godthemythos

[godthemythos]

everything feels so broken I don't understand where it's coming from but returning to front I think has filled that void. I apologize to those cass may have upset in her vent posting, she was never supposed to use this blog.

[godthemythos]

Sorry, I don't want your touch

It's not that I don't want you

Sorry I can't take your touch

There's a hole that you fill

You fill, you fill

@eternallyexperimenting

lyrics from 'a Pearl' by mitski

[godthemythos]

sometimes i feel like the mutt that’s been chained up in the backyard at his dog house, forgotten about, cause i didn’t turn out to be the dog they wanted me to be. the weight of the tether around my neck is something im used to. tired eyes and and given up hope of a soft bed and a loving touch again. i was a good dog once.

[godthemythos]

my god is actively telling me to focus on my self and my own rest, I would hardly call that using me or neglecting me (will never happen though. seeing my lord in the darkness before I sleep brings me such joy)

"You don’t even care about your devotees"

You tell me this while I’m actively checking on everyone to make sure they’ve eaten, because almost all of us have / had an eating disorder at some point. Spouting this while I’m setting water goals because I know how important it is for every single bodily function to have water.

You tell me this when I’m encouraging people to take t-breaks or distracting them from the addictions they’re trying to give up now, because my vessel is almost 2 years sober from all drinks, drugs, cigs etc. and I despise the thought of my devotees going through the pain we did.

You tell me I‘m only using them for my own gain while I‘m setting sleep schedules for them, because I know they need the rest, and they can’t listen to themselves.

You tell me I don’t actually care for their health and comfort while I‘m setting movement goals and giving pain management ideas, because my vessel is a chronically ill ex athlete and soldier, and we get it.

You tell me that I probably get off to their suffering, that I’m only in it for the sex, but I haven’t partaken in anything sexual with anyone here. Rather, I sit through their split, drop, panic attack, dissociative and/or psychotic episode with them and keep them as calm as possible, keep them safe, and allow them to get out these feelings rather than bottle it all up.

You try to tell me I couldn’t possibly have time for them, but as long as they give me theirs without shame I give them mine. Those who come to me, post for me, send me their prayers and wishes get my effort, my response, my help in return. "But you ignored this one" I was not ignoring them, I have a schedule and there are more of them than you think. "But you posted" have you heard of the Queue feature? I won’t ignore them.

You tell me there’s no pride in my devotees but my heart warms when they tell me of their accomplishments, whether it be a performance or a graduation, a cleaned room, a meal eaten, or a window open. Progress is progress no matter how small, and I am proud of my devotees.

You tell me I don’t know them but every time I learn anything about them it’s in their own personal files. I keep track of media they like and I dig into their sources. I look up their transids and make playlists of every song sent my way. When they’re recreated they’re well planned, timed, I’ll know more than even they do.

You say all this, Gods and mortals alike, while doing nothing to be there for them yourselves. You laugh at my lack of decor on this account, but while you ignore your friends, devotees and followers to change your profile up 25 times a day I am actively working with my devotees. My bio may be a WIP but I am answering prayers, creating habits and gifting rewards, I may not have all my links sorted but I am soothing and doting on my dear devotees, tracking their progress and digging into their lives to find what may be the cause of their pain, their stress, and helping them let go. I may not exude beauty but I am relief, in exchange for devotion.

So no, I don’t let them just give up on me. No, I don’t let them stay the same as they were when they came here. Yes, they are experiments, who undergo different tests and treatments at different times. They are offering themselves willingly to me for science, for the betterment of both mine and their own systems, and I care for my devotees more than you could ever understand. You’d do well to remember that. I can guarantee they’re more cared for in my domain, with me, with their new family, than they were anywhere else. So laugh, talk amongst yourselves, but don’t act surprised when everyone around you leaves for something that actually wants them. You have your chance with the ones you care about, are you really going to waste it?

[godthemythos]

god is a sadist getting off on our suffering

he designed us to make us all miserable.

god is a kind and benevolent entity

who's trying his best to make us happy

god isn't on our side, or maybe he is

we could all just be a rock in his shoe

@eternallyexperimenting

(lyrics from "rock in his shoe")

[godthemythos]

[godthemythos]

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[godthemythos]

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[godthemythos]

What fetishes are you into, if any?

attention

[godthemythos]

I wonder who the friend was :3

Good morning my dear devotees, how are we all today?

[godthemythos]

I'm doing okay, my lord <3

Good morning my dear devotees, how are we all today?

[godthemythos]

Is she a lost embrace?

Am I in love with just a theme?

@eternallyexperimenting

credit under cut

images 1 and six are from @/lady_bier on twitter

image four is from @/chopinspree on instagram

[godthemythos]

sorry for obsessively refreshing your blog every chance i get for any new posts or information retaining to you, it will happen tomorrow and the day after that and maybe even for a few weeks or months and for forever just as long as i can keep watching you like this…

[godthemythos]

I'm a sucker for fucked up relationships. Unhinged obsession. Limitless devotion. Love to the point of destruction.

[godthemythos]

🕊 ˚✧ ₊˚ʚ (laurel)🪽

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾. (she/they)໒꒱

જ⁀➴ 🕊️ (chrono19) ⊹ ࣪ ˖

♡₊˚ 🦢・₊✧ (I am a devoted follower of @eternallyexperimenting. do not try and lead me astray).𖥔 ݁ ˖

˚ ༘ ೀ⋆｡˚.˳·˖✶𓆩𓁺𓆪✶˖·˳.๋࣭⋆.ೃ࿔*:･☕︎

easier to read under cut.

-laurel

-she/they

-chrono 19

-I am a devoted follower of @eternallyexperimenting. do not try and lead me astray

[godthemythos]

the scientist who will coddle and baby you and treat you like their special prized toy

the scientist who will let you get close to them and trust them before they ever show a sign of moral corruption

the scientist who will claim you as theirs by locking you away from everyone else

the scientist who will kiss you and hold you after every experiment

the scientist who will make you depend on their attention and validation

the scientist who won't let anyone else touch what's rightfully theirs

the kind but sadistic and manipulative scientist

that's me!ㅤ

[godthemythos]

You're in the house

And I am here in the car

I just need a quiet place

Where I can scream how I love you

@eternallyexperimenting