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though she hadn't anticipated rejection in any way , it was reassuring to hear diablo accept her little invitation , much like a teenage girl asking her crush on a first date . but then he mentioned having been alone for most of his life and of course , whatever semblance of a heart laid within her chest shattered into a thousand little pieces . she knew he didn't need her pity or anyone else's , but gosh . ❛ i didn't know you then , but i'm here now . you're not alone , ❜ even if the current circumstances might've made it seem like it . things were a bit different now , strange , distant , but sibella knew where her feelings were . they'd never left diablo .

the vampire was just about to accept his hand when she felt his arm wrap around her smaller frame , bringing her into him and for the briefest moment , it was as if everything was back to normal . at least their normal . her eyes closed as she basked in the feeling of his embrace , taking in his scent mixed with the alcohol and cigarettes . how was it possible to miss someone so much even when they sleep by your side every night ? ❛ i love you- ❜ she replied hurriedly , but he pulled away from her so quickly that it left sibella wondering if diablo had heard her . he knew she was still desperately in love with him , didn't he ? ❛ ah ... oh , right ! there's a lot to tell , i'll try not to talk your ears off , ❜ a chuckle , though it wasn't as lively as it used to be . how could she laugh when he wouldn't even look at her ?

despite her efforts to make conversation here and there , dropping tiny bits of information on what she'd spent the entire day reading without giving too much away , the whole walk home left sibella thinking that maybe she was an inconvenience , something that diablo might regret . that was the reason why she became silent the closer they got to their apartment , waiting patiently until they were both inside . as she went inside , the vampire briefly greeted hex with a gentle pet before turning to look at diablo again ; really look at him , take note of every little detail as she'd done so many times before despite never feeling like it was enough . she felt it was important , especially when the love of your life ages more and more by the minute while you don't .

brows furrow together and though she hesitates at first , it isn't long before sibella breaks the silence . ❛ you barely even look at me these days , ❜ she noted . ❛ not- not that you have to but i ... it's like- it's like you're not even mine anymore , like you've gone away . ❜ and that notion was ridiculously painful in itself . still , the vampire stood still , inhaling deeply as she tried to keep a pool of blood red tears to form in her eyes . ❛ i know i hurt you , i know i don't deserve your forgiveness but this is just- ... tell me how to fix it or- or where to start . please , i'll do anything . ❜ a pause , ❛ even if you don't want me in your life anymore , just tell me . i'll hate myself for the rest of time for what i did , but i'll let you go . ❜

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Work had been such a drag for Diablo as of late. Most things had though. For most of his life his existence seemed pointless, nothing mattered, and there was no light in his life to consume the darkness that shrouded him. Life hadn't seemed pointless or like nothing mattered, but lately it sure felt like that darkness was starting to creep back up and take the light away. That light was Sibella. She was the one who made him feel like he had a purpose and she was what mattered most to him. That night had been stressful and by the end Diablo was left with a black eye and bruised knuckles. He lingered by the bar for a bit, having a few drinks with some of his coworkers. He hadn't wanted to talk to anyone though. He wanted to enjoy his drinks alone.

After finishing the one he had in his hand he set the glass on the bar and left for the door. When it swung open Diablo wasn't expecting to see his girlfriend waiting outside for him. Some days he would, but not lately. "Of course we can walk home together," he said as if it were obvious. Diablo pulled a pack of cigarettes out of his jacket pocket then lit one. I didn't want you to be alone. The words echoed in his ears and he looked over at her, expression sad for the slightest moment. "I would have been fine. Or did you forget I've been alone most of my life?"

In the hand opposite to the one holding a cigarette he held his hand out for her take, his eyes pleading for her to do so. He missed her touch. A chaste kiss to say good night and holding her hand wasn't enough. Before she could take his hand he dropped it then took a step towards her and wrapped his arm around her tightly to embrace her. He didn't say anything for a moment then pressed a long kiss to the top of her head. He felt deprived of his girlfriend. Not only physically but also emotionally. "I love you," he murmured into her hair. Diablo pulled away then actually grabbed her hand this time but didn't look at her. "Let's go home. You can tell me about the books you got and what Phyllis had to say," was all he said before inhaling the cigarette again.

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VAMPIRE HUNTER D: BLOODLUST

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i am fine thank you for asking! though recently there has been a darkness growing within me

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the love witch , 2016

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location: grub & pub ୨୧ @lightthematches

❛ ... why do i get the feeling you're judging me right now ? ❜ the vampire frowned , both hands delicately wrapped around the burger she'd only just started digging into . sibella was sure she wouldn't be having this conversation had it been any other person accompanying her , except for maybe diablo or one of her girl ghouls . but alas , she missed maddox and where she came from , it was good manners to share a meal with your loved ones — or it would be , if her father didn't survive on a blood - only diet . such is the price of being a pure blooded vampire . another bite . ❛ is it weird that i want to have dinner with a dear friend ? plus i'll bat miss grimwood would love this ! someone needs to keep an eye on you too , you know . ❜ it wasn't that sibella didn't trust the others with said task but in all fairness , she'd always considered herself responsible for the group ; including maddox . maybe it was a matter of unspoken shared custody over the ghouls , and sibella took it very seriously . it was lucky that none of them went missing .

after a brief moment of silence , a thought occurred to her , making the vampire said her food down and reach for her drink . ❛ you didn't think i was inviting you to come with me to the blood bank , did you ? ❜ she laughs , but there's a nervous strain to the sound . ❛ now that would be batty ! ❜

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welp , talk about awkward ! something about witnessing someone else's protection charm shatter right before her made sibella think of home , the variety of wards transylvanians would set up to repell her kind , and her beloved father's words about humanity . it also made her wonder if she was the thing the other girl's charm meant to repell . ❛ my , you've got the fright stuff ! thing's been all kinds of batty all around , it probably kept you safe for a long time . ❜ the vampire exclaimed sweetly , weary but fascinated nonetheless . must be what happens when your school's headmistress is a witch . ❛ but what exactly are you trying to protect yourself from , if you don't mind my asking ? maybe i can help ! ❜

Allison held the protection charm in her hand with a confused look on her face, unsure. "Well that's odd," she mused out loud. It had broken out of nowhere something that didn't normally happen, after all she'd made sure to defend herself against any bad intentions. "I might need to go buy a new one, and make a list to cleanse whatever it is that's on me."

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*kicking my feet n giggling* you're kinda scary

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location: outside wonderland ♡ @dicblo

when sibella came up with the idea to walk diablo home from work , she didn't really consider how silly she probably would look to any passerby should there be anyone out and about this late into the night . she could practicly hear maddox yelling from across the street about how she looked more like a lost girl scout than vampire royalty , with the way her bag was practically overflowing with tomes borrowed from the public library ( thanks phyllis ! ) . she didn't usually present herself like this when venturing to places like wonderland , but it was funny to think of how diablo had become her main reason for still frequenting the club . her only reason , really . maybe at first she'd been intrigued by the aesthetics or the copious amounts of red , but that really only happened the first couple of times , until it wasn't about any of that at all . many of the things she did were for and because of diablo these days .

as her eyes wandered around the street for what felt like the hundredeth time now , she heard the door open and immediately felt the tiniest bit of air fill her lungs again . things had been different for a little while now and sibella was completely sure it was possible to miss someone even if you're waking up next to them everyday . ❛ hi , ❜ she greeted . what if he thought she was treating him like a child , what if he didn't want to see her just yet ? ❛ i was- i went to the library after work and ... phyllis and i had a lot of catching up to do , ❜ she told him , the tiniest hint of a smile touching her lips at the thought of her friend and how happy she seemed that day . lucky phyllis . ❛ i thought we could walk home together ... unless you'd rather go by yourself or stay a little longer , ❜ though her expression faltered a bit . vampires weren't particularly good with rejection . after a brief moment , sibella spoke again . ❛ i didn't want you to be alone . ❜

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location: the library , afterhours ♡ @wildcstwinter

❛ i swear all of these tiny letters are starting to blur for me right now . can't even distinguish ' carpathian ' from ' carpenter ' , ❜ and considering sibella had way - above - average eyesight , the fact that she could barely stand to continue reading probably meant it really was time for a break . a well needed one , too . green eyes wandered over to her ghoulfriend , watching as phyllis so graciously brought over what sibella assumed were the last of the library's books on vampiric studies over the centuries , from ancient times to now . she needed answers , desperately so , and what better way to get those than by paying a visit to her favorite little phantom ? ❛ it never gets old , seeing you actually holding things . ❜ a giggle escapes as the vampire sets her latest read down , definitely giving up for the time being . it was that watching phyllis indulge in humanity was the only thing that could bring sibella a pure smile these days . ❛ what's left in your bucket list , anything i can help with ? or does the whole thing require a more alien approach to it , hmm ? ❜ she wiggled her brows lightly , then smiled . ❛ you're glowing , you know , and not in a preternatural way ! ❜

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WHAT DID YOU DO ? the question reverberated in her mind for several seconds , both in his gentle voice as well as her own ; except a thousand times angrier and more desperate . anger and resentment were two things sibella didn't usually feel , being the calm and comforting presence she always strived to be . still , both emotions seemed to perfectly describe her feelings towards her self as of late . ❛ you know what i did , ❜ she replied quietly , allowing herself to look at diablo . like she even deserved to . ❛ i hated doing it but i had to . i had to know if- ❜ the vampire stopped . she should have rehearsed this , practiced over and over again in hopes it would make the whole thing easier , but that would entail facing her demons and that was the very thing sibella had been avoiding since birth .

slowly , as if asking him to follow , sibella made her way towards the bathroom and upon reaching it , she began wiping the blood off her skin with water and a face towel . it was a sloppy job , any decent vampire would know that , but maybe she need it that way . a reminder that even if she tried to hide , nature would find a way to catch up to her . ❛ i didn't always enjoy drinking blood , ❜ she began , breaking the silence . ❛ i used to think i'd be just fine without it , being half human and all ... i was really stupid back then . still am . ❜ wiping her stained fingers , she lowered her gaze towards her hands . ❛ i think- ... i don't know who i am anymore , ❜ sibella whispered . ❛ i didn't want to drink some random person's blood , i'd never ! but- ... but i've been so hungry , so hungry . this craving for more and more and i just- ... is it always gonna be like this ? after my clock stops ticking , which it will , soon , after everyone's gone , after you're gone , is this the only thing i'll have left ? can i do it , just- just for survival's sake , relying on pure instict ? ❜ brows furrow together , ❛ after everything i've done , am i really that kind of monster ? ❜

❛ so i made an experiment , i ... i went hunting . for the first time in a long time , even before we got together . ❜ there's a small , barely existent smile that dares brush upon her lips , though it's filled with melancholia and brief . ❛ i had to know if i could do it , so i can do it when you leave ... we're a year closer to that day now . ❜ there was no way she could celebrate their anniversary ( or her birthday ) without being reminded of the fact . she couldn't fully allow herself to live in the moment and enjoy their relationship for what it was ; the future was coming , it was just around the corner and god , it was terrifying . ❛ and i tried . i sank my teeth into someone else's neck , and i hated it . i hated everything about it and i have never , ever felt hopeless as i do now . ❜

stepping out of the bathroom , sibella let her eyes wander around the apartment for a moment . it ocurred to her then that she'd started hex when flying in , but she'd just have to apologize later . hopefully the kitten wouldn't hate her for that , or for what was happening in their living room right now . ❛ you should break up with me , ❜ green eyes lock into deep brown ones . though she was trying her best to keep a neutral expression , the struggle in her heart couldn't be more obvious on her features . ❛ i - i can't do it , so it has to be you . you have to leave me now so it won't hurt as much when you're gone ... i know you're scared , too . ❜

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There was a heavy absence of his girlfriend as Diablo had sat alone in their apartment alone for most of the night. It was rare Sibella wasn't home before him, though he'd made it a point to be home before midnight because he knew the minute the clock struck twelve it was officially be Sibella's birthday and their first anniversary together. It was strange, devoting an entire year to another person other than himself. It almost made him feel selfless instead of selfish for once. Almost. He'd wanted to surprise Sibella. Diablo may not be the most romantic guy in the world but he knew how to try when it counted. He'd thought for weeks and weeks on how to make it special for her. He knew this birthday might be difficult for his girlfriend, to say the least. The day should still be special, he told himself. So, there he sat on the couch with two different gifts on the table in front of him. One for her birthday and one for their anniversary. He'd gotten home just before midnight, knowing if she hadn't been home she would be soon. Or so he thought.

Minutes turned to an hour and one hour turned into multiple as he waited up for her. There were moments he'd doze off on the couch, usually bolting awake from either anxiety of missing her come home or from Hex jumping on his lap. Diablo kept checking the time and the more often he checked the slower time seemed to go by. He'd put the TV on at one point, hoping it would keep him awake but ended up just muting it because the background noise was more aggravating than soothing. Something felt off though. It was unlike Sibella to come home this late, then again she hadn't known Diablo would be there either. Maybe she was with the ghouls or something, he hold himself. That didn't help ease the pit in his stomach though.

Diablo didn't want to call her and risk ruining the surprise. He wasn't a very patient man though and when anxiety started to really kick in he grew worried for her. Something was wrong, he just knew it. He'd gone through at least a half a pack of cigarettes that night alone, trying not to indulge in other mind altering chemicals. He wanted to be sober that night for her. That didn't help the itch he felt to do a line though. He was about to get up from his spot on the couch, with Hex nestled comfortably in his lap, to go looking for her as he feared something bad happened. Before he could get up though she came flying through the window, startling the cat awake and causing her to run off. Diablo was quick to get up so he could both greet her and make sure she was alright.

Sibella spoke before he had the chance to and by the sound of her voice alone Diablo knew something had happened. The hair on the back of his neck was sticking up and he suddenly had a chill crawl up his spine. He took a few slow steps towards her until he was face to face with her. The blood on her face and neck was enough to tell him what had happened alone. His worry was still very evidently there considering the look on his face, but so was the new shock he felt. She'd drank from someone else. He wasn't jealous, not right away. Hurt? Maybe. Above all he was confused. He'd waited and waited so he wouldn't spoil the surprise and it almost felt like a slap in the face that she came home covered in who know's blood. She wouldn't betray him in the way his lying thoughts were telling him she would. He knew she wasn't hurt, that much was clear just from scanning his eyes over her body. When they looked back up and locked with hers his expression was disheartened. He wanted to say a million things but there was only one coherent thought that escaped softly from his lips. "Sibella...what did you do?"

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Who's the girl? [You don't need to know her name.] I don't care about her name. Whose kid is she?

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location: the apartment ✧ @dicblo

there's something to be said about the hesitance to go home , how strange of a feeling it is and how its very existance challenges what a home is , what it represents . it wasn't until very recently that sibella started dreading being home , a closed environment where she had no option but to face the current state of affairs ; her ever growing dependency on diablo , the urges growing deep inside her undead self and with that , coming to terms with her true nature — particularly the vampiric side .

another year had gone by and with that , the first quarter of her first century on earth . it wasn't long by vampire standards , but long enough to imagine how the rest of her life would be . no more growing older , just lonelier and hungrier but at least she had the ghouls and diablo . when did that shift from being a comforting thought to a worry ? having someone means you might lose them ; how was she supposed to live with that , just after what had been the happiest year of her life ? would she ever move on from it if she had to , and could she ?

it called for an experiment , one sibella would've stopped herself from following through had she been in a better state of mind , of spirit . coming home with fresh blood coating her lips all the way down her neck probably wasn't a good idea and neither was drinking from some random person yet there she was , flying in through the open window like a criminal avoiding the front door . the picture of despair itself . she wasn't expecting diablo to be there by the time she came home though , and the surprise was enough to make her turn away in attempt to hide .

❛ you- you're back ! ❜ the vampire greeted , disgust washing over her as she tasted whatever remained of the most recent meal on her tongue . it was terrible , bland . why couldn't she just be satisfied with it ?! ❛ and early , too ... i thought you wouldn't be here until way later , ❜ she pointed out , avoiding diablo's face . ❛ did you forget the keys or ... ❜

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VAMPIRE HUNTER D: BLOODLUST (2000)

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it really was the strangest thing to be in dennis' company and yet somehow , in some bizarre way , despite knowing what she knew , she still felt like he was a better person than her with how easily he dismissed the idea of blood , how much he didn't care for it . was it a genetics thing , did he take after the human side of his family more than she did ? or was he just , well , good ? better than her . in either case , she wasn't about to ruin their fang out over it , so she simply smiled . at the comment and at the prospect of changing the topic . ❛ it is , we even have buffy marathons every other week . you should join us ! ❜ sure , the show was about a vampire slayer , but it was still good fun ! with a giggle , sibella tried to picture what a regular day of work was like for dennis . she hoped the costumers treated him nicely . ❛ don't go overworking yourself though , you gotta keep your cape in shape ! are you trying to save up for something ? ❜ the ghoul asked before grabbing another slice . ❛ i wonder what daddy would think of me having a job ... or of my life here as a whole , really . if it's what he had in mind for me . ❜

"You're right, I sure haven't," he admitted, he'd give it a chance. But still, he didn't see the big deal when it came to the taste. If he didn't need it to get by, he'd probably omit blood from his diet altogether, and not just because it was harder to come by than normal human food. Out of all the flavors, iron was just... such a boring option. But that seemed to be a hot take in the vampire community, and one he'd rather keep to himself, dare he offend Sibella somehow. "I'm sure working for Mavis is great," he agreed, his favorite cousin was so kind and level-headed. "I feel like I've been working a lot too, I'm trying to pick up more hours. But mostly I just don't like being bored, and I spend too much time sitting around, I may as well get paid for it!"

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who are some people in evermore that have the best smelling blood to you?

❛ in my humble opinion , diablo has some of the best blood in this whole town , especially when he's sober . then again , he is my boyfriend and i don't get intimate with anyone whose blood i don't like . lilo's was always one of my favorites to snack on 'cause it's more flavorful than the average human's and smells good . stitch's blood smells interesting but i'd never try it , out of respect for phyllis ! you know whose blood smells great though ? that duchess lady's and ariel's , but she's a mermaid so i'd proceed with caution . it's my general rule of thumb for non - human blood , like demons or the fae . johnny also smells good , which makes sense considering his vibes . we have a great selection in this town ! ❜

honesty (?) week ! ୨୧ @dicblo , @pudgefeeder , @626bxtch , @nctquiteshakespeare , @lilmermaids , @wildcstwinter