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[gracia-mouline]

… 𝑇𝑒𝑛𝑡𝑎𝑛𝑔 𝐾𝑒𝑠𝑒𝘩𝑎𝑟𝑖𝑎𝑛𝑘𝑢.

Bunyi teko yang berdenting dan mengeluarkan asap, suara dari timer oven yang mati sebagai tanda bahwa apapun kue yang dipanggang di dalam sana telah usai, juga api kompor yang masih menyala dengan sang koki yang sibuk menggerak-gerakkan spatula menggoreng makanan di atasnya.

Sungguh sebuah kesibukan di pagi hari kehidupan seorang Mouline.

Seperti sudah lihai dan telah melakukannya selama puluhan tahun, Mouline merapikan semuanya satu per satu dengan gerakan yang cepat. Dari mematikan kompor hingga menyajikan masakan di meja—dengan menu masakan hari ini: Sambal kentang dan tumis kangkung. Lalu menuangkan air panas dari teko untuk menyeduh teh pagi hari teruntuk dirinya dan suaminya, Joenathan. Sampai mengeluarkan brownies buatannya dari oven dengan wangi cokelat yang menggugah selera.

“Capek…” Mouline menjatuhkan dirinya di sofa dan menghembuskan nafas berat. Oh, tolong jangan ingatkan dirinya dengan cucian piring yang menggunung sesudah ini.

Semenjak ia memutuskan untuk berlibur dan tinggal sementara waktu di Vila Seruni, Mouline memilih untuk melupakan pekerjaannya dan menyibukkan diri dengan melakukan pekerjaan rumah juga bersosialisasi dengan lingkungan sekitar.

Padahal sebelum datang ke sini, kehadiran Mouline di dapur rumahnya dapat dihitung oleh jari bahkan sampai peralatan masaknya pun berdebu saking jarangnya terpakai. Beruntung suaminya, Joenathan, tidak banyak protes soal hal tersebut dan memahami kesibukannya pula selama ini. Ah, dimana lagi Mouline dapat mencari sosok Joenathan?

Mouline bangkit dari posisinya di sofa dan membawa dua paper bag yang berisikan brownies yang telah dibungkus per kotak untuk dibagikan ke warga Nirbica lainnya. “Mas, aku mau bagiin brownies dulu ya ke yang lain,” ujar Mouline dari luar kamar mandi untuk berpamitan kepada Joe yang sedang membasuh diri.

Derap langkah kakinya yang santai menghantarkan dirinya mengunjungi satu per satu rumah di Desa Nirbica pun termasuk rumah Nenek dan Kathadara. Semuanya begitu hangat—baik udara di pagi hari ini maupun sambutan-sambutan hangat yang diterima dirinya dari orang-orang sekitar.

Setelah membagikan semua brownies, Mouline memilih untuk segera kembali ke rumahnya dan berencana mencuci tumpukan gunung piring yang berada di dapurnya tersebut. Dalam perjalanan pulangnya, Mouline menyempatkan diri untuk mampir ke supermarket dekat dengan Vila dan membeli beberapa keperluannya yang habis.

“Fyuh… habis ini tinggal mandi dan istirahat seharian deh!” Ucap Mouline dalam hati dan mempercepat langkahnya untuk kembali ke rumah.

[gracia-mouline]

… 𝐺𝑖𝑓𝑡𝑠 𝑓𝑜𝑟 𝑆𝑎𝑟𝑣𝑎𝑟𝑢𝑝𝑎.

𝐆𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫: 𝙅͟𝙤͟𝙚͟𝙣͟𝙖͟𝙩͟𝙝͟𝙖͟𝙣͟ 𝙇͟𝙤͟𝙠͟𝙖͟ 𝙆͟𝙧͟𝙚͟𝙣͟𝙨͟.

𝐆𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫: 𝙋͟𝙧͟𝙖͟𝙣͟𝙖͟𝙣͟𝙙͟𝙖͟𝙮͟𝙪͟ 𝘿͟𝙞͟𝙩͟𝙧͟𝙞͟.

𝐆𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫: 𝙅͟𝙚͟𝙖͟𝙣͟𝙣͟𝙚͟ 𝙋͟𝙚͟𝙤͟𝙣͟𝙮͟ 𝘾͟𝙖͟𝙡͟𝙡͟𝙤͟𝙬͟𝙖͟𝙮.

𝐆𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫: 𝘼͟𝙮͟𝙖͟𝙣͟𝙖͟ 𝙂͟𝙧͟𝙚͟𝙩͟𝙝͟𝙖͟ 𝙇͟𝙞͟𝙡͟𝙖͟𝙫͟𝙖͟𝙩͟𝙞͟.

𝐆𝐢𝐟𝐭𝐬 𝐟𝐨𝐫: 𝘿͟𝙞͟𝙚͟𝙜͟𝙤͟ 𝘼͟𝙡͟ 𝙋͟𝙖͟𝙘͟𝙞͟𝙣͟𝙤͟.

[gracia-mouline]

𝐒𝐔𝐑𝐘𝐀𝑽𝐀𝐑𝐃𝐇𝐀𝐍𝐀.

Dalam setiap jengkal peristiwa, cahaya bersemi dari sorot mata yang bersatu, membawa kita menelusuri aliran kehidupan di Nirbica, sebuah perjalanan menuju puncak kebahagiaan yang tak terhingga.

. . .

Gracia Mouline.

The Bingo Board.

Mission 1: 𝐇𝐢𝐚𝐬 𝐊𝐮𝐞! 👩🏻‍🍳🍪

Mission 2: 𝐆𝐚𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐧𝐠 𝐊𝐚𝐨𝐬 𝐊𝐚𝐤𝐢! 🧦

Mission 3: 𝐃𝐞𝐤𝐨𝐫𝐚𝐬𝐢 𝐏𝐨𝐡𝐨𝐧 𝐍𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐤! 🤶🏻🎄

Mission 4: 𝐔𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐤 𝐃𝐢𝐫𝐢𝐤𝐮!

Dearest Mouline,

I know very well that you always dream big, that you captured your life in your mind and carry a huge faith in your heart, hoping that one day all the dreams you've cherished will come true.

Tell me, what's your biggest dream? Is it to become a teacher? A successful model with a balanced life? Or to pursue a master's degree?

Little Mouline used to say she wants it all, although grown-up Mouline still desires the same. But now she understands that what she truly desires is to live well and love deeply.

All she wants is to wake up with a peaceful mind, spend the day with joy, and know that there's always a place for her to return, a person who will always be there for her.

Mission 5: 𝐑𝐞𝐬𝐨𝐥𝐮𝐬𝐢 𝐇𝐢𝐝𝐮𝐩𝐤𝐮!

Truth be told, I am not someone who usually makes New Year's resolutions. However, for the upcoming year 2024, I have decided to write down some goals, in the hopes that they will all come true. Some of them include:

Go on a vacation with Joe! ❤️

Read 50+ books in a year < 4 to 5 books per month>.

Exercise more.

Cut back on eating sweets and sugary foods.

Stay focused on being a preschool teacher while exploring opportunities as a freelance model.

Summon the courage to pursue a master's degree in Psychology.

These are just a few of the resolutions I've made for 2024. While the future is uncertain, I'm committed to working towards these goals and seeing where the journey takes me!

Mission 6: 𝐊𝐚𝐝𝐨 𝐮𝐧𝐭𝐮𝐤 𝐍𝐞𝐧𝐞𝐤 𝐝𝐚𝐧 𝐒𝐚𝐫𝐯𝐚𝐫𝐮𝐩𝐚! 🎁

… and for the others.

Mission 7: 𝐓𝐞𝐧𝐭𝐚𝐧𝐠 𝐊𝐞𝐬𝐞𝐡𝐚𝐫𝐢𝐚𝐧𝐤𝐮!

Mission 8: 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐧 𝐌𝐚𝐥𝐚𝐦 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐭𝐚𝐦𝐚!

https://x.com/gramouiine/status/1738563474421403958?s=46&t=9a7Q2mrZnuOBv0YGkEw33w

Mission 9: 𝐏𝐞𝐫𝐦𝐚𝐢𝐧𝐚𝐧 𝐌𝐚𝐥𝐚𝐦 𝐊𝐞𝐝𝐮𝐚!

https://x.com/gramouiine/status/1738923341283819941?s=46&t=9a7Q2mrZnuOBv0YGkEw33w

All missions completed!

[gracia-mouline]

… 𝐴 𝐵𝑟𝑖𝑑𝑔𝑒 𝐹𝑜𝑟 𝐴𝑙𝑙 𝑇𝘩𝑒 𝐶𝘩𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑠.

This is 𝑙𝑖𝑙𝑦-𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑒 speaking. As the writer behind Gracia Mouline, I am here to state that Mouline is a fictional character and created for roleplay purposes only. Hence, any interactions and personas on this account will have no relation to the muse being portrayed.

. . .

Therefore discussion is welcome regarding any potential plots and relations as long as they are intertwined with Mouline’s storyline. Regarding interaction guidelines, the indications for interactions are as follows:

In Character : “Mouline…”

Out of Character : ꕥ⋆

Writer Tag : 𝑙𝑖𝑙𝑦-𝑟𝑜𝑠𝑒.

𝐌𝐔𝐒𝐄.

Zhou Jieqiong (周洁琼). Joo Kyulkyung (주결경). Taizhou, Zhejiang, China. December, 16th 1998. O. Sagittarius. Chinese singer and actress, used to be a member of the South Korean girl groups, I.O.I and Pristin.

[gracia-mouline]

… 𝑇𝘩𝑒 𝐸𝑥𝑖𝑠𝑡𝑒𝑛𝑐𝑒 𝑜𝑓, 𝑀𝑜𝑢𝑙𝑖𝑛𝑒.

In every steps she takes, a 𝒔𝒚𝒎𝒑𝒉𝒐𝒏𝒚 𝒐𝒇 𝒃𝒓𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒓𝒚 unfolds. For she stands as her own queen, 𝑔𝑟𝑎𝑐𝑒𝑓𝑢𝑙𝑙𝑦 marching to the empowering cadence of resilience.

. . .

She whispers her 𝑠𝑒𝑐𝑟𝑒𝑡 𝑑𝑒𝑠𝑖𝑟𝑒 into the night, hoping it would be carried away by the wind, Gracia Mouline.

𝐂𝐇𝐀𝐑𝐀𝐂𝐓𝐄𝐑 𝐈𝐍𝐅𝐎𝐑𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐈𝐎𝐍.

Gracia Mouline. Singapore, 16th December 1998. Indonesian. Chinese-Indonesian (ethnicity). Jakarta (residing). English, Bahasa. O. Sagittarius. ISFJ.

𝐇𝐄𝐑 𝐅𝐄𝐀𝐓𝐔𝐑𝐄𝐒.

167cm & 47kg. Fair skin tone with cool undertones. Dark Brown (eyes color). Long black hair. With flamboyant gamine as the body type. XS to S. 39 eu. Earlobe and Helix piercings for both ear. Right handed.

𝐀𝐋𝐌𝐀-𝐌𝐀𝐓𝐄𝐑𝐒.

Highscope Jakarta from Junior to Senior High School. Graduated with pride from University of Indonesia (UI) as a bachelor of Psychology.

[gracia-mouline]

In another life time, I would never change my mind. I would do it again, a thousand times.

[gracia-mouline]

… 𝐴 𝑆𝑦𝑚𝑝𝘩𝑜𝑛𝑦 𝑂𝑓 𝑆𝘩𝑎𝑡𝑡𝑒𝑟𝑒𝑑 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒.

I yelled, I screamed, for the pain that has been burning within.

Everything within me fell to the ground, the bleeding heart shattered, and tears streamed through the essence of my bones.

But you did not look at me with hesitation… your gaze froze me, a sculpture of solid and cold detachment.

As if we had never shared love and embraces beneath the moonlit sky.

. . .

A story about Mouline’s parents.

Sequel of: Winter Whispers of Love Lost.

2003 (Eva’s POV).

Semuanya begitu sunyi. Suara keras Revaldi yang mencoba merambat ke telingaku, televisi di ruang tengah yang masih menyala, jam berdenting, dan suara lain-lainnya, semuanya lenyap tak terdengar. Entah karena aku menolak mendengar, atau mungkin ada tombol ajaib yang mematikan segala suara di sekitarku, aku tak yakin.

Hening.

Duniaku berubah menjadi hitam dan putih, layaknya film dan siaran televisi dahulu kala yang belum berwarna. Aku masih berdiri diam dengan tubuh yang kaku, air mata yang turun membasahi pipi, serta sosok Revaldi yang berada tepat di depanku dengan bibirnya yang masih berucap namun tanpa suara.

Apa yang sedang terjadi?

“Evangeline!” Cengkraman tangan Revaldi di bahuku dan goyangan tangannya akhirnya membuatku sadar.

Ah… kepalaku sakit.

Aku tak ingin lagi mendengar apapun dari mulutnya—penjelasan, alasan, atau apapun itu. Sampah. Apa tadi katanya? Punya anak lain? Mencintai perempuan selain diriku dan anak-anakku? Meminta maaf? Memohon ampun? Aku tak ingin tahu. Yang aku tahu, dia mengkhianatiku dan berbohong atas janji-janjinya. Sampah tetaplah sampah yang harus dibuang.

Ku seka air mata yang mengering di pelupuk mataku. Bayangan dia yang selama setahun ini tak lagi memberikan kasih sayang padaku dan anak-anakku, dan lebih memilih untuk memberikan itu semua kepada wanita lain dan anaknya, sungguh melukai hatiku.

Siapa yang dapat menduga bahwa pengkhianatan terbesar dihidupku datang dari lelaki yang telah menemaniku selama sembilan tahun lamanya.

“Let’s just end this.”

Siapa pula yang menduga kisah cerita kita akan berakhir di bulan Desember? Bulan pertama kita bertemu, memutuskan untuk hidup bersama, sampai akhirnya berpisah.

[gracia-mouline]

… 𝑊𝑖𝑛𝑡𝑒𝑟 𝑊𝘩𝑖𝑠𝑝𝑒𝑟𝑠 𝑂𝑓 𝐿𝑜𝑣𝑒 𝐿𝑜𝑠𝑡.

The cold breeze of December pierced into me; It’s as if every snowflake bears witness to the ache I carry.

Was it because of the cold breeze or the love that is nowhere to be found?

I gasped for air to fill my lungs, yet I remained breathless. I never knew that love would engulf me completely.

And you, a lingering ache from which I fear I may never recover.

. . .

A story about Mouline’s parents.

2002 (Eva’s POV)

Something is strange.

Eva, who’s already wrapped in her white silk pajamas, sits silently in the dining room. Her hands are folded, supporting her chin, and her gaze seems focused on one point: the clock.

After six years of living together, Eva has gained an intimate understanding of her husband, Revaldi. She can notice when things go off and don't seem usual—just like now, or perhaps it has been going on for a while. However, uncertainty clouds her thoughts.

The ticking clock indicates it's already past midnight, and there are no indications that Revaldi will be coming home anytime soon. Her mind races, her brow furrows, and she keeps staring at her phone, showing the last message Revaldi sent to her four hours ago that said he will come home late.

“Mom, you haven't slept?”

The creaking door and Mouline's concerned voice snap Eva out of her thoughts. Mouline, the eldest daughter, shows up from her room, still appearing half-awake but worried for her mother.

“Hi, sweetheart. Did I wake you up?” Eva chooses not to answer Mouline’s question.

Mouline shakes her head and replies, “You did not. Why haven't you slept?”

“I just woke up too,” Eva tells a lie.

Mouline takes a seat beside Eva, leaning her head on Eva’s shoulder. She closes her eyes, finding comfort in the warmth of Eva’s hand gently caressing her hair. “Where's Papa?”Mouline asked.

“He has so much work to do; he will come late,” answered Eva.

“But it's already late,” Mouline replied while glancing at the clock on the wall.

“Don't worry, darling. You'll see him once you wake up in the morning. So, go back to your sleep, and I'll wake you up later for school.”

“Alright, Mama. Don't sleep too late,” Mouline returns to her room after receiving a forehead kiss from her mother, Eva.

Yet, Eva continues to wait for Revaldi to come home. Anxiety gnaws at her, fearing something may have happened to him or other unforeseen events. Revaldi has changed. Though she can't pinpoint the specifics, it's like one piece in a puzzle connecting to others. He no longer kisses her; his greetings after coming home differ, and he's less affectionate with their kids, even with their youngest, who’s only one year old. A palpable gap has emerged between him and the family, and Eva is acutely aware of it.

Change frightens her. Numerous thoughts swirl in her mind, but she's hesitant to confront the harsh reality.

[gracia-mouline]

I have a secret: a story about a girl who survived her own battle of war—yelling, screaming, and praying, yearning to live in a peaceful state, free from soul-deep scars.

“Hello, kiddos! You're back with me again. Did you enjoy your holiday? I'd love to hear about your trip!"

"Miss Mouline, I had a nice holiday trip. My family and I went to Thailand, and we ate a lot of food there!" Excitedly responding to Mouline's question in class, Alex, a cute little boy with deep dimples on his cheek, shared his experience.

Mouline couldn't hide her smile upon hearing her students' stories and responded, "That must have been a lot of fun, Alex! How long did you stay in Thailand? I've never been there before!"

"We stayed for a week! How about you, Miss Mou? What did you do during the holiday? Did you enjoy it?" Alex bombarded Mouline with questions.

“Well, I didn't do much. That's why I'm excited to hear all about your holiday adventures!" Mouline shared.

"You can spend your holiday with your parents too! Did you do it, Miss?" Mouline smiled, hearing Alex's question, but decided to keep silent and not give any answers. Kids, with all their curiosity.

Of course, Mouline has a family. But where to start explaining it?

Gracia Mouline, a woman who appears cold and calm, yet becomes more cheerful and talkative with her closest ones. As the first child in her family, she's akin to her mother’s right hand—reliable, dependable, and the sole sister to Vivien, her younger sibling.

Although she might seem like an open book, Mouline harbors more than meets the eye. Beyond being the typical Gracia Mouline—a girl born in 1998, psychology graduate with honors, preschool teacher, and an avid fan of characters like Kuromi and Agnes from Despicable Me—lies a deeper story about her.

She is Gracia Mouline, a girl from a broken family, where her father decided to leave her and chose to be with his new family. She is a girl who made a promise to herself when she was only 5 years old that she needs to stay strong for her mother and her little sister when her parents decided to get divorced.

While life can turn her world upside down, she found a place to stay. A place where she is at ease and feels the warmth of love. To be wrapped in Joe’s arms is her favorite sanctuary.