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83.8

So I guess that's what happens when you over eat :/ We are off to the city today to go to a gallery and have lunch with the in laws. I ate so late last night that I'm not sure if I want to enforce my fast today. I don't want to be to harsh on myself when I lose control and make it harder for myself for the rest of the weekend. We'll see...

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83.4

Friday 11 October

Went to the gym which was good and maintained my fast but ate way too much last night. I will try not to dwell on it too much and spiral. Dug up my Fitbit and the screen is broken but it does technically sync. I'll keep wearing it but hopefully I can get a new one soon so I have an up to date step tracker which is what I think need.

Food Iced latte lamb shanks with vegetables and rye bread dried mango freeze dried sour worms rainbow vege crisps

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83.6

Thursday 10 October

How humbling is myfitnesspal? Logged in for the first time in forever and logged yesterday's food which I thought was not too bad and it was 5468kj lol :/.

Anyway today I had to deep focus on some work so my 14 hour fast from dinner to breakfast was pretty alright. My reward for getting the big task done was getting to go on here and log my food and thoughts. I think I'm going to have to do that pretty obsessively for awhile until it becomes my new normal. I like the feeling of control and focus though. I think it will ultimately improve my workload management as well. Dream version of myself is to wakeup early, drink peppermint tea, and deep work. To be on top of things enough to get it all done and stop being behind on everything. To wake up joyfully and excited to move through my day. I've definitely got some work to do on myself.

Food Iced Matcha Latte Steamed Eggs

Chores loaded and set the dishwasher

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83.7

Wednesday 9 October So finished eating around 9pm last night so I can't eat until 11am at least lol. Rejected hubby's offer to get me an iced latte this morning and am instead sitting next to my peppermint tea as I write this.

I was good yesterday. I washed my face. I took my vitamins. Definitely could have drunk more water. I ordered a cute Alemais dress in anticipation of Christmas party season which arrived last night. It's an Australian size 14 US 10 and it doesn't quite fit around my waist. It buttons up though. I think fitting into this dress in time for Christmas is a very achievable goal. I wonder how good I can look in it by the time my work Christmas party is on?

Ordered a bunch of other work clothes because I don't fit into mine right now and it's making me feel very self conscious and uncomfortable on office days. A lot of them didn't look good or fit well unfortunately. I know it's not really a clothes thing but an I am fat thing. I need to make sure I do some exercise today.

My first goal weight is 80 kilograms. I'd like to hit that before the end of the month.

Food Iced Matcha Latte Salmon Poke Bowl

Steamed Egg baked pumpkin and sweet potato

2 Buttermilk rusks

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Office Day

Tuesday 8 October Food Iced matcha latte sushi tiger roll tamago biltong, apple, celery, cucumber

Thoughts Trying to find weightloss content today on tiktok and listening to more of All I Ever Wanted Was to Be Hot on audible was keeping my head somewhat on the topic. I realise my brain has been fried for a while now and I actually just forget what my goals are really quickly just living. That's definitely part of my struggle. The dream weightless content I'm after is that mix of hot unattainable girl I can dream about being with hard realistic guide on what she eats and does for exercise. Usually I find one or the other. I'll use Tumblr for the same I guess. Did realise that when I was my fittest I was adhering to a 14-16 hour fast between dinner and breakfast and so Im going to attempt that again. Actually the first strict rule I'm going to impose on myself in this journey. I'm nervous to impose rules I'll fail to manage so I will go slow on aims like a calorie count for the day. I will start tracking what I'm eating a bit more so I can start to see where I am then make the goal achievable.

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Gaslighting yourself/affirming practice lol

pretending you are already skinny and do skinny girl things pretending you're a clean freak and staying running errands pretending you're already a creative and generous soul in abundance

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84.9

Monday 7 October

And that's how much I weigh. Totally embarrassing. So now I'm going to have to track everything and force myself to get back on track. Health check Just finished my period and I'm just calming my skin back down but overall it's not too acne-y. I do worry sometimes seeing the texture of my skin that it's getting old but I should just keep up my collagen eating. My main concern right now is my hair and scalp I've been quite dandruffy lately and oily and ratty. Washed my brush and cut my hair last night to try to help. Will commit to showering and washing my hair more regularly.

Food Iced matcha latte and blueberries

2 lamb ribs and some baked pumpkin and sweet potato

Wagyu biltong and apple

Cup of tea

Chores stripped and changed the bed put a load of washing on

Reading The Three-Body Problem by Cixin Liu and on audiobook, All I Ever Wanted Was to Be Hot by Lucinda Price

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Note to self

Good girls on the daily: -read books -exercise -stretch and roll -drink water first thing in the morning and last thing at night -eat their vegetables (5 serves a day and a mix of colours!!) -wash their face -brush and oil their hair -do something nice for their man -do at least one chore