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"you gotta play with the cards you're dealt" WRONG. i play pot of greed which lets me draw two additional cards from my deck

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Bday art for the bday boy

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having sex with me is always incest because I consider us all brothers and sisters in our shared struggle against capital

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has this been done

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Everytime Im lost or despondent, there’s always the work of reading and writing. Writing is one of the most direct processes by which we can transmit experiences to other people. Writing is one half the act of connection. The other half, of course, is reading. And when im burnt beyond thought in one process I can always return to the other.

For me this process is sacred. So much of connection between people is in loss-heavy formats. Radio waves blistering out into static, or half-thought speech capturing nothing of intent. Reading and writing arent perfect, but they have the potential for the strongest transmission out of any medium. Neither memory nor record is perfect, and we as people lose so much all the time to entropy. But to write is to preserve in some way the momentum of a human experience, to store it in a form that can be delivered to the future.

and that’s all there is for me. people are better connected than they are isolated. People are smarter, funnier, and more loving when they understand one another. All art, but especially reading & writing is to participate in that great work of connection.

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On my first reading of The Raven Cycle I fell in love with Adam and Gansey. How similar and different, how much love and admiration they have for each other and how hard they find it to say it. How much love they have and how little definitions for it. I fell in love with Adam because I understood him. Even though my situation is naturally a thousand times easier, I understood feeling overlooked and tired and misunderstood and throwing daggers at people just in case. I fell in love with Gansey because I wanted to be him, confident and nice to everyone, trustworthy and understanding.

On my second reading I fell in love with Blue and Ronan. How much love they grew up around yet still yearned for something they always believed they could never have: romantic love. How badly they hurt when faced with their faults. I fell in love with Blue because I am her; a weird girl who wants to be weirder, who wants to change the world and travel it, who is always mirroring other people and affecting those around her. I fell in love with Ronan because he is just such a baby and I love him so so much. But I also wanna be him, a dreamer with his feet tied to the ground. Who knows who he is and is comfortable being himself, who doesn’t need anyone’s approval and will silently give his life for his friends.

I have always been in love with Noah and I always will be. His own secret quest, being always aware that he was going to be forgotten. Knowing and accepting Gansey was the one who could do what he couldn’t. Letting himself die and giving Glendower all the credit for it. Always dead and always dying. Always there for his friends, always knowing he was just a piece in a huge puzzle. I have always admired his willingness to give his all for his friends, even more than the others. He is always aware and always waiting. He is the key to the story, yet they will always forget him. He is everything.

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"i asked chatgpt" okay i asked the magical sentient forest that i sacrificed my eyes and hands to... we r not the same

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sad reality of the fanfic-to-published work economy is that the weirdest people are willing to do it. that's why there's now hundreds of shitty no plot cishet hate-to-love enemies-to-lovers books that are ex reylo fanfic. and it's not even good. that's because the people who wrote book-quality steve/bucky and kirk/spock fic are too normal to think to themselves "i should get this porn published". they're too busy working in local government offices

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people are getting high as fuck on new stupid drug called "night drawing" its making them stay iup all the goddamn night drawing. and brother let me tell you. the drawings. not even good

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sexual thrill at the mere prospect of cataloging things in a database

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Best things for a ship to have or be:

Horny

Insane

Religious/spiritual themes

Obsession

Age gap

Doomed

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