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❛ lies you have told yourself: your humanity is the largest burden you will bear. ❜ / from jon !

                    JON’S HANDS WIPE TEARS AWAY FROM EYELESS FEATURES. flickering moments of clarity, moments he is in desert bluffs, the original desert bluffs again, hiding away in his radio station, trying to run, to be safe. . . .   (  but kevin, you are safe. )   he reminds himself, he is not in his radio station, certainly not in that old rundown one from before strex ! he is safe, and home, and so very happy  here in this new desert bluffs, with all of his friends ! 

                    PROPHET WINCES AT THE WORD : BURDEN. his mouth pried upward, stretched to expose ivory and gums. he would like to think jon means burden in a good way, a kind way.   ( he knows this burden. he feels it too. )   he tastes iron behind the clench of his teeth. the radio host lets out a sound that can only be described as a giggle.    “ what is a burden but a joy left to be discovered ! a struggle to be smiled through, and torn through, and devoured with all the power of one’s gnashing teeth ? ”   one might assume the host has blinked, the shine in his eyes matching that of the sun.   “ an opportunity, if you will. ”

*    ⟢  @sainthey​︱prompted two billion years ago, but i missed them . 

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                      A BEAUTIFUL DESERT COMMUNITY WHERE THE SUN IS ALWAYS SHINING, and shining, and shining. oh, it is a beautiful day, isn’t it ? it could really bring a smile to one’s face, if they weren’t already smiling that is. ( which they should be, and if they aren’t he’ll have some very kind words. ) kevin likes to think he isn’t a judgmental fellow, kindness is what kindness does and happiness is brought on by that kindness, even forced by it. but there is a specific look in the girl’s eye when she sees him, it peaks his curiosity, this is his home after all and he is a journalist, which means he’s meant to get to the bottom of it ! 

                      HE IS NOT CAUTIOUS IN HIS APPROCH, he feels no need to be. the smiling god thrums beneath his skin, he is safe, and protected, and happy. a smile that reveals too many teeth, shines a bit too brightly as he moves closer to the huntress.   “ need a tour ? ”   the radio host inquires.    “ i know all the best spots ! ”   it should be noted of course, he does not specify what spots means. 

⟢ @huntrcsss​︱liked !

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                  𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚛  𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕  -    💖  this post for a starter .

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                  𝚜𝚝𝚊𝚛𝚝𝚎𝚛  𝚌𝚊𝚕𝚕  -    💖  this post for a starter .

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          #𝐆𝐎𝐃𝐒𝐌𝐈𝐋𝐄𝐃 .  the light is alive, and malicious, and vast, and encroaching. it buzzes and shines, and everything about it hurts those that are close to it, and destroys those who are within it … it is 𝚊 𝚜𝚖𝚒𝚕𝚒𝚗𝚐 𝚐𝚘𝚍  of terrible power and ceaseless appetite .

private, low activity kevin of wt’nv. headcanon based & extremely trigger heavy. as prophesized by jayne bird  unreality, religion, cult / cult mentality, and blasphemy untagged.

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yes i did make an entire section on my carrd devoted to basic lore and locations. yes i will expand on it to describe locations in de.sert bluffs too because i have many thoughts and little self control.

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𝚅𝙾𝙸𝙲𝙴 : 𝚃𝙷𝙴 𝙰𝚁𝙲𝙷𝙸𝚅𝙸𝚂𝚃 ( archivars )

            JONATHAN    ,    TO    HIS    CREDIT    ,            does    not    flinch    .    does    not    recoil    .    only    quirks    an    eyebrow    like    the    man    in    front    of    him        (        𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃    𝙾𝙵        :        𝙺𝙴𝚅𝙸𝙽        ——        𝚁𝙴𝙶𝙰𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶    𝚄𝙽𝚄𝚂𝚄𝙰𝙻    𝚁𝙴𝙲𝚄𝚁𝚁𝙸𝙽𝙶    𝙳𝚁𝙴𝙰𝙼𝚂    .    𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃    𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙴𝙽    𝙵𝚁𝙾𝙼    𝚂𝚄𝙱𝙹𝙴𝙲𝚃    𝙾𝙽    𝙰𝙿𝚁𝙸𝙻    𝟺𝚃𝙷    𝟸𝟶𝟷𝟼    .    𝙰𝚄𝙳𝙸𝙾    𝚁𝙴𝙲𝙾𝚁𝙳𝙸𝙽𝙶    𝙱𝚈    ��𝙾𝙽𝙰𝚃𝙷𝙰𝙽    𝚂𝙸𝙼𝚂    ,    𝚃𝙷𝙴    𝙰𝚁𝙲𝙷𝙸𝚅𝙸𝚂𝚃    .    𝚂𝚃𝙰𝚃𝙴𝙼𝙴𝙽𝚃    𝙱𝙴𝙶𝙸𝙽𝚂    .        )        merely    offered    his    slightly    uncommon    opinion    on    cauliflowers    .        “        who    is    watching    ?        “        he    asks    because    how    could    he    not    ,    eternally    driven    by    the    need    to    know    ,    to    observe    ,    to    question    .    feels    his    own    patron    wrap    its    tendrils    around    him    ,    reach    out    to    pull    the    answers    out    if    necessary    .    demand    what    is    not    given    willingly    .        (        THOUGH    HIS    GUEST    DOES    NOT    APPEAR    AN    UNWILLING    PARTY    .        )        “        my    dreams    are        ——        “        rare    because    he    can    barely    find    sleep    these    days    &    if    he    does    ,    awakes    without    recollection    of    them    .    which    jonathan    considers    a    blessing    as    he    is    often    drenched    in    sweat    with    his    heart    in    his    throat    upon    awakening    .    all    in    all    ,    wonderful    may    not    be    the    term    to    describe    them    ,    truly    .        “        distorted    .        “        the    description    chosen    carefully    ,    neither    wanting    to    offend    nor    give    too    much    away    .    this    is    not    his    statement    ,    after    all    ,    &    being    observed    is    much    more    uncomfortable    than    observing    .    though    beholding    would    disagree    were    it    a    physical    thing    capable    of    making    its    displeasure    known    .    

                    STATEMENT BEGINS. the whirling of recorder is distracting, he looks at it, watches as it spins, taking the sound, jon’s voice, his voice. he wonders if his god can see him here, if the Smiling God is observing. it’s there, beneath his skin, and he can see, and maybe that is proof enough that he is not alone with the archivist and his god.   “ A SMILING GOD. ”   he answers simply.   “ it comes in different forms, sometimes it is birds, their flight patterns geometric, they dive and just before they hit the ground they curve, their wings flutter in an attempt to catch themselves. ”   he giggles.   “ or it’s the centipede, gargantuan, thousands of legs, skittering up from the dark abyss, up from the mud and sand, it’s legs leaving symbols itched into the walls, it curls for miles before it reaches the light of the sun . . . ”   he looks at jon, and perhaps if jon were to look hard enough, to Look, he could see the thing reflected in the dark pit of kevin’s eyes.   “ they started when i was four, the first dream . . . it was the sun, i dreamt of it, staring at it, i couldn’t stop and even in my dreams the light hurt my eyes. . . . ”  

                    A FLICKER THEN, as if something has faltered.   “ distorted ? ”   he questions curiously, tries not to push too hard, he is not capable of forcing answers out of others, he tries more though chipper attitude, to be charismatic. that is what makes him a good radio personality.   “ distorted how ? ”

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kevin 🤝 jona.than sims eldritch abomination's special little boy

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the spongey feeling of marrow underfoot. the fatigue of smiling until it hurts, and then smiling still. the gleam of light, polished gold. a velvet bag of perfect, bleached molars. a microphone whose wires branch away like sinew. a mirror covered with a sheet.

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teeth that ache from smiling. flimmers in the air were the blaring sun hits the asphalt. a cracked mirror. laughter that borders on hysterical. choking on a scream you fail to hide. a headache, a burning throat, a tongue bitten bloody. arms wrapped around yourself when nobody else is left. hand reaching but no one is there.

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Anonymously describe my muse’s aesthetic! Talk about sights, smells, textures, tastes or sounds you associate with them.

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:) (threateningly)

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t’ma verse kev is an avatar of the spiral my only reason for this being : - connection to doors that just appear. - he : )  - bastard who is only mostly human. 

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*    ⟢   @vcrtigoes​ asked :  1, 8, & 20

01 .  𝐏𝐎𝐂𝐊𝐄𝐓𝐒 .  kevin sticks quite a lot of things in his pockets without really thinking about it, it usually has to do with convenience if he picks something up and then needs to use his hands the item immedetly ends up in his pocket, which leads to him forgetting about a lot of it until he gets home. on any given day he will have : at least two human teeth, roots and all. + a pen or pencil + his cell phone + a small tape recorder or he will carry a travel sized mixer for reporting on the go + five dollars as generously given to him by the demons of desert bluffs + a handful of sunflower seeds + a knife + three coffee beans as a snack for later.  ( this is a trait he’s kept from his pre-strex days. ) 

08 .  𝐖𝐀𝐋𝐋𝐄𝐓 .  usually kevin will keep his strex company id + lauren’s business card + a picture of donavan as given to him by charles + a pre-strex picture of him that is tucked behind his long expired driver’s license + a punch card for the desert bluffs hospital ( four visits and the fifth one is free ! ) + another five dollars as gifted to him by the demons, + a handful of carefully folded yellow legal paper that has passages from the book of devouring he’s written over the years, as well as random doodles . 

20 .  𝐅𝐑𝐈𝐃𝐆𝐄 .  his refrigerator is actually well stocked ! sometimes with leftovers, chinese food or pizza, or from the night before when he barely cooked steak and put it up for later + orange juice which he keeps around for donnie + blood + old daises he got on a date forever ago +  a bottle of wine for special occasions + his personal copy of the book of devouring though he will not go into detail as to why. 

*    ⟢  a peak of what’s inside ︱  prompt accepting !

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text / letter threads with kev.

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@godsmiled    𝚛𝚎𝚚𝚞𝚎𝚜𝚝𝚎𝚍    :    𝚒𝚗𝚌𝚘𝚛𝚛𝚎𝚌𝚝    𝚔𝚎𝚟𝚒𝚗    /    𝚓𝚘𝚗    ——    𝚜𝚛𝚌