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people want doing the right thing to be like pulling the correct lever at the correct time but actually usually doing the right thing is more like holding a moderate weight at arm's length continuously for seventeen years

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(cw: sexual assault) the pedophile -as it is understood outside of academic circles- is a mythical creature. the idea that a complete stranger who kidnaps and sexually assaults kids is their biggest threat is absolutely insane; not one case of CSA (child sexual assault) in a hundred looks like that. CSA is committed almost uniformly by adults in a preestablished position of authority (such as family, family friends, clergy, or teachers) and in a way that a victim who doesn't know what sexual assault looks like will be left unsure what happened to them. without knowing concretely how sex and sexuality works, would you be able to tell the difference between molestation and the various other forms of unwanted physical touch and abuse kids are regularly subjected to? would it even seem that different? but parenthood and the submission of youth to adults as institutions are threatened by the reality of CSA. adults need to justify their ownership of children through an imagined outside threat constantly held at bay through their diligence. the truth - that putting yourself in such a position of authority over children directly enables abuse (including sexual abuse) - is thrown aside.

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So nice of my dad to wish me a happy pride month

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I looked up pet sitting horror stories to see if I was being dramatic and honestly this one is around the same level of pet sitting experience im having rn

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I looked up pet sitting horror stories to see if I was being dramatic and honestly this one is around the same level of pet sitting experience im having rn

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inspired by this:

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​for my own sanity I can’t go here again

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checks out

Ok high key Callie and Deedee on TikTok give off hardcore republican vibes

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get it done the weird way. do it in parts. do it “wrong”. do it “late”. do it scared. it’s just better to do it differently than everyone else rather than never do it.

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anyway… if anyone is looking to improve their reading & writing skills, i highly recommend this article by celine nguyen, which analyses the opening paragraphs of good essays to understand how and why they work. focuses on nonfiction but could apply generally i think

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since I finished my last rotation at the rehab hospital and won’t be providing direct patient care for the next four months, I decided to try acrylics for the first and sadly last time

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my best friend recently got married and now she says things like “I finally got my husband to let me come to your graduation. It took a while but he’s finally agreeing to allow me to go.”

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decorating my apartment

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that comment about how you should not borrow grief from the future has saved me multiple times from spiraling into an inescapable state of anxiety. like every time i find myself thinking about how something in the future could go wrong i remember that comment and i think to myself: well i never know, it might get better. it might not even happen the way i think it will and if it does happen and it is sad and bad ill be sad about it then, when it happens. and it’s somehow soo freeing

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Buddie + Facetime 9-1-1, S08E12&13

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i'm going to get really high and write spoken word about my childhood.