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what is even the point of tumblr without jack

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pre-emtively:

i have much better poems that could be in my exhibition and i am debating adding one of (what i think is) one of my best poems to it but frankly it is just too terrifying to do so.

so i am just more able to publish a mediocre poem to the public even if i know i can do better. because really at the end of it all i do not really care what others think but i also want them to know that i am so much more capable than anything i will ever show the vast public so only those that are close to me will see the true depths of my art.

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there is the unspoken thing that she. someone cancels on plans for a good reason, no matter how upset you are, you say it is okay, especially if they cannot help the reason.

why do others not abide by that? why am i made to feel bad for things out of my control? i did not want to cancel. i cannot help it.

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missing pieces taken for a bigger purpose…. i wonder if it knows why it was torn from itself. if it knows it was for love. for appreciation.

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why can’t i just go to my emo gigs.

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everything is horrible and no one gets it and i’ve walked past the same shit smeared on the sidewalk 5 times tonight.

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i am not doing enough i am never doing enough. lines of my writing are good but as a whole they are shit and why do i ever bother to care about anyone when i know i feel more than anyone ever and even if they were like me i would not like that because i can barely even stand myself so i am forced to live in solitude or feel love until me or them realises i am far too crazy for healthy reasonable love.

there are barriers in my way and i get so mad about what people say but i don’t even know what would be better for them to say. i want this exhibition to happen though i know i will hate people looking at things i made but if i do not then what is anything worth. and i know my whole thing is about perception and audience but really i have covered all of those topics without talking to another soul. i dont need other people they just happen to be the final piece of my art and i hate that.

i wish to be a great artist that people talk about but no one knows what i look like and there are no records of my art so it all turns to centuries of trusting one another to their word because that’s all i really want in the world.

i refuse to read this back. i doubt it will make any sense to anyone maybe jack

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HI JACK

Hi Zander

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Distraught.

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don’t you know the ground gets hurt too

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so many crows around of late.

what do they have to tell us?

what have we missed?

i pity any soul who thinks they outrank a crow.

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