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Especially after yesterday, I think my insecurities about myself have only increased.

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Clarice Lispector, from a letter to Fernando Sabino featured in Why This World: A Biography of Clarice Lispector

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Lately I've been feeling like crap, I can't stop comparing myself. What if it was the other way around? I don't want to be selfish, I don't want there to be consequences for him. I need to learn how to deal with it, learn not to feel like vomiting and crying non-stop when thinking about it. This time the problem is me.

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Source.

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Fuck, it's SO GOOD to be in a relationship where the other person really shows you how much they love and care about you and doesn't treat you like shit. I feel like I'm eating a really sweet ice cream after having drunk the most bitter of drinks

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Siouxsie (Siouxsie & The Banshees)

Edenhal, Amsterdam, The Netherlands (1986-04-23)

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Emily Dickinson, from her poem titled "1188," featured in The Emergency Poet

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When depression hits so hard that you start to feel exhausted even from being depressed

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Virginia Woolf, from a diary entry written c. April 1929, featured in Selected Diaries

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I can't just be okay with it, every time I eat I think about how it's going to make me gain weight and how I'm going to be stuck in a cycle of gaining weight and losing the same thing.

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Fuck I HATE how I always do the same thing, I always advise people that communication is the best option within a relationship but I MYSELF can't have communication because I feel that all my feelings are completely invalid and not worth the headache.