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Woah Tumblr changed while I was gone. This will take some getting used to

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𝑻𝒖𝒆𝒔𝒅𝒂𝒚, 1𝒔𝒕 𝑭𝒆𝒃• thank you for 3000 followers! I was going to post it a couple of days later but since today needs a bit of celebration so here^^ this is going to be my third year of this blog already, I feel like I started it yesterday as I started bujoing at the same time, now when I look back I see it's been long and I have came far, feeling proud that I have improved in these years!

🎧: 𝑱𝒂𝒎𝒂𝒊𝒔 𝒗𝒖_𝑩𝑻𝑺

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13.1.22 Agenda

Finish and submit Software Requirements & Quality Analysis tutorial doc

Make script for club representative video (Record tomorrow)

Finish creating job listing for boss (send for approval)

Make notes for computational methods

Prep for DND

2-4pm CM Tutorial

8pm Movie with Yen

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If you’re learning a language and need to polish up on your grammar I would 100% recommend the language gym where you can:

select tenses to be tested on

test your vocabulary knowledge

play games that test these skills

I only use the grammar testing part but as far as I’ve seen its a very useful resource!

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last year in copenhagen

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*whispering to myself as i try to email my academic advisor* fear is the mind killer. fear is the little death that brings total obliteration. i will permit it to pass through me and over me. when it is gone i will turn the inner eye to see it's path. where the fear is gone there will be nothing. only i will remain.

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you’re going to love again, find a job again, create art again, do what you love again, feel powerful again. you’re going to be back on track. i don’t know when, but you are going to feel like yourself again, eventually. this isn’t the end. hang in there.

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no but the same way that phones and laptops are guilty of scheduled obsolescence, entertainment conglomerates, and to some extent even regular writers just trying to ‘make it big’, are treating stories as though they’re meant to have a built-in expiration date. it’s the obsession with plot twists that ultimately mean nothing, it’s shock for shock’s sake, it’s the way spoilers are treated as inherently experience-ruining. stories are written for the first viewing and the first viewing only, because after you’ve seen something once, why would you want to see it again? so it doesn’t matter if it doesn’t hold up on a second viewing or if the entire plot is ruined if you go into it knowing a single detail. you’re only going to care once, aren’t you?

but like. is that really true? is it really true that an experience with a piece of art is only worth having once? is it really not worth it to create something that will be loved enough that its lovers come back to it? that’s so much

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Productivity anxiety has me taking a dump and feeling bad that I'm using up time to do it

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in case no one’s told you yet, you feel exhausted and hungover and sometimes even sick after panic attacks/meltdowns/flashbacks/dissociative episodes/etc. because of very real chemical processes that are involved in your nervous system activation and de-activation during those times. it’s chemical dump effects, and no, you SHOULDN’T be able to just brush it off and feel and act normal. you’ve got a bunch of physical things that got activated and that all has to wind down. It’s not in your head, it’s very physical, and you need to work WITH your body during the after-periods instead of trying to curb stomp it. be gentle to yourself, okay?

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I think, therefore I am (exhausted)

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You have so much life left to enjoy. So many days to be thankful for. Do not give up, you will find happiness.

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Autumn studying challenge 🍂

5th October - Do you have any goals for this autumn? 🍂

YES, I have to finish at least the first half of my master’s thesis. AT LEAST. I will keep you updated haha