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i get a lot of chasers asking me how to score with trans girls. well, i’m afraid you aren’t gonna like the answer

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We need to start handing out grade school-level worksheets on feminism and transmisogyny to TMEs on this site. It feels like nobody but trans women here fucking understand how awful shit is and it results in absolutely braindead takes like "excluding men is TERF-y" or "misandry is real".

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first the holocaust was turned into the project of a sole madman who had an entire country under a spell, which suddenly vanished at the stroke of a pen when peace was signed, rather than being a continuation of centuries of scapegoating and antisemitism, enabled by western capital, direct funding to the Nazi party in some cases like the British aristocracy's, with the purpose of creating a massive slave workforce and to boost the German economy via looting, expropiation and a reduction in the worker population, an economy that had been reeling since WWI and propped up by directing all jobless people to work in the arms industry.

then, the (incomplete) victory over european fascism (don't look at Spain and Portugal and Greece) was methodically distanced from the true victors, the soviet people. They suffered an invasion and destruction of the majority of their industrial base, save for the industry relocated to the east, more than 20 million dead soviet workers who pushed the fascists from Moscow to Berlin, ending in an artillery barrage the magnitudes of which had never been seen, the symbolic raising of the red banner over the Reichstag and an enveloping of the city that forced many nazi officials to commit suicide. It was also forgotten how the Yugoslavs liberated themselves, managing to keep fascist forces constantly tied up during the war, how the Italian partisans captured Mussolini and hung him in public, the many uprisings throughout Europe and the concentration camps before the frontline reached them, the exiled brigadiers and republicans who first fought fascism in Spain and was later forced to fight fascism again, unable to return to their homes and under threat of being imprisoned. The indigenous resistance against colonialism in east and north Africa and southwest Asia, and the tens of millions Chinese, Vietnamese, Lao, Cambodian, Malaysians, Indonesians, Papuans, Thais, Bengalese, Indians, Filipinos, etc, who suffered both Japanese and western occupation. All of these struggles forgotten and erased, reduced to the USamerican, British, and sometimes French armies. Armies who advanced to witness a fraction of the suffering enabled and financed by their own states barely a decade prior. Even minor members of the western allies, such as Brazil, are often forgotten.

After the Holocaust was reduced to an unexpected and unprecedented event with no connection to reality, and after the struggle against fascism was reduced to the involvement of two or three countries, barely any fascists were punished. Anyone who wasn't a top official could claim to be simply following orders, even someone as important like Speer used this defence, he was allowed to live free and publish an autobiography in which he paints himself as the good Nazi, the mere architect caught up in a madman's rise. As if he ignored the plans for a future Berlin would be built by slave labor from the concentration camps, as if the minister of armaments from 1942 to the end did not know about the reliance companies like Krupp or Volkswagen had on slave labor. As if he didn't listen to Goebbels' speeches about total war and extermination and did not understand his armaments would be used. Some fascists were even integrated into the scientific and military spheres of the western allies, others given citizenship and a cushy home in places like Canada. Japanese fascists who had experimented on and tortured countless Chinese and Korean civilians and POWs to research chemical warfare were offered amnesty in exchange for the knowledge they gained doing these experiments. After German reunification, more eastern queer people were imprisoned than fascists were incarcerated or executed at the Nürnberg trials.

After fascists were exonerated and shamelessly integrated into the western states, and after some time passed, the war was turned into a cultural product. Countless war movies were produced, almost always showing usamerican soldiers in the European or Pacific front fighting a mindless horde with hakenkrauzs on their armbands all lead by a single man, or group of men, ontologically evil. It was too complex to examine the actual reasons for the war. Hitler was simply a charismatic devil who had duped Germany into following him (crucially, he was only charismatic for germans. No true American patriot fell for his tricks). Gradually, the figure of Hitler was transformed into a devil in human form who had appeared in München in 1932 to cause evil and fight freedom.

As a result, German fascism and the Holocaust are nothing more but a historical fact you look at with morbid curiosity, to feel disgust, maybe anger, and sigh in relief that it would never happen again. There is no reflection on how it was allowed to happen, how antisemitism was used, like it had commonly been used throughout history, to blame for economic downturn and how the expropriation of jewish property, the enslavement of other minorities alongside them (Slavs, non-jewish poles, homosexuals, roma, communists...) and the rapid stimulation of a military industry was used to save an recessing economy. No examination of how the Nazi party appealed to the German petit-bourgeoisie and monopolies like the aforementioned Krupp, Volkswagen, or IG Farben, by attacking communists and trade unionists, who were beginning to organize at a bigger scale and actually threaten german capitalists. Instead, some even try to paint the nazis as communists or as similar to them, through terms like totalitarianism, which was popularized by Hannah Arendt, a fascist sympathiser who also saw fit to label decolonial struggles as totalitarian.

Even more insidious than this is how Hitler has been mutated into a shorthand for evil, an entity beyond a single man who personifies the collective hatred of minorities by Europeans, a condensation of centuries of hatred and exploitation into an angry man between 1932 and 1945. By doing this we can rest easy knowing there will never be another Hitler because we are so civil now. It was Hitler's speeches that guided every SS member's hand to execute tens of thousands. It was Goebbels' propaganda that clouded the judgment of the millions of Wehrmacht soldiers who looted and massacred their way through Europe. It was Himmler's threat that coerced countless germans to spy and tattle on their neighbors. It was Göring who convinced the Luftwaffe pilots to bomb and terrorize civilians. It was Dönitz who made the Kriegsmarine target civilian ships and ruthlessly pursue trade convoys. And it was ultimately Hitler who controlled these men, and no German had free will or political conviction between 1932 and 1945.

The peak of this attitude I see most in the internet: Do you want to learn about Hitler's Bunker? Hitler's enormous artillery pieces? Hitler's train? Hitler's plans? Hitler's wife? Hitler's army? Hitler's rise through the party? Hitler's veganism? Hitler's dog? Hitler's car? Hitler's Germania? Hitler's camps? Hitler's possible escape? Hitler's military career? Hitler's architecture? Hitler's political maneuvering in the interwar? Hitler, Hitler, Hitler. Nobody wants to deal with the fact that Hitler was not omnipotent or omnipresent. He and his party was supported by German and western capital to oppose worker organization and to give an outlet to social tension around the inflating currency and failing economy. Just like in Italy and just like in Spain. Hitler is a cultural product sold to liberals so they can be reassured that they would never become evil. No liberal democracy has ever put an entire minority into concentration camps, no liberal democracy has ever used Zyklon B on dispossessed people, no liberal democracy has ever looted a conquered nation, no liberal democracy has ever killed workers for unionizing, no liberal democracy has ever used nationalism and supremacism to rally popular support, and a long etcetera.

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LMAO

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the circus was in town that day 🤡

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i dont even know if this memory is real or something so grossly deformed from something that actually happened that all context was lost. all im sure about is that damn scrapbook

i dont understand why the seasonal depression season is usually winter. in winter the days are short and cold but cozy inside you can get 1000 blankets and warm up with a tea or coffee or hot chocolate. you can just stay inside and do nothing. just relax. just dont do anything. when you dont do anything you cant do anything wrong. my seasonal depression is in spring when it gets just unbearably warm and the birds are loud as fuck and the flowers smell so wonderfully and the sun shines oh so brightly directly into my face overstimulating everything and i have to look down all the time and its the perfect opportunity to go outside for a walk or an adventure. wouldnt that be nice, go on an adventure once or twice. no that wasnt right do it again. no i dont like you anymore. i love you. i hate you. lets do it again but right this time. no you did it wrong. dont you like me anymore. lets go on an adventure again, but do it right this time. why do you always do everything wrong

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i dont even remember details anymore. i dont want to. but i remember reenacting that same day, sitting in that same but slightly different ugly ass red bus seat, tense. afraid. scared. we needed better photos. for that scrapbook. or something. and i fucked it up somehow (i dont remember how, maybe i wasnt happy enough). so i had to do it again. it was the worst day in my life. it was the best day in our lives.

i dont understand why the seasonal depression season is usually winter. in winter the days are short and cold but cozy inside you can get 1000 blankets and warm up with a tea or coffee or hot chocolate. you can just stay inside and do nothing. just relax. just dont do anything. when you dont do anything you cant do anything wrong. my seasonal depression is in spring when it gets just unbearably warm and the birds are loud as fuck and the flowers smell so wonderfully and the sun shines oh so brightly directly into my face overstimulating everything and i have to look down all the time and its the perfect opportunity to go outside for a walk or an adventure. wouldnt that be nice, go on an adventure once or twice. no that wasnt right do it again. no i dont like you anymore. i love you. i hate you. lets do it again but right this time. no you did it wrong. dont you like me anymore. lets go on an adventure again, but do it right this time. why do you always do everything wrong

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i dont understand why the seasonal depression season is usually winter. in winter the days are short and cold but cozy inside you can get 1000 blankets and warm up with a tea or coffee or hot chocolate. you can just stay inside and do nothing. just relax. just dont do anything. when you dont do anything you cant do anything wrong. my seasonal depression is in spring when it gets just unbearably warm and the birds are loud as fuck and the flowers smell so wonderfully and the sun shines oh so brightly directly into my face overstimulating everything and i have to look down all the time and its the perfect opportunity to go outside for a walk or an adventure. wouldnt that be nice, go on an adventure once or twice. no that wasnt right do it again. no i dont like you anymore. i love you. i hate you. lets do it again but right this time. no you did it wrong. dont you like me anymore. lets go on an adventure again, but do it right this time. why do you always do everything wrong

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bocchi the blockhead

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Too tired to draw but I still need everyone to be aware of this bizarre interaction I had at work this morning

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why is everything so hard, why am i so anxious and depressed and exhausted i just wanna have fun and a nice time

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base decoration is going well

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trans pride flag, color picked from bocchi

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i don't know man, i just wish that we could [suddenly realising i'm coming dangerously close to expressing a real and earnest thought instead of filtering everything through several layers of intangible running bits] blow up the entire world. or something.

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laios in ep 15