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It would be real fucked up if anteaters and aardvarks and armadillos and pangolins were all like herons. Instead of like themselves the trundlers

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MONKEY MAN (2024)

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There is a weird segment of people who love to make it very clear they are "against the actions of the Israeli government", like every other sentence they make it a point that this is about "the Israeli government" which is boring but also ignorant because it pretends as if everything that is happening is only the Israeli government’s fault. 

As if it was the Israeli government who marched out of settlements and set children and families on fire. 

As if it was the Israeli government who is protesting at the Gaza border trying to prevent aid trucks from entering.

As if it was the Israeli government that burnt thousand year old olive trees and shot the people harvesting them in the chest. 

As if it was the Israeli government that went into the Ibrahimi Mosque at dawn and committed a massacre killing 28 worshippers. 

As if it was the Israeli government who went out with lawn chairs to sit on hilltops to watch and cheer as bombs dropped on Gaza.

As if it was the Israeli government posting TikToks mocking and celebrating Palestinian deaths.

There is a reason they are so eager to pose their opposition to be “against the Israeli government” because they need to pretend that it is only the "current Israeli government" at fault in order to maintain the illusion that Israel isn’t a genocidal entity to its core.

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thinking about how when you experience a lot of shame in your formative years (indirectly, directly, as abuse or just as an extant part of your environment) it becomes really difficult to be perceived by other people in general. the mere concept of someone watching me do anything, whether it's a totally normal activity or something unfamiliar of embarrassing, whether I'm working in an excel spreadsheet or being horny on main, it just makes my skin crawl and my brain turn to static because I cannot convince myself that it's okay to be seen and experienced. because to exist is to be ashamed and embarrassed of myself, whether I'm failing at something or not, because my instinctive reaction to anyone commenting on ANYTHING I'm doing is to crawl into a hole and die. it's such a bizarre and dehumanizing feeling to just not be able to exist without constantly thinking about how you are being Perceived. ceaseless watcher give me a god damn break.

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plagues history and global epidemiology as an autistic special interest was already a heavy topic but not a day goes by I dont briefly recall drunkenly telling people at the bar in autumn 2019 “yeah the next pandemic will probably be a coronavirus and we’re due for one”

if they remember that i have to wonder if they think they met the devil at the club that night

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Reading queer theory is crazy it's like. Here's a bunch of stuff you've been vaguely annoyed by but unable to put into words & why people act like that. And you're like wow that was really insightful & then you go back to watching the way people behave & your vague annoyance has been replaced with crystal clear well-articulated annoyance. I'm gonna start throwing books at people

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let’s settle this shit but do NOT reblog if you’re gonna be modest about it like a little BITCH. anyway privilege check tell me which ones apply to you: hot, funny, can dance, can do math, can spell, can drive, can cook

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why does my caladium act like she is starving for light. hang on

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what is your holy trinity of fruits

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has anybody seen my pet piece of paper. his name is walter he is very fragile but very adventurous. i should never have left the window open in my tenth story apartment

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There’s still debate about split attraction on my dash why do you people even care

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finding out there's a frankenstein ballet and that it was in october of last year…DEVASTATING

look at this. look at these. im foaming at the mouth

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i feel like a lot of the 'i hate kids' crowd would be more tolerant if they understood that due to a kid's limited experience of the world that 4 hour flight might just be the longest they've ever had to sit still for or that trapped finger might literally be the most pain they've ever felt in their short life or they might not have ever seen a person with pink hair ever so of course they want to touch it or nobody's told them yet that they can't run around the museum and they only just learned cheetahs are the fastest animals so of course they want to put that to the test. how were they supposed to know etc etc.

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It pisses me the fuck off that yoga is actually ancient and really good for you. Part of me still feels like it was invented to extract wealth from white socal moms.

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More stories from hell (retail) today I was ringing up this lady and she goes oh I want to do part of this on a gift card and the rest on normal card and I go ok and then she hands me a folded piece of paper. I think oh OK it must be folded around the gift card, right? Wrong. It is a folded sheet of 8×11 printer paper with "$40" written on the inside in ballpoint pen. I go what is this. She says a gift card. I say this is not a gift card. She says yes it is. I say this is a piece of paper with "$40" written on it. She says "well it's a gift card." I say it absolutely is not. I am grinding my teeth. She says well I want to use it. I say you physically cannot do that bc it is a piece of paper. I cannot scan or swipe it. I apologize, as if this is my fault, and not because she is completely insane. I hate it here