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Sometimes brain damage is funny. Today I started singing Wonderful Christmastime while making lunch and didn't realize it wasn't December until I looked at my phone.

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Don't feel good. Still stressed about money and eating and keeping contact with my mom.

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One of my neighbors asked if I had lost weight.

Like I was in a medical coma for almost 72 hours less than a month ago, and now I can't open my mouth all the way. It would not surprise me. But like I don't want to talk about it. I'm going bald and my blood work is awful.

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A bunch of my pants are starting to get thin spots. I don't know if I should try to replace them or if it's not worth it, since I rarely go anywhere and have too many bills already.

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If anybody sees this can you encourage me to eat? I'm still not doing well. I just don't have the desire to eat. I even tried buying the ingredients to make one of my favorite meals. I don't want to do it.

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Medicaid and the medical team agree I don't need to stay longer so they're letting me go on Thursday. I still feel like shit and my blood pressure is still spiking but they're still making me go home 😭

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here's your regular reminder that if you consistently, regularly get headaches, you are almost certainly having migraines, not regular headaches.

MOST recurrent headaches are migraine headaches.

"migraine" does not mean "extremely painful headache." it is a type and source of pain, not a degree of pain. migraines can also include some or all of the following: fatigue, sensitivity to light and sound, visual auras, nausea or vomiting, dizziness, cognitive impairment, etc. these symptoms can be mild or severe and it may actually be difficult to determine if you have them. (who wants a bright light in their eyes during a headache?? i thought that's just how headaches were lmao.)

this is important because while aspirin, NSAIDs like ibuprofren, and other over-the-counter pain meds can effectively alleviate migraine pain, getting diagnosed with migraines allows for a wider range of treatments and preventatives.

it's also important because, in my opinion, your average general practice doctor is not equipped to diagnose you with chronic migraine. don't go to one expecting them to. a neurologist with migraine specialty is a better option, although a regular doctor can still be useful if they listen to you lol.

my life would be miserable and unmanageable without sumatriptan. and i never would have gotten a prescription for sumatriptan if i hadn't gone to my GP and said, "i have migraines and want to try migraine medicine," even though at the time i wasn't 100% sure that was true.

if you have chronic headaches, they're almost certainly migraines. if no one has said that to you before, let me be the first. start treating your migraines.

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let’s get on mama’s last nerve

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people who use mental health terminology to defend their shitty behavior actually drive me insane--sorry neurodivergent. you don't want to see what reddit has turned adhd into

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It's an electric rat!!

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Still in intensive physical and speech rehab. Really tired but I got to shower and go outside and I'm getting my head wound cleaned today. :)

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Brain surgery update: Having a piece of metal in my skull is wild. can't wear glasses for long because my skull is swollen. Medicaid hasn't approved or denied rehabilitation yet, so still in limbo in Nuero Acute Care.

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They finally got me up and walking today and it looks like I'm going to spend a couple weeks in an intensive physical rehab

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cat with creature :)

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ugh. a month at the new job and i’m still playing from behind.

hopefully this is the last time i ever have to do this.

p*ypal c*sh app v*nmo

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BUNNUSHKA...

Is out now!

Inspired by this photo:

It's about a bunny living a slow, peaceful life in the countryside. Players role play as sweet little Bunnushka and write journal entries based on seasonal prompts. You can also roll to add in book reviews, write letters, record recipes, and write poems.

You can use your own journal or print out stationery I designed!

Also, I made a playlist so you can listen to Bunnushka's radio. If you'd like to listen along, go here.

PLAY BUNNUSHKA

My games are always free and I'd love to know your thoughts!