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Someone hurry up and invent a working time machine, I want to go back to the 1980's.

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I'm so done living with grown ass adults who refuse to lift a hand and who are toxic. They either have no idea or more likely they don't care how their actions could drive someone to drink or off a cliff.

I wish I had the funds to just wall away... cause I would and I'd never look back.

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Well we have been here 2 and a half months and life is slowly getting back to normal

New job is going well but a tad different then old job so there is a small learning curve. My youngest is finally driving, well learners DL, but it's a start. Will be nice to finally not be the only driver in the house. New kitty joined the household 2 days ago. I'll post her soon. Hope everyone has a great day...ttfn

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N11, Star Clouds of the LMC

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Daddy's quilt is coming along. https://www.instagram.com/p/CcQ3I4-uYMZ/?igshid=NGJjMDIxMWI=

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It's been several days since I returned home . I was able to get funds to go home and thankfully see my father alive. I'm home, he is thankfully still alive but under hospice care so our days are numbered. I do not want to be home... I want to be with him. I'm so lost and feel so alone....

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Day 2- still no call from one of my aunts. I don't think they'll call. My luck they won't and I'll find out fron lawyer my father is gone. It's not my fault they cut communication with me roughly 30 years ago. I was stuck in Florida and it was pre social media. I've tried over the years to find family from my dad's side to no avail. Facebook. IG. Ansestry.com. white pages search... nothing. Last night I found someone that according to info seen on site was my one aunt. I was at work so one of my kids called and person was super rude on phone and said he had the wrong person and he was insensitive cause person he claimed to be looking for died a few years ago. I told him he either had wrong person or was lied to cause the lawyer herself said BOTH aunts are alive and well.

I'm hurt, angry, sad, numb, and depressed all at the same time. If I had the funds, I'd already be on my way to Michigan right now to track my beloved father down.

I have no doubt they think I don't love him and don't want him in my life cause of all the years that past without contact. But I'm gonna say this again... it goes both ways. They could have made an effort to find me too!

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Well today has not gone as planned. Plan was go to work. Try to have a decent day and go home to 2 days off and house hunting. It's now just over 2 1/2 since I got a call about my father but left mote questions then I got answers and I'm heartbroken over this. He is alive for now, but is ill and in hospic. That usually means days... days...not weeks or months. I want to k ow where my daddy is, why he is there and how long till I am sadly a orphan as mother passed years ago. I'm still at work but honestly rather not be. But sadly I have bills to pay so I have no choice but to stay here!

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Hello

It's been a while since I have been here, but I'm hoping to get back to thus. However posts will no longer be jewelry related. I'm going back to my original intent. A place to post about my spiritual journey and growth. I have gotten away from what makes me happy and have ended up in survival mode, which I am no longer willing to do. I know this account isn't seen by many if any at all and honestly that's fine. This is a place for me to vent, reflect and just be. Most of, if not all posts from this time forward will be pagan based. I will not tolerate being bashed for my beliefs. So if you are a fanatic Christian or just a hater of the pagan lifestyle and beliefs, just hit the road and keep on scrolling.

That said, welcome my lovelies to Witchy Woman...

Blessed Be

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So beautiful! https://www.instagram.com/p/BzQ4uunhzrH/?igshid=9ldmhswsym5g

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