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Last Appeal- Letter to parents

We grew up in a time where our generation is the most hated Yet slavery is abolished, Women can vote and we've created a platform for freedom of expression That replaced the outdated speak when you're spoken to and little girls who don't know their place should be hated

We grew up on do as I say but not as I do So we were expected to be influenced by words and not actions In other words to not be human But less than a fraction of ourselves combined a whole lot of our parents pretense and a pinch of no disrespect aka self defense which never made sense?

But what should make sense is to take abuse at home And still have the common sense to avoid it when we're on our own To know the difference between "Im only beating you cause I love you" to "I'm only beating you because I love you" right?

It's funny how every alternative suggestion turns to a fight And the home becomes a battlefield instead of a place of comfort Leaving us to yearn and hunger for a relationship with sombody So we seek an alternative suggestion  and it turns to fight

it's a cycle we have to break The cycle of i'm doing it to you because it happened to me and I turned out fine. This is a different time and the suicide rate is at an all time high because you think its crime to try encouragement instead of punishment Sometimes Instead of "Crystal you made a mistake but you're better than that I know it" it's "Crsytal you stupid just like your father and it's showing"

Lets break that cycle Where we embrace the norms of our colonizers and put our children to kneel on graiters The tactic that is engraved in us to gain control by placing someone beneath us came from when we were enslaved and paved the way for the desctruction of self esteem just to gain and maintain respect Mom and Dad your words have molding power to the children you brought fourth You have the opportunity to create an environment to shape and mold Because regarldess of your relationship with your children your opinion matters more

Don't get me wrong we love your advice and folklores And being our personal bookstore But some of your children are depressed from your opressed values of sobriety And we are unable to be what you expect while thriving in this technological society We're battling being cyber bullied and anxiety while subject to being labeled a disappointment and lazy

By you Who think it's preposterous to walk a day in our shoes "im the parent, you're the child" 'I know better I lived" But you haven't lived in this era The same challenges you have finding apps on your phone Are challanges I have finding myself And just like you need me I need your help

You want me to walk in your footsteps But the shadow you cast is suffocating me Stifling my individuality And who I'm really meant to be It sucks that the only support I get from you is for doing what you want me to do And not what makes me happy

Parents, your children are having sex, they're doing drugs and drinking away the last of their brain cells Because you won't take the time to sit and listen to how this society overwhelms them We got a high rise in teenage pregnancy because our children aren't suppose to have hormones until they're married And that child you carried for nine months mommy, might commit suicide because he's dying inside, and he needs you to just talk to him

you've already denied us our will to be outspoken and the propensity to speak up and stand up for ourselves because God forbid we had the audacity to tell you. a human being that you're wrong That a roof over our head and food to eat is not supposed to be a luxury because you didn't ask to be born We'd never hear the end of that song

Parents your words hurt, we take them with us throughout our lives You can't tell us we're stupid and expect us to make smart decisions right We need more conversations and less fights As we grow, as we're influenced As globalization and adolescence takes presidence over our lives And religion becomes more commercialized and an excuse berate and lose faith in us we are constantly being told to do the impossible and go back to the past where things were seemingly better But at the same time expected to cope with that past, present and control our future

When we speak out we are told when you have a child one day you'll understand it makes me scared to have a child because I can't stand the thought of knowing My child is going to spend days wishing they weren't born because I choose to not listen Imagining me regarding my child's sudden self isolation a disrespect and not a degregation of her mental health imagine him scared to talk to me because I don't take depression seriously because boys are supposed to be strong and not grief for too long Imagine my little baby being sexually abused in school and is scared to tell me because I made the topic of sex a taboo I speak on behalf of many of us in this last appeal We need you to listen and not only hear As for breaking the cycle, lets work togethr to get there

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Diary of an Angry Black woman

Dear diary Everyone expects me to be a stereotype But I'm not the type of black woman to be angry I'm not angry I am irrated, pissed off, annoyed,furious and outraged You may say that I'm bitter and say stop making this stage my twitter so don't rant But listen to my stance

I'm angry that Everyone wants to be me but doesn't want me to be me Being black means your beauty doesn't belong to you You see I'm angry that my hips and my lips suddenly look appealing when it's on women of other races And although Lauren Hill says don't be a hardrock be a gem Society strips us of our culture then divides us as us against them

I'm pissed off that my very existence is defying like my hair defies gravity And lets get to that, How is my hair in it's natural state messy? I have to lay my edges to the point of damage for you to deem my hairstyle worthy I'm angry that you took away the acceptance of my steel wool fibres That shrinks to different sizes Only to mock my quest for straight hair and labelled it an identity crises

I'm angry That I have to learn to defend men of my own complexion who hate me Raise sons who demonize our black skin and black hair this is not a fallacy Just the other day my ex told me that he doesn't date black women anymore And the people in the back will say instead of being bitter be better at me taking offense but He wasn't on the fence about his reason for self hatred Black girls are too loud Well allow me explain why

We're loud because we have been consistently silenced for too long back in the oppression days we fell to the botton of the society's pyrimid Our culture chastized by the colonizers And today we still pick cotton off the shelves in stores but still can't pick up our reparation

Sit, calm down and be quiet? We did that! When our scalp scabbed and buned as we obliged the chemicals to fit your euro centric beauty standards We did that Everytime you insisted we had to be mixed because black women are not naturally beautiful We took the conditioning to reject ancestors and accept oppressors

Most of all We are angry and loud beause it is considered more of an outrage to love a black woman than to rape and murder one Let that resonate Like the fact that being black is having your friends sign up for a full time job to tell you that you're beautiful everyday because insecurity is your most prominent trait It's hard being a woman, it's harder being black. Imagine what it is being a black woman

We're no longer going to be quiet and allow you to keep us in a box Clip our wings when we try to fly like you cut out locs We have have a right to be upset we Are taking that right to be angry To be free Sincerely An angry, black woman.

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Breathe

*heavy breathing*

I'm nervous Im always nervous The world is my stage performance I  fiend for attraction I crave affection But disappointment drives me back into my shell of protection Correction! It doesn't drive It chases me like collection of my greatest fears that took my sanity after all these years My insides twirl into a frenzy as anxiety takes over over me

Breathe

This sounds easy Close your eyes, blank out the world ignore the inside twils Let your chest rise and fall As you overcome But what if you freeze till you succumb To the colour of the wall And you try to get back to the place you sought But then you- Wait what was I saying Lose your train of thought It's a tough spot

Breathe

Just close your eyes and breathe But how do I ignore the thoughts that are screaming at me The struggles you can't see How do I conquer this anxiety? I'm falling down the dark rabbit hole In wonderland again Just like Alice it started with a stroll But my brain decided to take a detour And now my whole body vibrates Till the path infront of me is obscured The voices around that assure me Might disappoint me They're all untrustworthty There's no one in this world housing sincerity Im the only one insync Im the only- Wait that was me overthinking

Breathe

I can do this I can identitfy sounds, my heartbeat Thud, Thud, Thud, thud I Can identify touch I feel the afternoon breeze brush against my arm Im almost there, conquering my fears I can smell the slight stench of reality No that's garbage Almost there I taste my salty saliva fom today's lunch I open my eyes and i'm back on stage The reverie of screaming thoughts during my anziety transforms Into an auidence I'm now ready to perform

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Relationship Goals

To my future daughter I've gathered the experiences and to you i will impart that you hold your body dear, selfishly And never callously, ravage it apart That you never allow the venom of negative opinion that may drip from the lips of your adversaries to influnce you To betray what you first knew

I wish, that you be born with inability, to fall in love foolishly my beloved, don't let them convince you that life only has meaning when you have a ring Or change the lyrics in the self worth songs that you sing Loneliness is not such a bad thing For you to swing in other directions And compromise your introspections You should not be held accountable for anybody's imperfections Your mother couldn't do it right so you will

I pray that your pillows never have to suffer in the mercies of broken hearted tears because you couldn't find a happily ever after like your peers And you drown your sorrows in beers and drugs Then become abrasive to human touch because they offer advice instead of hugs judgment instead of love if you're falling over a cliff of despair i hope they never give you that final nudge I pray that the thought of never being good enough never bugs you

You are sufficient, You are sufficient

I hope that if you do find someone to love you the way you should be That eternal and him will not be fraternal twins So he will never let a tear graze your chin I hope he ends world hunger, by just feeding you Because he makes you his world

And you will never have to regret loving someone or forgive without an apology or receive one as meaningless as if someone give you an STD and said sorry My dear i pray you'd never have to hear the words "you're crazy" Because Mr. unconditional became mr. lazy And watch you over-invest without reciprocity I Wish you never know what a goodbye kiss feels like That you never scrapbook a future with a person And have to burn it along with all your goals of loving again

My daughter, I pray you never have to perform broken hearted poems while the person who broke you stand in the crowd of your voice of pain Cheering with hands that will never hold you again But if you do, i hope that you will run into your mothers arms willingly and let me embrace you like ive never been.

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Save me from me

lately I'vev been feeling more than blue than before This loneliness is the aftermath of some one doing me wrong oh and today   I was surfing the internet Hoped someone would dry my tears And rescue me from me

(chorus) I need a hero Someone to love and care for me He's gotto be kind He's gotto be smart He's gotto steal my heart I need a hero I've been on my own too long He's gotto be brave He's gotto wanna save Me from falling apart

Lately My phone has been too dry I tried to smile But something inside Made me hide away and cry And baby... baby baby baby If you're out there hearing me I'm sitting here patiently Baby please come to me

(Chorus) I need a hero Someone to love and care for me He's gotto be kind he's gotto be smart He's gotto steal my heart I need a hero I've been on my own too long He's gotto be brave He's gotto wanna save Me from falling apart

(Break away) where have all the good men gone and where are all the gods? late at night i toss and turn and dream of what i need

(chorus) I need a hero Someone to love and care for me He's gotto be kind he's gotto be smart He's gotto steal my heart I need a hero I've been on my own too long He's gotto be brave He's gotto wanna save Me from falling apart

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Mirror

I can't see when looking through the glass all i see my arch enemy you follow me everywhere that i go im just a sinner looking through the mirror

mirror mirror on the wall who's the fairest of them all certainly not me im looking at a blank wall confidence is key but my key is just a little small i break you off but if im broken who am i to call shattered glass of introspection scattered 'cross the hall i could cry and write these bars but couldn't sleep at all i caught myself, and threw myself im just having a ball I trip over some stupid shit, then it hurts when i fall All you girls get sorry and then act like you're appalled no you're not you're happy happy to see me crawl so you can kick me while im down like a like a football

im looking at a broken mirror its get clear when i get nearer reflecting on me im a winner   eating haters up for dinner but some how in  false projection i  reflect, imperfections oh wait damn, more false projections can't explain the disconnection

(hook) I can't see when looking through the glass all i see my arch enemy you follow me everywhere that i go im just a sinner looking through the mirror

My sanity is slipping from me, hanging by a thread This generation glorifies anxiety and death suicide is just for fun it's not even a threat love is just disposable so guess what happens next

im looking in the mirror All i see is someone different i don't recognize me so unbothered not billigernt standing in these heels acting like she has no fears what happened to the skinny chick who's always skipping meals

she appears to be confident deep inside remorseful all her doubts she tried to kill and found out they're immortal And I tried to clean the glass just to see a better image it's not the mirror's fault it's the person that is in it

my deepest fear, is me who's holding me back? me i can break up everything projecting my reflection   but the mirror's not to blame it's only my perception my mind is like a one way glass breaking all the tension i tried to make one track but it exists in dimentions maybe somehow i missed the part where i could be unique cause since i try they made me cry, called me a fucking freak

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I combed my hair today

I combed my hair today It's a step further from managing to climb out of bed Or climbing out of my own head when everybody knows i'd rather be there instead or dead but no Im trying to not let these feelings show SO i wrote all my thoughts down in a row You saw it and mistook for a suicide note here Im struggling to stay afloat But your lack of comprehension for my condition pushes me down more The suddenly im back to where i was before

Back to where existing is a chore Im ready to close my door And shut everyone out! but here i am sitting at the edge of this bed with a comb and a brush feeling the rush like Anxiety is my medicine Everyone assumes im outgoing   but I don't want to leave the confines of my bedroom I feel the comfort to wallow in my gloom and Everyday my smiles are a designer costume

My own mind brutalizes me on top of that It's a burden to socialize without being psychologically criticised So friends have turned into allies And my happiness slowly dies as the day goes by But Today is different Today i found Jesus Putting my trust in him has vanquished the fear any mental illness brings It took faith of just a mustard seed for him to have mercy on me FOr me to see That my gloom can turn to glory I had begin to question, It hindered my progression, Kept me in opression Until I found the one who greater than my depression All i needed was somebody to understand instead i got more than i planned and his future plans for me are grand

So i sat there Still anxious but free of depair And slowly, combed, the knots, out my hair.

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silk on satin

Dearly beloved I am but a humbled achiever who stand here a receiver of something presitigeous Who's intention from my creation was to get to my destination so i channelled my longing for success to dedication.

Today i married my career I walked down the islse with prosperity in my eyes victory in my mind achievement in my smile depicting how i closed my eyes so my heart can feel a committent so certain yet surreal at this very moment you all can see the manifestaion of love an determination that paved a way for a liberation of my voice through my mouth an elimination of doubt And on this night of elegance I reflect diligence

I remember our first date in the classroom i was tested to see if the curtains matched the drapes The curtains being my eyes, the drapes my willingness to work hard so that i may not only perceive my desire but my perseverance be on fire And my entire life be altered to project determination even in the midst of my procratination and complacency I never lost sight of the things i set out to achieve

So as my degree handed me over I recited vows while before me stood a reflection of my aspirations And i must admit You made me realize that life is like a sandwich no matter how you flip it the bread always comes first And that's the verse that govern's my life Yet i still intend to learn as much as i earn As my dreams come true I promise a lifetime of committment I do

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Enough

They say that time heals so why am i still hurting An hour pass enough and my eyes still squirting when i think im better i keep reverting I try to see the good but my vision's still blurry I'm getting there gradually broken heart's still beating gracefully one day i'll get back on my feet I'll be so high you'll wish that you were me yo I remember once when i couldn't fight for me kept depending on errybody what a plight for me I thought i had a friend but she took the light from me Almost took the life from me I had nobody you see But, instead of feeling sorry for me Started writing for me was delighted you see Once i started flowing rhymes just came for free never knew i had the talent guess the hurt inspired me

uh i aint perfect still I am goddess I am more than human but less than God sent when i get on stage, i spit fire i did it on my own i built my empire i did it to inspire before i expire nothing comes easy you have to perspire work until you reach where you aspire prove you could acquire errything that you require

saying wassup to all the people that i lost only way i can move on is if i start to right my wrongs and i know that im alone so im all about that dough but that's the thing with feelings though once they're real they never go

now it's back to me i'm the new kid on this scene im proud of where ive been and gained maturity from losing everything to finding what i need from losing all my friends to loving enemies

sometimes i give compassion to the ones that don't deserve it all the ones that beefing with me gotto know they earned it once i turned to alcohol then i turned to weed nobody saw me sufferring nobody heard my scream I picked myself up and dried my own tears got my pen and paper to tranfer all the feels first they got subtitles and put it on the screen now i aint gotta  translate they know just what i mean

i know im not big yet but i'm prophesying im better than i was before you need to stop denying no matter how they knock me down i get up and im trying you feeling me? well if you dont you need to get spying visit all my pages im winning all my races spreading all my wings and jumping to the pavement flying to the top im risen from the dust earning back the trust and being enough

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Resilient

This has gotto be divine intervention Im not as strong as i and look did i mention?   Im sorry that I don't fit your credentials Being negative was never my intention Listen Im fragile like a kitten Everytime they leave, i freeze, grief stricken Crawl under a rock and keep my feelings hidden Everytime they knock, i retreat, cause i'm bitten Once bitten twice shy Out if you think im giving up on me then you lie Im always gonna get back up im always gonna try Stay pessemistic winning still be rising on high ( hook)

(Ronelsa) hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot you're gonna make it hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot so don't give up

You knew I never played by the rules You thought that I was going the wrong route Im on my way to making life good I would be there if it wasn't for you Look I dont play by the books One smile through my pain that's all it took I tried working hard  and now im hooked Im leaking success boy drink from my brook Slurp slurp i hear you slurping Oh did i tell you im now recording? I found my place despite the hurting I saw you on my social media lurking (hook)

hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot you're gonna make it hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot so don't give up

Drowning in guilt i'm losing myself Looking in the mirror accusing myself Reflecting on mistakes amusing myself Performing made me popular translucent mysef yea It's me i did it I took some things for granted At first i couldn't handle it But im here to win it I said from the beginning I'll conquer all my fears and fight to the finish You said i wouldn't live By being negative And i got depression, giving up is innate But im making it Im doing all of this while im still pessemisitc (hook)

hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot you're gonna make it hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot so don't give up

(breakaway) Sometimes i feel so alone My hand is shaking, my soul is cold I'm reaching out for someone to hold Then i realized, im on my own You said you would save me You said you would save me ooohh At least im still oon my throne (hook)

hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot you're gonna make it hit em with your best shot hit em with your best shot so don't give up

This is for the ones with depression You're steady overthinking till you're stressing Optimism, and happiness is missing Too much panicking you need a minute One All i want to say I understand the mess that you deal with day to day You're try-ing your best To find your happiness But being positive's not really making sense Everybody listen Lets be realistic No depressed person can remain optimisic But at least they're trying Working while they're crying Even when it's hard to breathe the odds they're defying You gotto be patient They get complacent We still want them fighting not out the equation Some might cry Some keep it all inside Think before you act and look for the signs Dont need to be mean You gotto be keen If they cry for help dont leave them on seen They dont want drama You aint gotto be their mama They just want a shoulder after going through a trauma Look out for your sisters Be your brother's keeper Having mental illness is not easy believe me even if they sigh They're not saying bye Put your pride aside and listen to their cries

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2017 forgiveness

I get angry when i miss you but it's time to move on I cross my heart and hope that you'll forgive too can you hear me in this song?

Hi it's me im back again but this time im not in pain I survived And you stipped me of my pride so i can expose the nakedness inside Raw emotions You rub it in like lotion that im weak I can't even speak without crying as i reminisce on this year drawing neigh The losses i suffered reevaulation of the sturggle the subtle shade i threw and you caught it the dreams you sold and i bought it never knew my year would end like this my response... forgiveness (chorus) I get angry when i miss you but it's time to move on I cross my heart and hope that you'll forgive too can you hear me in this song?

Mommy there's a baby in your stomach Mommy, when's the baby coming? Micah was excited he anticipated the arrival of a new addition to the kingdom she was going to be president she was gonna save the world but she took a trip to heaven Micah and i never saw that baby girl He's too young to grasp the reality i held on to him that night he was here with me i couldn't sleep knowing that i lost before i found it cut me deep I looked into his mother's eyes and saw hurt knowing she had to carry a corpse before she give birth that doctor's gotto seek repentence we lost our little princess through his negligence   we wanted him to pay i can atest my response.. forgivness   (chorus) I get angry when i miss you but it's time to move on I cross my heart and hope that you'll forgive too can you hear me in this song?

(hook) oh the past is the past mistakes can't be erased loses can't be remade sometimes you gotto let go without closure to move on

never trust a stranger you met on social media they say I wish i hadn't arranged to meet you that day you're always looking for a saviour so you'll never be ok look at me to solve your problems but you never cared i let my guard down we ended up at the police station i lost the trust of everyone i lost my independence mom called me incompetent i hope you realized the damage you left added to the damage you met teling me you love me dont patronize me cried on my sleeve to antagonoize me and when i tried to leave for me you criticzed me i said i need time for me you said be my guest why is that so hard to digest my response.. forgiveness

heartache is not good said the preacher ' the same reason i lost my math teacher Rest in peace candy man death is something i'll never understand All these losses, im not a fan but i cant ignore the wins blessings despite of my sins my year begins as i say goodbye to the old stepping in bold to 2018 leaving yall niggas and your drama in 2017 giving myself credit for falling credit for resisting calling you out and throwing shade while i watch you fade i take this oppportunity to emphasize my maturity i acknowldege all the times you all were there for me thank you and even though they tried to make me look bad to justify what they did it's ok i've masterred   finding my happiness most of all.. learning forgiveness

(chorus) I get angry when i miss you but it's time to move on I cross my heart and hope that you'll forgive too can you hear me in this song? (hook) oh the past is the past mistakes can't be erased loses can't be remade sometimes you gotto let go without closure to move on

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for that D challenge

I would cry for that dick' eat demico fries for that dick cock-o doo like a rooster for that dick buy ice cream from brusters for that dick buy a croc and flex for that dick go back to my ex for that dick i would take a knee for that dick vote for ppp for that dick turn up the heater for that dick approve the parking meter for that dick chug a whole henny for that dick get an ass like Wendy for that dick Turn a power ranger for that dick Vote again for Granger for that dick

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so im not going to skip meals not going to lose sleep not going drink myself into a coma im going to keep pushing my soul is in autopilot its time for landing from now ill be standing firm on what i believe unmoved unshaken by disbelief becauseif nobody else does i got me i have to created my own sun stop being the reflecive moon

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She left no stone unturned

Fast foward to the year 2017 Me a talented and eccentric teen Stands on the stage to bask in the reality of living my dream You see i am emcouraged to aspire She desires to perspire so i can achieve and I admire that motherly guarantee Thank you for teaching me humility "You gotto kiss ass before you kick it"

Let's take it back a little to the younger years of being carefree when i would cry she'd reach out her hands to hold me She'd sacrifice her comfort only for a small fee for me to love her eternally for me to promise to be representation of her sweat and tears She set the example so i can have a template of who i should be Thank you for teaching me courage "There's no use crying over spilt milk"

Rewind to the

are you thankful for the hips that cracked You turned the breast that ws once private into a midnight snack

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I raised myself

They say it's take a village to raise a child Seems like i was alone in this village of mine Left to discover life on my own Left to wonder why being different was a crime While My indivuality perished in the process of adapting attributes of a different time This was my fate

I had to create my own purpose Because there was nobody there to guide me Nobody here to hide me from promiscuity Nobody here beside me during my epiphany Excuse my profanity but only i give a fuck about progression and not being stuck

In a world where i had to be a dead fish and go with the flow where I recognized i was not a tree and i could keep moving Sometimes id long for the soothing voice of my mother Saying every little thing's gonna be alright but instead i fell prey to the soothing voice of another And i'd be living a life of regret if it wasn't for my ability to forget

The teacher but remember the lesson apply it to my lonliness and raise myself I am me today not because you My soul was sick with a spiritual flu I died and a new me resurrected one night in the dew Ice and mist filled the gaps in my soul and i was whole again

It taught me that Souls can't break they only bend My trials have just begun because death is the only end And i'll have to pick myself up again and again and agin but Im ready this time with or without friends I'm doing me without worry of the message that sends

I loved in vain Then i diverted every opportunity after that came Until i learned to love again I cried alone and wiped my tears There was no one beside me through it and i what do i have to show for it? alot of hypocrites claiming rights to who i am today

Hypocrites who claim to know me but don't know of the 8 people who called me a whore Don't know i was spat on before Molested and silenced for being "rude" turned an outppoken youth into  

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break up challenge

seem to me like everytime i find a bae they always got sweet corny things to say im single i aint got no girl say yes and baby ima rock your world i always fall for them cheasy lines let my guard down and trust them one more time but at the end of the day they still players i know nikki's as fake buy yall faker talking bout Gracie i'll never hurt you you're the only one i'll never desert you i aint throwing shade im just showing no mercy you kissing me in new york and got your girl in jersey i cant blame you completely i give up too easy i don't blame you if you judge me

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Society vs victim

sMemoirs of a broken girl WHy are you always making your self the victim? Do you think anybody has the time to be sorry for you? Get up! it's time to pull yourself together No use lying under a sheet in this hot weather

V- Easy for you to say when your adverseries are nowhere in sight My name is smeared across the university I started smoking and im soaring like a kite DOn't pretend to understand what i go through Telling me to be strong is easy when you're standing in your shoes My suicide will just be shocking news to you

s- you're right! my trials aren't as public as yours That doesn't mean you can deny their existence You think peristence to convince your enemies you're hurting will solve the problem? No you're wrong But you're beautiful You should see that you should be that

V- You don't genuienly want my problems to dissolve

S-Yes i do!

V- THen walk a mile in my shoes Nothing seems to fill the void of emptiness inside my soul my mistakes haunt me nothing completes my 1/4 of a whole personality Then as i allow my mind to subsequently forget I have demons of my past right around the corner to remind me

S- We all have demons

V- Let me finish! Life-

B- Is not easy!

S- ive heard that too many times what do you expect a bed of roses?

V- No but i definitely dont expect those who promised to be there for me to be a bunch of posers

S- Hypocrites Exist!

V- Hypocrites could eat shit

S- You're one too-

V-Me what did i do?

S- We all are! we all said we'll be there for someone but like a fancy car with misleading interior we dissapointed and we are at war

v- with who?

S- with ourselves!

V- That makes no sense

S-Life makes no sense but living one day at time should be your goal

v- What do you know? you havent been where i am Im striving to live, doing what i can but teenagers are mean Teenagers on social media are mean And i'd wish you'd understand how i feel when im the topic of discussion

S-I have a confession!

V-Let me finsih! I B (v- Give up), (S- GIve up?)

S- You're not even half way on your journey yet You're hoping off the bus? What's the rush?

V- What's the use of staying on this bus when it only causes pain?

S- Pain is temporary You're saying that now because you're hurt in the moment In good times you don't think of hopping of do you?

V- i guess not but there are people who just want to bury me alive in accusations and leave me to rot