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Lately I feel like I've been going back to my roots and rediscovering things I used to enjoy or be passionate about and it feels so good and familiar

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I'm on a mission to replace all the ugly coffee mugs in my house

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My kitchen experiment (ginger soda) turned out really good

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I'm feeling a little strange and not like myself today. I think the chill weather is getting to me. I'm ready for some sunshine. I'm also just exhausted, and when I was napping, Chris called, so I didn't really get aby sleep. My eyes burn, and my body feels so heavy. I've been doing all my chores. I've just got to clean all the floors and pick up groceries when they're ready, and I can lay back down for a few minutes if I'm lucky. I'm running out of weed, so I'm trying to preserve what I've got, and that definitely not helping me feel any less strange. I'm really looking forward to picking up my grocery order and having some new snacks. Food has been hard lately like nothing tastes good, especially anything healthy, but I finally decided eating junk food is better than never eating.

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I woke up pretty early, so I've been taking advantage of the quiet and doing more homeschool research and planning. The kids will have an end of the year standardized test that I'll have to send in in order to be allowed to homeschool again next year. I'm kinda nervous about how difficult it's going to be for Lola, and I just hope it's not too bad and she can do okay on it. I'm pretty confident Ellie will do fine. Lola has had an extra hard time focusing this year, which is a big reason I'm planning to make next year different. I think things need to be more engaging than doing workbooks for hours at a time. Of course, that's hard to focus on it's not exactly interesting most of the time. I'm really unhappy with our curriculum this year for a few good reasons. I hope I can find decent math and English workbooks for next year that are 1) smaller with less reading and 2) more age appropriate topics. We ended up with a religious curriculum, and there's so much random religious junk in their books . The actual work is repetitive and too easy for both the kids, it seems like also there's sooo much of it there's no possible way we could have finished all 10 workbooks fir all 4 core subjects. I'm looking forward to having less book work and doing more reading from books and fun projects and outings. I've been looking at or reading a lot of books this week with the kids, and it's been more engaging already. I love all the random facts I learn in these educational kids' books. Chris said he would build me another book shelf so I could buy more books and maybe reorganize our current bookcase. I'm going to try to figure out where I can put it and get some measurements so we can get on that. I'm scared to get too excited about next year until after both kids have passed their tests in a few weeks. But I'm also trying to think positively and trust things to be okay.

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I've had a fucking shitty day and now Chris is working late so I have to take Lola to gymnastics alone and I can't walk the dogs in the parking lot like he can because I don't weigh enough and I'm not strong enough so I'm going to have to listen to them bark and whine fir an entire hour and God I'm so fucking pissed I had planned on staying home because I'm literally so done with life today and now I have to go do it alone. I really didn't need today to be any harder imlike about to cry from pure frustration at life. Fuckkk

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I'm not having a great day. My youngest is not listening and being really disrespectful and I'm just done with it.

I was hoping a shower would make me feel better but it didn't so i guess I need to try something else. I have chores I don't want to do and now I need to deal with my hair and I hate doing my hair.

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I've got my kids outside counting different bugs for nature class and this is one of many reasons I love homeschool. :)

I'm starting to get over my bad mood too which is good

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I'm in a weird mood today. After we finished homeschool I couldn't find anything I wanted to do and I'm not motivated to do chore either so normally I would scroll on my phone but that also felt bad so I git some caffeine because maybe I'm tired and that's why I feel strange. I slept like shit last night and I do feel like I've done a lot when I haven't. I'm like neck deep in planning next years school units and I've been researching books for days now. I'm going to do things differently next year and do a looooot less workbook pages and do more reading and hands on activities. I'm looking forward to buying books and supplies and especially a printer so I can actually start getting things together for next year. I feel so caught off guard in August when I haven't planned anything so I'm getting a super early start this year. I think I'm doing future me a favor.

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I'm really disappointed in the weather. It's chilly and rainy and so not tent weather. Kinda fucks up my plans so I've gotta figure something else out.

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I'm trying not to take a nap today, but damn being bored makes me sleepy. I did a few loads of laundry and got my homeschool supplies out for the week. Then I had a smoothie bowl for lunch and painted my nails. I think I'm going to go take a long bath and get ready to hopefully go out tonight. I think Chris and I are going to set up the tent and clean it up some. We've been talking about it for weeks, and the time is finally here. Might even sleep in it in the backyard if the weather stays good. I love this time of year where it feels good outside and the green stuff looks soo fresh and green idk it makes me feel good.

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I planted my weed seedlings because happy 420. I had a coffee and some chill time in the backyard to help me stop being so pissy. It's kinda chilly outside, so I'm not sure how much time I'll be spending outside today. I do have some random plans. Of course, it's Saturday, so I gotta do the everything shower and try to paint my nails. I've got some random cleaning projects I've been putting off too. I don't want to sit around all day so I'm going to try to stay busy doing good things.

My best friend is really pissing me off and she messaged me again so I just told her how I felt and now she's not responding but honest I don't even fucking care. I've lost so many friends for stupid reasons I know not to get to close to anyone so while I do value her friendship I wouldn't be too fucked up if she didn't want to be friends anymore. There's a reason why I have trust issues and this is so clearly it. I'm still fucking irritated though which I wish I could just let go of because it's doing me no good.

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Practicing keeping my mouth shut when I'm upset instead of saying every hateful thought I have is hard. I'm am so fucking irritated man 🙄

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Once I clean my bathroom I will have cleaned my whole house, picked up and put away groceries, and started a ginger bug, oregano oil, and onion honey cough syrup. I'm going to have time for a nice long bath today because this evening my kids are going to my moms so Chris and I might get dinner out. Hopefully I'll feel motivated to paint my nails too that would make me feel nice.

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I'm having a good day. Homeschool felt good. The kids helped me make Chili for tonight's dinner after gymnastics class and they helped me plant a few seeds. I need more pots or to fence in part of my yard. The deer ate all my vegetables last year and I'll be damned if it happens again. I'm hoping I get enough cucumbers to can some pickles. I'm also growing dill for them and later this week I'm going to try to make apple cider vinegar. I'm getting some jars for various kitchen experiments and omg I'm excited to make stuff.

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The violet syrup turned out so pretty.

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One of my goals this year is to get good at canning. I want to buy in season fruits when they're on sale and can them for the winter because the fruit the grocery stores have in the winter taste bad. I also only plant on growing a few veggies because last year I was really overwhelmed. I'm going to do pickling cucumbers and tomatoes for salsa and I'm not sure what else.