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Overwhelming

I'm building up our family business along with my cousin. And now more than ever I have felt the feeling of Imposter's Syndrome. I know I can do it but fear covers me. Fear of letting down the people who believe in me. There's also the fear of gambling a new car with my uncle's mood, for the longest time I didn't really bother with trying to get a car because I don't have the money for it. Now, for some reason I suddenly had the urge to check out a random car I just checked online and then things start going smoothly. Getting approved with an auto loan very easily. With my uncle also mentioning the car in passing. Saying that I may afford it with the income I get from the business I will be handling. My uncle's in Turkey for a medical/leisure trip and I feel that I haven't accomplished anything in the Solar Business and in the Karinderia/Restobar. I feel like I have nothing to show for when I ask for help in the down payment. I know that I can earn enough to cover my monthly amortization and get my spending money. I even have my sales projection showing how much I just need to sell a day. Knowing that there are a lot of students, I can surely sell at least 60 servings and we're good. I just don't know how to assure Tito Ariel that I can do it flawlessly.

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Japanese ramen

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I don't know anymore. I'm drained and tired. I need help and I don't know where to get it.

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Onigirazu (sushi sandwich)

Onigirazu also known as a sushi sandwich is a great way to enjoy your sushi on the go. Our version has a vegan filling of katsu tofu and sweet potato. http://www.lazycatkitchen.com/onigirazu-sushi-sandwich

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Strawberry Matcha Latte

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Vegan Lemon Cake with Strawberry Cream Cheese Frosting

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handletheheat.com

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It feels so lonely here, maybe if am on another place it will still feel lonely. It seems that I don't belong anywhere. I just want to find a place where I'm wanted and I belong, not where I push myself for people to be with me. It's just frustrating. Knowing I am not wanted by people. People getting annoyed because I want to be with them. I hope I can find that place or those people. I really sure hope I do.

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Tangina hahahaha bakit ko ba pinoproblema yon??? Di naman mahalaga yon hahaha. O ako yong di mahalaga. Hahahaha. Kingina kung magtampo akala naman sobrang ka-close. Hahahahahaha.

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Citron Vert

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Whaaa

It's kinda funny that on my few remaining days here I got to find some friends. It got kinda sad for me knowing that my future days here are uncertain. I really want to stay and get to know them better, be closer to them. And this last remaining chance for me to get a work here is a gamble. Why is it like this when I got to find people I am comfortable with, my days are already numbered. I really want more time, get to spend it with them. I hope that things go good for me and get that job so I can stay here. It's like the moment I got more reasons to stay, the more my departure gets inevitable.

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Schubert’s Bakery

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Chicken Tenders and Curly Fries

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Huge Burgers and Fries… and A Coke Zero

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Philly Cheesesteak Fries

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I don't know anymore. Just when it's within my reach, they take it away. It's just so disheartening and depressing to know the thing that I wanted, now within my reach, gets snatched from me in a few seconds. Just like that, everything came crashing down again. Putting myself in an even deeper hole of sadness and confusion. Just please stop this torture. Release me.

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Triple Cheeseburger, Cheese Fries and Shake