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random sentence prompts  ━ from various tv shows, part 3

if you’ve got something good, that just means someone wants to take it, right?

i am not gonna watch that happen again.

i like rules. they bring order to the chaos.

you’re my favorite person in the world, but you’re acting weird.

i don’t want to be anyone’s hero. i just want to be safe and boring and happy.

we did so many bad things. it’s all burnt in my brain.

i know that i am flawed, but i am trying to be better.

if you think i’m a killer, prove it.

i’m, like, perpetually single.

no one in the world had more reasons not to believe in me, but you still did.

everyone expects me to have it all together, but i just don’t.

i don’t care what other people think about me. your opinion is the only one that mattered.

if you’re always a disappointment, then it’s impossible to disappoint.

i got so wrapped up in my own dreams and feelings. i took what we had for granted.

what we are to each other is so much more complicated than any stupid wife or husband or girlfriend. 

it’s too much for me, you needing me.

i want us to go back. back before the mistakes, the lies. back to when we were unstoppable. 

i guess all the time i feel like i’m kind of trapped because i can’t describe how i’m feeling.

you deserve better than me.

everyone keeps saying the only thing that will make this better is time and maybe space.

i didn’t want you to leave last night. 

got to clear the skies for some blue skies, right?

i just don’t want to get hurt again.

everything’s still unresolved, you know?

nobody deserves romance more than you. 

i don't know when i'm going to get over this. but i want to be beside you when that day comes.

is it cold in here, or is it just me?

i’ll get blamed if something bad happens to you.

i’ve got one rule for you. dance with me.

why is this so hard?

can we keep having dramatic yet memorable dates?

if you tell me right now that you’ll never forgive me until the end of time, i’ll leave you alone.

i’m not the problem. you are.

you two are weird in all the same ways. 

forget other people’s definitions. be who you want to be.

if i love you now, imagine how much i’ll love the person you become?

i just don’t see it adding up to happiness for any of us.

i kind of felt like you were running away from me.

i’m not a stranger. i’m just strange. 

every time i do something to be happy, someone gets hurt. 

all year, i’ve tried to do the right thing, but what do i get in return?

you strike me as a queen without her crown.

we’ll always find our way back to each other. 

what’s the point of fighting so hard to stay alive if we’re just going to die alone?

you know there’s a chance. that’s what you can’t square. that’s what hurts.

things went bad for you, things went bad for me.

it’s not that i’m like you. it’s that i love you.

i’m losing my fucking mind, and i’m terrified. 

you knocked me off balance in a good way.

he knew what to do. he always did. and he was a fucking asshole about it.

you should get the hell away from me. i’m poison. i ruin people.

you sound like a bad romantic comedy.

i think we can make long distance work.

you’re not a victim. you’re a killer.

i know kids lie to their parents about stuff,  but you don’t do that. it’s not you. 

you can come back from this. i know you can. you have to. 

people die, they become a threat.

you’re either the cat or the mouse.

when you go down, i hope i’m there to see it.

we’ve always needed each other. that’s what our entire relationship’s been about.

i’m not evil. i just did an evil thing, one i deeply regret.

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the new vibe is sexy!

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❝ 𝓣his 𝓢chool THOUGHT THEY COULD TORTURE YOU. (𝕎HY?) because they said you were all crazy? INFERIOR? BUT YOU'RE NOT INFERIOR. YOU ARE ꌗUPERIOR TO THEM. AND IT'S TIME WE SHOWED IT. ❞ FRIEND - FOCUSED WRITING BLOG, SEMI-PRIVATE AND RARELY FOLLOWS FIRST.

EXPLORE : ⁽⁰¹⁾ 𝓖uide. ⁽⁰²⁾ 𝓝otes. ⁽⁰³⁾ 𝓘nsp. ⁽⁰⁴⁾ 𝓟ins. ⁽⁰⁵⁾ 𝓥erses.

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THIS IS ALL YOUR FAULT, digging around in luke's mind like a parasite, carving up his memories - it's no wonder he snapped. she warned indira and brink, told them over and over again that her persuasion was weakening. they didn't listen. THEY NEVER LISTEN. now here we are, left with nothing but the gore of it. will she ever forget the sounds of shovels scraping him off the sidewalk?

❝ you don't have to take this on. ❞ - @survivores (RE: JORDAN) FROM, CURRENTLY ACCEPTING.

she's grateful for the interruption, clinging to the present to resist being swallowed whole by the past. so often it comes for her lately, with gnashing teeth and the unmistakable BURN OF REGRET.

❝ we spent so much time together. i should have... sensed something. ❞ she knew that the fragile dam she'd built in his mind was breaking, but how could she have expected such a drastic, volatile reaction? that he would be gone in the blink of an eye. IF ONLY SHE DIDN'T LIVE IN CONSTANT REJECTION of the full capacity of her powers, maybe she could have stopped him— heard the whisper of a plan, or a quiet call for help from deep down inside. anything.

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𝜗𝜚 ⠀𝗕𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗘 𝗣𝗥𝗜𝗖𝗞𝗜𝗡𝗚 𝗢𝗙 𝗠𝗬 𝗧𝗛𝗨𝗠𝗕   ﹔   various  sentence  starters   (   platonic/romantic/antagonistic/etc   )  from   TWILIGHT: SHOOTING DRAFT   (   february 11, 2008   )   .  please   , like   or reblog   if   you   plan   on   using   .   don’t   claim   as   your   own   .   content   warning   :   tw   .  part one.

I'd  never  given  much  thought  to  how  I'd  die.

dying  in  the  place  of  someone  I  love  seems  like  a  good  way  to  go.

I  can't  bring  myself  to  regret  the  decision  that  brought  me  here  to  die.

have  a  good  life.

it  won't  work  again,  baby.

your  hair's  longer.

he  hasn't  shut  up  about  it  since  you  told  him  you  were  coming.

yeah  ...  I  think  I  remember.

are  they  always  like  this?

it's  getting  worse  with  old  age.

too  bad.  would've  been  nice  to  know  at  least  one  person.

I'm  kind  of  a  suffer  in  silence  type.

are  you  alright?  I  warned  them  not  to  make  me  play.

it's  only  a  flesh  wound.

that's  why  they  kicked  me  out.

it's  first  grade  all  over  again,  and  you're  the  shiny  new  toy.

they  kinda  keep  to  themselves.

I'm  not  even  sure  that's  legal.

they're  not  actually  related.

he's  totally  gorgeous,  obviously.

but  apparently,  no  one  here  is  good  enough  for  him.

don't  waste  your  time.

I'll  just  endure  it.

are  people  talking  about  them  again?

ice  doesn't  help  the  uncoordinated.

be  careful.

give  it  up  for  the  rain.

I  didn't  have  a  chance  to  introduce  myself  last  week.

you've  been  gone.

enjoying  the  rain?

seriously?  you're  asking  me  about  the  weather?

no.  I  don't  like  the  cold.  or  the  wet.  or  the  gray.  or  parkas.  or  turtle  necks.

I'm  just  trying  to  figure  you  out.

you're  very  hard  to  read.

did  anyone  see  what  happened?

I'm  so  sorry,  I  tried  to  stop.

it  sure  as  hell  is  not  okay.

we  nearly  lost  you.

it  was  amazing  he  got  to  me  so  fast.

as  long  as  you're  safe.

can  I  talk  to  you  for  a  moment?

how  did  you  get  over  to  me  so  quickly?

I  know  what  I  saw.

and  what,  exactly,  was  that.

you  stopped  the  van.  you  pushed  it  away.

no  one  will  believe  that.

I  wasn't  planning  to  tell  anyone.

I  just  want  to  know  the  truth.

can't  you  just  thank  me  and  get  over  it?

you're  not  going  to  let  it  go,  are  you?

I  hope  you  enjoy  disapointment.

why  did  you  even  bother?

look!  you're  moving.  you're  ALIVE!

actually,  I'm  glad  you're  not  dead  cause  -  well,  that  would  suck.

you  want  to  go?  to  prom.  with  me?

how  did  you  know  about  that?

you  didn't  answer  my  question.

you  haven't  answered  any  of  mine.  you  won't  even  say  hello.

it  helps  if  you  actually  watch  where  you  put  your  feet.

I  know  I've  been  rude,  but  it's  for  the  best.

it  would  be  better  if  we  weren't  friends.

too  bad  you  didn't  figure  that  out  earlier.

you  think  I  regret  saving  you?

she  always  did  know  how  to  worry.

should  I  know  what  that  means?

la  push,  baby.  you  in?

I  don't  just  surf  the  internet.

you  stood  up  once.  on  a  foam  board.

I'll  go  if  you  stop  saying  that.

your  mood  swings  are  giving  me  whiplash.

if  you  were  smart,  you'd  avoid  me.

so  let's  say,  for  argument's  sake,  that  I'm  not  smart.  would  you  talk  to  me?  tell  me  the  truth?

I'd  rather  hear  your  theories.

what  if  I'm  not  the  hero?  what  if  I'm  the  bad  guy.

you're  not  bad.  you  can  be  a  jerk,  but  it's  like  this...  mask.  to  keep  people  away.

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GINNY & GEORGIA Season 3, Episode 1, "This Wouldn't Even Be a Podcast"

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ok but they did kind of fumble the opportunity to give miss thing a true and transformative Fuck Ass Bob for s2

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THIS WORLD IS FULL OF VIPERS, watching for sharp fangs while their tails slither up from behind to strangle you. he understands, probably better than most. the second compound v hits the vein, it's target becomes another piece on the board - injected straight into vought's chess game, decades in the making. YOU PLAY OR YOU DIE. sometimes you play and you die. these are the harsh realities she was always prepared for, yet never expected to have to face.

❝ yeah, the last thing i am is special. ❞ @anti-supe FROM, ACCEPTING.

she can't help but scoff aloud at his comment, surprising herself at the nerve of her reaction. her rid-rimmed eyes are only slightly unfocused as she turns to face him. ❝ they've had you back & forth between being on the run and in a box for how long now? ❞ maybe he'll tell her to back off, but she gives in to the impulse to question him. endlessly curious, ❝ would they really do all this if you weren't special? ❞ she just can't see that being the case.

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UNCERTAINTY WILL EAT YOU ALIVE, if you let it. the dead matter of indecision pools like cement around your ankles, stunted by the delay that comes with questioning each and every step forward. the liberation of the woods was meant to be a new beginning. THE RISE OF THE GUARDIANS OF GODOLKIN, so why have your latest victories left you feeling so. . . hollow? ❝ no, not that. it's just- ❞ lips twisting, these things are so often a pain for you to convey in words. bombarded by endless thoughts & feelings, it's ironic that you're incapable of expressing (EXPOSING) yourself the same way. YOUR CONTROL HAS IMPROVED in the past few months, under the guidance of vought and the seven. the constant roaring in your mind has dulled to a tiresome hum - tv static that never shuts off. but despite everything that's changed, the way you & sam have been elevated, welcomed to the inner circle, something nags at you still. the fear that PREVIOUSLY CUT STRINGS have been plucked up by a new puppeteer. ❝ how do you really feel about all of this? ❞ not exactly having heart to hearts on a regular basis, but you have toed around the conversation in recent weeks.

maybe you've been avoiding it, out of fear that you may have to face a difficult reality : THAT YOU LET HIM DOWN. all of them, really. if it's come down to trading one cage for another, then maybe it was all for nothing. ❝ i don't want us becoming pawns in another fight. ❞ one you're set up to lose, of all the supes in vought tower - you can sense the two of your are... dispensable. INDIRA WOULD CALL YOU PARANOID, if she were still here. convince you to enjoy the moment, the admiration, the attention. all of the things you thought you might desire, it's all so suffocating now.

@revnants     —      “it's hard to know when it's too late.”

her words land soft but heavy,  a quiet truth wrapped in guilt.   you don’t answer right away,  expression flickers between a flinch and a freeze.  like the words hit a nerve you didn’t know was still raw,  stitched together too fast and not deep enough.   the line of your jaw tightens,  then loosens,  like your chewing on the edges of something sharp–restless,  usual hum of agitation dulled by something slower.  a thought too big to say out loud.   you can see it in her,  too.   the weight of everything left unsaid,  everything she’s done,  everything she hasn’t done.  and under it all,  maybe the scariest of all,  the smallest flicker of hope–or fear.  sometimes you struggle to tell the difference.   the silence stretches,  and you breath in like you are going to speak before it loses itself in the cavern of chest.   (what would you even say?  that you’ve lived most of your life inside of too late?   the walls built around body were nothing compared to the ones built in your head?   that most days you don’t know if your memories are yours or were they stitched together by someone else?)    you have heard those words before,  a thousand different ways—behind glass,  under restraints,  in whispers that thought you weren't listening.

“too late for what,  cate?”      you step closer,  slow,  not threatening–just drawn.  to her.  to answers.  you don’t feel the need to tell her your thoughts,  of the hesitation in the curl of your fists.  she knows.  she somehow always knows.   you look at her like you are a man trying to recognise something familiar in the ruins of what you became.   there is nothing poetic in the way you say it,  rehearsed too many times–too many conversations that go nowhere.  you stopped hoping people mean what they say when they make promises with soft voices and nervous eyes.     “too late to fix it?”

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GEN V: Season 2 (Trailer)

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WHAT A THING IT MUST BE, wearing the truth in such a blatant manner. because that's what most of us here are, right? our parents' little monsters - cut up and stitched back together to their liking. & GOD FORBID WE AREN'T! to their liking, that is.

❝ typical parent move. ❞ the distaste for what her own did to her colors cate's perspective now, an inherent lack of trust in all things authority. (BESIDES INDIRA) ❝ always hiding the truth for 'your own good' when it's really them who can't handle the truth. ❞ maybe that's why the friction exists in the first place. there was a time when nothing was hidden to cate, every passing thought whispered to her, SO OFTEN UNINVITED. ❝ you should find out everything you've wanted to know about that girl. i could help you. ❞ (...) always with an outstretched hand, ready to conquer any problem. if only her path to resolution wasn't habitually so extreme.

well , now i feel like you're lying . @ isa from cate

“ i'm not lying, ” she spoke in a robotic, somewhat confused tone. “ he worked there. at the hospital. the bodies— they were already there. he just... took what he needed. ” she doesn’t understand that the girl was only teasing. it's not isa's fault. sarcasm, like so many things, doesn’t register with her the same way it does for other people. slowly, she raises her left arm, showcasing the stitching around her wrist. “ this hand? belonged to a girl around my age. i'm not sure what her name was. ” there's small pause, “ i don't think my father wanted to talk about her... or how she died. ” she didn’t know back then that he had a part to play in the girl’s death— or in the deaths of the others whose remains he took to make her whole again. that was something he had kept hidden from her. now, she longs to understand. “ i'd like to find out one day, though. ”

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PORTRAYAL NOTES : UPDATED. (01/ ?) 6/7/25, following s1 rewatch - prior to s2 release.

CANON DIVERGENCE: cate was willingly removed from her home by indira at the age of 16, not 18.

LUKE AND ANDRE:

while i previously adhered to a canon divergent portrayal of their intertwined relationships (x), my rewatch and having time to sit with the first season has actually changed my mind. previously i believed the cheating aspect undermined cate's remorse and uncertainty over what she was doing to luke, but now i've been able to shift my perspective when understanding that it was about her own internal conflicts and not her feelings for luke. she truly loved luke, but their relationship was plagued by darkness as soon as she began being utilized against him and his brother. they have shared trauma of things that happened in the woods that luke doesn't even remember. she has to keep up with so many lies and rewrites with him that it gets to a point where she can hardly relax in his presence. with andre it feels completely different, despite her guilt and knowing that it's wrong, there's a freedom in being with andre that she can no longer have with luke. it's a subconscious assertion of her autonomy, of her ability to choose while all the evidence in her life points to the contrary.

ABILITIES AND CONSEQUENCES:

as it currently stands, cate's range of powers is as follows : mind control, memory manipulation, telepathy / clairaudience, and brainwave manipulation. but given the proper training and pushing to the extent of her powers i believe cate could be capable of : telepathic implantation [pushing], capability suppression, body linking or swapping, illusions, pain inducement, psionic inundation [mental overload], psychic shield, psychokinesis, telepathic communication, and psychometry.

the consequences or side effects of cate's power use are also described in the series, but i suspect go a bit deeper than depicted. currently the most common symptom is bursting blood vessels (both in her eyes and brain), seizures that vary in severity, and fainting. now, to dig deeper : - 01. BURST BLOOD VESSELS IN EYES, leaking blood can cloud the vitreous and partially block light from reaching the retina, causing blurry or distorted vision. they can cause scar tissue to pull the retina away from the back of the eye, leading to a retinal detachment and severe vision loss. - 02. BURST BLOOD VESSELS IN BRAIN, bleeding can directly damage brain cells and cause a loss of function or activity. can increase pressure inside the skull, potentially disrupting blood flow and oxygen supply.  weakness, paralysis, difficulty speaking, or vision problems can occur due to the bleeding. narrowed blood vessels can further reduce blood flow. - 03. RECURRING SEIZURES, can be followed by memory loss, muscle soreness and dislocated joints, vision difficulties, and speech problems. NOTE : this is not to say she has or will experienced these outcomes, especially given her heightened endurance as a supe - just that they are risks.

THE WOODS: only really making note of this because i feel like it wasn't underscored enough in the series how truly traumatized cate has been by the woods, both the literal forest and the underground research center at god u.

after the caleb incident at the age of nine, cate has a perpetual distaste and discomfort with the general woodland scenery. the same leaves and trees and wildlife that used to soothe her now fills her with nothing but guilt and remembering. THE REPLAY. due to her family's location, she was exposed to it still while growing up, gutted each and every time. moving with indira to the city was the first time cate felt like she could breathe again in so many ways ; trees that were squared in by concrete and leaves blown away by dusk.

unfortunately, all those feelings followed her down into the lower levels of godolkin, into a facility she could never avoid- as indira was insistent that her powers were of great need with the caged students. she sensed her discomfort was obvious within those walls (a fact brink seemed to relish in). it was always better when she could bring luke along, or when they were going to see sam, but not when they were actively being experimented on.

being one of the only supes given access to the woods and all of it's dirty secrets, cate has particular insight into the many cruelties of their studies. one particular visual that comes to mind is when shetty notes to dr. cardosa that : ❝ cutting up supes and seeing how they tick is a skill that won't quite shine on your linkedin profile. ❞ one can only imagine the kind of horrors they were inflicting on these supes, many of them just barely adults.

i think we can assume the riordan brothers experimentation was rather tame in comparison to a lot of what was going on down there considering it was only a blood transfusion, but even those incidents had their moments. she has nightmares of luke waking up on the table, yelling and begging for her help. she's seen sam commit acts of violence in a confused rage that have made her physically sick. all with no one to talk to or confide in besides indira who is always in deescalation mode in order to maintain their dynamic and the power she holds within it, ready to sacrifice any and all pieces of cate.

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I'D BLEED FOR ANYTHING IF IT HELD ME THE RIGHT WAY.

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Athena Nassar, from "Love Is Not Always Song, but the Swelling"

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DAYS SPILLING BY IN A DENSE BLUR, she feels her body working in an attempt to regulate stifled systems and worn out synapses. like a perpetual rain-cloud that's only just lifted, she's still trying to clear out the remaining fog. not so easy as her powers are returning, even stronger than she remembers. TRYING TO DISSECT HER THOUGHTS from the others that pour in from every direction.

❝ what the hell is wrong with you ? ❞ @drunivers (RE : MARIE) FROM, ACCEPTING.

hard to tell how long she's been... unresponsive. distracted by the buzz of activity that lives only inside her mind. it's been isolating, DREADFUL AT TIMES, nearly enough to get her back on the medication. she has to remind herself that this is what makes her special, formidable even, the kind of power they want to keep caged until it can be used for their own aspirations.

GOD HER HEAD IS KILLING HER- ❝ s-sorry i'm just getting used to... being myself again. ❞ a task that might not be so grueling if every relationship she has wasn't being decimated, the false portrait of her life crumbling at her feet. she doesn't expect them to care, not after everything, but it doesn't make the detachment any easier.

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GEN V S1E1 - GOD U

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↪     𝐉𝐔𝐒𝐓 𝐎𝐍𝐄 , 𝑰'𝑴 𝑨 𝑭𝑬𝑾 - ᶰᵒ ᶠᵃᵐᶤˡʸ ˒ ᵗᵒᵒ . 𝑤ℎ𝑜 𝑎𝑚 𝑖 ?    (  a  series  of  sentence  starters  from  season  1  of  “ orphan black ” .   adjust  phrasing  as  necessary . will be updated !  )

i wanna see [ name ] .

well , that's not fair , is it ?!

oh my god , you look like crap .

i didn't miss your birthday , did i ?

something really weird just happened at the train station .

what the hell is wrong with you ?

listen to me , [ name ] , i'm only gonna ask you this once .

oh , i'm fine by the way , thank you .

get in the car .

when you don't give a damn , i get pissed .

you'd better be ready . are you ready ?

you're sure as hell overdressed . what , were you out all night or something ?

this shit is as hard as it gets . but you've gotta stop making it worse .

i panicked , what do you want me to say ?

i'm kidding . where's your wit gone ?

you don't have to babysit me , dipshit .

i know this thing's got you all twisted up , but try to forgive yourself .

[ name ] , open the goddamn door !

yeah , the last thing i am is special .

[ name ] , where have you been ?

where have i been ? uh .. long story .

oh , jesus , are you alright ?

you have a few words , [ name ] ? anything you want to express ?

plead your mercy & your pity .

love is imperfection itself .

say it . go ahead , say it's my fault .

who the hell are you ?

of course not . you think we'd let that happen ?

i'm at home , you've got it all wrong .

you know what ? don't . i'm going to ignore that .

i'm worried you're losing the plot again .

sorry , i've got ... i've got a lot of work to do .

i mean , what am i supposed to do ?

you don't have to take this on .

i can't keep waking up every night , checking your breathing , worried you're mixing your meds , booze ... god knows what else .

i knew it was too good to be true .

why would you help such a stupid plan ?

i'm not going to play [ name ] in the middle .

i'm not dirty , i just freaked out .

if there is another version of this story ...

walk me through it again . so i know you won't crack under questioning .

you're making me nervous .

finally ! where have you been ?

who am i speaking to ?

how did you find me ?

idiot . do you even know who you're talking to ?

i don't care who you are .

nope , that is not my responsibility .

go , & wait for a call .

what i'm trying to do is move on .

we have known each other for awhile now , [ name ] .

i nailed it , man . every detail .

come on , [ name ] , give me a little love here !

you know , my skin just breaks out every time i leave downtown .

whoa , hey , [ name ] - you always do this to me !

i don't do backup , i don't even know what backup is !

i got stuck , i was running from my own shit .

i'm not giving you shit 'til you give me some answers .

don't ! do not shoot me , please !

seriously , it's life or death .

am i going insane ?