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#TimeGoesOn

It’s been four years since I gave birth to Aingeal. Four incredible years that have been spent bonding and loving her bright smile. Many times the thought of Morrigan coming and taking her from me threatens to break me. Every first of hers, I have witnessed. The first time she rolled over from her back to her cute little tummy had me laughing and smiling. The first time she crawled, I learned to make sure everywhere in this house was baby proof. When she started to walk, I wanted to cry. She advanced so quickly that at times, I wondered what Morrigan had in store for her. She was such a sweet child. Her smile would melt any cold heart. Her laugh would make the birds sing. She would befriend many things from humans, to creatures and even the dreadful midwife. As another year would pass, I would cling tighter to her while my heart grew heavier and heavier. She had quickly become my world and I knew sooner my world would come crashing down. Just last year, she learned how to speak properly and I feared Morrigan would come. But the year came and passed. Now here is our fourth year preparing for the winter solstice and Yule. It was fast approaching and Aingeal loved the decorations. This year we were making homemade ornaments for our yule tree that I had secured for us. We would be decorating it in the next few days. Mistletoe and holly hung throughout the house as a sign of healing and protection. We created our Evergreen wreath yesterday with pinecones and berries intertwined through it. We hung it on the door before we went to sleep. I had created the Yule altar earlier in the month and it currently sat on our mantle next to the stockings that were hung with love. Each year our traditions seemed to grow. Aingeal called out to me and it broke me from my thoughts. As I moved to the living room, where she was currently coloring, I felt his presence. It’s been years since he visited and I still remember it like it was yesterday. The way he made my body react to him. I shook off the feeling as there was no way he could be here. We had moved since I gave birth and I gave no one notice as to why. I noticed the snow had started to fall as I entered the room. Aingeal sat there at her art table and gave me a toothy grin. She lost it yesterday and it was just another reminder that she was growing older.

“Yes my sweet girl?” I smiled at the way she shook her head at me but the smile on her face brightened my heart.

“Mama, the snow is falling. Can we go outside and make snowmen?”

I smiled at her question. It was one of her favorite things to do when the snow first started to fall. I nodded at her as she jumped up with a smile. I watched as she ran up the stairs to get her jacket and that same feeling of knowing my time with her was limited hit me. It was the main reason I was determined every year to just enjoy the moments with her. She didn’t need to see the darkness that threatened to take me each time I was reminded of what would come. When she finally came back downstairs all bundled up, I opened the door and out she went. Laughing with a shake of my head, I followed her outside and proceeded to spend the afternoon making a snowman family, having a snowball fight, and then we made snow angels. It was an afternoon well spent with love and laughter.

It had been several hours later that we finally went back into the house. Aingeal sat in front of the fireplace to warm up and I made us a nice herbal soup to ward off the chill in our bones. It was a fun afternoon and much needed with all the excitement of Yule coming up. I needed a break from my thoughts and Aingeal needed a break from decorating. As I finished the soup, I called her to the table to eat. Dinner was a silent affair as Aingeal would rub her eyes every 3 minutes and say she wasn’t sleepy. My poor angel was tired to her bones but would fight it. We quickly finished so I could get her in the bath that I may or may not have added lavender to. She was on to me when she was getting her pajamas on.

“Mama, why did you do that? I wasn’t sleepy. I wanted to stay up and watch your hallmark movies with you?”

I laughed and tucked her into her cute little Frozen design bed. Each season we would change the design of her room, and for this season she wanted Frozen and Elsa everywhere. It didn’t bother me as it took very minimal magick to decorate. Her walls were painted white and blue with snowflakes falling down. The ceiling was made up of multiple scenes from the newer movie with the different spirits and Elsa. Her bed though was a little tricky in the design. A giant snowflake made up one half of the bed and it went to make the water horse whose name escapes me at the moment for the end. It took me several times to design it to get it right. All that mattered was that Aingeal loved it. She said the horse would protect her at night not the many enchantments or protection spells that I made sure were layered in her room over, under, in between each design.

She was asleep before I could even kiss her good night just like I knew she would be. Heading out of her room, I heard her small I love you mama and smiled.

“I love you more my sweet angel.” I barely closed the door and made sure to keep the hallway light on for her. She wasn’t afraid of the dark but I would rather be on the safe side then to hear her cry out at night in fear. Quietly, I made my way down the hall and into the living room. Turning on the tv to the Hallmark channel, I sat down on the couch and started to relax. The feeling of being watched hadn’t returned and I felt safe knowing he would never find me here.

Moans left my lips as I felt a hand at my breasts. They were still sensitive after so many years. I cried out when I felt a hand pinch and twist my nipple, my panties were instantly damp at such a movement. My eyes slowly opened and I realized I was on my bed. Before I could freak out or even ask how, I felt a hand slide down my stomach that was still pudgy a little after giving birth to Aingeal and slip into my pants.

“I told you my little one that I would return.”

That voice. I knew that voice. His hand slid across my hidden nub and my back arched in response. I could feel my body coming alive as his mouth moved to cover my nipple through my shirt. The wet suction along with the material scraping my nipple caused me to whimper out loud. My hands gripped the bed sheets as his fingers started to move faster against my nub. When his fingers slid inside my wet heat, my back arched off the bed which only pushed my breast more into his mouth. I could feel his answering groan as he bit down on my nipple and pulled back. He released me with a resounding pop while he continued to work magick inside my pussy. I felt him enter a second finger and nearly moaned at the slight pressure I felt. You would have never know I had a child but at the same time I never had sex before either. I felt my pants slide down along with my panties. Fear crept inside my bones. My eyes slid closed as I felt his frame settle between my thighs and his tongue gave me one long swipe. I tried to close my legs but it proved impossible as I was stopped by his broad shoulders.

“You taste even sweeter now my little one. Being a mother suits you. You have only grown more beautiful and more pure. Still no man has touched you except for me.”

I could feel his smirk as he spoke against me each breathe heating my pussy and causing my hips to jump. He gave me another lick before his fingers slid back inside. Moans left my lips as he started to move his hands and quickly my release was upon me. I bit my lip to keep silent so I didn’t wake Aingeal.

“That's it little one. Give me your pleasure.”

I felt him slide up my body and my legs wrapped around his waist. When I felt his lips touch mine, the taste of my arousal was so strong on his lips that I moaned into the kiss. My hands felt like they were tied to the bed when he broke the kiss. I felt my shirt sliding up, baring me before him.

“ So beautiful. So sweet. This is all mine. Do you understand me Anya Lise? YOU ARE MINE!”

I cried out when he thrusted his cock still covered by his jeans against me. He was hard and long from what I could feel and gods did I want to feel that. His mouth found my nipple again as he leaned down and took the other in his hand. Twisting and pinching my nipple while his mouth sucked and bit down on my other one. When he switched the cold air caused my nipples to harden further. My hips rocked against him, sending delicious twinges and heat through me. A second release was building just from his ministrations against my breasts. I could feel him grinding against me every time my hips moved. He was growing bigger and harder against me.

“Give me your pleasure little one. Let me hear you scream.”

I couldn’t hold back anymore as I felt him thrust against my one more time, his jeans rubbing against my sensitive nub when he bit down on my nipple and pinched the other one. My back arched off the bed as I screamed out my release and it felt as if I was shattering.

“Such a good girl, my little one. You are so beautiful when you cum. So precious.”

I whimpered when I felt his lips against mine one final time before I felt the air around us change. He was gone and I felt deeply saddened by that.

Jerking out of the dream, I realized I was still in the living room and the TV was still on Hallmark channel. My clothes were still on though my panties were soaked. After a look around, I let out a deep sigh at the fact that I was alone. My hands covered my face and I rubbed my eyes. I was more tired than I thought especially if I dreamed of him. Moving my hands away, I noticed on the coffee table a note and a long stem white rose. My heart stopped as I knew it was no dream. He had been here. Picking up the note, I gasped.

“ My sweet little one,

Once again you surprise me. You taste as sweet as the first day I tasted you. Soon we will meet properly. You will be mine no questions about that. Take care of our sweet girl and I promise all your questions will be answered soon.

Yours my little one.”

There was no name and it frustrated me more. I would not relax anymore this night especially after what happened. I moved to stand at the window and watched as the snow began to fall once more. Aingeal would be happy when she woke in the morning. And so the night passed until morning, I stood at the window and watched as far as my eyes could see the snow cover all around us.

[giftrebornphoenix]

#SweetAingeal

It was the Summer Solstice, when my water broke. Whoever said childbirth was a piece of cake was cracked worse than those damn fairies that traveled between realms. I had never experienced as much pain and there was nothing I could do. Ever since my deal with Morrigan, I finally knew what peace was but at what price? A scary night with an unknown entity? The past nine months with the worst midwife? I had no contact with my family or even Morrigan herself. Though I didn't expect to hear from her until after her daughter was born. I was nothing but a Vessel to her that fit at the time. I made my deck of cards when I made that deal. But the other option was never a choice for me. So as I sat there in the birthing room biting down on the piece of wood that the midwife shoved in my mouth to halt my screams, my mind went back to the months prior and through this pregnancy. I had come to enjoy the quiet moments where it was just me and my belly. I would feel her move every now and then. I enjoyed it so much. It was something I was sure I would miss but at this point in time I was ready for this pain to be over. If I hear one more time to bite down and push, I probably would scream. The smell of incense, lavender, and something else permeated the room. Just as I was about to figure out the smell, I was distracted by a loud shrill sound. It took me a second to realize that the sound was the cry of a child. I looked over at the midwife and tried to ask to see her but my throat wouldn't work. Actually it felt like nothing in my body was working. I could feel everything shutting down and the last thing I saw was the midwife turning around with horror in her eyes once she was done cleaning my baby. That was little over 5 months ago and to this day it still sends a shiver down my spine. I had lost too much blood after giving birth and was unresponsive for the next 24 hours. Even now I don't know how I survived. Though the days following I quickly recovered much to my and the midwife’s surprise. Though I had a feeling Morrigan had a hand in it but I didn't want to assume even if it was true. Five months had passed and there was no word from her in regards to her child. The one that I had come to love as my own. She was so beautiful and bright. Her deep blue eyes would see everything and anything. I could swear at times she could sense my mood as well. Maybe that's why now I'm sitting in this chair rocking her back and forth while she eats. There was something about feeding a child naturally. A time of bonding. I knew the moment that Morrigan come for her that I would lose a part of myself. A part I didn't even know was empty. But for now I enjoyed and cherished there moments. For these were the moments no one could ever take from me. These were the moments where I wish she was truly my daughter and not the product of a deal made with a god to save my own life. I hadn't even noticed that she stopped eating until I looked down her blue eyes watching me as she gave a toothless grin. I could feel the tears falling down my cheeks as I held her close to me and made a vow to cherish each moments with her. Each second of time with her. For she was my sweet Aingeal my sweet angel.

[giftrebornphoenix]

#Samhain

As the eve of Samhain approaches, we must be extra careful Annalise. We can not take any risks that day. (Rolling my eyes as once again the midwife set about in her nagging tone. I knew too well the wonderful day of Samhain was fast approaching. The day when mortals dressed up in what they considered costumes and went out into the night searching for candy. Little did they know the costumes they wore on such a night depicted many creatures that roamed the land. I remember when I first came to this country and the first Samhain, I experienced here. There was a little girl, she could have been no more than 5 at the time but she was dressed as a witch. Now where some found it disrespectful for others to dress as those they consider monsters, this little girl stuck out to me. I remember when she knocked on my door, asking for candy, her small quiet demeanor set something off inside me. I realized then she was smarter than her years, an older soul than those that travelled with her for protection. I saw her as she was meant to be. With a secret smile, I had produced enormous amounts of chocolate and other little candies in her bag. Her small gasp gave me away but when her family asked what was wrong she didn’t say anything. Even if the little girl wasn’t a real witch she knew now she had met one. To this day I will never forget that little girl. Absently rubbing my hand over my stomach, you could tell now that i was carrying a child as the small telltale sign of a pouch had formed. It still marveled me to this day, the fact that I was going to be a mother just not a true mother. I tried to not think of it often because after all I would carry a child inside me for 9 months how was I to give her up. But I knew the Morrigan would never allow me to keep her. The long winter was coming. The Third Harvest was coming. Shaking my head, to clear my mind, I sense that the midwife had quit the room. Probably once she realized I was no longer paying any attention to her. I knew what was to come. I had to set safeguards and protection spells all around the house lest my deceased family come to visit and think they are welcomes here. No that wouldn’t do that, over half them would probably kill me on site for not going through with the family ritual that has stood since the beginning of time. Sighing as I quit the room, I head out front automatically drawn to the gate that the stranger was at. His hint of power was still strong here even after a few days. I needed to get my bearings straight again. Moving my hands in the old as time way, I start to set the protection spells around the house and the grounds praying that the ominous feeling resting in the pit of my stomach wasn’t about trouble that would come to pass.)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#TheMidwife

Annalise, you must take every precaution known to us. The gift you carry is sacred and no harm can come to you or the child. (Rolling my eyes at the midwife who swore she came from Avalon herself at Morrigan's request. Funny how the goddess gave me her child to produce but gave me no mind to say hey by the way I'm sending you someone who will test your very patience. Sighing as I sit down on the couch, my head pounding. I had gotten very little sleep the night before almost afraid to go into a deep sleep in case this spirit that visited comes for me once again. But so far all had been quiet. To quiet for my taste to say. Then out of nowhere this midwife shows up. She had the bearing and markings of a priestess of Avalon but so little was known about them that it was hard to tell if she was actually from there. Resisting the urge to run my temple because surely at if I did that I would have no peace in my life for the rest of the day.) Madam I promise you, I am doing everything I can to protect myself and the child. (Placing my hand on my still flat stomach as anger swirls in my eyes.) I do not know who you are truly. You say you are a priestess from Avalon but yet so little is known of them that I am not certain what you say is true. At this moment I would not push me. ( Turning my gaze towards the woman as she pales at least two shades lighter my face serious as I trail my eyes over her hard and glittering.) I am no young child to be trifled with. I have lived for 5 centuries and I didn't love my mother that much that I am seeking another one to replace her. You have my corporation for the moment but do not push me to fair. (Outside the wind was shifting hard as the clouds turned in the sky. I knew my anger was to blame but I could not for the life of me control it at this moment. A gentle hand on my shoulder had me whipping my head around so fast but no one was there. The sensation traveled along my skin to massage the muscles on the back of my neck. A sudden fear fills me as the tension starts to leave my body. There was only one answer as to who it could be. The midwife eyes were on me as I look at her with fear in my eyes. One simple word left my lips ) Run. (She ran from the room. Fear evident on her face. Turning around slowly my eyes searching the room, but finding nothing.) What do you want with me? Show yourself! ( Looking around the room, trying to see where he was. A deep rumbling laugh sounded in my head. ) Quit hiding and show yourself! I demand it. (Growing out into the room knowing I would get no answer I felt at once when he quit the room as well. Standing from the couch, I walk towards the window looking out and sees shadow standing at the gate. Watching as he tilts his hat towards me and turns away, no way to tell him face I step back my hand on my chest hoping maybe to calm my racing heart.)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#TwistedDream

(Weeks had passed since the news of my pregnancy, and honestly I still didn't know how I coped with it. Throwing the newspaper across the room, a growl of frustration escapes my red lips. So many things needed to be done in the next 8 months before the child came and I was no closer to finding somewhere safe to raise the Morrigan child. I did not know what Morrigan expected of me or how to raise her daughter but I knew we needed a safer place to live. Giving up for the night, I move to the kitchen for a snack. Feeling extra picky as I search through the cupboards then the fridge for anything to spark my interests but nothing ever did. According to all the midwife my appetite would usually dwindle in the first trimester and pick back up as I start the second, until this second I didn't believe her. Disgusted by all that I found, I walk out of the kitchen and head straight for my room. The reason why I needed a new place was more room. There was no way I could raise a child in my one bedroom house. I needed a separate room for her to call her own. That was one thing I craved for as a child. A room of my own and whether it be Morrigan's child or my own I wouldn't let her suffer what I did by sharing a room. To this day I can remember waking up in the middle of the night to grunts and moans and permanently scarred myself to life with what was going on. No, no child that I produced would ever live that horror! Changing into a bright blue nightgown, I crawl into bed and pray for sleep to find me soon) (A rough hand moved along my shin. Blinking my eyes open, I stare into the black trying to find the source. My breath catches as the hand moves up higher on my thigh. ) Shhhh little one. (That voice I had heard it before. My heart racing against my chest as I try to move but only then learn that my arms are tied to the posts on the bed. A deep rumbling laugh escapes the male as his other hand runs along my thigh) So beautiful. No wonder the Morrigan chose you. ( A soft whimper escaped as he moved his hands higher along my skin) Who are you? What are you doing to me? (A gentle blow of air across my nub causes my body to bow on the bed.) No need to ask such questions little one. (Getting more and more frustrated by the minute I try to dislodge the male from me only to realize I couldn't. No where did I feel his body minus his hands on me. Crying out as I feel something wet lick my folds and then circle around my nub, I try to pull back from the sensation but can't. ) It will all be okay little one. Trust me. (Trust. That was a big word right now as I didn't know who or what was touching me. His hands join at the top of my mound and slowly move over my still flat stomach. A lover's touch. No it couldn't be right. I had no lovers. I never had a male enter inside me) All the more reason why you are so beautiful to me little Anya Lise. (Terror struck through me as I realized who ever this was could read my thoughts, I tried to shut him out. Gasping as I feel his hands move back down and cup my mound, my cry sharp as pleasure instantly moved through me) No need to fear me little one. I mean you no harm ever. You are far to beautiful and kind for that. (Why? Why are you doing this then? It took me a minute to realize I thought that and didn't speak. My voice was gone as his mouth joined where his hand was. Bowing my back as I felt his tongue swirl around my lips, his hand moving ever so slowly over the small hidden nub I had discovered about two centuries ago. ) don't think Anya Lise. Just feel. Close your eyes and feel with me. (The words spoken like a command I had no choice but to close my eyes as intense pleasure crawled up my skin. Centering in my stomach the desire was strong as his mouth and hand continued to play homage to the one area of my body that had forever been clean. Soon I felt the pressure building until I could not take anymore. Crying out as my body went into overload and sent me right over the crest of my release, I feel as if I am flying. His mouth still on me as he drinks and licks me clean. When I finally come to and open my eyes, my body drumming high on what was just done to me. An ache fills my chest as I realize the actions of what has happened, I call out into the darkness) What have you done to me? Answer me!! (There was no one there to answer me but a deep laugh once again. ) (Jolting out of the dream, I sit up rather quickly my body still throbbing from what happened. Looking down my body, a cry of alarm escapes as I see my nightgown pushed up and my panties beside me. Moving my hand down towards my mound, a deep sense of longing fills me. Feeling my release coating my skin with my fingers, I pull them back with a gasp. Quickly turning on the light beside my bed, I look around my room I fear. My eyes catch the mirror and written there with my red lipstick were words that sent a chill of fear yet wanting through me) I will be back Anya Lise. You are a treasure and I will fulfill my promise to you. X (Falling back as the words sunk in, I had half a mind to call Morrigan and have her explain but what do I tell her? Not even I know what truly transpired tonight. ) Nope need a new place now! (Getting up from my bed, I quickly pull off my nightgown and switch into sweatpants and an oversize shirt. There would be no sleep for me tonight. Walking back into the living room an even more new determination to find a place before whatever that thing was came back to complete its promise.)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#MyCondition

(It had been a week and I was anxious as hell to know what Morrigan's condition was. I had felt nauseous all morning, but I pushed it off as nerves. Every hour I would hear the clock chime in the little herb shop I helped keep watch over during the week, and every hour I would sigh as I waited. When it came to closing time, I went to step out the door and was jolted back. Falling back on my ass, my eyes widen as I see my brother step through the door. How in the hell did he find me? Morrigan said I would be safe! "Well well if it isn't my dear sister. " I cringed as he walked over, tightly gripped my arm and lifted me to my feet. " Do you know how long we have been searching for you? Over Four hundred years dear sister. Did you seriously think hiding out in some shit town would stop us? " Trying to think fast as to how to get out of situation,I looked around the shop but nothing would be able to help me here. As my brother pulled me outside, the storm clouds start to roll in, the sky darkening to pitch black as my temper flared. Lightning struck the ground close to where we stood but my brother's grip never lessened. "Nice try dear sister but lightning will not scare or deter me." I wanted to scream out, punch, kick or scratch him but fear immobilized me as I looked out into the street. My mother, two younger sisters and other three brothers were standing in front of me. I almost asked where my father was only to remember I had killed him on accident when I fell those five hundred years ago. "Anya Lise, my daughter, please do not fight this anymore. You poor mama is growing weak." My mother's voice carried on the wind as a pain shot to my heart. Longing and missing struck me nearly immobile.) Mama, how can you allow this? You know what will happen to me after I give birth to any child for this ritual! How can you stand here in front of me and allow this to happen? (A sharp cry was all I heard when my brother's hand met my cheek, the single motion striking me frozen though not with pain, but rather reluctant acceptance. Biting my cheek as the tears threatened to spill from my eyes, his grip was stronger on my arm as I jerked forward. Falling to my knees in front of my entire family, I move to stand only to have my brother kick my legs out from under me. It was then that I noticed all my magick was gone. Fear crept into my eyes as I looked at each member of my family my eyes finally settling on my oldest brother) Alasander, what did you do? "Oh Anya Lise you do not think that after four hundred years of searching for you we would be so stupid to not bring back up?"(My eyes darted around my brother. That is when I noticed Lucifer standing behind him. So that is how they found me. Gods why? Grabbing out my necklace from under my shirt, I look one last time around at my family. Why did I think I could run from them, and why was Lucifer helping them? I did as he asked during the trials and didn't interfere. I could hear my family starting to chant all around me. The words of the ancient ritual bound me to the street as my brother started to remove his shirt and shoes. Holding back to vomit in my mouth, I turn my head as he takes a step closer and grabs my chin. "You would do well to remember this little sister. After all it will hurt" His grin turned wicked as I felt my shirt ripped away from me. Tears flowed down my cheeks, I started to pray to Morrigan. Asking her why she forsaken me, why she left after she gave her protection. My heart hurt so badly as my brother pushed me down onto the hard, hot pavement. I closed my eyes, as a blinding light penetrated the small circle. Blinking my eyes open, I notice my brother no longer on top of me and I was standing with my clothes back in place. What the? Turning around,I saw that Macha had Lucifer by his throat stopping any chance he had at leaving. Morrigan was to my right in front of my family, all of whom were currently bowing in front of her. ) Mother Goddess. (Dropping to my knees as she turns in my direction her words were crystal clear. "Rise my child and be safe. Macha take that miscreant out of the area. He and I will have a little chat later." I felt lighter in heart as she turned back to my family. "Anya Lise is under my protection. You cannot harm her period. For if you do, a curse will be bestowed upon you for the rest of your days. You are the stop hunting her as she will no longer be of use to you. She carries a child inside her belly that is not of the covenant but is mine. If I so much as hear one more word of her being hunted I will wipe your entire family off this earth. Do I make myself clear? " It took a second for her words to hit me, as my family nodded and scrambled away knowing full well that she would keep her word. My hands went to my flat stomach as Morrigan turned around.) Mother Goddess, is it true? But how can I be with child? I have not participated in any bonding rituals. (Her soft laughter caused me to cringe a little. "Oh Anya Lise, you do make me laugh. Of course it is true child. You carry my daughter inside of you. That is my condition. In nine months time, you will give birth to my daughter and raise her until it is time for her to travel to Avalon. This is my condition. You asked for protection this is the way I'm granting it. So let it be. " With a blink of an eye she was gone, just like that. Pinching my arm, I hiss at the slight pain I feel to assure me that this was not a dream. The rain finally starts to fall around me, cascading over the bubble I created me to keep dry. Falling to my knees, the emotions of the day finally all caught up to me as I cry out in pain, hurt, anger and lastly fear. How was I to raise a child? I knew nothing about children. It had been over five hundred years since I stayed around children opting to never get too close to any. Finding the strength to stand, I slowly make my way towards my home hidden behind spells. A flick of my wrist has my front door appearing) At least I have my magic back. (Noticing a note on my doorstep, I bend over to pick it up and instantly get nauseous again. Sprinting inside as I head straight for the bathroom, I drop the note beside me as I proceed to lose everything in my stomach into the toilet. Flushing as I sit back on my butt, I quickly wipe my mouth and take a deep breathe. My eyes catch the note, the ancient writing something I hadn't seen in a while but stirred mixed emotions into my heart.) Dear Anya Lise, Do not worry my child. For you are destined to be more than you already are. My child that you grow inside you will be a gift to the world. Just remember she is my daughter. Not yours. Blessed be. (Laying down on the cold tile floor, my head and heart a mess after the day's events. Only one thought running through my mind. How was I to raise a child?)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#SalemTrials

Place on thy skin for the next two forthnights to rid of any ailments and pains. (Smiling at the small girl and her mother, I hand over the bottle of ointment and close up my bag. Being known as a midwife was a great way to hide my magick and also help those that needed another way to heal. I had found a home in Salem. So far my family had not tracked me to this small town. As I walk out the small tack house, Thomas Putnam greets me. Giving him a small smile and nod, I make my way home. Lucifer had been to town, I could sense his evilly twisted ways but I was not sure where he was at the moment which meant I needed to be cautious. My heart stops as I hear someone yell out "Witch. She's a witch" I stop walking and wait for someone to grab me. But nothing happens as I hear a woman shriek. Turning around as Sarah Good was lead from her house, my eyes widen in shock. Following behind the crowd, I hear the wild accusations from everyone. As I looked around, masking my face of any emotion, I spot Sarah Osborne and Tituba. Wild guess as to who was actually the witch out of those three and your first two don't count. Cries all around me of witch witch witch staked fear into my heart as I watched the women be lead away to the courthouse. I had no clue what would be in store for them there. I asked around what had happened, and learned that Thomas Putnam's daughter Ann had been cursed along with Abigail Williams. Before I could ask how to the woman beside me, I watched first hand as Ann was lead from her house by Reverend Lawson. I had heard around town on what had been happening to her and that Doctor Griggs could not find anything physically wrong. My eyes widen as it suddenly clicks in my head. Lucifer. Tituba may be a witch but her magick was nature she could not physically harm any one living person. Damn that fallen angel. Soon nightfall was upon the town and most of the townsfolk were heading home until tomorrow came and the supposed trials I heard whispers of started. I needed to find a way to stop this madness. Walking to the outskirts of town to my home, I stop as I feel a darkness surround me. ) Evening Lucifer. I wondered how long it would take you to seek me out. (Turning around, I was shocked to see that it was a young man from town "Anya Lise, it has been a long time. I thought you might have forgotten me. " The smirk on the human's face was downright disgusting. Only Lucifer could make someone so handsome and good looking disgusting in the blink of an eye. ) What do you want Lucifer? I no longer go by Anya Lise. It is just Anna the midwife here. Is this your hand? (Raising a brow at the fallen angel walking backwards towards my house but never taking my eye off him "Oh Anya Lise you do test me child. You will be wise to remember who I am." A slight pinch on my arm caused me to jump but it was the burning sensation afterwards that caused me to stop breathing. "Should you interfere in anyway Anya Lise, I will make sure it is you who ends up on the wood stakes that those three will burn on. Your time has not come yet and when it does no one, not even your precious Morrigan will stop me from taking your life. Stay out of affairs that are not yours unless you as well want to be outed as a witch. " With that said he disappeared out of the young lad, who immediately dropped to the ground. Rushing to his side, I do my best to remove the tainted memories that Lucifer was sure to leave behind. Once the lad came to, I ordered him straight home to rest saying that it was the heat outside that caused him to faint so close to my house. Once he was out of sight, I quickly ran inside my own home and fell to my knees. Pulling out my ancient necklace from around my neck, I prayed quietly to the mother goddess that she would show me the way and what path to take. Do I help my fellow sister in spirit and my friends or listen to Lucifer and let what will be done be done. Hearing the little patter of feet on the windowsill, I turn my head spying the raven. My heart sunk in my chest as it was joined by a crow. I had my answer. Tituba was destined to die now and not live the life she had planned. Falling down on the stone covered floor, I poured my heart out in tears and watched as they mixed with the sand. A triqretra formed before my very eyes. This was my response to the omens one I knew would be heard)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#DreamWorld

(As I wander through the dark forest, a white wolf by my side, I notice the little details. The dew on the grass as the full moon shines upon it. The woodland animals burrowing in their homes as I walk past. The way the birds and insects sing into the night. This was peace. This was home. For many centuries, I had dreamed of home but not once did I ever venture as far as I have now. Upon reaching the sacred lake, I drop to my knees, looking above at the moon. Closing my eyes as the moment sinks in, my mind ever quiet as I listen to all around. Taking a deep cleansing breathe, I open my eyes and Morrigan stands before me. Holding back my surprise at her presence, I wait to speak and take her in. Dressed in black, a crow on her shoulder she looked beautiful and powerful. Bowing down to the ground, my hand stretched out in front of me as the wolf beside me kneels to her) My goddess. I am honored. How may I humbly serve you Mother? ( Staying low to the ground, moving not an inch, I wait. I am unsure how long Morrigan would make me wait but to have the honor of the goddess here meant I would do nothing without her say. Even if it meant she would not speak and I stayed as I was. ) "Rise my child and be cleansed. For I have heard your prayer tonight and the sacrifice you made to me and my fellow sister Macha. Your wish may be granted but on one condition." (Rising up, I sit back on my feet and look down at the ground. I was unsure as to what the Great Mother would request of me but I knew whatever it was, I had no choice but to do as she asks. My own life would be at stake if not.) I am your humble servant Mother. It would be a honor to serve you. (I can feel her hands run through my chestnut hair , though I know she has not moved from in front of me. My heart started to race against my chest as I waited for what condition, she had placed upon my request.) " In a week's time my beautiful child, you will find out about my condition. Know this. You do not adhere to this condition or try to alter it in any way my protection and that of Macha's will be removed and your family will certainly find you. Now go and be at peace. (I looked up and she was gone. ) Blessed Be. (Looking out over the lake once more, the moon casts an eerie glow upon it as I stand. Running my fingers through the wolf's hair, we make our way back through the forest wondering what Morrgain's condition was.Quiet all around me, sets my nerves on edge. It is as if anything and anyone had heard her proclamation and knew what was to come for me.) (Waking up alone in bedroom, I laid there for a few more minutes processing my dream. Never had I been visited and it been made to feel so real. Still Morrigan's words haunted me. I knew whatever the Great Mother wanted she would get or else her promise at the end would ring true. And there was nothing and I mean absolutely nothing I wouldn't do to make sure my family never found me.)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#TheSpell

Morrigan, I call on you. Macha, I call on you. Protect me in my time of need. Morrigan, I call on you. Macha, I call on you. Protect me in my time of need. (Repeating the incantation over and over as the circle of candles burn brighter. Facing north on my knees, the instruments needed to complete the protection spell in front of me, I reach for the athame. Holding my finger over the offering bowl, I make a small slice on the tip of my index finger and watch as three drops of blood cascade down. Taking the leaf filled with rain water, I pour it into the bowl. Next is fire. Holding the bowl over the white and purple candle next to me, I watch as the flame comes to life and the contents in the bowl start to boil. A grin on my lips as the water starts to dissipate, I set the bowl down. Pressing my thumb in the the mixture, I make a sign on my forehead and close my eyes) Morrigan, I call on you to send your protection my ancient goddess. Macha, I call on you to send your protection my ancient goddess. An injustice will done to me. Protect me in my time of need. (I repeat the incantation three more times, as the candles all around me blow out. I know my prayers have been heard. Opening my eyes, I look straight forward at the pentagram above my dresser) Blessed Be. (Moving one of the candles to break the circle, I stand to step out. The effects of the spell tire me as I make my way across the room and drop down onto my bed. I would be safe for now until another spell was needed. Drifting off into a peaceful sleep the first time in centuries, I dream of my family and the happier days we had when I was naught but a child)

[giftrebornphoenix]

#Protection

(Moving my hand over the candle, I watch the flame come to life. Fire. A beautiful element and a powerful one. Fire has given birth to so many different things. When a farmer is done with a field and burns the ground to produce new crops, when a home is burned down a new one is built, and when a person feels as if they have been burned alive they rise as a Phoenix. Fire meant so much more to me. It meant the death of Anya Lise in such a way that I am proud of how I orchestrated it. When I had entered Queen Mary of Scots court, I do not think she realized she would eventually play a part in my death. Having gotten close to the young queen when she took pity on me for being so young and on my own. If she had only known why I was alone maybe then she would have seen things differently. Smiling as the memory of that fateful day comes to mind. The Black Death had just swept across the lands of France when the royal court was struck with it. I made a point to be as close to some but also keeping my distance as to not actually catch it. During that time, those who were anywhere close to anyone who had caught the Black Death was put into the room with them and left to die. Queen Mary made sure that I, the young girl of just sixteen, stayed well away from those rooms. But I knew soon enough my family would hunt me down here and my life would not be spared one she learned I was a witch. It was only a matter of time so why delay the inevitable? I rose early one morning and snuck into one of the rooms, where so many had already died a cloak of protection all around me, and waited. For three days no one came inside the room and for three days I stayed still. Still as death. When the doors finally opened and the guards start carrying people out, I could hear the weeping of family and friends for those that were locked in the room. What I didn't expect though was Queen Mary screaming out my name as I was to carried out the room. I had not known her well but to hear her break down that hard almost made me want to actually die. Almost. I made sure I kept the spell over me until it was time. When they threw my body in the long line of others, I kept quiet. Soon I could smell the burning flesh and see the orange red flames of heat. Smiling to myself, I strengthened the protection around me. I felt nothing as those around me turned to nothing but ash and dust. When the cover of nightfall fell upon the land and all was asleep in their beds, I climbed out of the hole I was put in and slowly made my way outside the palace gates. No one was around to notice a mere slip of a girl walk away unscathed and untouched by fire. Which brings me back to present day. Two times had I faked my own death, as my family had somehow found me in the early 1800's. It was then that I made the decision to make the journey across the sea to the new found lands of America. Looking around the little house, all the candles light up at once. A spell was needed to ensure my protection. A spell made of fire and rain. A spell to guarantee that no one not even my family would be able to locate me and do unto me harm after evading them for so many years. As I hear the storm outside start, I wicked smile shines on my face in the glow of the candle) It is time.

[giftrebornphoenix]

#WitchingHour

(The time had come again. Five hundred years had passed -which to me was nothing having lived the last two of those hundred years on the run. But as the last sole woman in the covenant I belonged to and the only one who could perform the ritual that dated back long before my birth in the 1500's, it was my apparent duty to lay with each man for one night only until a child came from those lays. As a young girl of sixteen when the first ritual was to happen, I was but a child. I remember my mother telling me that it was the way of our people and that I needed to do this for the good of all magick everywhere. My father explained to me that in order for our covenant to survive they would need a female from our longest living family to carry on. I just happened to be apart of that family. Up until the day of the ritual I was blessed and cleansed in a thousand ways. I had no idea so much cleansing was needed for any ritual as I was still learning the basic of magick. Everyone was treating me as if I was glass, to which I abhorred so much. I was of the oldest family, I was strong. Not some weak child. My anger built up as the day of the ritual went on. The cloudless sky turned dark as night around mid afternoon tea, everyone scattered as a dark light shined around me. My eyes turned a deep dark blue as the sea when they finally settled on my dear old Pa`pa. His gentle plea to me " Oh Anya Lise my child do not do this. The covenant needs your life to continue" I did not know what he meant at the time but as I watch him clutch his chest as if in pain and slowly drop to the ground, a strong blast of wind hit me on my right. Turning my gaze into the wind, a figure cloaked in light where I was dark shined through. Tilting my head, as I heard my father's last breathe, the figure held out their hand to me and I graciously accepted it. That night I learned of another covenant that had been trying to stop the rituals of my family as I later found out the ritual ended with the death of the girl as soon as she gave birth to a female child. Now five centuries later, three different name changes-this last one ended with my two previous names added together creating Annalise, and two different hemispheres later, I was hiding out in rural America. All around me were people who had no clue, what I was, what I was capable of. Though I did get a kick out of watching the one or two lose their minds when it would all of a sudden start to rain on them. Snickering in the shadows, I make my way out into the streets keeping a cloak all around me to avoid being seen by those I am currently avoiding. Making it to the vacant lot, a simple flick of my wrist, a front door slowly appears. Checking around the street before I step inside, the welcomed sounds of my purring cat, and tea on the stove lighten my heart. For there was no place like home sweet home.)