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cannot wait for it to be september please let it be september soon

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literally just gonna shave my fucking head at this point

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i want to be small enough for someone to shove me in their mouth and chew me to paste

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i am not worthy to wear the ring it placed on my finger

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fuck i think i just realized what one of the packages is and i'm actual dogshit

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requesting someone to come beat the shit out of me

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i'm gonna go dig a hole for me to die in. if cigs weren't so fucking expensive i'd buy a pack and smoke every single last one of them till i puke and die in my hole but they are and i'd feel too guilty about buying them

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i'm a shitstain of a human being and nothing will wver redeem me of that

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all i do, all i fucking do, is cause problems for them. how the fuck did i lose 5 packages???? i have no idea what was even in them and i hope it wasn't expensive. knowing my shit luck tho it was probably expensive and for the wedding. i'm a shit husband and nothing i do will make up for this. all i can hope is they'll forgive me for this but who the hell am i kidding, i don't deserve it. i can't doing this i can't let Z be right and i can't keep putting my hisband through my shit. FUCK!!!

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i want to best my skill in and i fucking deserve that

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Ok we might actually need to have a conversation about respecting when I say we cannot get distracted. I said no at least twice and you STILL kept going knowing it was only a matter of time till I broke and gave in. Why can’t you just stop when I tell you to? Why do you keep putting me in the position of needing to be firm like this? Like is it some kind of brat tactic I’m not picking up on??? The whole never eating dinner thing, because we get distracted and pass out every. single. time, is getting incredibly old and tired. I’m fucking responsible for you now that’s what our dynamic dictates. I’m supposed to be in charge yet you won’t even listen to me when I tell you to knock it off.

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I’m such a stupid fucking idiot. Why did I choose now to bring that up??? I’m so fucking stupid it’s literally ridiculous. They’re probably even more upset now and it’s my fucking fault.

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I cannot wait for this fucking relationship to finally fucking die. This fucking cunt distresses them to the point that she fucks with so much of our time together. Bitch. Just say ur jealous of what we have together and move the fuck on. Admit that you thought you were in some kind of competition with me and Fuck. Off.

Better yet, know ur fucking place. Do you really think so highly of urself you thought you could disrupt a very stable and healthy long term relationship? You of all people???? Ur so delusional it’s embarrassing. There’s a reason your other partner dropped you and why a lot of ur other connections are dying. Ur a petty, jealous, ableist and most of all pathetic piece of shit. I don’t know how they stood you for 8 months cause…..fuck, you really decided to test their good graces.

All you do is take and take and take and you give nothing in return. What you do is make nasty faces behind their back and snide little remarks that aren’t quite framed as visible insults. You should really learn to stop being such a cunt because sooner or later someone actually mean and fucked up isn’t going to have the patience to deal with ur immature ass and will make you sorry you never learned how to act like a fucking adult.

Rot in agony you absolute horseshit stain of a human being 🖕🏻

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I’m suppressing the urge to invite a man to sleep at my home under false pretenses. When he’s fallen asleep is when I’ll start beating him in the balls. You want to assault my partner in it’s sleep? Maybe a ruptured testicle will teach you to keep your hands to your fucking self.

You’re fucking trash and I knew you were fucking trash. Why do you think I never invited you back?

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This isn’t anger but where else do I put this?? I’m just. So. Fucking. Sad.

I miss you so fucking much and you’re right here. You’re right here but even when I do get to see you it’s not the same because you’re either working yourself to exhaustion or passed out from said exhaustion. I hate this and I just want to scream and cry about all of it. I miss you so fucking much it feels like something’s festering in my chest. Who am I to complain though? The only reason you’re working like this is because of me. If I had just managed to hold on to my job while I looked for better work you wouldn’t be so tired and we wouldn’t be in this financial mess I single handedly put us in.

I feel nothing but useless. Useless for never going to school to get some sort of degree that would make getting a better job easier. Useless for not being able to hold down my UNIONIZED coffee job. Useless for having to depend on so many people to pay my bills because my body is too useless and broken for me to snag the first grocery gig I can find. Useless that I didn’t get approved for even $100 in food stamps. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless. Useless.

I feel useless and stupid and a waste of your time and money and effort and love.

How could I possibly be worth anything good when all I’m bringing you is stress and exhaustion? I can’t even keep myself from crying about things in front of you. Here you are working yourself sick just to support our family and all I can seem to do is cry and make you worry.

I truly feel like the shittiest boyfriend.

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I just want to spend time with you where ur not sleeping or working. It hurts when it feels like I’m the only one you fall asleep on when hanging out and I understand it’s not on purpose and that it just having to work a lot but why can’t we make a point to do what we planned another time?

I miss you i miss you i miss you i miss you……..

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You, the both of you, sleep upon a bed of idiocy. Good thing y’all are married cause honestly you deserve each other, truly.

How dare you give them less than 2 MONTHS notice that you’re moving out! Both of you pretend and pretend and pretend but I’ll be honest ladies — I see you.

I see you I see you I SEE YOU!! I see the faces you make to each other, your silent communications. They don’t but I do. I see the way you and I hear the tones you speak in and all of your shiftiness and behavior finally makes sense.

Still though.

I thought you had more respect than that.

You were right to be concerned of my wrath. After all one of you has already seen it.