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This has been done before im sure

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Derek in Fisher King Part II

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Something about Apothecary Diaries and the complexity of what it means to have a mother. Something about Maomao and her only memories of her mother being silence or a pain that has nothing to do with her but is reflected onto her anyway, and yet still engineering things so that Lakan, years later, would come to find and marry her. Something about all of the courtesans in the Verdigris House being like mother figures to Maomao, yet never paying attention to her when she cried. Something about Loulan doing everything in her power to not be a mother - taking drugs to avoid it, knowing that to have a child would be a selfish, cruel thing, even down to 'killing' the children who adore her. Something about Jinshi, and both of his mothers - the one who birthed him and the one who raised him. Anshi, and raising him to be mature and older than he should have had to be to be the opposite of his grandfather, the man who victimized her, and Ah-Duo, unable to be in his life because she chose to give him up. Something about mothers not being unconditional and uncomplicated; something about motherhood being absent, ugly, confined by circumstance or by past pain. Something about not wanting to be your mother; something about being too much like your mother. Something about how your mother haunts you regardless.

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I wonder if the costume department knew the impact they’d make when they put him in this fit

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I just love this trope of Jinshi falling asleep near or on Maomao all the time because she’s his safe space 🥰

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I had an idea for a whole essay on why Maomao is quicker to accept affection from Loulan/Shisui than from Jinshi and how that's a reflection of her being raised in the pleasure district by courtesans and thus viewing affection from women as a given and natural thing to receive and give but at the same time viewing affection between men and women as transactional and something men have to pay to get and women offer as a product but I prefer to just enjoy the doom yuri while it lasts instead

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Apothecary diaries fanart from me, 2025

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maomao immediately going back to her droopy catlike self and realising she missed their dynamic oh they're so precious to me maomao my sweet girl

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these two have been taking up 98% of my brain space lately

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Bonus: Casual hand holding

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I gotta love how Gaoshun has Maomao alone basically for the first time since they met and the first thing he says is "can you please stop looking down on Jinshi like he was a bug, it's making him horny af and I don't want me or anyone else to have to deal with his freak".

Like can you PLEASE give that man a break 🙏🏼

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congratulations to jinshi for being the first fictional man to get the female character treatment (overhated and misunderstood over mistakes that are in line with the themes of the story).

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I’m going to be insufferable after this, people who follow me just plan accordingly 😂

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Jinmao dynamic is lowkey crazy cause Jinshi will try to be very indirect with courting Maomao bc he doesn't want her to feel cornered or like he's forcing her to do anything.... and in return Maomao will pretend like there's nothing between them till he becomes unhinged. He's either extremly careful not to scare her off or (SPOILERS LN 7 ans 8) saying he'll make her his wife and branding himself a slave so no other woman can have him. No in between.

Jinshi: *insinuating he wants a relationship with Maomao*

Maomao: Oh no you don't. You're either gonna be direct or I'm gonna act like there's nothing between us.

Jinshi: Oh yeah? Challenge accepted. How about *random unhinged behaviour nobody could ever have predicted*

And I think it's beautiful.

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anime so good i started reading the light novels

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thinking about how spencer reid is an insane manipulator if you squint hard enough, who just chooses not to be bcs he’s a silly guy at heart, but he could if he wanted to.

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Maomao going full Rorschach

Source: Reddit