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(lights a cigarette) nobody even wants to play toys anymore. (puts the cigarette out on a play-dough ashtray) because of work.

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"all you need is love" wrong. scallions as well

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i hoped i wouldn't have to come back like this. i'm very sorry to start begging but my mental stability has been getting worse this year and especially in this past few months ive been struggling with extreme paranoia, anxiety, depression, and psychosis. i don't have a support network in this city and i lost my job last week. i need money to keep my apartment but honestly i'm especially worried ill need to institutionalize myself while i'm isolated over winter break. i'm at the end of my rope and i don't know what to do. if you can afford to send a dollar my way please do but i understand that there's a lot going on for everyone right now. i'm really sorry for such an ugly return

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The cure to anxiety is completing all the tasks you have to finish for the day early and doing them phenomenally and being physically perfect and on everyone’s good side preferably even their favorite.

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My tip for trying to compartmentalize your emotions or desires is to realize when you're using hyperbolic shorthand for an actually realistic desire. I know realizing even that can be difficult sometimes but let me demonstrate

"I wish I was popular" -> I want to be noticed and engaged with, and I need reassurance and the feeling of connection

"I wanna delete my blog and ghost my friends" -> I want to act out in a visible way that expresses how frustrated I am / I feel overwhelmed with connections and need time to cool off

"I wanna do something reckless/dangerous" -> I feel trapped in obligations and am buckling under stress, I need a sufficient outlet and more freedom to exist in peace

Obviously there may be different kinds of feelings or needs under your particular impulses, these are just some fairly common examples of what you could be feeling. The harder part is trying to figure out what it is that causes this impulse, and even harder might be if you don't have control over the situation, and are unable to have your needs met. It's not always your fault if you're feeling bad, but realizing where it stems from can help you seek out new paths to relieve it. This is something I've learnt working in therapy.

The toddler in your heart has valid needs. But it is a toddler and will scream and cry about it. Learn to sit by until it's done and then ask if it wants a juice box or a hug

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whatever. go my executors

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when your stomach is really mad at you and you're not sure which one of your fourteen unhealthy lifestyle choices is causing it

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They're always eating everything

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see i dont always draw depression comics sometime we laugh about it to cope

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Lightwarden Chivalry

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FFXIV Illuminated Manuscript Letters

(also included the sketches cause I kept all 26 of them throughout this and I thought it'd be fun to see what they looked like compared to the end product!)

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i love small town protests in the US rn because it's like. Dont just think LA and NYC are resisting trump and ICE. These 7 hippies on a bridge are too. I love looking at the No Kings protest map and seeing protests that look like theyre in the middle of the forest. Like we hate trump in times square and we hate him in the village square; why yes we hate him everywhere

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"they knew it was wrong, you can tell because they did things to avoid getting in trouble" is such a profoundly terminally neurotypical conclusion to reach and i am sick of seeing it repeated as a truism