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Pre-Tadpole Durge: "This is going great. I have this wicked cool crown controlling a superpowerful creature of raw hatred who will now do what I command. My awesome boyfriend is going to take over the city, I'll earn my father's affection, and I'll get to kill so many people which I love to do, it's my favorite thing ever. Literally nothing can go wrong."

The nefarious Orin the Red:

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Graphite portrait of Astarion

I made this drawing for a project, I needed to draw Astarion with his greatness... especially her gaze. I love his eyes.

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Wisteria Jannath fun club reporting for duty.

First of all, let’s get one thing straight — I believe Wisteria and Fierllia Jannath are separate characters. We only get a journal entry from Wisteria (the infamous Perfumed Days, Passionate Nights), while we meet Fierllia in person. It wouldn't make sense, given Fierllia's age, for her to have had an affair with Gortash. In the diary, he's described as a young scapegrace, and for her years melted away, so the timeline doesn’t add up. My assumption is that Wisteria is Fierllia’s mother (we do get a letter from her mother, though she isn’t named).

With that out of the way, let’s continue.

[A lavender-scented diary of florid prose that describes Lady Wisteria Jannath's brief but torrid affair with a young scapegrace named Enver Gortash. A typical excerpt reads as below.]

'When he held me in his burly yet tender arms, it was as if years melted away and I was once again the reigning debutante of the Upper City’s soirees and cotillions. What matter if the diamond ring I gifted him, heirloom of the Jannaths for generations, was worth more than the value of the mansion? It looked so well glittering on his long, strong fingers, and his glowing smile as he slipped it on was worth a dozen mansions - or more!'

Reading this fragment, I get why some people headcanon her as naive and swept up by Gortash’s charm. However, I don’t agree with that take.

The Jannaths are described as a wealthy family of mine-owners, descended from the former Duke of the city, Lila Jannath (a character in Baldur’s Gate I, so over 100 years prior). So while we’re assuming Wisteria wasn’t born a Jannath, she married into one of the most important patriar families. Even if it was an arranged marriage, we can safely assume she was from a patriarchal house herself (especially if that’s the case).

And from Perfumed Days, Passionate Nights, it’s clear she was of considerable age (at least middle-aged). I simply can’t imagine that, as the wife of a Jannath, she’d be gullible enough to fall for such a simple ruse. She’s a veteran of high society, of ‘Upper City’s soirees and cotillions’, and she’s clearly excited about the affair. She even seems proud of it (as @kaava pointed out).

To me, she knows exactly what this kind of arrangement is about: mutual benefit. She gets the thrill of courting a much younger, dangerous man, and he gets her money and influence in return. And yes, she’s enthusiastic, she’s into the romance of it. She gets to feel young again. But people aren’t that simple. You can know something and still let yourself believe it’s something else. You can allow yourself the fiction of it.

Moreover, I think it’s a genre thing. A particular way in which ladies of society write in their journals. Using a real-world parallel, there were conventions the elite were raised with, taught, and then perpetuated in their lives; whether consciously or not. So she’s crafting her own fiction, rewriting the story to fit within that frame. It’s not a one-to-one reflection of facts or even her full emotional reality.

This got a bit long, sorry! But with the recent abundance of Wisteria/Gortash fics, I’ve got a lot of feelings about this aging society tigress.

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'S like a reward ✨️✨️

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WIP Wednesday

Thank you to @aryriddle and @mad-rigals for the tags last week and for sharing your amazing works!! I can't wait to gobble up both of your works. I'm just getting round to this tag now after a busy couple of weeks of work. I've just published Chapter 1 of my new two part durgetash smut fic, so here's a little snippet from Chapter 2 (the smutty chapter)...

Where she hoped he would rush and rip he slowed, savouring the drag of the fabric over her skin as he unclothed her piece by piece, leaving her standing in nothing but her underwear. He toyed with the bow knotting the lacing at the front of her bra, teasing her with his hesitation. When it came undone he pushed the bra off, letting it fall to the floor. She shivered at the ghost of his touch over her shoulders, her skin rising into goosebumps, nipples pebbling. Yet still he didn’t touch her. He gave a satisfied hum at the sight of her bare breasts, the sort that made her insides flutter, and moved to undo the lacing either side of her panties. ‘As our work advances, there’s really no need for us to spend any night apart,’ he muttered, fingering the ribbon. ‘Not one more.’ ‘Enver-’ He hesitated, stroking over her hipbone with his thumb. ‘For the good of the plot, of course.’ She supposed that all of it must have been for the good of the plot: the simmering heat dropping low in her pelvis under his heavy gaze, the twinned millimetres their pupils dilated, the giving-way of the fabric that dropped to her ankles without a second thought.

I tag you both back @mad-rigals and @aryriddle, but I also tag @afilmnoirdetective, @blacklodge13, @snekkinsnerpent, @tyrantslittlebhaalbabe, @roguishcat, @marlowethebard, and anyone else who would like to join!!!

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I was never be a DnD player, but this man.... omg

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late night dreaming of this

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*A depiction of a handsome younger man with a quick and easy smile…*

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why is this smut 12,000 words oh lord what have i done

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One of my favorite Durgetash headcanons is that in private, after Durge's disappearance, Gortash has full-on raging, screaming, sobbing meltdowns that last for hours.

Grief is not an emotion he knows how to process. He keeps up the façade in public, but the second he's alone, he just... falls apart.

He goes from this

To this

In two minutes flat

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Durge who is vicious and brutal when they kill yet unbelievably tender with Gortash

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yeah bro it's a character study. the 2 thousand words of blowjob is vital to the study of the character

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You did it accidentally Durge?

the inspiration:

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my durge/gortash experience in a nutshell

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No it's not that I don't appreciate the flirting, I just wish you wouldn't do it while I'm in the middle of vivisecting you. Yes I know that it's really hot when I'm covered in your blood elbow deep in your chest cavity that's why I keep vivisecting you. But I keep getting flustered and dropping your liver and its really slippery so I keep dropping it over and over again leading to very comedic slapstick comedy where I slip on your blood and fall over really funny