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Hello. Hi. It's me. The alcohol has hit. Iykyk.

How would theROs react if the MC motioned them close as if they wanted to whisper them something, but when they leaned in they actually gave them a kiss on the cheek (crushing stage)?

AAAAAAAAAW, too cute! Love you Bell, easy on the whiskey lmao

S eyes crinkle at the corners, and they lean into the kiss. A bright red blush spreading to reach the tip of their ears. "Aw, why, that's mighty kind of ya. Thank you."

Hakiem raises a well manicured brow, a small smile blooming on his face. "Is that all you wished to tell me?"

Elton freezes, had... was that intentional? Did MC trip. It must have been on a bet. He looks around, no one is watching. "..." A small smile he's unable to cover appears before he looks away. "I...ahem.. Thank you."

The Boss cracks a rare smile, but only for a moment before corralling it into a more passive look. "Another will suffice I think, just to cover all the bases."

M stays perfectly still, an impassive look on their face, they however seem to follow MC as they move away. "I think I enjoyed that very much, MC, thank you."

Sigurd instantly turns to look at MC with a huge smile. "Shall I return the favour?"

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How would the ROs react if whenever the warrior MC encounters any new technology they immediately tries to slash it apart?

LMAO! This will be slightly touched on in the book actually!

But I love this silly scenario so much, so for this ask lets imagine its encountering something that's more witchcraft that normal technology lmao.

S understood, really they did, when they first arrived it took them a while to get used to everything, but this was... Quiet something. MC was struggling in their arms, tense like a rattle snake bout to strike, hell, it wouldn't surprise them if MC started to growl or bite the air. "Eaaasy there pardner... It's just a uh, whatchama call it, hologramophonic... uh.."

MC snapped their head back, teeth bared. "SEE! You can't even identify it!"

S would probably be in the boat of wishing to calm MC down rather than fuel the fire, hell they might even join in the suspicion out of genuine concern.

Being tossed from his reverie, Hakiem jumped to his feet, rushing over to where the sound came from. His heart was pounding in his chest and his hands felt clammy. "MC? MC are you well?" At no answer Hakiem let his hand hover above the door handle, letting it linger for a moment before rushing inside at a second crash. "MC I am so sorry, do forgive me but I need to make sure you ar-" He stops in his tracks, blinking for a moment before letting out a relieve sigh.

Mc stood over a snapped hovering disk, toiletries tossed across the bathroom and shattered against the tiled walls. "Hakiem! Stay back, the foul beast got up one before, it might try it again!"

After the confusion and some patience of a saint, Hakiem would be able to tell MC that they attacked a simple hovering drone. Seeing as Hakiem is one of the more "ancient" timed agents, he would be very understanding, and even slightly amused at times with MC's antics. HOWEVER, if it continued he would worry the changes were too much for MC to handle.

Elton looked up just in time to be able to dodge a flying missile aimed at his head. Behind him a monitor crackled and fizzled out, and with a small shaky laugh he looked over at MC, a tad of an unhinged smile on his lips before he shouts out.

"Oi y’cunt! Watch where y’r throwin that! Nearly took ma heid aff" A laugh slips out from between his lips, slightly manic.

"It stole my face, I rid it of a chance to do so again."

Elton has gotten used to the various technological marvels of the bureau, he has been here for 15 years after all. Depending on how long this goes on, his level of calm would eventually run out. The team comes first, and if MC can't keep their cool in any situation, then something has to be done. (Thank you to Lute and Lute's partner for spelling help with the Scottish speak <3)

The Boss frowns, their eyebrow twitching for the 18th time. It had been a bad idea of theirs to let MC recuperate in their office. At first it had been fine, limited small talk, MC looking around for a bit, but now they had been hovering by the small running water fall at the corner of the room. It shouldn't annoy them, it really shouldn't. But it had been a gift from Holoscene, it was... precious, to them.

A small intake of air is all it takes for the boss to snap to attention, moving their body in time to take the hit intended for the sculpture. "Out. NOW."

The Boss has lived with this for their entire existence, and they understand the fear that comes with the unknown, but seeing as their go to emotion tends to be annoyance anyways, its not exactly surprising that they find MC's blunders with technology more infuriating that cute. But if they feel soft sometime they would probably make one of those destroy rooms for MC to go ham in.

M stumbles forward, their interface flashing to light with a whir, soon followed with their audio receptors slowly kicking in to the horrible sound of metal groaning. They turn, only to see the worried look of MC as they give a final kick to the SRC (stasis recharge chamber).

MC hurries over, their hands reaching out to check over M's frame. "You- You are okay..." though a statement it seems more a question. "I thought you- You didn't respond to-" A frail sigh escapes MC and they look to the side, brows furrowed. "Y-You are well."

Okay so, not MC's best moment, destroying M's charging chamber but, I honestly think M would have been stuck with heart eyes at a human going to far to try to save them. Just don't let it happen again, okay?

Sigurd lets out a squeal, and not the good kind. "NO NO NO NO!" With a dramatic flop onto the couch they scurry over to where MC held a dagger to a small rotund robot. "PLeASe not him, MC please!"

"He is the reincarnation of death, Sigurd, he speaks foul words from the devil..."

"HE'S JUST A LITTLE GUY!!"

Sigurd is pretty chill, and most of the time finds great joy in seeing MC break shit, by accident or intentionally, but this? Not their limited edition time friend. It's funny but only when not aimed at their belongings.

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Some fan art of Mateo from @cosmic-writes-if wonderfully amazing Sanctum IF!!!!

With cat versions because- well, because like... uhm.

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ooh thank you for the answer to my last ask! while i did want to know about those preferences, my mind was originally in a dirtier place wondering about sexual preferences as in sexual roles and positions 🤭

AAAAA SDHASDGASDHd oops... This has that I think.... So sorry Anon, hopefully second times the charm?? lmao But I will go into .. the positions here.... Since I have already kinda answered what their role in the bedroom is in that previous ask, I will just go for what they'd possibly be cool with roleplaying as (if theres no roleplay section, they aren't into it), you know, as a treat...

S: Cowboy, spooning cause its intimate and soft, as previously mentioned cockwarming would be up there too. If they are feeling more rowdy then they would be willing to try deep throating, even if its just a strap. Count any act that means MC will feel good and they will most likely be all for trying it.

They'll be the outlaw, and MC the sheriff ;)) or role reversed. I can not say with good conscience that they'd be good at it though. Sonya would be cool with MC as a sheriff with her being the very thankful Southern Belle. Hakiem: IF engaging in intercourse, Hakiem wouldn't be opposed to non-penetrative sex, like thigh fucking, attempted tit fucking (this man has no boobs but he will try.) He would also be up for possibly eating MC out/sucking MC off, whilst maintaining eye contact.

Elton: Doggy, if he can he would love to try the mating press but he is in his 40's so, don't break him too much. Frotting. Inflict a little pain here and there and he'll probably like it. But in the end its also about what MC is comfortable with, he doesn't expect them to just be cool with choking him out.

For roleplay he'd be willing to be the soldier in need of getting reprimanded by his superior officer. Or with him being captured by an enemy who tries to get information out of him.

The Boss: Doggy, reverse cowgirl, but if they feel more romantic they would be okay will missionary. They are all for a quickie before a debriefing, or MC under their desk whilst working.

M: Anything that would let them look at MC. That's their main thing.

Sigurd: Spooning is up there, but you can't beat a rough Doggy or missionary. Pilediver lmao Sig wouldn't be afraid to try new things and lose it laughing at failing or messing up Sig would love to just have fun with MC and if that means getting a bit silly, then so be it

This vikingr would be all for getting captured by the enemy, or MC being a priest/ess trying to turn them from their 'evil' norse ways.

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Hi! I'm sorry if this has already been asked, but I couldn't find it! What are the ROs preferences (top/bottom/verse, dom/sub/switch) and maybe kinks?

OH BOY, buckle up folks! Thank you for the lovely ask anon~

The answer will be under the cut, obvs NSFW.

S: Service top, regardless if F or M. But mostly submissive I think. Would not be opposed to be a switch if Scott, Sonya is similar, she wouldn't say no to using a strap. Ss main focus will ALWAYS be MC, what ever they want and crave is Ss goal.

Hakiem: Hakiem is asexual, so I have thought very little on it, but seeing as he wouldn't be unwilling to try things out with MC if say he's leaning Dom, he would also let MC get off using his thighs. I can't say much for top or bottom though, it depends on the MC. He would not be opposed to possibly guiding or watching if a poly route.

Elton: Top, he's a bottom, he'd put up a front in the first part of the relationship, but once you get him comfortable, he would be like clay in your hands. If he has too he would not be opposed to Top, in the end it's most important for him to have MC enjoy themself. But he is versatile in the sense that he won't mind being more dominant, but he would feel most at ease to be put to work as a submissive.

The boss: A top and dom, unchangeable regardless of gender of MC or gender of them. However, they would possibly not mind bottoming if still in charge of the situation, but this really depends on MC and MC's reasoning for the boss to bottom lmao

M: Switch and verse, its all pretty new to them, so they are all for trying out what feels right and with who. BTW M can make their hands vibrate- for... you know, super... normal reasons.

Sigurd: Submissive but won't mind switching between being a top or bottom. Sig would accept getting off by simply grinding against MC so, they really are not picky, at all. But it is preferred to maintain a more submissive role doing so.

And here is the kink list. G- giving R-receiving based on what they prefer most the R or G will be placed first. S: Shibari G&R, Impact play R&G, Body Worship G, Praise R&G, cockwarming G&R H: uh... holding hands is hot. R&G E: Pain play R, Edging R, Slapping R, Degradation R, Praise G TB: Edging G, Degradation G, Humiliation G, Cockwarming R M: Wire play R, Temperature play R&G, Sensory Play R Sig: Impact play R, Voyeurism (to a limit), Roleplaying, Praise R&G

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submissive elton has me kicking my feet.. can i ask for the ros' sexual preferences? and for a sfw ask what's something the ros like to do to unwind?

Of course! And me too anon, he is just- thihihihi So this does vary a bit based on the gender you pick for some of them so

Nsfw-ish under the cut!

S: Scott wise he has always seen himself as bi, lots of good looking ladies and blokes in the wild west after all, so why be picky about what kind of ride ya get? Sonya however leans more toward women, there's something about the soft curves, the noises they can make and how caring a lot of women were back in the 1860's that just speaks to her. However, she won't say no to a smooth talking man. So Bi there as well.

This said, S can be romanced by MC regardless of gender identity and presentation! Therefore the final answer is pan!

Hakiem: SOooOooo... Hakiem did have a wife, in his past, Naliah, but he has never thought much about putting a label on who he loves. He is however asexual and panromantic. But not sex repulsed.

Elton: Elton is Achillean! He is mainly only attracted to men and has only been with men in the past, but possibly also masc NB individuals too. So he can be romanced by either NB or Male MC's ( this obvs includes trans masc MC's too)!

The boss: The Boss wouldn't really think to label themselves seeing as they haven't really been in many relationships at all, but if they had too it would be pan as well!

Sigurd: As Male Sig, its a free for all, he would never say no to anyone regardless of gender, and seeing as he is a viking, he knows how to both handle a longboat and a longhouse ;))

Fem Sig is the same, but she leaned more towards women in the past, she did however enjoy a good rough housing with any vikingr that caught her fancy.

So Sigurd is basically just someone I'd label as a lover, but I guess playersexual?? Pan???

M: Mateo hasn't ever slept with someone, and would claim not to feel things like attraction anyways, but- he's pan.

Matt is more attracted to women, so she is Sapphic. She is romancable by NB or Female MC! (This obvs includes trans femme MC's)

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I will abuse your ask box if nobody else does it, idc.

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RO and MC stuck together in a confined space, hiding. What happens? Who gets flustered? Who enjoys it?

OMG BELL I ACTUALLY WROTE THIS WHEN FLESHING OUT THE CHARACTERS EARLIER THIS YEAR! So I will use that as the base cause a lot of them have not changed.

Slightly hints at more NSFW type of scenario but not really so I will still have it under the cut, but more for the sake of the text being long lmao.

This will be longer than usual I fear lmao… Crushing stage~

It had only been a minute or two, and S had moved more times than MC could count. "Ah am so sorry bout this sugar, really, I shouldn't have grabbed ya like that..." The like that in question is with MCs back flush against the front of S body, half bent in a position both their muscles would complain about later. They try to cover a cough into their hand, which sends them careening into MC, their muscular chest pressing up against them. "Oh saints preserve me, good lord...! Am I sqwooshing ya...?" S isn't the best at remaining composed when close or touching someone they like, so this would be like a dream turned nightmare for them, and you can bet that later on, they will go over just how very different the situation could have turned out if they could've just stayed composed.

Hakiem had been quiet, but not for lack of trying, he had for a moment opened and closed his mouth, resembling a fish, a cute one but a fish non the less. He knew that eventually whoever was out there would leave, but they were taking their damned time. He had just about enough time to pull MC with him and behind the door before the stomping steps of the stranger had entered the room the two were searching, and that had left them in quiet the position, MC arms on either side of the liberators waist, leaving him pressed against the wall. MC turn their head just in time for Hakiem to attempt to speak again, only for his voice to betray him, sending a wave of heat across his cheeks. He carefully raises the papers he nabbed from the desk to cover his face, leaving only his eyes. Amber shining like honey in the light, looking everywhere but at MC

“They... will leave soon.” MC whisper to him, leaning closer to avoid being overheard. He nods, smacking his forehead against MC's. "Ouch..."

Its not normal for him to get flustered, he is usually very well composed, but- for a while now MC had been giving him this feeling in his gut. Like still warm bread, like that of tingling floral scents at the beginning of spring. From this close he could see each separate lash framing MC's eyes. It would almost be too much for him to handle until he figures out his emotions.

The silence was, loud for lack of better term, between MC and Elton, there had been no words spoken, not when he pulled them into the utility closet and not now. Though the sound of several rushing feet outside likely had something to do with that. The often silent man regards MC with a disgruntled look, one of his hands still tightly pressed against their mouth, and with a roll of his eyes he slowly takes a step back. Or attempts to, as his foot gets caught in what can only be described as a janitorial torture device, making him stumble. MC reaches out and yanks him forwards, sending him practically flying into them. He hisses as he slams his arm against the wall next to them, his other hand pressed between their chests. There's the faintest red on the tips of his ears.

Elton would, in the crushing stage probably be trying his best to avoid MC, or push them away, seeing as he is 45, he had simply just, accepted the fact that he was most likely off the market, not to mention him being somewhat married to his job and all. But MC is just, so hard to deny, not to mention they keep winding up in these situations...

The heavy clunking of armoured feet was barely dimmed by the thin door currently sheltering Sigurd and M, tangled together in a mess of limbs, all confined in a small closet, with MC trapped in between them.

The red heads breaths coming out in small bursts, landing on the vast expanse of MCs neck, a very distracting neck, if Sigurd was to have an opinion.

With the faintest movements, Ms eyes snaps back to gaze at MC, the electric blue of their irises shifting faintly to a deeper cobalt. Their face, as usual, unreadable, softens for a moment before they whisper. “My estimates predict they will likely leave within 2.5 minutes.”

Sigurd had hoped for more from the ever elusive android, yet they cover any disappointment with a sly smirk. "That's more than enough time to get to know each other, isn't it MC?"

I had to write them in a possible poly route I am so sorry... Sigurd would take it in stride and push the boundaries of their teasing, their goal being to make MC or M blush. M would however be pretty calm about it all, oddly comforted by the presence of both Sigurd and MC.

The Boss silently glances from the faint crack in the door leading to the main hall, their hands carefully placed on MC's shoulders. A instinctual protective measure. They idly rub a gently circular motion into their tense muscles. "Give it a minute more and we can leave." They calmly state, finally looking at MC with a hint of a smile. "Though this is very nice."

The Boss rarely goes on missions, hence why their route will be one of the most difficult routes to take. but if they were on one, and crushing on MC, most of it would be spent next to them. It's oddly comforting to be next to someone that makes them feel less like an unnatural creature and more like a human for a change.

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How would the ROs react if, after spending a Night™️ with the MC, the next day someone walked up to them and let them know that they could hear them going at it by saying something like "Sounds like you guys had a good time last night 😏"? 😇

Another tasty spicy ask! Thank you anon, you little minx!

NSFW-ish bellow the cut!

For this scenario I am going to count it as the relationship stage for MC and the RO. And seeing as the way the dorms are laid out it would probably be another team mate (lets be honest it would be Sigurd teasing) but for this scenario I will take the privilege to make the one teasing another member of the Bureau.

The statement hangs heavily in the air. And S needs a moment to fully comprehend what was just said. 'A good time?' With MC? Always, but they couldn't really figure out what merited the comment- OH. Oh no... "I- Uh, Yeah! I mean no, not really- No wait we had a lovely time, but-" Shuffling on their feet for a moment they duck their head, not really doing much to cover the blazing heat adorning their cheeks. "I reckon it ain't too nice to listen in to others like that though..."

S would be flustered, but more so for MC sake, being from the 1860's it wasn't uncommon to be heard around camp, a tent only could cover up so many noises after all- But it was never spoken about openly afterwards, besides the rare nod of acknowledgement in the morning. They would try to find MC as soon as possible and with the elegance of a spooked hare in a snare try to check in on them.

Hakiem pauses, only turning halfway to face the affronting person. He would let his eyes travel across whoever decided to make something so personal public. "I think the fact you seemed so eager to listen in on someone without their consent is telling enough." There is no softness in his tone, no usual smile or hint of playfulness. "But pray tell, what gave you the idea that making such a private thing public would be smart?"

What he and MC gets up to in the privacy of their own quarters is sacred, and whilst appearing to be affronted by it all, he would overall be repulsed. The rare moments he gives in to his more... primal urges... and it was defiled, ruined, by someone unworthy. He is livid beyond words and you can be sure that who ever made the remark will get reprimanded by the higher ups soon.

Elton was halfway through the latest report from The Boss, yet the grating voice of Dylan squeezes it's way through. "Pardon?" Is his first instinct, but before the agent has time to repeat what they said a thin smile spreads over his face. "Oh yes, a lovely time, MC has a way with their hands, they always feel amazing." He starts, tucking the report under his arm. "Have you ever had someone know you so intimately, that they know the very buttons to press to make you a whimpering mess?" His smile doesn't waver, instead he leans closer to him. "I am fortunate to have a partner that can stretch out my pleasure for hours." Dylan flusters, any comeback dying in his throat. "Why the hells are you telling me this?" Elton smirks. "Because no one would believe you."

The fallout would be minimal, considering no one would ever peg Elton (except mc) for being submissive. He was used to having to hide any feelings of lust in his past, and to have it thrown at his face like that would probably make him spiral a bit, but only after properly dealing with it. He would also feel guilty and worried, questioning whether MC would even wish to continue their relationship. He would def need some words of encouragement after, and a bit of R&R with MC.

Sadly I don't think The Boss would ever be overheard having a good time with MC, however it would be very obvious when those moments pass. They are more than happy to leave marks and to claim MC as theirs. So while they wouldn't be overheard, the comment would probably be from MC having several visible marks the next day. And seeing as they are The Boss, not many would dare to talk about it anyhow.

Sigurd was mid story, surrounded by other agents in the mess hall. The tale dies out on their tongue and they swiftly turn of their head to face whoever decided to air out their personal life. If it was in the past it would have been fine, Sigurd likes sex, they like attention, they like to be smothered with pleasure. But this is MC, this is their kæreste, the one person they get to have as theirs without the fear of leaving. And this lowlife had the audacity to speak of them? "So?" Is all they say, before fumbling to stand and storming out.

Normally Sigurd would love the praise, the fist bumps and "nice" comment after hooking up with someone, but this isn't just someone. Somewhere along the way of stolen kisses and flirting MC actually decided to stick around, that was new, and scary. So while in a normal circumstance they would bask in the glory of being revered as "a good lay" this situation is different. It's precious to them.

M was halfway to the conference room, already late after a diagnostic check came back faulty, MC had stuck with them. The comment was only just about picked up from their peripheral as MC and them passed by a group of other agents. "No wonder they're late, they got loud yesterday."

It takes less of a second, with flashing warnings going over their interface. But M has the offending party grabbed by the collar. "Repeat yourself."

M doesn't do violence and has only once before gotten upset, and back then it was at the defence of Sigurd. It goes against their code, their very structure. But to have MC be spoken about in such a manner was enough to momentarily break something in them. They would gladly accept any reprimand handed to them from hurting another agent if it meant they in some way defended MC.

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Hi <3

Reaction ask time! This one is NSFW.

How would the ROs during crushing stage react to having a wet dream about MC?

(Can't believe your IF isn't getting more attention wth)

oh. ohohohoOHOHOHO Also HIIIIII BELL!!!!<3 You are too kind, and any attention makes me happy even if its not frequent!

Obvs nsfw under the cut-

Honestly, I think it varies, a lot between the gang. And how far the crushing stage has gotten too-

S wakes up with a start, starfished out on their bed, hair a mess haloed around their burning red face. For a long time they can do nothing but stare at the blank ceiling, mouth opening and closing like a fish, guilt, excitement and trepidation whirling in their mind. 'And I have to go see them today too...'

Easy to say that any meeting with the MC is cancelled for at least 3 business days. Especially seeing as they- ahem- dealt with the situation with MC in mind too.

'This isn't right.' Would be the first thing Hakiem would think. Not because he doesn't find MC attractive, he does, of course. But sexual attraction isn't something he ever thought he would experience in this way. But MC had looked so soft, so ethereal.

Chances of him doing something about it are slim, he would most likely wait it out, however long that would take. Though he would have no issue facing MC after, it's a perfectly human thing, who is he to feel shame about such a thing?

Elton's knees pop as he pushes himself of the bed, his obvious excitement mocking him the entire time. 'I am too old for this- For thinking about another person in such manners...' His body seems to disagree to this notion however if his heated face was to give anything away.

Depending on how the MC has flirted with him, he would either take a long cold shower or quickly deal with it with MC's name on his lips.

Sigurd is fucking ecstatic, MC is hot, Sigurd is hot, what better way to enjoy the night than dreaming of them getting up to no good? They will take their time enjoying this moment to the fullest. Expect them to be late to whatever they had to do this morning. They are going to savour every memory, though the real thing would be much preferred.

Sigurd isn't the type to shy away from any kind of action, if they had their way MC would have joined, though, part of them, seeing how things have gone has this weird feeling of worry of messing things up.

The Boss doesn't sleep, so when such a vivid daydream passed before their eyes it took them a while to put two and two together. How... interesting... about a human nonetheless. It takes them a moment to realise they stopped speaking, and how the team were all eyeing them in various amounts of curiosity. All except MC, perfect, sweet, precious, "mine." The words leave them all too easily, and take some explaining to get Sigurd off their back.

Seeing as The Boss isn't human, it's rare for them to feel such things, relationships are fleeting in their eyes, humanity is just a chapter, but suddenly MC has become the entire damn book. And it thrills them.

M quietly remains sitting, their hands trembling slightly in their lap. Did the malware update fail? They've never seen such imagery whilst performing a maintenance check prior to this. And why did it have to be MC, they already suspected something was off the moment they arrived, and with how their cooling system got a warning last time they spoke. It must be a virus. They can be fixed. If not for the team then for MC.

Android apparently don't dream of electric sheep but instead of who they are crushing on. M isn't someone who allows themself to admit to having emotions, they need to maintain this pristine illusion of being an object/machine, so it might take a bit past the crushing stage to get them to fully open up.

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I have removed the demo for now, just until I finally finish the prologues properly, hopefully by the end of this month!

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tl:dr last posts

I am working on getting back into writing after being rather burnt out and will be focusing on either reworking or fixing the RO's in the story to more fit my first original concept.

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mental health and the likes pt 2 (about the future of LF)

I basically found IF's and truly feel in love with them. Wayhaven, fallen hero, sherlock holmes affair of the heart, the soul stone war, drink your villain juice etc I can't begin to name all the wonderful and impactful stories I've found comfort, pain, love and freedom in.

With it I leaped, straight into it, figured why not? I've always loved making stories and worlds in my brainbox, and characters even more. But I think I went about it all wrong, I love the story I have planned, the characters too, the only problem is... well,,, some of the characters... I think I thought "more... better?? yes,, very better good" and went buck wild with the amount of options of RO's.

See I don't mind most of it, having multiple options in regards to gender for them all (expect Hakiem, he always just felt right), Sigurd has always been a he or she, same with S, but then we have Elton (possibly Edgar uuuughhh, name drama... :() he has always just been he in my head, Edna doesn't.. work as well and I can't envision her as much as I can with the others F!version.

Therefore I am rethinking somethings, like characters, who I want them to be and such, and I will probably make it more... Idk, like how I first imagined it in a weird way.

I will probably wind up rewriting their introductions/profiles and make their summary on the main pin less, thesis sized, and instead have that for the profile links instead.

But I think I will create smaller stories, bite sized pieces for y'all to enjoy reading to both help me get back in the zone and also for you all to get to know and hopefully fall for my silly characters and story.

As for the plans with the story? I will focus on making the coding work first, stress less and not burn myself out this time.

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Mental health and the likes pt 1 (me focused)

Okay so, a lot of the time I struggle with being productive, regardless of how much I might enjoy something.

I've always been in love with art, adored it to the very core, went to game graphics school, then got a small art degree in my countries capital. Then my grandpa passed away and wow... honestly he just kinda snatched my creativity, borrowed it for a day then passed and it never really quite came back the same way. ( he was a really big fan, he'd print my art that my aunt had taken pictures of and framed it, still makes me tear up.) So I switched to poems, writing, and let this gnawing thing fester in me just trying to find something that sparked that joy again.

I have not had a lot of energy as of late, and when I have, I've been stuck with this feeling of not being or doing enough. Like I burnt out, so I stopped writing for a bit, and haven't picked it up much at all since summer started. Been avoiding tumblr like the plague, mostly out of stress from not 'doing enough' with this story.

But I think the spark is coming back? Slowly yes, but I have found myself more often seeing things and going " Omg Scoot (what I call our resident cowpoke Scott) coded" or "Lmao this is so [redacted future character] and [redacted future character]".

I have also indulged in drawing some of the characters in some... cough cough... pin up/anatomical practice pieces, nothing too saucy, just ya know, in their birthday suits lmao. Might share that here, if that is something y'all would like to see.

As for the story itself, onto part 2!

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Due to unforeseen circumstances I will have to probably change the name of one of my characters, specifically Elton, which sucks, majorly.

Alas it has given me chance to think on his name further and the story as a whole, which is great.

But the current contenders for the name replacement are: Edgard Eadmund Errol

I want it to fit his Scottish roots, but still be Anglo-Saxon vibing which is harder said than done I've found, I also want to keep the E starting name going.

Edgard is a great example for this, it's Anglo-Saxon and old English, which would work for the time period he's from, it also has the masculinity and uniqueness I am after for him. It would also sound great with his last name Hawksford.

Eadmund is similar in that sense, it's old English, Anglo-Saxon in roots. It can however be shortened into Ed, which could cause issues to those who are familiar with one of the origin characters Edwina/Edward.

Errol is Scottish, it has the short name I want for him, and I think it fits with the grumpy old man lmao, I can't explain why it just clicks with me as much as it does, but it just feels right? It gives me the same giddy feeling that the previous name has given me and when I write it, it just feels emotionally similar to Elton.

I shall think on it further but so far? Errol is kinda winning me over here

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So since I am back to working on the story, I was going through the OG description of everything, and I was wondering if I should add the tropes for the RO's, and make the profiles a bit more, cohesive? Like actually write out eye colour, hair colour, body type, etc? I will take to my editor/bestie about it to snowball but I like the idea of it being more clear with who they are and what to expect from their romances. (Cause it sucks to get super far in a romance only to realise you aren't compatible with them)

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Back

So hi, I am back, or trying to get back, the funeral was rough, mostly because we were given the wrong time, and only made it to the final rites and urn lowering, it messed with my head a bit and im trying to get past it, but it still feels really shit ya know? To not only miss a funeral but show up after when everyone was there teary eyed and sad.

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Inzoi Versions of the RO's

So I got Inzoi and have been messing about with the character creator, and I made the RO's. So I figured since I haven't drawn everyone, (and a lot of the drawn ones aren't necessarily canon...) I would use the Inzoi versions for now.. might be lame but eh

The CC is limited since its early access but I had some fun regardless!:D

So here we gooooo.

Ms.Layton/Scott

Sigurd

Hakiem

Matt/Matheo

Edna/Elton

The Boss