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fatherhood is crazy

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Wesker wouldn't do me like that

Wesker would ........Wesker would just treat me like trash outright and that's ok 👍🤤

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i just

don't fucking care anymore

im too fucking weird and dysfunctional to understand relationships, all they do is make me feel sick and broken

i can't deal with intimacy because everybody seems to have a fucking agenda with it, why does it come preloaded with expectation? and when i don't perform? ugh. Unforgivable. Demean it. Try and take it down a peg, maybe that will make it open its legs.

i fucking hate men.

im going to stick to what makes me feel safe from now on

fuck me for trying to get out of my comfort zone

I'm too messed up for that. Fine. Maybe you all are too. Disgusting.

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WE WEED OUT THE WEAK AND HORNY 👹👹👹

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i love making an ass of myself in front of an emotionally intelligent and funny person who is also good and can make me not feel like a loser for being a human who is foolish and prone to social mishaps

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experiences romantic attraction for the first time in years

just fucking dies

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........Abrupt cold guys who are cold on the surface but with big caring hearts help

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mfw they have sexual humour that isn't utterly dehumanising and actually titillates even the pearl clutchers

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it's hard

i think love makes an animal of me

but not the kind of animal that can think and live for itself

a dog

a stupid pet

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hard being cold, i know i should be

hard not to feel warmth and love even after the fact

too soft, i shouldn't have to change that if that's just what i am

soft but immovable though

i can be soft and still keep it all at arms length

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ngl everything's making me angry atm just angry and frustrated, im struggling with relating to people again and feeling understood myself and it's making me feel... Not very kind and patient like i should be

i think some time alone to reflect would be good for me

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wow!!!! i love feeling fetishized and dehumanised and reduced to fuckmeat by a man when we were literally talking about anything but sex!!!!! i just loooove sexcentric men who view me as a porn category!!!!!! so nice and not damaging to my already fragile relationship with sex, intimacy and my self image at all!!!! /s

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sometimes i think my relationship with sex is fine and then i listen to Underwear by Pulp and have a full scale ugly crying breakdown

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*makes a minor mistake in speech or writing* Haha sorry i havent slept in 150 hours and im on experimental drugs given to me by an insane person with frazzled white hair

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bitches hate me because of my.... bad personality.... paranoid nature... addictive tendencies......the torture basement.

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I want to show you an actual training slide from my customer service job that I had to see yesterday.

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01:45 and we is basting a salmon