gingermeanie

[gingermeanie]

Ok coming back

Coming back. So I’m not gonna begin back into where I was only cause I got some things in my mind currently. First being I don’t have many friends actually got go into that even more I have one friend. One real true friend. Like a sister. My friend Andi. And that girl don’t even know how much I love her. Like really truly love her. She been done with me since day 1. We didn’t really know where we gonna be as far as friends in the first. I thought she was a little too laid back. But as the years went in she’s so like me. We’re crazy were fun we feed off one another we would go out and have the best time. And I knew we was taking each other home. I remember this one time we went out got all liquored up. But than we got some food and went roadie for a little. We went behind the damn and we found this baby deer just in the middle of the road at night. We got out tried to help it. We was chasing the little thing down. It was so funny got think about and laugh about how. Omg and he kids god I love them like they was my own. Serious I think of them like nephews. She’s family. This last year thanksgiving we did it together. It was fun. It was as nice to have family to do the day with. It’s complicated tho. Her husband hates me. Well I dunno if hate is the word but he don’t like me. And part of that is cause his best friend is my ex. And they grew up together. But she is my a1 my bestest. And one of the o my constants in my life

[gingermeanie]

I’ve decided to start blogging

I know cliche another lonely house mom picks up her phone and starts to text away on her phone and why? Cause she’s too sad to actually go therapy and be real about her feelings. Cause she unhappy with her home life and starting to spiral outta control. Cause she figures well at least this is better than staying quiet and goin silently insane! Well yep than your right. And another point being that I don’t actually think anyone is gonna find or read this. I’m just another profile on a multi million user platform and not even using my own name and don’t have a single follower nor am I following anyone else. Tbh I came to tumblr awhile ago to look at well. Kinky porn. Come on. Anyone here knows what I’m talking about. Tumblr is kinda known for it. And I’m not disagreeing y’all put up some intensely hot kinky ass shit. And I love it! I’m a kinkster myself. I actually within this last year left my LTR of 8 years to pursue a kink related relationship and I found out well it’s not all just kink and games. Tbh the guy I’m wth is significantly older than I am. And at first it was 🔥 I was turned in to the idea that I was that girl. And not to be modest at all but he is insanely good at pleasing me. But after the weeks continued I found that sex aside this person that I was now living with. And not to mention that I moved into the day I left my ex houses, but I also moved my 3 children along with me. I like to think I’m a good mom. I mean I protect my kids I love my kids I have all the typical mom feelings for them. I can’t imagine my life or day to day without them. However sometimes I tend to think that I am not the best. I tend to get mad I yell at them I tend to be a little hard and harsh sometimes! But anyone who has ever been around my kids watched my kids or know my kids will attest to the fact that my children are awesome. And I wouldn’t ever disagree in anyway obviously. But they are much more behaved and mannered than a lot of kid these days. I don’t put up with no ba from them. Back talking and mouthing off is taught at a young age will not be acceptable. Now sometimes this makes me feel that I don’t give them the chance to argue or explain some things. But at the same time I always come back and talk to them when anger and the issue has subsided. I think this is very important and it allows me not to make decisions out of haste. But back to the kink lifestyle I am currently in. So I moved in with this man. A man that I had met online and started a relationship with. We wasn’t really physically intimate with him til after I moved. I had spent time with him just not inimate. So I moved into his house after leaving my ex. And That’s about all the time I have for now. But more coming not that anyone is really interested. But maybe it will help me to reflect in things so C’est la vie for now. Not that I speak French but I did take some in jr. we will comeback to the story later

[gingermeanie]

Change the world

Truly be the thing you want others to see in you! A loving parent, a loyal friends, a caring spouse. Be the change that changes the world. We all make a difference in someone’s life, but mostly in our children’s lives. What we create usually ends up defining them. Not always many do rise above their up bringing. But our next generations shouldn’t have to try to fight and struggle to over come our mistakes. ❤️One another while loving yourself. Love is what will fix and heal our broken society. Putting time and attention into other people and our kids will save us.