groovygalaxydragon

[groovygalaxydragon]

Why does my body do not work gradually... Eating like a toddler, fasting 20hrs a day - nothing on the scale... Eating like a pig (but still fast for 20 hrs) loose 100g ... I don't get it 😪

[groovygalaxydragon]

Uff feeling sad today... And yesterday... And the day before... What is going on?

[groovygalaxydragon]

Aaaaaaaand I just screwed everything up... Had a huge pizza... 😪 Dumb me....

[groovygalaxydragon]

Lost almost 2lb over night! 🥳🥳🥳🥳 Plus I made it over to the next BMI ☺️ one step closer to a healthy BMI, still a long way to go to my dream weight... Skin is getting loose though 😕

[groovygalaxydragon]

Soooo damn tired... 🥱🥱🥱🥱🥱

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Period is gone but the 2 kg I've gained are still there... How is this fair... 😤

[groovygalaxydragon]

What better reason to start drinking than an unsolved childhoodtrauma showing its ugly face....

[groovygalaxydragon]

How am I supposed to loose weight when I pig out every other day?! I really need to pull myself together!

[groovygalaxydragon]

Hating my body more than usual these days... Oh hello period... 😒

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Didn't weigh in this morning 😕 now i'm so anxious about my weight and how much i've gained....

[groovygalaxydragon]

Why did I eat and drink all that 😔

[groovygalaxydragon]

Debating with myself how long my next fast is gonna be....

[groovygalaxydragon]

Ate waaaaaaaay to much yesterday and would love to fast today, but I feel soooo hungry... And even hangry... Worst mood ever ...

[groovygalaxydragon]

Weigh in today was ok... Lost 500g ... Didn't make it to the next kg though... But afterwards I was looking in my journal and saw that I'm the lowest I've been in over 12 years... All in all I lost 26kg since my hw, pregnancy weight not counted... Yay me....

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Broke my fast at 67hrs, couldn't go longer... Felt sad but it was ok... Been eating almost like a normal person and kept an loosing... So obviously I will either pig out today or be a good girl and gain tomorrow... I'm kinda hopeful i'm wrong, but a part of me knows how this is gonna go, because.. well history repeats itself...

On the bright side I was able to talk to a diabetes researcher and got some questions answered about insulin and fasting... 🥳 Yay...

Aaand I think i'm making progress with my inner fat child, she is know talking to me again... Let's see if this really helps (was a tip from my psychiatrist)

[groovygalaxydragon]

65hrs and i feel so damn weak ... Having a headache and my overall condition is NOT good, did absolutely not sleep well and only lost 300g 🙈 fighting with myself if I break my fast 18 hrs early... I really don't want to treat my body badly but at same time I keep thinking "oh come on, you're sooo close ... Only 24 more little hours"...

[groovygalaxydragon]

Stupid brain... Telling me to eat NOW! 😒 Drama queen