giirlinthescreen

[giirlinthescreen]

I know nothing.

Because everything is not what it seems

The world is not the world

Time is not time

Body is not body

Even the dream is not a dream

Then what is it? I don’t know

I have no words , no explanation, no concept for it

The dream is not really a dream it just is.

[giirlinthescreen]

hi..

had a great conversation yesterday. somehow got on the topic of beliefs, and naturally we came to the topic of our beliefs. i explained that what i “believe” (nd) isn’t actually a belief. it’s more so a way of life. a knowing. she was interested but not in a “oh i’m gonna try to argue and break you down on this”, but in a “wow i’ve never heard of a concept like this” kind of way (that’s quite literally what she said eloel). long story short i tried my best to explain with words what i could, and then told her i’m not a big fan of words and how i have a love hate relationship with them, how consciousness / awareness is the only constant, and the concept of “not desiring”(this was probably the hardest to explain, but she caught on pretty quick. like once it clicked it clicked). the way she sat and listened without judgement and asked genuine questions was so refreshing. between questions, she would occasionally explain to me her “understanding” of what i was saying, and i noticed she understood it but was also struggling to put it into words. a lot more conversation happened between that, but what got me is after all that she’s say something along the lines of, “i see why you say you’re not a fan of words. its not words. it just is.” when i tell you i was flabbergasted and amazed. like you just.. ???!?!???!! i was so excited 😭 and as we continued talking, she starts forgetting what she was saying, and then remembering and i was like “yeah that happened to me eloel” and she says “whoa i feel weird. not like in a bad way but in a tingling floaty kind of way” i had told her how that’s what happened to me too. i told her about there are so many ways to refer (consciousness, awareness, it, that, “ “) to it, but none of them come close to what it is. she was a big fan of “ “. after that i’d realized that i’d been wanting to talk about nd with someone. like have a genuine conversation. and it just kinda happened. this is a very condescend version of what happened but i just wanted to share this pleasant experience i had with you guys :) oh also she followed me on here. if u see this hi :D

[giirlinthescreen]

from an ask i sent a while ago to a blog i really like. i’ve tweaked it because some of the words used weren’t to my liking. nevertheless, i think it could help some of you all.

this is something i don’t think people notice / struggle with when finding nd (me included). when bloggers say “awareness is the only reality” a lot of people (me included) will immediately try to make it “logical” by imagining awareness as a separate reality, causing more unnecessary confusion and implying duality. they don’t mean it in that way (again, this is why words suck poopoo). they mean it’s the only thing that is actually constant and “real” (for a lack of better terms). it can literally never leave. when you wake? awareness! when you sleep? awareness! the seeming transition between the two? awareness!!! have you noticed how these illusory things like waking and sleeping and imagining feel like they’re different, but the one thing that never ever “goes away” is the fact that awareness is there. that is what they’re trying to say. in this sentence, reality ≠ separatation. reality = only thing that is always and will always be there. forever.