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Im angry but i still love you

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I fell in love with a beautiful boy and it didnt last but I cant let go

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I hate to say this

I love him

I really fucking love him

I wish i didnt sometimes

But i really do

I can say I dont

But when i touch him

And look in his eyes

My heart melt

Every bad thing that happens

I forget about

When im with him goofing off

and laughing with him

I forget my worries

And i fall more in love everytime

He doesnt realize it

I dont think he will

But I see a future in his eyes

Hopefully its the right future

Because thats i want.

I love him

His goofiness

His smile

His lips on mine

His laugh

His voice

Everything

Makes me fall in love with him

And i hate to say it

I love him so much.

I hope he never sees this

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Lifes fucking weird

When i was a kid

I wanted to be teacher

Hanging out, chilling

Now i want to die

Isnt it funny?

How life changed

How plans change

People walk in and out of your life

But at the end of the day

Everyone falls in love

Everyone choices to have to kids

Everyone dies

Everyone dies alone

Its a shit thing to say

But the boy with soft brown eyes

And fluffy brown hair

Who holds you ever so gently

He wont die with you

No one teaches you that

No one tells you

How the self harm scars

You did in your bathroom

At 2 in the morning while high off pills

When you were 16

Will be a constant reminder

Of the life you once had

Of the faded memories of

Parents fighting when you 7

will be a reminder of why

You dont believe in love

Or the fact that 18

Your parents forget you exist

because your little brother

Is now the favorite child

Life is so fucking weird

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Nothing

My heart got shattered

It doesnt matter why it was broke

Or who it was broke by

I’ve gotten it broken many times before

And I will get it rebroken again

But it the day it was broke that matters

October 28th,2017

I was waiting for my dad to come back home

When the love of my life

Came over and dumped me

Like i was nothing

Because thats all i am

Ask him now and

He’ll say “nothing”

Because thats all we are

Thats all i am

Im nothing.

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Dont break my heart

Dont break my heart after

Every fight

Every break up with girlfriend

Everyone one night stand or

Every hang out with your girl friends

Because you feel empowered

Dont look at me with hollowed out eyes

And tell me what i want to hear

Dont tell me youll always love me

And only me

And go screw the girl you said was only a friend

Dont keep me waiting for a goodnight call or text

When your sending nudes to another girl

Stop saying you love me after every break up

Stop making fake snapchats and instagrams

So you can apoligize and do it again

Stop texting me at 1 Am asking if im up

Or what you doing

Im not that person anymore

Stop breaking my heart

Dont break my heart

Actually you cant break my heart anymore

I refuse to let you

Im taking back the power

So you dont break my heart.

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12/8/2008

12/08/2008

The day my world stopped

In middle of the night

My life changed

You were gone

I saw you take your last breath

I saw them take your body

I still have your ashes

I was 8 years old

I lost a piece of me

You never saw me grow up

Go to homecoming and prom

Graduation high school and college

You wont see me get married

Because you died

You chose drugs

Not family

Not your kids

Drugs

And all for what?

A trip?

A high?

Numbness?

You left behind a family

And you werent even sorry

The sad part is

I watched it for 3 years before it happened

Every doctors appointment

Every hospital stay

Every pill

I watched it

I was five

I was six

I was seven

i was eight

And now youre dead.

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Closet

A noun

A place to store clothes

A place our parents used to hide Christmas presents

A place for a “fag” like me to hide

A place no one should hide

I kiss girls and i kiss guys

Does that make me pan or bi

Am i an alien

All throughout high school,I felt alone

And I realized i was

No one to relate to

No one to talk to

Everyone hated me it felt

Even my twin

Even my parents

I was alone

But so what if kiss girls or guys

So what if it makes me pan,or bi

Im scared to be myself,

Scared of rejection

Scared of hate

My parents dont even know

Im am bi,

I am queer

I am human

I am me

I am in the closet

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I loved him

I loved him, past tense

I really did

But not anymore

Something changed

Something snapped

He-we never use to be like this

Constantly fighting

Hanging up

Crying,and lying

We we’re never like this

Something snapped in me

I used to be scared now im not

I started defending myself

Started hanging up

After every bitch,or whore

And “i hate yous”

I hung up

Because the person i once said

I love you to

I dont anymore

I loved him

Now hes a part of my memory

Because I loved him

But not anymore.

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In love. In feeling. 

I just want to feel and be loved. 

Be loved by someone who doesn’t have to love me, 

but who chooses to love me.

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Wishing

Everyone knows the lyrics of lucid dreams you know “you were my everything, thoughts of a wedding ring” well that was me. Except that song is about hating an ex. But i loved mine. I hate the fact i still loved him sometimes. But he was my all. I still wish that one day i could wake up next to him and stand at the alter with him. Will he find out? Hopefully not. Will it happen? Nope. I really loved that boy.

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He is not the sun. You are.

Christina Yang (via maybe-you-need-this)

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I Just Wanna Be

I wanna know all your secrets. I wanna know how you sleep at night. Do you curl in a ball? Sleep on your side? Or flat on your back?

I want to be able to kiss you goodnight. And tell you everything is gonna be alright. Cause all I do is dream of you.

Baby, I want you all to myself. I wanna hug you, And I wanna be able to kiss you all day long. Can’t you see you much I need you?

Cause baby, I wanna be the one. The one who gets the last text goodnight. I wanna keep you in my arms all night—- And say you’re all mine.

I wanna know it all. Do you sleep with the T.V. on? Do you talk in your sleep? Honey— I won’t mind.

Do you kick like hell? Snore all night? Babe, I wouldn’t mind. For you, I’d get through it all.

Cause baby, I wanna be the one. The one who gets the last text goodnight. I wanna keep you in my arms all night—- And say you’re all mine.

I just wanna be the last boy you see at night.

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The One

I was so alone For so long All by myself as people would tell me Single ready to mingle I’d tell others Then that one fateful day changed Every second every moment Couldn’t have been as beautiful As that moment you found me

She was the one. And right there she came to me I had found my way Somehow Someway I had found my way into her heart

And over time she had etched her name Right into the center of my heart There she was to stay

I would hold her close When all she needed was to be held She would mend my broken mind When I broke down Whenever I had lost my way I had always seemed to find my way Into her arms

She had me And I had her To trust To care To love And when things got tough We felt like we had grown farther But it truly had brought us closer Closer then ever before

I was so alone at one point I was so lost And so was she Yet she found me We were in dire need

Things will go wrong Like they always do But as long I have her And as long as I love her And long as she has me And long as she loves me We are unbreakable Cause she was my other half But she also was the one

The one for me And only me. We fit like a puzzle piece And your one will come someday Sometime To find the one It takes time And in that time With your perfect half Things will feel unstoppable And it can As long as you hold The one close

-LC

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Well, I found a man stronger than anyone I know

He shares my dreams, I hope that someday we’ll share a home

I found a love to carry more than just my secrets

To carry love, to carry children of our own

We are still kids, but we’re so in love

Fightin’ against all odds

I know we’ll be alright this time

Darling, just hold my hand

Be your girl, you’ll be my man

And I see my future in your eyes

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“Don’t say you love me if I’m only gray to you. It’s either black or white, yes or no, up or down. There’s no ‘well maybe she’ll work’. I am a gift to you and if you do not cherish me like the queen I am, then leave and stop wasting my time. If you want to be with me, you have to work for it. I am not a prize to be won but I am the judge seeing if you are suitable and willing to deal with me. Deal with my random rambles and my soft kisses and my ugly laugh and my cute chubby tummy and my hot screams. Do not say you want me because I’m better than nothing. If anything, you need me more than I need you.”

— -this isn’t my best but oh well