the intention of making something better actually just made it worse. looking at you @staff

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Not my white ass locked in the duke’s dungeon again because I fucked his favorite jester 😩

I didn’t know he was so territorial over the silly little guy 🙄

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i hate it when i cant even write a poem about something because its too obvious. like in the airbnb i was at i guess it used to be a kids room cause you could see the imprint of one little glow in the dark star that had been missed and painted over in landlord white. like that's a poem already what's the point

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watched the stalks of a lavender bush by the bus stop dip and sway from the sheer amount of fat little bumblebees on it and you know what. some things in this world are good