grimoire-of-dreams

[grimoire-of-dreams]

Idk why but these guys look funky and huggable (like any other moths, honestly) for a reason unknown to me. Imagine them being dog-sized or something.

White-lined Sphinx Moths (Hyles lineata), T - larva, M & B - adults, Abbot's Lagoon, Point Reyes National Seashore, northern CA, USA

Diurnal moth.

photograph by Diane Winkler

[grimoire-of-dreams]

So relatable, not gonna lie.

I had already discovered Word and the notebook thingy at that age. I remeber at least six clans that my eight year old self created (they were all cringy, but ok). They were MeadowClan, BloomClan (a prototype for my clangen one with the same name), CinderClan, RainClan, DawnClan and WoodClan. I clearly remember that RainClan had the biggest population, 30 cats or more. I used random number generators to determine literally everything.

This crap is really nostalgic and makes me shed an old person's tear.

"Mega truck autism" is the new term of all time.

Whoever this was I want you to know you're not alone. I have ADHD and when I was like 8, long before I understood how to use Microsoft Word, I used to get these big ass pieces of paper, and on them I would write out lists of cats that were Clans. I think they were StormClan, CliffClan, and later SnowClan, which was formed by a forbidden couple from StormClan and CliffClan. Every irl day was 3 moons. I took a dice and taped tiny pieces of paper with events written on them to each side to use as an RNG to decide on events to happen and how many cats to kill. I took a second dice and wrote different hunting outcomes on there to determine how much prey each Clan caught every moon and whether or not cats would starve. I kept documents of their family trees and of StarClan cats, and I had to periodically switch out the papers because I would erase and rewrite the names and move around the cats on the page so many times that it would eventually tear or become illegible. Literally I had Ye Olde Clangen going on in my room with these dumbass pieces of paper.