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I’ll never get over being told at 15 in catholic confirmation classes that giving birth was painful because eve ate a fucking apple.

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radblr / terfblr, what is your worst TRA interaction story / the story that radicalized you?

Mine is when I had a bunch of TiF friends trying to convince me what I was experiencing was gender dysphoria (when it was internalized misogyny). I believed it until I realized every experience I had that was ‘gender dysphoria’ was related to misogyny I experienced and held towards myself and not ‘feeling like another gender’. Also, being told that me being autistic meant I was more likely to be trans because I ‘wouldn’t understand what gender felt like’.

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My fucking cat has figured out how to gently dig his claws into my eyelid and pull my eyes open while I'm sleeping. He does this. It does not hurt. He is remarkably precise and gentle. I however am asleep when it happens and do not appreciate being clockwork oranged by a needy clingy goddamn animal who thinks he needs attention.

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This blog has been through 13 years and I always use this as my space to express myself. Swifties for Trump is real and we are here to protect women and children.

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I need people to shut up about Detroit. from the sounds of it a lot of the people left over and there are old or otherwise like unable to leave because you know they've already paid off their homes which are now you know like basically theirs forever.

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apparently her cape is made of the burqa she was forced to wear too. fucking hero

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obsessed with all of the women in Iran and Afghanistan who are standing up for themselves knowing their lives are on the line

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this image can only be shared on Thursday, Sept. 12

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I had a neighbor complain that they were on a walk and someone driving by yelled “queer” at them and they were quite upset even though they “identify as queer” that it seemed to be used as a slur.

They refuse to believe that queer has and always will be a slur, and that reclaiming it as a straight person is contributing to the problem.

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“Lesbians Against Pornography,” October 20, 1979, Times Square, New York. From the Lesbian Herstory Archives.

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It's a lot healthier to go for a daily walk than to sign up for a gym membership you won't be using because you hate that kind of exercise. It's a lot healthier to eat a frozen meal than to skip a meal because you were too tired to cook something healthy. It's a lot healthier to take a quick shower than to procrastinate an elaborate routine for days. Don't aim so high that you won't be hitting anything!

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on "sex work is work"

⚠️ massive trigger warning for child trafficking, sexual violence, "hardcore" related matters, etc ⚠️

anti "sex work" is not anti "sex worker," and is the part opposite of excluding "sex workers" from our feminism - if you don't believe me, you can read about my own history in prostitution & porn (as a trafficked underage teen) as well as countless posts exposing the reality of the industry on my blog using tags like those below or navigate to them through my Pinned post. If you watch porn, you might even have seen videos of me as a severely malnourished 90-pound 16-year-old, dead-eyed and dissociating through being raped, bound, cut into and bled until barely conscious, suffocated, electrocuted, waterboarded, "fucked" with a rusted pocket knife, and far worse. Some of these videos were, last I checked which was very recent, still up on multiple of the biggest porn sites and some even marked as verified. No one on earth who might give a sliver of a shit about my safety ever knew where I was or what was happening during this time. I have been told I have no legal claim to the videos and cannot get them removed. Yet during that time, I was boasting about all the "easy money" I was making (I wasn't) and helping promote the narrative that porn including violent porn like that is safe, consensual, that "sex work is real work," that I was treated great and my boundaries were respected, and on and on. Why? Partly denial/copium, partly the threats and terror of what might happen if I did otherwise, and that I was "rewarded" when I did these things (not going to elaborate on this, sorry).

My experience was not an outlier. My experience was a feature, not a bug - a core part of the sex industry's infrastructure. The woman who makes multiple millions on OF through lingerie thirst traps and feet vids/pics, has someone to handle the clients for her, who wasn't in crisis and desperate for money when she decided to sign up, who always feels safe and genuinely believes she enjoys it... well, she most likely doesn't exist, but if she does, SHE is the outlier of this industry - to a point of statistical insignificance, frankly.

The level of audacity yall have coming after women who have been through the sorts of things that I have, who know the truth about this industry and try to speak out about it with the SOLE intention of PROTECTING "sex workers," from indescribable suffering and trauma at the hands of pimps, pornographers, and johns, the GALL to accuse women like us of hating and excluding from our feminism the women/girls currently going through those things? fucking EVIL. unforgivably evil.

As if most of you don't text your friends before a date with any man saying "if I don't text you by 9pm call 911," or sending them his license plate number or the address of the date location, or keeping your location active, or have a code word if you need rescue. You understand that meeting up with a strange man from Tinder is dangerous, that he "might be a serial killer," but you think it's fine and even "empowering" for an attractive, frequently bone-thin and short and unmuscular due to male sexual preferences, teen/early-20s, often desperate/homeless/addicted/single mother/starving woman (most often with unhealed preexisting sexual trauma/male violence history) to meet up with men at least twice-thrice her age in strange motel rooms, traphouses, shady apartments, kink club "after hours" events, etc etc to have her "consent" bought (then almost always he does more than "agreed" on, often shorts her or even robs her - and that's on a lucky day) while the only people who know her location are those involved. You know how I mentioned how often women going on dates take precautions because "he might be a serial killer," yeah? Did you conveniently forget that serial killers are infamous for how often they target prostituted women and others they perceive as "loose" or "immodest?" That men love enacting misogynistic violence on prostituted women because they know nobody cares about us, least of all law enforcement?

And what about all the talk of the "trans women murder rate," which people on the left rarely hesitate to point out is contributed to by the fact that soooo many of those were "sex workers" (and almost never white, btw). You seem to understand just fine how dangerous "sex work" is whenever trans people of uhh male-original-birth-certificate-owner status are at risk. Can you explain that to me?

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me, being born to parents incapable of love: ah but this just means I will do the impossible! I will be a perfect child! I will do so good and try so hard they'll see it and then decide to love me! This can happen!

me, sometime later, with cptsd: and perhaps,,, I will not do the impossible,,, also help--

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I read a reply on twitterX that really stuck with me. When someone asked MaryCateDelvey why she makes fun/calls out trans women not trans men. She said “I have sympathy for self hating women but not for creepy men” (can’t remember the exact reply).

Exactly. Even if a woman is furious at radical feminism and biological reality I will have endless sympathy and empathy (I was in that position once upon a time).

I empathise the feeling of being forced into a societal role of what it means to be female. To be objectified, to be violated. To be told that boys will be boys. To be taught (I was raised Christian) that I was responsible for male urges and needed to hide bra straps, nipples, breasts.

To save the poor boys and men from learning that I menstruate. Hiding pads in my sleeves when grabbing them from my locker. Males will make all the fart shit piss jokes but as soon as menstruation is brought up they are squeamish and disgusted. I thought I was the chewed up gum. The ripped off ductape. Losing its adhesive every time it was on somebody new.

From medical misogyny and gaslighting. From body image to makeup to cosmetic surgery to pregnancy to birth.

I wanted to escape too. When facing down the barrel of a patriarchy full of cruelty and subjugation. Of course I wanted to choose something I believed would free me from it.

It’s not that simple for people in Afghanistan. It’s not that simple for women and girls living in countries under Islamic regime. It’s not that simple for women and girls who are Mormon, Amish, Fundamental Christians, Muslim. For women and children who are trafficked and sold as a service to sick sick men.

They can’t identify out of their oppression. So why could I? Well the truth is no matter what. I couldn’t. I could lessen the blow somewhat because I was fortunate enough to leave Christianity and reject feeling ashamed of my female body. I couldn’t identify out of the assaults. I couldn’t identify out of being objectified. I couldn’t identify out of being a spectacle for being same-sex attracted and showing affection to another girl in high school.

I have empathy and compassion for girls with rapid onset gender dysphoria. I have empathy and compassion for the women and girls who think that transitioning will make them heterosexual.

I have not an ounce of compassion, sympathy or care for autogynephelic men. For pornsick men. For men who think they are more of a woman than a female person. For men shoehorning their way into feminism under the guise of “trans misogyny”. I will not ignore all of the times the thing that “never happens”, HAPPENS.

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