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Me on my way to read a Slash fanfic

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counting down the seconds til u update grunge days I love it sm 🙏🙏💞💞

omg i’m just seeing this!!! just uploaded that last two chapters :,) feeling really emotional about it ngl

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Grunge Days Epilogue - Moonlight Mile

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2003, Slashs POV

1999, the year Y/n left me left me, the promise i had made her back in ‘92 was broken. And as much as she tried, I know that everything i was doing crushed her. It wasn’t much of a surprise when she told me it was over. And as much as it hurt, I had no choice but to let her go.

After Layne passed, Y/n had became the worst version of herself. No one could find her, and if they could, you couldn’t get anything across to her.

I’ll always remember the last time I spoke to her.

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“Y/n baby- just open the door” Slash said, his head pressed against her door. “Please” Y/n sniffled “I can’t”

“Yes you can” Slash said, his own voice breaking at the sound of Y/ns weak voice “It’s okay- It’s just me”.

“Just leave Slash” Y/n said, her voice becoming harsher, she started yelling, “Get out of here” over and over again.

Slash flinched and shut his eyes when he started to hear things breaking through the door. He sighed, a tear threatening to leave his eye “Just- just calm down okay? I’ll leave”.

Sniffling, he said his goodbyes “I’ll leave Y/n okay? I love you- just call me when you can sweetheart. I love you.”

After some silence, he spoke his last words “Bye Y/n”

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Duffs wife, Susan, was rubbing his back as I held him. In fear that he would fall onto his knees. Looking up to the sky, I didn’t know if it was me or him who was about to collapse. The pain was enough to take us both out.

My heart hurt as I stared at the box in front of me, the priest reading a bunch of prayers that I didn’t pay attention to. My heart knew that no matter what Y/n had done in her lifetime, she would be an angel.

All I heard was crying, I told my condolences to everyone. Jerry and Sean were a mess, everyone there was. Even I was, I was never much of a crier, but even through my sunglasses you could see all of the tears leaving my eyes.

The whole time i was here i felt judged, as though besides everyone’s grief, they looked at me as the man who never could love Y/n enough.

They were right, partially, I know I fucked up, but the love I felt for her was always real. The love i felt for Y/n was enough to almost make me stop breathing.

And to see this, all of the air in my lungs had slowly been leaving me.

I’ll never forget her smile, or her voice. The time we were together, happy in our own little world, and how all the times she would tell me how much she loved me was enough to make my knees buckle.

My eyes scanned everyone around me, until they landed on the dirt that was covering Y/n.

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2005

Slash took a trip down to Seattle to go and visit Y/ns grave. He couldn’t live one more month without saying what he needed to

“I’m sorry Y/n” His voice cracked at the sight of her headstone, he had never saw it. The last time he was here was during her funeral.

“I’m sorry I couldn’t love you like I should’ve, I really wanted to” He cried, wiping his tears away, “I really did love you Y/n, I still do. I’ll never stop loving you. I’m so sorry” He said, his lips pressing together as his hand softly touched her headstone. “I really failed you, I’m sorry i wasn’t man enough to show you how much I loved you- I wish- I wish you were still here Y/n. Life hasn’t been the same since you’ve been gone” He sniffled, looking up to the sky.

Slash wasn’t the type of man to regret anything he’s done during his lifetime. But Y/n, Y/n was something that he regretted so much it made him relapse for the past two years. He never let himself feel what he was supposed to, now having kids he needed to find a way to be able to still function as a human being.

“I can’t stop saying i’m sorry- i don’t think i ever will” He sighed “I think of you everyday Y/n, you’ll always be the girl who has my heart- ever since back in ‘86- you’ll always be my girl.”

“I love you Y/n, and I will forever”

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Im sorry

thank you guys so much for sticking with me, it means so much!!! sorry it took forfuckenever. I hope you guys enjoyed this series!!!!

All my love, gnrbitch💝

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G.D pt.26 - Take It On the Run

Warnings: drug mention

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1992

After their brief encounter last night, Slash had wound up telling Y/n to come by the next day, that they’ll be able to have a better conversation when they weren’t so fucked up.

Slash woke up in the afternoon due to his phone ringing, multiple times. “Hello?” he groaned out, his hands covering his face.

“Slash, they can’t push back the tour” Axls voice said through the other line. “What do you mean?” He sat up, eye brows furrowing.

“We’re leaving in 2 hours” Was all Axl said, hanging up the phone before Slash got the chance to respond. Fuck, he thought, how the hell was he gonna explain himself to Kirk?

Y/n… his eyes widened, she was supposed to come see him today, and knowing her she was gonna wait till the last minute.

He jumped out of his bed, his mind not even comprehending all of his actions. Not until he was driving down Laurel Canyon he realized, what the fuck was he gonna say?

What was there to say? he thought. Being the person he is, he had never in his life opened himself up to someone, let alone that someone being everything he’s opening up about.

His grip on the wheel tighten once he found himself parked outside of Y/ns place, taking a deep breath in, he opened the car door.

Fuck it, Y/n does it all the time, how hard can it be? His mind raced, there was no time to rethink this, it was now or never. Knocking on the door, he heard Y/ns feet patting on the floor.

“Slash?” Y/n said, a bit caught off guard.

“Y/n- I love you” He said, taking a deep breath in “The bands leaving tonight and I can’t go without telling you that i want this” Y/n stared at him with wide eyes as he continued to speak “I want us to work out, and i’m sorry- i wish i could take back everything i’ve done- every fucked up shit i’ve said to you. And i know- i know i can’t, but I love you Y/n”

He looked at her, his eyes full of sincerity. “And i’m done- no more women, no more bullshit. I just want you”

“Slash-” Y/n started, her heart beating a thousand miles per minute. “Trust me, please” He said “I promise- I promise you i’ll never hurt you again”

Her eyes teary, knowing this was probably a promise he wouldn’t keep, she whispered “Okay”

“Okay” Slash repeated, a smile beginning to grace his face. “Okay, i forgive you Slash” She smiled as she saw Slash smile widely “And i’m putting my trust in you”

“Thank you” Slash said, sounding almost out of breath “Thank you” he repeated, kissing Y/n on the lips “I love you” he said as he kissed her again.

Y/n let out a small laugh once he pulled away “I love you too” she whispered. Slash smiled at her, probably the hardest hes smiled in a while, "While i'm gone, move your stuff in, alright?" He said, holding her in his arms.

"Okay" Y/n said, looking into his eyes.

It was a deal, the years of of fighting and constant mistakes made the pair realize that in the end, they will always find their way back to each other. A love that will never be forgotten.

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[gnrbitch]

Hey guys!!! sorry to leave you guys out of the blue but i’m currently writing the last two chapter of the book! Planning on releasing them on the same day, don’t hate me 😭😭🙏 I hope to have them out sometime this week!

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Grunge Days pt.25- I Fall Apart

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1992

“I don’t need a goddamn thing from you” Slash said, holding himself up with the door as he looked at Y/n.

“Slash just listen-” Y/n said, getting cut off

“No! i won’t fucken listen to you” Slash spat “Why- why the hell would i do that” He hiccuped

“Don’t do this Slash” Y/n breathed out “It’s not fair” She said, looking at his eyes as her eyes filled with tears.

Y/n had finally made the decision to go see Slash, she had made up her mind when Kirk called her asking when they were going to see each other again. She couldn’t make her mind up on when, she liked Kirk, but she knew that no one, and she meant no one was ever going to compare to Slash.

“What’s not fair is you fucking Kirk” He said, getting ready to shut the door.

Y/n pushed the door, letting herself into his house “You don’t get to decide what’s fair Slash” She sniffled, angrily “You out of all people don’t get to do that”

Sobbing, she continued “You don’t get to do this- not after everything you did to me”. Slash looked at her, words being unable to come out of his mouth.

"Just please- listen" Y/n looked at him "please" She whispered.

"Okay" He whispered back

He led her to his couch, Y/n wanted to look around his place, he had gotten a new one since she'd been gone. But she couldn't, all she could focus on was Slash, the way he was stumbling as he walked with his bottle of JD in his hands.

They sat down, far apart from each other, Slash on one end and Y/n on the other.

"I don't get why you're so upset about the Kirk situation" Y/n said, Slash sucked in a breath, tensing up at the mention of him. "I could've moved on, i could've really, finally moved on" She breathed out, wiping her tears away. "And yet here I am" She let out a laugh, a sad laugh to where she finally gave up wiping away her tears cause they just wouldn't stop falling. "I couldn't do it Slash, no matter what you do, I could never truly leave you" She shook her head, looking down at her legs, then back up at him.

"I still love you" Slash said "I do- I just- I don't know what's wrong with me"

"Am I just not enough for you?" Y/n asked

"Y/n-" Slash said, getting cut off by an emotional Y/n

"Why did you do this to me?" Y/n asked "All i wanted was to be loved by you" she cried.

"I do- I do love you Y/n", "I don't know why i did this" He said, looking at the woman he loves fall apart right in front of his eyes.

"I don't feel it Slash, and I don't think I ever did" She said

"Is there even anything left for us?"

"I don't know"

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AHHHHHH FINALLY A NEW CHAPTER!!!!!! oh my god thank you guys so much for being patient with me, it means so much!!!!! I'm so sorry i had you all waiting a buttfuck forever. Im starting to get my groove back so i hope i can now be more consistent with writing, love you all so so so much!!!!!! (also kinda drunk right now)

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[gnrbitch]

hey i saw you’re going thru a breakup :( i’m so sorry to hear that, they missed out on an amazing person. i hope you find someone more deserving of your love <3

absolutely no pressure to post anything, take ur time and heal babes <3

Thank you so much 🙁💖💖💖 you guys r literally the best

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GUYSSSS I GOT MY HEART BROKENNNNNNN IM SO SAD WHAT DO I DO THIS MY FIRST TIME DEALING WITH THIS 💔💔💔💔 Anyways gonna try to write AAHHHHHHH i’m so stuck on what direction i want Grunge Days to go

[gnrbitch]

when are u gonna update the fic?

Hey! hopefully i can soon, if i’m being honest i’m not so sure, i’ll try working on a new chapter tmr hopefully!! i’m so so so sorry to keep you guys waiting i just have a lot going on, plus i haven’t even given much thought to what direction i want the book to head in, but i’m currently rereading it (i’ve literally forgotten what’s happened) so hopefully i get some inspo!!!!!

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Grunge Days pt.24- About a Girl

Warnings:

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1992, Day after

“Hellooooo” Duffs voice rang through Y/ns place.

Y/n furrowed her eyebrows as she exited her room, looking down the staircase to see Duff.

“Duff?” Y/n asked “What are you doing here?”

“Tour got pushed back till next week” Duff said

Walking down the stairs, Y/n gave him a quick side hug, “Oh”.

“Aren’t you gonna ask why? It’s a real good reason” Duff spoke, walking over to her couch and sitting down.

Y/n rolled her eyes “Why is your precious tour being pushed back?”

“Well since you asked” Duff smiled, looking at her as she sat down at the other end of her couch. “Slash pressed Kirk”

“What do you mean Slash pressed Kirk?” Y/n furrowed her eyebrows

“He wouldn’t say, he just wanted to fight i guess” Duff shrugged “Suddenly he doesn’t like him”

Shifting uncomfortably in her seat, “Right” “So what happened?”

“Okay so...”

“Plans all seem to be going the way they should” Guns tour manager said “Anything you wanna add?” He said, looking over the Metallicas manager.

“Nope. You guys are ready to start the tour” He said

“Alright nice!” Lars said, putting his palms on the table “Dont you guys think this calls for some drinks”

While everyone was agreeing and overall showing their excitement for the tour, Slash couldn’t help himself but angrily stare at Kirk.

And considering the fact he already had some alcohol in his system, he was making it very obvious he had some issue with Metallica’s guitarist.

“Slash man we’re leaving” Matt said, tapping Slash’s shoulder.

“He’s too busy trying to kill Kirk with his eyes” Lars laughed

“Shut up Lars” Kirk rolled his eyes “Me and Slash are cool”

Slash scoffed, getting up from where he was sitting “Are we?” He sarcastically asked.

Everyone (Duff, James, Lars, Kirk, and their managers) in the room were confused, Slash had always gotten along with Kirk, and he even considered himself a fan of Metallica. So what was his issue?

Kirk furrowed his eyebrows as he looked at Slash, who was slowly walking towards him “Are you saying we have a problem?”

“We could have one” Slash said, shoving Kirk

Kirk, bounced back a bit, then he shoved Slash back “The fuck is your issue?”

Without even thinking, Slash punched Kirk in the face.

By the time Kirk tried hitting Slash back, they were both being pulled away by everyone in the room.

“Control your fucken guitarist man!” Lars yelled as him and James pulled Kirk out of the room.

“What the fuck was that!” Guns tour manager angrily said, looking over at Slash.

“Fuck off” Slash spat, walking out of the room, and out of the building.

“So then they talked with Metallicas manager and he said that theyyy said that they were still willing to do the tour” Duff ranted “Only if Slash chills out though”

“Fuck” Y/n grumbled to herself “Have you talked to him?” She asked

“Who? Slash?” Duff said, Y/n nodded her head at him “Yea i have, he’s been in a shit mood though” Duff rolled his eyes.

“Okay” Y/n said, not really knowing what else to say.

“I know it’s cause you messed with Kirk” Duff said “I may be drunk- But i’m not an idiot” He hiccuped.

“We really shouldn’t be talking about my sex life” Y/n cringed

“Yea well- I’m just letting you know” He said “I’ve learned to mind my own business”

“Lucky” Y/n said, wondering if she should start doing the same… or if she should go find out herself.

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Me when i’m writing fanfic at school and someone sits next to me…

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Grunge Days pt.23 - Whiskey In a Jar

Warnings: a little smut

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1992

“Y/n!” A voice called behind the girl.

Y/n was sitting at the bar section at the Rainbow, JD bottle sitting in front of her, a cigarette in her hand. She turned around when she heard the voice call her name.

“Oh shit, Hey Kirk” She smiled at him, eyes following his movements.

He smiled as he sat next to her, “How’ve you been? You look good”

Y/n let out a laugh “I’ve been good” “You look pretty good yourself”

“Oh pretty good?” He raised his eyebrows “Try again”

Playfully rolling her eyes, a smile graced her face once again “You look very good Kirk” she emphasized “Good enough to eat”

“Eat huh?” Kirk said, his voice flirtatious.

Laughing, she pushed her bottle to him “Maybe”

Y/n and Kirk had never been like this towards each other, they really haven’t spoken much either. The only time they do is when they catch each other and their bands at some festival or something. But they never had sent each other sexual glances, flirted with each other, or…

Leaning into him as Y/n laughed at some shit he had said, she sighed as she looked at him.

Kirk smiled as his eyes scanned Y/ns face, “I always thought you were so pretty”

Looking at Kirk with her ‘Sexy but really just super drunk and horny’ eyes, “Is that so?” she said, moving one of her hands to the back of his neck.

Lazily smiling, Kirk nodded his head before he leaned in.

Kirks warm lips lightly pressed into Y/ns, then looking into her eyes as their noses brushed against each others, he leaned back in, deepening the kiss this time.

The hand Y/n had on Kirks neck, moved up to his hair as she lightly pulled on it. Kirk groaned into her mouth, pulling away he asked “Wanna go back to my place?”

“Yea” Y/n smiled, breathlessly.

Walking out the club, Kirks arm was wrapped around Y/ns waist, that same hand touching down her thigh. Y/ns arms were wrapped around his shoulders as she playfully bit his ear.

Kirk smiled and turned to look at her, licking her lips before kissing them.

Laughing into the kiss, Y/n broke away from it as they made their way into Kirks car. (He had a personal driver okay😍)

Kirk opened the back door and let Y/n go in first, then sitting besides her.

Pulling her onto his lap, he reached to the cup holder in front of him, and pulled out a bottle of champagne.

Y/ns eyebrows raised, letting a little laugh out “Champane? Really?”

“Hey” Kirk said, opening the bottle “I get fancy sometimes”

Y/n laughed as Kirk put the bottle to her mouth, “Drink”

Filling her mouth with the it, Y/n grabbed Kirks face and opened his mouth, then tilted his head as she spilled it into his mouth.

Kirk swallowed then forcefully attached his lips back onto Y/ns, her arms wrapping around his shoulders.

One of Kirks hands slithered their way down to Y/ns thighs, getting closer and closer to where she needed him most.

Y/n let out a groan when she felt Kirks fingers brushing against her underwear.

Smiling against her mouth, Kirk moved Y/ns underwear to the side, rubbing two of his fingers in between her folds. “Open” He said, bringing his fingers which were covered in her slick, to her mouth.

Gently grabbing his hand, she used her tongue lick them first, then sucking on them.

“There you go” Kirk said, his voice deep and eyes full of desire.

*

Rubbing her eyes, Y/n sat up from where she was laying. Letting her eyes adjust to the sun, she looked around to where she was.

This must be Kirks room She thought, looking around at all the horror inspired things in his room. Reminds me of Slash

Her feet touched the ground, looking around the floor to find her clothes, eventually just throwing on a shirt she found. Remembering her clothes must be in the living room.

Kirk wasn’t in the room when Y/n woke up, so she went downstairs, to see him making tea.

“Tea?” He asked, without looking back at her.

“Sure, yea” Y/n responded smiling at him when he looked back.

“I was waiting for you to wake up” Kirk said “You’re a heavy sleeper”

“Am I?” Y/n asked

“Yea, i tried waking you up” He said “I thought you were dead for a moment”

Laughing, Y/n rolled her eyes “If you want me out just say that”

“No!” Kirk quickly said, “No” he laughed “They just showed something on tv that i thought you’d wanna see”

Y/n furrowed her eyebrows “What was it?”

Kirk nudged his head over to the Tv, Y/n turned her head to look. A few music topics, and…

Her and Kirk. Walking outside the club. Her and Kirk kissing. “Seems like these two metal guitarist are getting steamy huh?”. The host said

Y/ns eyes widened “Holy shit”

“That’s exactly what i said” Kirk laughed “Its all good though, people will forget about it by tomorrow”

“Can’t believe we’re the gossip topic for today” Y/n laughed in disbelief.

“Yea don’t worry” Kirk pointed to the Tv again, “We’re not the only ones”

Guitarist Slash and soon to be ex-wife Renee are getting divorced!

Y/ns heart dropped “Slash’s getting divorced?” she mumbled

“I know right, Shortest marriage ever”

“Yea” Y/n said quietly “Hey look- i gotta go” She said, looking at Kirk.

“Why?” Kirk asked

“I- I forgot i had a studio session soon” Y/n said, getting up from the chair she was seated on.

“Oh, alright then” Kirk smiled “I had a good time last night”

Y/n paused, looking at Kirk “Me too” She smiled

“I’ll see you another time?”

“Of course you will” Y/n smiled, waving to Kirk as he stood at his doorway.

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Just started college and i might explode sorry for the slow updates guys i’ve been so stressed i literally have two anatomy quizzes this week please pray for me 😭😭🙏🙏🙏

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[gnrbitch]

Hey guys!!

Hey guys, sorry i’ve been lagging on the updates, ive been pretty busy :(((( i’ll try to have a chapter up tomorrow!!

[gnrbitch]

Grunge Days pt.22 - The Bitch is Back

Warnings:

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1992, 4:00 am

The hallways of the hospital were empty, quiet and eerie.

Slash always hated hospitals, he hated how it felt like death, he hated the fact someone could walk in and never walk out.

He now hated the fact that he was walking in with one of his closest friends, now hating the fact that they were walking in not knowing if his friends sister was alive. Not knowing if the girl he loved was alive.

Duff was a silent mess, pale faced, and a stone cold expression. He didn’t want this to be the way Y/n went. She still had the rest of her life to live. This couldn’t be the way she died because not only did the last thing he did to her was hurt her, but she couldn’t die because he himself hasn’t died yet. He couldn’t imagine living in a world without his little sister. It was enough to make his knees buckle.

They got into the elevator, heading to the third floor. Anxiously waiting to get off.

The doors sliding open, they looked up to see Susan and Layne sitting outside of what they could guess, Y/ns room.

Duff quickly made his way to them, Slash slowly walking behind him.

“Is-is she-” Duff choked out

“She’s alive” Susan said, getting up “But she hasn’t woken up”

“Neither of you guys should be here” Layne said, sitting up to look at them.

“Shut up” Duff said, sending a death glare to him “That’s my sister”

Layne stood up “Doesn’t matter. She doesn’t wanna see either of you”

Duff got up in his face “And how would you know that?”

“You know what you fucken did” Laynes eyes narrowed to Slash “And ask you’re fucken friend over there what he did”

Duff turned back to look at Slash “What is he talking about”

“Nows not the time to argue” Susan quipped “Let’s just all sit down and wait”

*

Letting out a small cough, Y/ns eyes tiredly opened. Sitting up to look at her surroundings, her eyes widened.

Why the fuck am i in a hospital? She thought, the last thing she remembered was telling Layne that she loved him. She doesn’t know how the hell she ended up here.

Looking down at her IV, she ripped it out. Then she heard a bunch of talking outside, the doors of the room were a bit foggy, but she could obviously make out who were the people standing outside.

“Fuck” Y/n croaked, her throat being dry. Sighing as she took off all the little stickers that were monitoring her heart.

All the machines started beeping rapidly, attracting everyone who was outsides attention.

Everyone rushed into the room, thinking Y/n had flatlined to see her sitting up, a confused expression on her face.

Shocked to see her awake, they all stood at the doorway with wide eyes.

“I need a drink” Y/n said, her voice raspy.

Layne let out a laugh, making his way to her as he embraced her.

“You died” Layne said, his eyes tearing “Please don’t ever die again”

Y/n laughed as she held him “I’m not gonna croak until you do”

He looked at her, tears staining his face “You scared me” He said, licking his lips before continuing “I thought i was gonna shit myself”.

Y/n smiled, her smile fading as she spoke “I’m sorry” “I love you Layne”, she said as she hugged him tightly. “I love you” She repeated in a whisper.

“I love you too” Layne sniffled “Please don’t ever leave me” he said

“Wasn’t planning on it” She said “But can someone get me something to fucken drink, preferably alcohol? And a cigarette too, that would be nice”

“Y/n” Duff spoke

“Who invited attempted murder to the party” Y/n said, rolling her eyes then looking at Layne, the both of them giggling.

“Okay you two need to talk this out” Susan said, motioning for Layne to get out of the room.

“I’m not lea-” Layne said, getting cut off by Susan.

“Layne, let’s go”

Layne groaned as he got up, leaving the room.

“Y/n” Duff said, his eyes tearing “I’ve given you your space”

“Thankfully” Y/n quipped

“Please Y/n, i’m so sorry” Duff cried

Y/n cringed, “I forgive you” she said, in hopes to make him stop crying.

“You do?” Duff asked

“Yea sure whatever” Y/n responded

Duff walked up to her and hugged her, Y/n barley putting her arms around him “Im so sorry Y/n” he repeated, “It’ll never happen again”

Y/n rolled her eyes, Heard that one before.

“Yea cool everything’s cool can Layne come back in now?” She quickly said.

Duff looked at her “You have to stop” he sniffled “You have to stop using”

“Sure whatever” Y/n internally rolled her eyes

“Why are you acting like you don’t care?” Duff sajd

Y/n shrugged “Cause i don’t”

“But you almost died” Duff said

“But i didn’t” She responded

“No you- you did fucken died” Duff said “I don’t even know who you are anymore”

“You know i could say the same shit about you” Y/n rolled her eyes, getting up from her bed and walking out the room. “Let’s go” She told Susan and Layne, glancing over to Slash.

“But we have to fill out your pa-” Susan said

“Susan” Y/n said, her eyes burning into hers “I wanna go fucken home” Her voice cracking.

Susan just let out a sigh, knowing she’ll have to deal with the paperwork later. Layne, Her and Y/n left.

Y/n didn’t even look back.

“What happened?” Slash asked Duff

Duff turned to Slash, “I should be asking you the same fucken question”

“It’s better you don’t know” Slash said

Duff looked down at Slash “Is it? Is it really better”

“What happened is between me and her” Slash said “It’s none of your business”

“That’s my fucken sister” Duff said

“You don’t need to know everything about her. So just forget it” Slash said, standing up “Let’s go”

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Poop Chapter i hated how this came out i wasn’t even sure if i wanted to post it LMFAO

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[gnrbitch]

Happy birthday to the prettiest star 🌟 💕

[gnrbitch]

Grunge Days pt.21- Oh, Me

Warnings: !drug usage!

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1992, Rock in Rio

Rock in Rio, even after Y/n got off stage she couldn’t believe that she had just performed at one of the most iconic rock events.

Alice had released their album a week ago, and the amount of love the album received was amazing.

The album itself, is not meant to be celebrated, everyone knew that. Y/n and Layne especially knew that. But you can’t deny the fact it’s a killer album.

Back to Rock in Rio, Alice, Soundgarden and Nirvana all made their way back to the hotel they were staying at after their performance. None of them really wanted to stay to watch the headliners.

The headliners in question being Guns.

Y/n had been avoiding Slash the whole time they arrived. She had been avoiding him since the last time they saw each other. He made his moves, calling her, randomly showing up to a show, and even showing up to her house.

But Y/n didn’t want to see him. Of course she didn’t, she really, really wanted to stop loving him. She always hoped that one day she would wake up and feel nothing towards him. Or nothing in general, she still woke up and carried a heavy heart. Waking up hoping that it would be the last time she woke up.

And obviously, she had been avoiding Duff. She couldn’t even think about him without getting a glance of how emotionless he looked when he almost killed her. She knew one day she would have to speak to him, but for now, she just wasn’t ready to.

Her and Chris went up to Kurts room (with his invitation of course), and all were talking about whatever was going on in their life. But obviously, they were only there to get high with each other.

She wanted to tell them about how her life had really been, Chris being the only one who knew partially about what had been happening in her life.

But she couldn’t, this wasn’t like back in Seattle where everyone loved and supported each other, especially Kurt. Of course she still loved him, but he had been the one to change the most out of all of them. Sure he was fine with the fact Duff was Y/ns brother. But what the hell would he think if he knew Y/n had been in a whole relationship with Slash.

“Haven’t seen you around much Y/n” Kurt said, pulling a cigarette out.

Y/n shrugged as she dug through her pocket “Haven’t been around, you know how it is”

“Yea” Kurt laughed “I do” He said, shaking his head, “But who’s the guy who fucked you up?”

“What?” Y/n said, her eyebrows furrowing

“I know you Y/n” Kurt said “And i know this isn’t you”

“So you assume it’s a guy?” Y/n asked

“I’ve seen you at your lowest” Kurt said “And this” He circled his finger at her “This is because of a guy”

Y/n cleared her throat, staying silent as she decided to then shoot herself up. She closed her eyes and took a deep breath in, then spoke “Wasn’t that serious with him”

“It’s never serious with you isnt it” He said

Y/n shook her head and looked down, then raised her head up and looked at him.

“Cause when you mess around with a sell out” Kurt said, rolling his cigarette between his fingers “They sell you out”

“What are you talking about” Y/n scoffed at him

“I’m talking about Slash” Kurt said “I thought you had higher morals”

“You don’t know what the fuck you’re talking about Kurt” Y/n said, running her fingers through her hair.

“Okay let’s just calm down” Chris said “We’re not here to judge each other alright? So who cares about who’s messed with who”

“Yea” Y/n said, looking at Kurt “Right”

An awkward silence filled the room, and Y/n couldn’t stand it “I’m gonna go now” She said, getting up.

“Going to bed?” Chris asked her, looking up to her.

“Yea- gotta be up early tomorrow” She sighed “I’ll see you guys another time” She waved, closing the door as she stood in the hallway.

She decided to go to Laynes room, she walked to his room, which was around the corner from Kurt’s.

(Gonna try to explain this the best i could, Laynes room is right when you turn the corner, Y/n hears the noises coming from the other side of the hallway from Laynes room, I HOPE YK WHAT I MEAN OKAY)

But right when she knocked, she heard a bunch of giggling coming from the other end of the hallway, turning her head to see Slash with a woman wrapped around his arm, Duff with a woman wrapped around his arm, and that new drummer guy with a woman wrapped around his arm. They were all walking towards a room (Two room down from Laynes to be exact).

She quickly knocked again, looking over to see both Slash and Duff looking at her. Thankfully Layne finally answered the door, Y/n pushed passed him, slamming his door shut.

“Are you alright?” Layne asked

“When am i alright” Y/n said, going over to sit on his couch “Wanna get high?” She asked

“When don’t i wanna get high” Layne said, walking over and sitting with her.

“You need help” Y/n chuckled

“You first” He smiled “Thought you were with Kurt and Chris?” He asked her

“Kurt knows about Slash” Y/n mumbled as she watched Layne shoot himself up

Laynes eyebrows raised, quickly glancing at her before looking back down at what he was doing “Shit” he said “What’d he say?”

“He said he thought i had higher morals” Y/n said “And he started preaching about sell outs” She laughed.

“Fucken Kurt and sell outs” Layne laughed as he helped Y/n tie her arm, “Don’t listen to him alright? He’s the one with Courtney”

“Layne!” Y/n gasped, a smile on her face “That’s- that’s mean” She laughed, looking down at her arm as she shot up.

“Whatever” Layne laughed “You were thinking it”

Y/n smiled as she undid the cloth on her arm, looking at Layne, a smile still on her face “I fucken love you Layne” She said, wrapping her arm around him.

Layne laughed as he hugged her “I love you too” He said, his eyes narrowing as he heard her sniffling “Are you crying?” He asked, trying to look at her face.

Y/n pulled him back to her, her head on his shoulder as she sniffled “Yea” She chuckled “I just love you so much, you’re my best friend”

Layne smiled, moving her hair out of his face “You’re too sweet” He said “Y’know sometimes i think you and I should just get married” He joked,

Silence

“Y/n?” Layne said letting go of her, she fell back, but Layne caught her “Y/n” Layne repeated, shaking her.

Her eyes were closed, her head hanging back, she was unconscious.

“Y/n wake up” Layne said, tapping her face “Shit” He panicked “Comon Y/n” He said to himself, picking her up and placing her in the bathtub, Turning the cold water on, he splashed her face.

“Sorry i’m sorry” Layne spoke to her, thinking he could hear her, he slapped her, and nothing.

“Okay okay fuck!” Layne said, letting go of the shower head as he tried to feel a pulse. “Fuck”.

No pulse, he freaked out, hitting her a few more times and yet nothing. She was fucken dead.

“Okay- Just- just wait- just don’t die more than you already fucken are!” Layne yelled, running to the phone in his room, putting in their managers number.

“Hello?” A tired Susan spoke

“Susan! Susan call a fucken ambulance” Layne said, hyperventilating.

“What?” Susan asked “Layne what’s going on?”

“Call a fucken ambulance Susan!” Layne yelled through the phone “Y/n-” Layne said, taking in a deep breath before sobbing, “Y/ns fucken dying”

“What? Okay just- just wait okay i’ll call them” Susan said “Unlock your door” She hung up.

Layne quickly walked to his door, unlocking it and then going back to Y/n.

He took her out the bathtub, laying her on the floor “Okay fuck” He whispered, trying to remember how to give CPR.

His health teacher would be so disappointed in him right now.

“Stayin alive, Stayin alive” He sang to himself as he gave Y/n compressions, then mouth to mouth.

“Okay- I called them” Susan said, barging into his room, “Layne?” She called out

“Bathroom” He yelled, looking up at Susan as she walked into the room.

“Oh my god” She whispered to herself, seeing a pale, almost blue lipped Y/n on the floor.

“Okay move” She told Layne, taking over on giving Y/n CPR.

Layne watched Y/n, crying to himself as he prayed that she would come back.

*

Duff, Slash and Matt were definitely having a party in their room, completely oblivious to what was going on two rooms down.

That was until they heard a bunch of commotion outside. At first they could ignore it, probably thinking that someone had gotten into a fight.

But then they heard a bunch of what happened, and crying. Then they decided to go check out what was happening themselves.

Duff peaked his head out the door, seeing Y/n being bought out of a room in a stretcher.

“Fuck is happening?” Slash asked as he stood behind him.

“Y/n” Duff said, the color in his face draining as he sped out of his room, walking over to see some paramedic talking to Susan and Layne.

“What’s going on” Duff said, panic in his voice.

They ignored him, continuing to speak with the paramedic “Look just let one of us go with you guys” Susan said

“I’m sorry, family only” The man said.

“I’m- Im her brother” Duff said, that’s when Susan and Layne turned back to look at him.

“No” Layne said

Duff looked at him “What?”

“You don’t get to fucken see her” Layne said, tears running down his face

“That’s my sister” Duff said, his eyes narrowing

“Look- i’m leaving now” The paramedic said, “We’re taking her to central hospital if you guys wanna see her” And with that, he turned around and left.

“Tell me what happened!” Duff yelled at Layne, Slash standing besides him.

“Layne, what happened?” Slash asked, his voice much calmer than Duff, but on the inside he was shitting himself.

“I’m not fucken telling you” Layne said “And neither of you are gonna go see her” He sucked in a breath “If she’s even fucken alive” he said, going back into his room and slamming the door shut.

“What?” Slash said, looking at Susan “What does he mean by that?”

“We shouldn’t worry un-” Susan shakily said.

“No!” Duff yelled “No! What the fuck does he mean by that!” He said, tears filling his eyes.

“Y/n- she” Susan said, wiping a tear from her eye “She died”

Duff felt like all the air from his lungs had been taken, “She what?”

“But- but they’re doing everything they can to bring her back” She said “I- I have to go” She said, going into Laynes room and bringing him out, both of them leaving the building. Leaving Duff and Slash standing there.

Dead, Slash thought, dead, It was all that kept ringing in his head.

“She- she can’t be dead Slash” Duff said, looking at him. “Slash” Duff repeated.

Slash turned his body to the side as he threw up. Wiping his mouth as he looked at Duff “We don’t know if she’s dead” He said, trying to comfort him.

“But what if she is?”

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oh m god

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[gnrbitch]

Grunge Days pt.20- Good Grief

Warnings: none

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1992

Y/n threw her bag over her shoulder, cigarette in her mouth as she hoped she had everything. Alice were now leaving New York, going back to LA for the release of their album, Dirt.

She walked out the bedroom, her eyes rolling as she saw Slash sitting on her couch. “What are you still doing here?” She asked, annoyed.

Slash turned to look at her, immediately getting up from where he was sitting, “Thought i should stay” he said.

“What part of get the fuck out didn’t you understand” Y/n said, taking her cigarette out of her mouth.

Slash shrugged, “Heard the albums coming out today” He said, changing the subject “Should I expect hearing songs about me on there?”

Y/n scoffed “No. You shouldn’t expect anything” She lied, knowing Down In a Hole was written entirely about him.

“Y’know i wrote about you… for you” He said.

“Good for you” Y/n said, her heart bleeding at his confession.

“Been writing about you since the first record” He continued

Y/n ashed her cigarette out, then looked at him “And you’re telling me this why?”

“Just wanted to let you know how much you mean to me”

Y/n chuckled, but deep down she wanted to cry, “Meant” she said

“What?” Slash asked

“You said mean, as in present tense” She said “You should’ve used Meant”

“I meant to say mean” He said

“No” Y/n shook her head “I don’t mean anything to you” She said, almost choking on her words.

“You do, you know you do” Slash said

“I know you don’t” She said, becoming angry “You don’t fucken care for me, I was nothing to you”

“Stop saying that!” Slash yelled “I still fucken love you”

“Well i don’t love you” Y/n said, stone look on her face.

“What?” Slash asked, being taken aback “What- what do you mean you don’t love me?”

“I don’t love you anymore” Y/n said

“No- no shut up” He said, a mix of panic and anger laced his voice, “You don’t mean that” “Please tell me you don’t mean that” He croaked.

“Comon Slash” Y/n laughed, tearing filling her eyes “How could I still love you? After what? After you- you get married to another woman? Really?”

Finally, the conversation that Y/n never wanted to have with Slash was arising, and there was nothing neither of them could do to stop it.

“We still haven’t gotten married” Slash said.

“Shut up” Y/n said “How could you do this to me Slash?” She sniffled, finally being unable to keep her composure, letting her tears fall, “How- how could you do that”

“I was fucked up! And i was lonely and- and” Slash said, being cut off

“Oh poor fucken Slash” Y/n cried “Always so fucked up, that’s your fucken excuse for everything!” She pointed at him “I’m fucked up- i’m fucked up all the fucken time and you don’t see me running off to get married!”

Slash stood there, looking at Y/n crying “It was a mistake” was all he could say.

Y/n harshly wiped her tears away “It’s always a mistake” “The mistake- The mistake was you and me” She said.

“No, no that wasn’t a mistake” Slash quickly said, slowly making his way over to Y/n “I love you”

“Stop saying you love me!” Y/n said “I don’t fucken love you” She said, pushing him “And i’ve got places to fucken be”

Y/n walked out the door, attempting to close it, but Slash pushed it back open, following her down the hotel halls. “Don’t fucken walk away” He said

“Why not? Seems like you’re really good at doing that” Y/n said, getting into the elevator.

And of course, Slash went in too.

“Nice morning today huh guys- wait” Layne said, doing a double take to Y/n and Slash.

“I’ve never had such an amazing fucken morning Layne” Y/n responded, sending him a tight-lipped smile.

Why me, Layne thought, why did i get stuck in this elevator with them.

“Y/n said she doesn’t love me anymore” Slash said.

Laynes eyes widened as he looked at Y/n, “Well, not sure what to say to that” Layne awkwardly chuckled, hoping to brighten up the mood.

It did not.

“What do you think, Layne?” Slash asked “Do you think she doesn’t love me?”

The elevator doors opened, a sigh of relief coming out from Laynes mouth, “I’d love to stay and chat about-” He said, his eyes glancing between the two “this.. but i gotta run!”

That wasn’t even the floor Layne was supposed go to.

“I don’t love you” Y/n said “And i know you don’t wanna believe me- but i don’t” She said, wiping the tears from her face.

Slash’s heart sunk, tears now forming in his eyes “I’m sorry” he said “I’m sorry for everything i put you through”

They looked at each other, Slash softly put his hand on Y/ns face, “I wish you and I could start over” he whispered.

“Me too” Y/n said, looking at him. A silence washed over them.

She tiptoed and leaned into him, softly kissing his lips.

“Do you still love me?” He asked, his arm wrapped around her waist. He was giving himself one more time to ask.

“I wish i didn’t”

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What now lol

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