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Successfully had my surgery on 9/21!! I’m finally back to work fulltime, though it’s been really busy! I didn’t have the time I thought I would to make a comeback during my recovery because, shockingly….. I was recovering LMAO. and ofc I like to think i’m superwoman so i went back a week early.

not smart BUT LOL. I needed that $$$ since we unfortunately i had no sick/vacation time left and my job doesn’t have fmla

ANYWAY!!! I do plan on coming backnow that i can… you know. actually eat real food and have energy!!

my activity will absolutely be sporadic since my internet sitch is not great bc i literally can’t get wifi upstairs bc mom eats it all with her qanon livestreams 🙃🔫

but ofc, you guys can always just ask for my dis.cord and we can chat/scream abt our meowmeows/plot/what have you there.

thanks for continuing to be with me on this journey 🥹🫶 love u all!!!!!!

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i sign papers for my surgery and will hopefully get a surgery date on the 13th!!!!! i also have a desk again AND a shiny new monitor so i’m hoping i can finally get back to writing

i miss you guys a lot!!! as well as my silly little meowmeows 🥹🫶

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lmao so quick update!

i did not, in fact, learn when my surgery was going to be. i did have an endoscopy yesterday (they found nothing— no ulcers, only a bit of gastritis) though, so.

i go back to the surgeon on the 18th so maybe i’ll learn something then 🥲

one more day until i learn when my surgery is going to be. hopefully sooner rather than later. i need cletus (what i named my gallbladder) to yeetus.

me, in pain: cletus is kicking

assistant manager: EWWWW I HATE IT

also assistant manager: we’re throwing a baby shower for cletus.

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one more day until i learn when my surgery is going to be. hopefully sooner rather than later. i need cletus (what i named my gallbladder) to yeetus.

me, in pain: cletus is kicking

assistant manager: EWWWW I HATE IT

also assistant manager: we’re throwing a baby shower for cletus.

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adding:

j.ing be.iyuan from q.i y.e & s.hl

xi.ao s.e/xi.ao chun.he from the bl.ood of you.th

w.u shu.ang from the bl.ood of you.th

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not @ me finally picking up a non-dan.mei muse but immediately making him a verse in a dan.mei novel LMFAO

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if someone laid on top of me like a big weighted blanket i think that would fix me

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        strange how CERTAIN the journey .   time unfolds the PETALS for our eyes to see .

         strange how this journey’s HURTING .   in ways we accept as part of FATE’S decree .

                                         multimuse ft. lian.song of eternal.love, written and loved by lins.

         (c.) 

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im so sweepy 🙃🙃🙃

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like this post and i'll send u some memes 👁️👁️

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like this post and i'll send u some memes 👁️👁️

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not to be dramatic but that was the best night of my life 😭🙌 i hope i'll get to see them again in atl or even closer in charlotte one day 🤞

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imma be quiet for the next few days bc ur girl is going to see stray kids ❤️‍🔥 dreams rlly do come tru 😌✊

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memes for that specific brand of ships

SOFTER: “  stop doing that— stop trying to hide your emotions from me.  ” “  i can’t make you trust me. but i’m gonna stick around long enough for you to realize you can.  ” “  not everyone is just gonna become another scar. some people will stay, if you let them.  ” “  i feel like i’ve been living in a storm for so long, like i’m just drifting from wave or wave hoping i won’t drown.  ” “  what happened to you? what made you so scared to stay still long enough to let someone in?  ” “  i don’t wanna be scared anymore.  ” “  even when you smile, your eyes are still sad.  ” “  you’re safe with me. you can let go. breathe. ”   “  i just want to belong somewhere again. or to someone, i guess.  ” “  the thing about never having a home, is you don’t know what to do when you’re finally given one. you just feel like you’re waiting for something to take it away again.  ” “  would you just sit still? you’re gonna get an infection if you don’t let me clean this up.  ” “  i’m not gonna hurt you. i’m just here to help.  ” “  close your eyes. go back to sleep. nothing can hurt you while i’m here.  ” “  you looked so peaceful while you were sleeping…i couldn’t bring myself to wake you up.  ” “  why do you trust me?  ” “  don’t do that— don’t shut down on me. let me in.  ” “  you were talking in your sleep again. i’m starting to think they’re memories and not just dreams.  ” “  i’m not used to letting people close. i don’t like being vulnerable— but i want to, with you. i want to let you in.  ” “  how did you get this scar?  ” “ i don’t always need you to fix everything. i just— sometimes i just want you to listen. ” “  you’re so beautiful when you laugh. i wish i could see it more, but maybe it’s the rarity of it that makes it so captivating. ”

DARKER:  “  every time i touch you, there’s a moment where you look like you think it will hurt. ” “ why aren’t you scared of me?  ”   “  you’d accept a caress from the same hands that leave you bruised, just to feel warm.  ” “  i’ll kill anyone that makes you hurt like that again. i’d kill them just for taking your smile.  ” “  i want to keep you all to myself. i don’t want anyone but us to know the things we do in secret.  ” “  you’re mine now. and i won’t let anyone take you from me.  ” “  would you kill for me?  ” “  i’d cut my heart out and place it in your hands if it would prove my devotion to you.  ”  “  you love me so fiercely. i’m almost afraid of it.  ” “  i know if anyone hurt me, you’d never let them see another day. and i think i like that a little too much.  ” “  i know you’re dangerous, but i also know you won’t hurt me. you bark, and you growl, but you never bite. not me, at least.  ” “  who hurt you? who made you so sad and lonely? tell me so i can make them pay.  ”   “  i don’t like the way they look at you. perhaps i’ll cut their eyes out.  ” “   “  they hurt me. now i want you to make it better. make them hurt too.  ”   “  if anyone lays even a single finger on you, i’ll cut it off and feed it to them.  ” “  yes. i killed them— but i did it for you.  ” “  i had to do it. no one gets to make you sad and get away with it.  ” “  i told you, i’ll love you no matter what. i’ll wipe the blood off your skin. i’ll clean the dirt off your hands from every grave you dig. i don’t care if you’re a monster.  ” “  you should be scared of me. i like that you’re not.  ”   “  don’t you know my love could destroy you?  ”   “  come, sit in my lap and tell me whose blood i should spill tonight.  ”  

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𝐄𝐍𝐄𝐌𝐈𝐄𝐒 𝐓𝐎 𝐋𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 ; a collection of enemies to lovers sentence starters . change the pronouns if needed .

i know that you are my enemy , but you have intoxicated me into falling in love with you .

you're the first person who is vulnerable enough to make me impossibly weak .

will i ever regret my own choice for loving you instead of killing you ?

forget who we are , let's make our new life together .

at first you were the hell that you gave me , until you become my heaven .

I'll try my best to deserve you .

i seek for peace , until i found you .

tell me , why does my own enemy could make feel safe ?

though you are dangerous , you are also capable of love .

my hands have stained with bloods and violence , yet you choose to hold them like a precious thing .

i've hurt you , why would you seek love and warmth in me ?

i'd rather die in your arms than being stabbed by you .

curse me with your love , darling .

what did you do to me to make me fall in love with you ?

you're so pure and innocent , and i am scared to hold you and break you into pieces .

losing you is my worst nightmare .

i'm sorry for hurting you .

be in my dreams to replace the nightmares you have given me .

why do you want me of all people ?

i can't help myself from falling in love with you .

let's have a peaceful life , shall we ?

i shouldn't have given you the scar , i hate it so much .

be happy with me .

i've always hated your smile , but as i keep seeing you smile , i begin to admire them .

god really gives me a soulmate in a possible way , doesn't he ?

i'm grateful to have you as my enemy .

i feel calm when i am with you .

teach me how to love , so i won't hurt you .

all i knew in my life: love is a weakness . then you came into my life , making me stronger not to lose you .

every second i have spent with you , i'll treasure them to remember you .

you don't have any idea how much i love you .

there are many reasons why i hate about you , but those reasons turn into something why i love you .

we were destined to be enemies , so we could fight against each other until we tire ourselves and find many reasons why we should stop and forgive each other .

i forgive you , despite the hell you have put me through .

let us move forward into something new .

i should've let you die , but i chose to protect you .

sit , and let me tell you the reasons why am i falling in with you .

it's impossible , isn't it ? how two enemies can have feelings for each other ?

let me protect you instead of fighting against you .

each day i am always worried something dangerous might happen to you , but i am the danger , aren't i ?

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barks about mx.y