generotten

[generotten]

6 Balloons (2018) Directed by Marja-Lewis Ryan

[generotten]

        OUT.     hey    guys  !     i’m    still   here  to   write   but,  !  i’ll   confess  i’ve    gotta    do    another   re-watch   !   SO,   i’m    gonna    re-watch    the  series    this    weekend,   and  ?    hopefully    get   to  some    replies   on   sunday   <3  

[generotten]

When I was a little girl about your age, I was driving in the car with your grandmother, and we passed a house adorned with a forest of red roses. And I fell in love with that house, and with houses, all at once. I can live there forever, I thought. No one will ever find me there, either. I will light fires in the cool evenings and toast apples in my own hearth. People will come to me to have their fortunes told, and I will brew love potions for sad maidens. I will have a.. robin. I will have a robin. 

[generotten]

((Thank you for bringing your Luke to the tumblr RP community!))

                          OUT.  you’re   welcome   i  love  luke  crain   with   my  whole  heart  !    that  whole    show   is  ???   AMAZING   usually,   he’s    not  my   USUAL    muse    that    i   pick   up  but   ?   we   love     and  support   ALL  crains    in   this    house.   thank  you   so   much   for  sending    this   in  !!!  <3

[generotten]

when simon and garfunkel said “id rather be a forest” they really knew didnt they

[generotten]

Hill House, not sane, stood by itself against its hills, holding darkness within; (…) silence lay steadily against the wood and stone of Hill House, and whatever walked there, walked alone.

Shirley Jackson, from The Haunting Of Hill House (via adrasteiax)

[generotten]

NIRVANA .  adivines·

❝     it  gets  easier …     ❞     words  were  soft - spoken ,    however ,    they  were  followed  up  by  a  laugh .     ❝     sounds  like  shrink  bullshit ,    but  it  does .     ❞     nirvana  had  been  in  and  out  of  rehab  twice ,    it  was  her  third  admission  and  this  was  the  cleanest  and  most  promising  centre  she’d  been  to .     the  people  here  seemed  to  actually  want  you  to  stick  at  it  rather  than  just  leave  them  alone .     she’d  been  here  three  months ,    was  a  week  away  from  her  ninety  day  chip  and  it  was  the  longest  that  nirvana  had  been  sober  in  about  five  years .     her  first  trip  to  rehab  stuck  for  awhile ,    she  was  sober  until  twenty  three .     then  something  threw  her  down  the  rabbit  hole .     now she’s  twenty  eight ,    third  time’s  a  charm .

she’s  two  seats  down  from  him ,    hands  to  herself  and  her  body  facing  him  but  her  gaze  flickering  around  the  room .     it  was  hard  coming  into  rehab  and  harder  to  sit  there  withdrawing ,    support  was  always  nice  even  if  you  didn’t  want  it  or  really  need  it .     nirvana  knew  that  she  wished  she  had  someone  when  she  was  going  through  withdrawal .     ❝     i’m  nirvana .    ––––––    in  case  you  need  anything …     ❞     soft  smile ,    almost  awkward .     in  therapy  they  tell  you  that  you  shouldn’t  form  relationships  in  treatment ,    that  if  you  lean  too  hard  on  someone  else  that  they  snap .     nirvana’s  empathy  made  it  hard  for  her  to  stick  by  that  rule ,    even  if  she  began  to  bend  close  to  snapping  point .

@generotten·:    withdrawal day one.

                                                  It  hadn’t  been    his     idea  to  go  to  the  treatment  center,  no  it  was  a     GIFT    from  his  eldest  sister.  No  way  was  Luke  ready  to  give  up  heroin,  and  even    BEING    here  in  the  facility  was  enough  to  make  his  skin  crawl,  and  create  that  familiar  ITCH  he  never  learned  to  pacify.  He’s  been  in,  and  out  of  these  places  since  he  was     SIXTEEN                            addiction  starts  early  they  said.  Of  course,  his  drug  of  choice  had  been  cocaine,  and  some  pot.  Tried,  even  THEN  to  reason  with  Shirley,  to  tell  her  that  it  was  NORMAL  for  kids  to  experiment.  He’s  currently  concentrating  on  memorizing  the  rules  of  this  place,  each  of  them  given  a  handbook  that  laid  out  rules  quite  plainly.  Her  voice  causes  eyes  to  rise  as  he  gives  a  crooked  smile,  and  gives  a  nod  of  acknowledgment  in  her  direction.  “  Yeah,  it  isn’t  my  first  time  either  …  SHEEPISH  smile  exchanged,  these  places,  well  ?  I  dunno  they’ve  become  a  home  of  sorts.  ”  HEY,  it  beat  the  streets  that  he  ALWAYS  ended  up  on.

        Book  of  his  closes  as  he  extends  a  hand,     “    Luke.     ”      Voice  a      STARK      contrast  to  tall  frame,  a  sort  of  somewhat  melodious  voice  peppered  with  soft  diction.  “  Thanks  though  —  some  people  can  be  assholes  here  …  do  I  look  that  BAD  ?  ” GRATEFUL  for  light  conversation  to  break  his  concentration  on  thinking  about  that  needle  he  so  badly  wanted  to  inject  into  veins.  The  way  he’d  study  staff  as  they  went   in  and  out  of  the  medical  wing,  anything  to  get  his  hands  on  something  that  would  dull  senses  temporary.  

[generotten]

[generotten]

just think ! right now ? lukes sober :))))))))

[generotten]

                                  SINCE  !  with  every  muse  i  have  i  seem  to  incorporate    music    with    them    ? i’m going to take the time to talk about      simon & garfunkel     and what they mean to luke. music has been a huge part of his life (  he finds it sometimes drowns out the voices he hears, and sometimes even pacifies the spirits  ). when his mother died he relied heavily on folk music (    it reminded him the most of her   ) && it was the album     bridge over troubled water     that he played    ENDLESSLY    especially ‘the only living boy in new york’   there  was  something  about  that  album  that  calmed  him  down,  and  he  obviously  shared  his  love  of  simon  &  garfunkel  with nell.  The  two  of  them  probably  by  the  end  of  that  first  year  of  living  at  their  aunts  knew  that  album  backwards  and  forwards.  he  also  plays  it  when  one  of  them  is  feeling  down,  and  since  they  have  that  shared  ‘twin’  thing  it’s  how  he  tries  to  cheer  nell  up. 

                                        In  the  later  years  luke  starts  to  eventually  stray  away  from  folk  music  (  and  eventually  STOPS  listening  to  them  )  —  he  hears  simon  &  garfunkel  playing  again  when  he’s  in  his      FIRST     rehab  treatment  center  &&  you  BET  !  nell  can  recognize  that  feeling.  thought  it  takes  luke  various  attempts  at  rehab  to  have  it  stick,  when  it  does  ?  he  finally  sits  down  for a  few  hours,  and  listens  to  ALL  their  albums,  taking  his  time  as  he  let’s  the  music  sort  of  soothe,  and  it’s  with  those  albums  that  it  makes  that        30  days  sober       something  that  he  can  handle.  when  the  music  is  re-introduced  to  his  life  he  slowly  starts  to  deal  with  his  addiction,  and  face  the  things  in  his  past  that  he  never  properly  dealt  with.  the  music  never  is  played  when  spirits  come  to  talk  to  him  anymore  though,  since  ?  luke  is      OPEN      to  the  idea  of  being  a  conduit,  and  helping  others  deal  with  whatever  grief,  and  he  NOW  knows  how  to  properly  deal  with  the  overwhelming  emotion  that  comes  with  EACH  spirit  stepping  forward.  

[generotten]

“I can face anything but reality.”

— Allen Ginsberg

[generotten]

“He can do it.”

The Haunting of Hill House 1x2

[generotten]

I don’t understand why you’re all not appreciating Hugh Crain;

The guy lost his wife, the love of his life, his best friend, his partner

Probably lost a lot of money from all the house repair and a lawyer since he didn’t want to sell the house

Lost the love and trust of his children that they become distant from him

Has been humiliate in public (tabloids, damn his case has probably been broadcast nationwide or something)

The guy must’ve been suffering a lot with grief, regret, guilt, humiliation, the trauma and a broken heart that the only way he could cope was imagining Olivia talking to him to get him back on his feet

Is burdened with the truth about the house and Olivia’s death

Despite all of it all, he cared about his kids. Hell, he would’ve killed himself too the moment he saw Olivia dead, but he didn’t because of them. He didn’t even want them to be involved with the police for the sake of keeping their image discreet. Hugh has been putting his kids first before himself. And the fact that his children grew up hating and ignoring him is just so sad.

[generotten]

THE HAUNTING OF HILL HOUSE    ––––    EPISODE ONE   !

STEVEN SEES A GHOST :  various sentences  (  157  )  from the first episode of the netflix series “the haunting of hill house”  –   feel free to adapt to suit pronouns.

whatever walked there, walked alone

it’s okay ____, go back to bed

do you want me to wake up mom and dad ?

i’ve got it

you okay, ____ ?

you scared ?

i get scared too sometimes

why are you awake ____ ?

what was it ?

ugh, her again ? where was she ?

big brothers are good like that

maybe she’s hiding

i guess everybody can go back to bed now

kid’s dreams are special, they’re like an ocean

dreams can spill out sometimes

i know that bent-neck lady is really scary

how long do we have to live here ?

i love you, sweetie

sweet dreams

pandas, huh ?

pandas don’t eat macaroni

is everyone alive ?

_______’s sleep-talking again

anything good ?

do you remember that storm ?

the car flipped over and you couldn’t see it from the road

so, when did it start ?

it started with drops of water, like rain drops, falling on to my face

you just stare at it like you’re an idiot

it wasn’t a scream

i should probably scream

i tripped and i looked back and he wasn’t there

that’s a very interesting story

i’d like to look around your house

i’m sorry, i should have told you

i’m a fan

i can’t imagine what it was like living there

you got me beat

you’ve seen more than i ever have

i’ve never seen a ghost

well, i hope tonight is a game changer for you

how are your brother and sister’s doing ?

won’t you miss your brother ?

i’d rather sleep here

i’ll stay with her a bit

*forehead kiss*

Keep reading

[generotten]

🔦

[generotten]